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Kurt's bad mood never lasted long, he just needed to mope in silence for 24 hours and then he was back to himself. He even opened the fridge and dumped the salad but pulled out the cheesecake and a fork. He sat down at the table and was about to pierce it with his fork when he paused. The cheesecake was untouched and perfect looking.
He couldn't eat it just then and looked at it regretfully. It would have to wait.
He sent a text to Sebastian and waited. He felt guilty and knew this was meant to be shared.
Sebastian didn't even respond, just showed up at his door and waltzed in as if he owned the place. Kurt turned to him. "Honestly, how do you get in here? Did you make a copy of my key?"
"I didn't have to." Sebastian leaned down and pecked Kurt's lips before taking the seat next to him. "Time for dessert?" His eyes were amused and a hand slid from Kurt's knee to upper thigh.
"Actual dessert, yes. I've been looking forward to this cake." Kurt left the hand on his thigh though. "No distracting me from it."
Sebastian's eyes were daring him to go through with his threat but then his eyes flickered over Kurt's body and he removed his hand himself. He got up and fished out a fork from the drawer instead and then rejoined Kurt. "No way would I take you away from your sweets."
They ate in relative silence for awhile but once Kurt's belly started to feel warmer and fuller, he looked over Sebastian's completely laid back form. He looked so at ease here with Kurt. "How do you get in?" Kurt pressed once more.
Sebastian glanced up from his contemplation of another bite. There was still half of a cheesecake in front of them and it was unlikely Kurt would eat any more today. He was going to cut off the parts they ate from and finish those pieces and then put the rest away to save for tomorrow. "I have your spare set. You've never noticed that it was missing?"
"No." Kurt shook his head, he hadn't, he'd always had his original set and so hadn't needed to seek out the other one. Besides, if he'd lost his original set, he'd have been locked out, not inside his apartment. They'd had to be inside and found otherwise and he'd probably have either called Santana to unlock him or called for the locks to be changed. Or both, most likely both. "Why'd you take them?"
"The same reason I put my spare on your key chain." Sebastian's lips ticked up at the side as he let Kurt digest that and the cheesecake. He got up for a knife and put action to his plans.
"What was your plan with that one? I didn't know I had your key or what it was for. I could have tossed it and never would have thought to use it." Kurt was being stubborn on this point.
Sebastian finished his task and licked the knife suggestively. "You would have probably been with me the time that I lost my keys and I'd still be able to get in with yours. Practical." Sebastian shrugged, not giving in either.
"That's the only reason?" Kurt frowned at him.
"Well I'd like to think that if you haven't heard from me for a few days that you'd come and check on me."
"If I haven't heard from you for a few days I'd assume you found a different guy." Kurt said before he was able to think about it and hold his tongue. He winced as Sebastian slammed the knife down hard onto the table.
"Is that how you still think of me? Or is that your friends speaking for you? Do you know how reluctant they all were to call me yesterday?" Sebastian snapped. "No matter what I do or how long we are together they're still going to be suspicious of me and think the worst. I didn't realize you'd be the same way!" Sebastian pushed to his feet and started to leave. Kurt scrambled after him, pulling on his shirt at the back to try and slow him.
It worked a little and Kurt was able to stumble forward and fell into Sebastian's back and he wrapped his arms tightly around Sebastian, moving with him for a few feet before Sebastian finally stopped but didn't make any move to turn or touch Kurt in return. "I'm sorry." Kurt pressed his cheek to Sebastian's back. "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to say it. I don't think that way. I know you would tell me we were over before you did anything like that."
Sebastian put his hands on Kurt's arms and pulled them from around his chest and created enough space in them to turn since Kurt refused to let him go. He let Kurt's arms go again which tightened even more than they had been before and Kurt's face was against his chest now. Sebastian slid a hand along Kurt's hair and cupped the back of his head. "Look at me." Sebastian said softly and Kurt followed his request. "You need to let me in, not just into your apartment but in every way."
"I would, but all I am to you is still just a booty call." Kurt's eyes fell back to Sebastian's chest, unable to hold his gaze.
"Look at the situation again, Kurt. Would I have done any of this if all I wanted was sex?" He had been unable to articulate it before but he'd been the one pushing for more. "You're the one holding us back from being more. Is it because there's someone else that you want more than me but are too afraid to go for it and so stay in the safe area that you already know?"
Kurt frowned, not understanding what he was talking about just then. He looked up into Sebastian's eyes which were watching Kurt very closely, trying to read everything he was saying without saying anything. "I want you, I've just been too afraid to ask for more from you." Kurt paused. "What would more even look like? Would we be-."
"Let's take it one step at a time." Sebastian rubbed a thumb against Kurt's cheekbone. "It would have to include us being seen in public together. Spend time doing things other than eat and sex and sleep."
Kurt tipped his head. "Is that really something that you're ok with? You'd have to be seen in public with the likes of me and you won't be able to have sex at the drop of a hat because there's no bed to be found."
Sebastian lifted a brow at that. "Do you really think that's going to be a limiting factor? We don't always make it to a bed currently." Sebastian suddenly shook his head. "I know I've said a lot of horrible things to you as kids. I'm still surprised we ended up in bed together in the first place. Let's just forget all of that like we have been. Start again without all the hatred and vitriol, get to meet each other's friends properly and act as if we've always had a thing for each other."
"A couple of months ago you denied wanting to spend more time with me. You couldn't even say it or accept that it was the right assumption to make."
"That was in the midst of an argument. You know how I get when pushed while angry." Sebastian had been angry a few moments ago too, but it was a different kind of angry. "I've grown up since then."
"You've gotten what you wanted." Kurt corrected.
Sebastian gave him that point and nodded. "I see now too that I want even more after getting what I wanted." It had been Kurt's turn to act out, act against where they were moving unconsciously. To push Sebastian away and deny more than just sex between them.
Kurt gave a small mirthless laugh. "We're both so screwed up."
"We can be screwed up together."
"At least we're not screw ups together." Kurt tried to play with Sebastian's words.
Sebastian followed along. "No, but we can definitely screw together." As long as they didn't screw each other over, Kurt was ok with that.