Chapter Two
Jennie
I'm mindlessly tapping my feet and singing along to her music with my made-up lyrics when she stops playing mid-song. She never stops mid-song, so naturally, I glance in her direction. She's leaning forward, staring right at me. She holds up her index finger, as if to say, Hold on, and she sets her guitar beside her and runs into her apartment.
What the hell is she doing?
And oh, my God, why does the fact that she's acknowledging me make me so nervous?
She comes back outside with paper and a marker in her hands.
She's writing. What the hell is she writing?
She holds up two sheets of paper, and I squint to get a good look at what she's written.
A phone number.
Shit. Her phone number?
When I don't move for several seconds, she shakes the papers and points at them, then points back to me.
She's insane. I'm not calling her. I can't call her. I can't do that to Kai.
The girl shakes her head, then grabs a fresh sheet of paper and writes something else on it, then holds it up.
Text me.
When I still don't move, she flips the paper over and writes again.
I have a ?
A question. A text. Seems harmless enough. When she holds up the papers with her phone number again, I pull out my phone and enter her phone number. I stare at the screen for a few seconds, not really knowing what to say in the text, so I go with:
Me: What's your question?
She looks down at her phone, and I can see her smile when she receives my text. She drops the paper and leans back in her chair, typing. When my phone vibrates, I hesitate a second before looking down at it.
Her: Do you sing in the shower?
I shake my head, confirming my initial suspicion. She's a flirt. Of course she is, she's a musician.
Me: I don't know what kind of question that is, but if this is your attempt at flirting, I've got a boyfriend. Don't waste your time.
I hit send and watch her read the text. She laughs, and this irritates me. Mostly because her smile is so . . . smiley. Is that even a word? I don't know how else to describe it. It's as if her whole face smiles right along with her mouth. I wonder what that smile looks like up close.
Her: Believe me, I know you have a boyfriend, and this is definitely not how I flirt. I just want to know if you sing in the shower. I happen to think highly of people who sing in the shower and need to know the answer to that question in order to decide if I want to ask you my next question.
I read the lengthy text, admiring her fast typing. Many aren't normally as skilled as girls when it comes to speed-texting, but her replies are almost instantaneous.
Me: Yes, I sing in the shower. Do you sing in the shower?
Her: No, I don't.
Me: How can you think highly of people who sing in the shower if you don't sing in the shower?
Her: Maybe the fact that I don't sing in the shower is why I think highly of people who do sing in the shower.
This conversation isn't going anywhere.
Me: Why did you need this vital piece of information from me?
She stretches her legs out and props her feet up on the edge of the patio, then stares at me for a few seconds before returning her attention to her phone.
Her: I want to know how you're singing lyrics to my songs when I haven't even added lyrics to them yet.
My cheeks instantly heat from embarrassment. Busted.
I stare at her text, then glance up at her. She's watching me, expressionless.
Why the hell didn't I think that she could see me sitting out here? I never thought she would notice me singing along to her music. Hell, until last night, I never thought she even noticed me. I inhale, wishing I'd never made eye contact with her to begin with. I don't know why I find this embarrassing, but I do. It seems as if I've invaded her privacy in some way, and I hate that.
Me: I tend to favor songs with lyrics, and I was tired of wondering what the lyrics to your songs were, so I guess I made up a few of my own.
She reads the text, then glances up at me without a hint of her infectious smile. I don't like her serious glances. I don't like what they do to my stomach. I also don't like what her smiley smile does to my stomach. I wish she would stick to a simple, unattractive, emotionless expression, but I'm not sure she's capable of that.
Her: Will you send them to me?
Oh, God. Hell, no.
Me: Hell, no.
Her: Please?
Me: No.
Her: Pretty please?
Me: No, thank you.
Her: What's your name?
Me: Jennie. Yours?
Her: Lisa.
Lisa. That fits her. Musical-artisty-moody type.
Me: Well, Lisa, I'm sorry, but I don't write lyrics that anyone would want to hear. Do you not write lyrics to your own songs?
She begins to text, and it's a really long text. Her fingers move swiftly over her phone while she types. I'm afraid I'm about to receive an entire novel from her. She looks up at me just as my phone vibrates.
Lisa: I guess you could say I'm having a bad case of writer's block. Which is why I really, really wish you would just send me the lyrics you sing while I'm playing. Even if you think they're stupid, I want to read them. You somehow know every single song I play, even though I've never played them for anyone except when I practice out here.
How does she know I know all her songs? I bring a hand up to my cheek when I feel it flush, knowing she's been watching me a lot longer than I initially thought. I swear, I have to be the most unintuitive person in this entire world. I glance up at her and she's continuing with another text, so I look back to my phone and wait for it.
Lisa: I can see it in the way your whole body responds to the guitar. You tap your feet, you move your head. And I've even tried to test you by slowing down the song every once in a while to see if you would notice, and you always do. Your body stops responding when I change something up. So just by watching you, I can tell you have an ear for music. And since you sing in the shower, it probably means you're an okay singer. Which also means that maybe there's a chance you have a talent for writing lyrics. So, Jennie, I want to know what your lyrics are.
I'm still reading when another text comes through.
Lisa: Please. I'm desperate.
I inhale a deep breath, wishing more than anything that this conversation had never started. I don't know how in the hell she can come to all these conclusions without my ever having noticed her watching me. In a way, it eases my embarrassment over the fact that she saw me watching her. But now that she wants to know what lyrics I made up, I'm embarrassed for an entirely different reason. I do sing, but not well enough to do anything with it professionally. My passion is mostly for music itself, not at all for performing it. And as much as I do love writing lyrics, I've never shared anything I've written. It seems too intimate. I'd almost rather she had sent me a vulgar, flirtatious come-on.
I jump when my phone vibrates again.
Lisa: Okay, we'll make a deal. Pick one song of mine, and send me the lyrics to just that one song. Then I'll leave you alone. Especially if they're stupid.
I laugh. And cringe. She's not going to let up. I'm going to have to change my number.
Lisa: I know your phone number now, Jennie. I'm not giving up until you send me lyrics to at least one song.
Jesus. She's not going away.
Lisa: And I also know where you live. I'm not above begging on my knees at your front door.
Ugh!
Me: Fine. Stop with the creepy threats. One song. But I'll have to write the lyrics down while you play it first, because I've never written them out before.
Lisa: Deal. Which song? I'll play it right now.
Me: How would I tell you which song, Lisa? I don't know the names of any of them.
Lisa: Yeah, me, neither. Hold up your hand when I get to the one you want me to play.
She puts down her phone and picks up her guitar, then begins playing one of the songs. It's not the one I want her to play, though, so I shake my head. She switches to another song, and I continue to shake my head until the familiar chords to one of my favorites meets my ears. I hold up my hand, and she grins, then starts the song over from the beginning. I pull my notebook in front of me and pick up my pen, then begin to write down the lyrics I've put to it.
She has to play the song three times before I finally get them all out. It's almost dark now, and it's hard to see, so I pick up my phone.
Me: It's too dark to read. I'll go inside and text them to you, but you have to promise you'll never ask me to do this again.
The light from her phone illuminates her smile, and she nods at me, then picks up her guitar and walks back inside her apartment.
I go to my room and sit on the bed, wondering if it's too late to change my mind. I feel as if this whole conversation just ruined my eight o'clock patio time. I can't go back outside and listen to her ever again. I liked it better when I thought she didn't know I was there. It was like my own personal space with my own personal concert. Now I'll be way too aware of her to actually enjoy listening, and I curse her for ruining that.
I regretfully text her my lyrics, then turn my phone on silent and leave it on my bed as I go into the living room and try to forget this ever happened.
Lisa
Holy shit. She's good. Really good. Bambam is going to love this. I know if he agrees to use them, we'll need her to sign a release, and we'll have to pay her something. But it's worth it, especially if the rest of her lyrics are as good as these.
But the question is, will she be willing to help out? She obviously doesn't have much confidence in her talent, but that's the least of my worries. The biggest worry is how I'll persuade her to send me more lyrics. Or how to get her to write with me. I doubt her boyfriend would go for that. He has to be the biggest jerk I've ever laid eyes on. I can't believe the balls of that guy, especially after watching him last night. He comes outside on the patio and kisses Jennie, cuddling up to her in the chair like the most attentive boyfriend in the world. Then, the second she turns her back, he's out on the patio with the other chick. Jennie must have been in the shower, because the two of them rushed outside as if they were on a timer, and the chick had her legs wrapped around his waist and her mouth on his faster than I could even blink. And it wasn't a first-time occurrence. I've seen it happen so many times I've lost count.
It's really not my place to inform Jennie that the guy she's dating is screwing her roommate. I especially can't tell her through a text. But if Irene were cheating on me, I'd sure as hell want to know about it. I just don't know Jennie well enough to tell her something like that. Usually, the person to break the news is the one to catch all the blame, anyway. Especially if the person being cheated on doesn't want to believe it. I could send her an anonymous note, but the douchebag boyfriend would more than likely be able to talk his way out of it.
I won't do anything for now. It's not my place, and until I get to know her better, I'm not in a position for her to trust me. My phone vibrates in my pocket, and I pull it out, hoping Jennie decided to send me more lyrics, but the text is from Irene.
Irene: Almost home. See you in two weeks.
Me: I didn't say text me when you're almost home. I said text me when you're home. Now, stop texting and driving.
Irene: Okay.
Me: Stop!
Irene: Okay!
I toss the phone onto the bed and refuse to text her back. I'm not giving her a reason to text me again until she makes it home. I walk to the kitchen for a beer, then take a seat next to a passed-out Bobby on the couch. I grab the remote and hit info to see what he's watching.
Porn.
Figures. The guy can't watch anything without nudity. I start to change the channel, but he snatches the remote out of my hands. "It's my night."
I don't know if it was Bobby or Sorn who decided we should divvy up the TV, but it was the worst idea ever. Especially since I'm still not sure which night is actually mine, even though, technically, this is my apartment. I'm lucky if either of them pays rent on a quarterly basis. I put up with it because Bobby has been my best friend since high school, and Sorn is . . . well, she's too mean for me to even want to strike up a conversation with her. I've avoided that since Bambam let her move in six months ago. I really don't have to worry about money right now, thanks to my job and the cut Bambam gives me, so I just leave it alone. I still don't know how Bambam met Sorn or how they're involved, but even though their relationship isn't sexual, he obviously cares about her. I have no idea how or why, since she doesn't have any noticeable redeeming qualities other than how she looks in her Hooters uniform.
And of course, the second that thought passes through my head, so do the words Irene said when she found out Sorn was moving in with us.
"I don't care if she moves in. The worst thing that could happen would be for you to cheat on me. Then I'd have to break up with you, then your heart would shatter, and we'd both be miserable for life, and you would be so depressed you'd never be able to get it up again. So make sure if you do cheat, it's the best sex you ever have, because it'll also be the last sex you ever have."
She doesn't have to worry about my cheating on her, but the scenario she painted was enough to ensure that I don't even look at Sorn in her uniform.
How in the hell did my thoughts wander this far?
This is why I'm having writer's block; I can't seem to focus on anything important lately. I go back to my room to transfer the lyrics Jennie sent onto paper, and I begin to work out how to add them to the music. I want to text Jennie to tell her what I think about them, but I don't. I should leave her hanging a little while longer. I know how nerve-racking it is to send someone a piece of yourself and then have to sit back and wait for it to be judged. If I make her wait long enough, maybe once I tell her how brilliant she is, she'll have developed a craving to send me more.
It might be a little cruel, but she has no idea how much I need her. Now that I'm pretty sure I've found my muse, I have to work it just right so she doesn't slip away.