ME : Hi everyone . I hope you all are doing good wherever you are . As always , the first two chapters oftenly used to test the water , so , pardon if it's too short . But if you really read it , I think some of you might could just discover from this very first chapter of what happened from the previous ending .

Story is rated T for now .

Cardiopulmonary resuscitation (CPR) is a lifesaving technique that's useful in many emergencies , such as a heart attack or near drowning , in which someone's breathing or heartbeat has stopped .

People says surviving the death is everything , it's a miracle . What a joke . Often time , people forgot to mention the part after that . The part in which probably the hardest — recovery , rehabilitation , therapy . Because there's a study about this subject — that survivors of cardiopulmonary resuscitation may experiencing anxiety , depression , post — traumatic stress or cognitive dysfunction .

And that was when she realized ..
Dying is much more easier than surviving .

"Joanne ?"

She knew it was just another dream visitation from Joanne , like always .

"Come join me here !" Joanne said , half yelling from the four row bleachers but her eyes never failed to keep track on their little boy that was now running up and down the field . "Look , our son is playing today ."

Arizona's eyes followed the direction of her late wife's sight as she sat next to her . Aiden was struggling to chase the ball that was dribbled by another kid .

"You are late ." Joanne put her hand on Arizona's thigh . "Like always ."

There wasn't a slight of anger in her tone in those remark but Arizona's heart sank when she heard it .

"I'm sorry ."

"Hey , cheer up ! You made it anyways . That's good enough ."

"Good enough is not enough . I could do better , Joanne ."

"Then , what are you waiting for ? Do better . Right now ." Joanne replied positively .

"We both know that this is just a dream . It always ends up with me waking up alone in my bed , in sweats ." Arizona tilted her head , facing Joanne . "You are gone . I can't change that fact . It doesn't matter if I can do better now . Because you , Aiden , you both aren't here anymore ."

"Well , are you at least , better now ? At peace ?" Joanne gave a look . A 'don't lie to me' look .

"There's no point ." Arizona paused . "And it doesn't really matter ."

"What do you mean it doesn't matter ? There's Callie ." Joanne argued . "She's pretty by the way ."

"Can we not talk about Callie ? Eventhough this is just a dream , it is still weird ." Arizona sighed .

"Callie deserves the same amount of love you used to gave me , Arizona . If not , she deserves a whole lot more than me . You know why ? Because you both have years ahead on loving each other ." Joanne threw her gaze at the field . "And Callie certainly deserves all of you . Not half . Not just .. your shell ."

Arizona exhaled in distress .

"What is it , Arizona ?"

"I don't know how to be that ." Her voice cracked . Arizona shut her eyes in an attempt to make her tears go away .

Joanne turned to Arizona , her cold hands cupped the blonde's cheek . "Open your eyes and look at me ."

Arizona hesitated but eventually she opened her eyes .

"Honey , you need to fully love yourself . Your strengths , your scars , your flaws , your heart . Because , you see .. When I look into your eyes , I could still see guilt , shame and fear . Anger . But most of the time , it's empty ." Joanne shook her head as Arizona's tears rolled down , touching her fingers that were still on the blonde's cheeks . "These eyes are just too beautiful for all of that stupid stuffs . Because I still remember just how gorgeous your eyes sparkled to the simplest good little thing . It's probably the main reason why I fell in love with you at the first place ."

"I think Callie sees that sparkle too . It's so .. beautiful ." Joanne added .

Arizona leaned forward into Joanne's hug as she continued to sob into the embrace .

"You need to stop carrying around all those negative feelings , Arizona . Life will pass you by without you realizing it if you continue to do so . Let it go , Arizona . Let it go ." Joanne whispered .

"You sure did have a vivid memory on every dreams you had ." Dr. Schafer sat back — a pen in her hand and a journal on her lap , listening to her client's dream from two months ago .

Her client — though this one definitely had a hard time to commit herself regularly to the therapy .

"Not really . I remember this one .. every words .. purely because it's probably one of few good dreams I had about her ." Arizona explained . "Most of the dream I had about her .. sometimes with Aiden — most of them were nightmares ."

"Her words got me thinking ." Arizona paused , throwing her gaze at the large window of the street view . "She's gone now . They are gone . Like , really really gone . And I have to let them go ."

"I have been saying this subconsciously to you and this is the first time you say it without a force or an idea from someone else ." Dr. Schafer gave a non pressuring smile .

"Now I just need to find a way ."

"Well , what if I give you a little homework for you to work on ? And then we will see each other again in .. let's say , another two weeks to talk about it ?" Dr. Schafer suggested , trying to commit Arizona into regular therapy sessions but of course , by Arizona's own will .

"I doubt it that I would be coming here that often . I don't spend much time in Seattle anymore ." Arizona rubbed the back of her neck .

"Oh , you are still actively flying in and out of this city ?" Dr. Schafer raised her eyebrows quizzically .

"Flying in and out of this country , to be exact ." Arizona replied . "I'm about to start volunteering in the South East Asian countries . Flying back this time for my god daughter's birthday in Miami . Her birthday is tomorrow . Stopped by Seattle since I am in the country ."

"Well , I'm glad that you still managed to come here for your session even with all your tight schedules ." Dr. Schafer couldn't deny it , she was happy to see the blonde again . Even though with the fact that everytime she came back , she came bringing a whole new puzzles for them to work on . Nope , actually nope . The puzzles should be solved by Arizona . She was only here to listen professionally .

"I am — on the other hand , not glad to be here . It just feels like I have unresolved issues that I can't seem to get away from ..?" Arizona replied jokingly but was she ? Joking ?

"You have made progress way more than I expected , Robbins ." The therapist doctor reassured , giving a small gentle smile .

Callie glanced at the clock that was hanging on the plain white wall . Biting her lips , the Latina nervously began to circle the living room — back and forth . Their flight to Miami was only less than three hours from now . And her fiance still hadn't got back .

They both would be spending their weekend in Miami but her fiance's luggage for the weekend wasn't even pack yet .

Callie didn't nag much on the other woman as their original plan was to actually fly out of Seattle tomorrow morning .

But then her fiance woke up this morning — announcing that they could fly out to Miami a day early so that they would have more time together with the other Torreses .

Grabbing her phone , Callie quickly dialled a number and it only took merely five seconds for the other person to picked up her phone . "Hey , honey . Just wondering .. where are you ?" Callie wasted no time but immediately voiced out her question .

"I'm on my way home . Will be there in .. twenty minutes ."

"Hmm .. then we will only be left with two hours to get our asses down to the airport . And you haven't even pack your luggage yet ." Callie said . There was a hint of stress in her voice .

Going back to Miami had never fail to make Callie went anxious .

"Mmhmm .. In that case , can you help me out with my luggage ?"

"I'm afraid I will pick clothes that you won't wear ." Callie pouted — as if her fiance could see it .

"Not gonna happen . I will wear anything you have chosen for me . And ! The upside to it — you get to pick which bikini I would be wearing at the beach this weekend ." A cheerful giggle could be heard from the other side of the line . "And stop being so edgy throughout this whole trip . It just Miami . Mia's birthday , your family and in between all of that — us spending a very much needed alone time together ."

"I hate it when you are handling Miami better than me ." Callie smiled idiotically as she looked into the mirror , starting to apply her skincare routine .

"I love you . See you soon ."

"Yeah . See you later ."

Callie stared into the mirror as the phone call ended . Fiance ? A week had passed and she could not believe it herself that actually say yes to the other woman's question .

ME : Honestly speaking I really didn't expect a sequel for Resuscitate Me to be out this soon . Magically , I have found some times to wrote this - having spent one month and a week in my hometown doing nothing after my mother's death . I was too busy before this to update my other story , let alone to write a new story but when my mother died , I found myself going back to writing stories . Maybe .. like I always said , writing helps me escape from the reality - even for just a while . My mother died on 30th December - right before the new year came .

Not a day pass by without me missing her since then ...

"Fanfiction is where I hide .

It's a relief - having a chance to write again ."

P/S : English isn't my first language . Sorry for any mistakes and grammatically errors .