Chapter 29

Emmett POV

It felt like a part of my heart now rested in this open casket. My whole life, my mother was never good at being, simply that. A mother. But I like to think she did the best, she could.

You see my grandmother. Renee's mom, passed away when I was six months old and my grandma Swan never liked my mom, so she had to do this all alone, with no one to teach her how to be a mother.

My mom treated me and Bella more like her friends then her children. When we stayed at mom house there was no rules. We could come and go as we pleased just as long as we told Mom where we were going and check in every one in awhile. I could have all the girls I wanted in my room whenever I wanted. Sleep overs. Not a problem, boy or girl, you were welcome.

Bella never had boy over, or even friends for that matter. Me on the other hand, I had girls over alll the time. I always had a girl on my arm and in my bedroom. That's why I loved going to school in Phoenix, because mom never cared. Now during the summer and I was at dads, that was an issue. Dad was strictly no girls or boys upstairs. But thankfully for me, dad was a heavy sleeper.

I felt Rosie hand on my back and I shook the thought out of my head and gave her my full attention. She was so beautiful and all mine. I'm gonna marry this girl. She will be the mother of my children. We will get old and grey together. Living our final days rocking in our rocking chairs on our wrap around porch, with a glass of tea in our hand, while the grandkids run around us. I never knew how much I wanted that life till I met my Rose.

"You okay, baby?" I nodded, grabbing her hand and pressing a kiss on it. "I'll be okay" her violet eyes moved over to Bella and a sad look came over her watching my little sister. Bella's head was pushed into Edward chest as sobs racked her body. I could see tear welling in my eyes and Edward. Bella is the most beautiful thing in life. Her soul and her heart was like no other. When you were loved by Bella then you are the luckiest person ever. Once she loves you, she loves fiercely and will never let you go without anything.

Bella doesn't deserve this. She has gone though so much in this last month and now this. I hated my mom for treating Bella the way she did. I can count on one hand the times I have spoken to my mother in the last three years. I didn't want to speak to a woman who could treat my baby sister so badly. Not to mention how she talked about Oliver and Bella when she did call. Bella thinks that mom never mentioned her but that's all she would talk about when she called me.

Renee would bash, Bella and Oliver. How Bella dressed, how Bella took care of Oliver. The way Bella opened a business. Bella's relationship with dad. Bella's relationship with Sue. Anything that mom could think of, she would talk about. The last time I talked with my mom was last year and I had yelled at her for laughing about how Oliver looks and that it must have been Oliver's father who made him look funny.

I lost it on her. The years of frustration just came spilling out. I laid it on thick for 30 minutes. I was so upset that I never heard her end the call and I was just yelling at a quiet phone. I never want Bella to know what my mom thought of Oliver. Bella liked to think that mom would have loved Ollie if she would have met him. But the truth is, Renee didn't love Oliver. Not once. And Bella will never know! Not even Edward can know. He could kill Renee all over again.

Dropping Rosie hand, I walked over to Edward and placed my hand on his shoulder. "Can I have a go?" I asked Edward. I don't want to step on his toes, as I'm sure he would have rather been the one to calm Bella. "Please" he said. Edward leaned down and whispered in Bella's ear, before standing up and moving to the side. "Thanks"

I moved in front of Bella and wrapped my arms tightly around her. "Bells, please calm down and breathe. You are gonna make yourself sick" A Panic look flashed arcoss her face and she made eye contact with Edward for a second then took a deep breath and reached for a tissue. Tears were still falling from her face and she had the hiccups but she seemed to be calming down. "That's better, lil sis. Just follow my breaths"

I turned around and pressed my chest against her back and held tightly. Taking deep exaggerated breaths, Bella slowing got her breathing went back to normal and she thankfully wasn't hyperventilating anymore. "Better" Bella nodded and sagged against me, shooting Edward a nervous glance. He just shrugged and gave her a big smile.

It didn't take long for the redness filled her cheeks from embarrassment and took a look around the pretty much empty room, her pretty brown eyes skipped over the casket then rested back to Edward, trying to reach out for him. "I think she wants you back Ed" he laughed and out stretched his arms and opened and closed his hand like he was reaching for a toddler. "Come on love, let's go find a quiet place for you to eat and drink something"

Watching them walk away, I smiled to myself knowing my sister had met her match. Her forever. She's picked a good one.

Edward POV

Bella leaned most of her body weight against me, completely exhausted from being so upset. I kept pressing kissed to her head, as we walked along the old church. I want to help her, but I'm not sure how. I've never had a parent die. I couldn't imagine losing either of my parents.

"There's a small, sitting area over there" Bella said pointing to a small room with old yellow furniture. "Perfect" I pulled Bella into the room and helped her sit down on the chair that looked most comfortable. I gave her the water bottle along with a muffin and some fruit. "Eat this baby. It will keep you from getting sick" she gave me a thankful smile and took a sip of the water. Her hands were shaking and she still had the hiccups, but her color looked way better.

"You feeling better" I ask once she had finished the food. "Yeah, thank you, Edward" I kissed her head, whispering how much I loved her. "You think you're read to go back?" She nodded, taking a deep breath and grasped my hand tightly. "Just don't leave my side okay" "never"

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One Week Later

Bella POV

The rest of the funeral went okay. We laid our mom to rest in a lovely spot, where the sun shined the brightest. One of moms friends sang some sweet songs. We were given lots of meals, that just stayed at the house with Phil. Me and Emmet help Phil go though moms things. We got our family pictures from our children. Baby books. A lot of family keepsakes that had been passed down. Mom still had a lot of our things from when we lived with her, so we ended up just shipping boxes to my house, since we couldn't fly with any of these things.

Phil cried when we left and asked us to keep in touch. He said we were all he had left of Renee and feels like he like he should watch over us for her. I thought it was very sweet, and honestly just felt bad for the guy, so I invited him to join us for 4th of July and maybe stay with us for a bit. I can see he really loved my mom, plus he stayed by her side though all this, so he should be loved as well.

The funeral was a bit weird. Renee had tons of friends that had no idea, Renee had any children, which really hurt. A lot of moms family came down that we had never met. I was surprised they were even here, as mom was not close with anyone in her family, but her sister Marie, who had passed away when she was 21. That's where I got my middle name. In honor of my Aunt.

It was manly smooth sailing once we got past the viewing and funeral. We enjoyed spending time with Emmett and Rose. I loved getting to know Rosalie better and just getting to talk to her, with a three year old running around. On our last night they went out drinking, so me and Edward had to quickly come up with an excuse as I definitely can not be drinking. Luckily, Edward said he promised Oliver we would FaceTime him and that alone takes an hour. They bought that and asked for a ring check. Yeah we can go back to that in about 7 months.

Oliver was very excited when we got home and made us promise, we would not leave for a long time, without. We happily promised him that because we had no plans on leaving him again. We didn't have any time to be leaving on trips. We have got to find a house. I need to find someone to manage over the bakery for a few years till I have the time to come back in full time. I am 10 weeks pregnant today and I'm already tried all the time, so I haven't been taking care of my bakery and I feel terrible about it.

Now that I'm 10 weeks, I have a small bump going on and I have been wearing so baggy clothes and you can't even see anything. At the end of the day, it's a good size bump, but it manly just a food baby at that point. Edward loves when it's big like that. He will lay between and talk and sing to our baby. He will tell them about their big brother and their mommy and daddy. He talks about his job, what he ate that day. Anything he could think about. If Edward is always this sweet during pregnancy then I will give him all the babies he wants.

We really want to have a house before the baby is here. We would be fine if we hadn't moved into a new house yet, but if we could just find one and it be ours, that would take off so much stress. I just need something good right now. Anything.

Guys!! I'm struggling. I guess I have writer's block or something. When I go to write, there is just nothing and I have no want to write. I used to love it but now... it's just been hard.

Hopefully you will like this chapter. Till next time ~Jade