Edward Cullen must've gone crazy.
That is the only conclusion he had in mind right this moment. Because no sane person would definitely be, say, claim to be very very much in love with a person only to find themselves lusting over another, right? And to make matters worse he has to feel this kind of thing with the said person's first cousin no less.
Edward desired and definitely lust for Bella, sure. Only this so called lust and desire solely focused on her appealing blood that literally sings to him and that he always had a hard time trying to resist. Whilst for the said cousin, Hermione Granger, he felt a different kind of lust. A lust that do not involve his so called appetite for blood that is, unlike the former.
The first time he saw her, the most intoxicating smell that he had never smelt before permitted the air. It's like a combination of honey dew and jasmine scent that he kinda found very addicting. When he first smell it he had had to force himself to stop the urge to let out a pleasured growl while his whole body screams for more.
At that time he didn't even notice the hostility between the two cousins or why her (Hermione's) blood doesn't seem to appeal to him unlike others– namely the normal ones but of course he didn't need to know that at this time around. Or the fact that he couldn't also read her mind at all.
Edward has a fetish for scents, that's for sure and yes he admits it quite begrudgingly. If not he wouldn't end up fooling around a mortal human girl that has a sweet aromatic blood that literally sang to him.
But when he saw her, the beautiful and alluring her in all aspects combined, something inside him snapped and his brain started sizzling with different kinds of scenes that's definitely not suitable for children. He's beyond shocked, you see, and if he's just a mere mortal human right now he would be beet red already.
Interesting. A mere human could affect him this way? That's new.
Edward hasn't even felt this way even when he's with Bella. Hell, he haven't felt this way before, literally like ever. He felt like... like just a normal boy– a hormonal teenage one at that. Or perhaps closest to being like one that is considering that he's currently an immortal bloodsucking monster.
"And Uncle Charlie, Mum and Dad sends their love and regards by the way. They do too apologize for not coming with me here right now. Their newly established dental clinic in Australia seems to be getting more and more loaded this days so they might be here late ahead from the scheduled date."
Edward heard her talking and suddenly realized that she hasn't yet to notice his existence even though he looks practically glued to his girlfriend's side. For some unknown reasons, he felt displeased with this. Uncle Charlie said something to her in response though before she could reply Edward interrupted her with a cough, quite rudely he might add. But manners be damned, he thought.
If ever she got wind of this, Esme will surely castrate him for being a git that's for sure.
"Edward." He introduces his self, intent to observe her reaction afterwards. Edward didn't see the annoyance or the reprimanding look on her face that he expects for his rude interruption instead a combination of alertness and something akin to a sudden attraction graced her features.
Edward had never been thankful for his vampirism that made him look so perfectly flawless until now.
And when he caught the smell of her sweet arousal permitting the air, Edward nearly lost his mind and had had to force himself not to let his animalistic desires took over and immediately claim her right now, right this moment, and right in front of so many people. Hell, even right in front of his girlfriend!
Even when Edward drove Bella home all he could think is those soft-looking bow shaped lips the color of ruby, and those pair of alluring dark honey orbs with golden flecks reflecting an unusual brilliance on it that just seems to drawn him even more.
He felt the bulging tent on his pants ache just thinking of it.
Seeing no one around, Edward immediately stopped the car in a remote side lane of the road and impatiently latches his cold lips to his girlfriend's warm ones with much more enthusiasm unlike before.
Feeling this, Bella happily tried to match his enthusiasm with gusto but seeing that she's a human and in need of air she struggled on his arms, subconsciously letting out a strangled moan.
When Edward heard this he immediately stopped snogging her senseless and opened his darkened amber eyes with glazed expression only to be greeted by a lust-filled chocolate brown eyes and not those pair of dark honey orbs that he expected. Realizing this Edward felt like a cold bucket of water was splashed into him, instantly bringing him back to his senses.
He let out a frustrated growl as he slammed his hand over the steering wheel, nearly breaking it on the process.
"E-Edward, what's wrong?" Bella, noticing his weird actions, warily asked him.
Yes, Edward, what's wrong with you? Really where does your moral integrity had gone to?
He heard his inner conscience that eerily sounds like Jasper's mocking voice reverberated inside his head.
Edward shook his head no, willing to brush those disturbing thoughts away as he looked at his still furiously blushing girlfriend. "Nothing, love, let's go." With that said he immediately started the engine of his car and speeded towards Chief Swan's house.
While driving Edward only sat there without making any noise, seemingly lost in thoughts.
For a while he only quietly ponder and mulled over the strangeness of the things that happened over earlier. At the end, Edward could only manage to create a highly probable conclusion for himself.
Yes. He must've gone literally insane.