All my stories have been translated from German to English. Since English is not my native language, translation errors may occur. But I hope that they are not too serious. If you notice any, feel free to tell me.

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My hands were shaking slightly as I pushed open the closet door and took another furtive look around the room. I was totally excited and had to stifle a silly giggle. Oh, this was going to be so much fun! It had worked for Ichigo, too, after all, and I had laughed myself to death every time he had grumbled and cursed at me with a racing heartbeat.

I had climbed only a few moments ago through the window into the bedroom of my best friend to hide immediately afterwards in his closet. So I climbed in, pushed aside some more clothes, and closed the door again, but left a small crack open so I could still get a good look into the room.

Renji would be home any minute and then he would experience his blue miracle. And I would get my fun once again! Oh yes! I just loved to scare my friends, Ichigo could tell you a thing or two about it! I knew that this was extremely childish of me and that it was not really appropriate to hide in other people's closets. But I knew that I could do that with Renji. Besides, this was my favorite activity, right after drawing. - I had to cover my mouth with my hand to keep from laughing out loud. Pure anticipation gripped my body when I suddenly heard the front door. I went through my plan again roughly in the head. - Reitsu suppress, wait, then take the right moment and jump loudly out of the closet. If Renji did not open it before already itself, in order to take itself new clothes out. But that should also be fine with me. It would have the same effect.

I squinted through the small crack and could see Renji entering the room with a sigh. He took his zanpakuto from his hip and leaned it against the wall next to his futon. That was already more than good! Then I was at least in security, should Renji come on the idea to attack me from fright. But the right moment had not yet come. I wanted to lull him a little bit in security, before I really frightened him. So I waited further. And while I was waiting, I watched Renji walking up and down in his room. It seemed to me that he was in the middle of a crisis that he was debating with himself. He took a deep breath and ran it through his hair, untying his braid, only to tie it back up right after. He really did seem a bit upset. But I couldn't give it another thought, because he walked toward the closet and reached out with his right hand to grab the door. - Only to change his mind again. He lowered his hand again and shook his head briefly and almost imperceptibly. - What was wrong with him? I hadn't seen him like that for a long time and slowly I began to worry about him. I wondered if it was really still such a good idea to scare him. He really seemed to have some kind of problem. But then again, maybe that's why it was a good idea. It might have sounded strange, but Renji was much more likely to be distracted and, more importantly, cheered up again by such things than talking about them. Because unfortunately Renji was exactly the kind of person who preferred to bottle up problems. And before Renji did not come to me of his own accord, I would not talk to him about it. From experience I knew that it was better that way. And that's why I would go through with my plan now. I would scare him to death, but afterwards he would laugh again - of course only after he had kicked my ass - and that was the main thing.

Renji had just turned his back on me again. I was already getting into position to count down from three before I would jump out of the closet when suddenly there was a knock on the door. I paused when I saw Renji looking excitedly at the door and immediately going to open it. It wasn't planned that way, but if it was someone I knew well, it would be even funnier to scare them both. I would especially enjoy Ikakku in this, though Hisagi wouldn't be bad either! - Slowly, I noticed my pulse rising and I began to sweat slightly. It was damn hot in this cursed closet and I was glad when I could finally get out of here. But it couldn't last much longer.

The door opened and I heard footsteps. Unfortunately, I couldn't see a face from my position, but only a few steps later, the unknown person stood in my field of vision and my breath caught instantly. - Brother? What was my brother doing here? And at this time of day? I mean, it was Friday, but that certainly didn't stop Byakuya from working late! And it was immediately clear to me that I could definitely not reveal myself now! If Nii-sama knew what childish games I was playing here, he would just look at me angrily again and give me a sermon about how I was already much too old for such things. And it would be even worse if I succeeded in scaring him. I did not even want to think about that! Then I would have to stay in this stupid closet until my brother was gone again. I only hoped that this would be the case very soon, because it was really much too stuffy in this closet!

But no matter how cramped it was in this piece of furniture, it couldn't quell the curiosity that immediately spread through me. Because it was very unusual for Byakuya, of all people, to visit Renji after work. Had something happened, perhaps? Something I wasn't supposed to know about? I couldn't imagine that. Especially not that my brother would come to Renji with something like that. After all, he knew how close we were and that Renji occasionally found it difficult to keep his mouth shut in my presence or to lie well. I hoped really fervently that it was nothing bad. Or did Renji perhaps have trouble with Byakuya? I could imagine that more likely, after all-.

"Renji," Byakuya interrupted my thoughts. His voice was low. Cold as ever, and yet I could see an almost soulful smile spreading across Renji's lips. - "Yes," was all he replied before he took another step toward my brother and held out his hand. - I had to press both hands on my mouth to not immediately squeal out loud. - Gently Renji put his hand on my brother's neck and tenderly stroked his cheek with his thumb. He leaned forward a bit more until his lips carefully touched my brother's. - Briefly I was unsure what I should rather do with my hands. Should I continue to hold them in front of my mouth so as not to make a sound or should I cover my ears so as not to become deaf from Byakuya's screaming. But even before I had decided, I saw that nothing of the sort would happen. Byakuya didn't seem to want to get away from Renji, but to deepen the whole thing. I could see Byakuya's hands resting on Renji's forearms and squeezing them gently. He pressed his lips tighter against my best friend's and tilted his head. - I could immediately guess what was happening between them. That this was not going to be a chaste kiss, which a soft smacking sound confirmed to me. - I was simply stunned! I didn't know what to make of what was happening right before my eyes and had to pull myself together not to let myself fall heavily against the closet wall. There would be a definite thud and the last thing I wanted right now was to draw attention to myself. I did not want to disturb the two with their whatever and above all I did not want to direct the anger Byakuya on me, if he found out that I observed them both - rather unintentionally.

And slowly it seeped into my brain what was happening. Renji, my best friend and Byakuya, my brother, stood there, right before my eyes and made out! And that truly not too scarce! Demandingly the kiss was returned by my brother, while he moved his hands restlessly over Renji's body. And exactly this body steered Byakuya further and further towards the futon, until he placed him on it and knelt down to him. - For heaven's sake! Hopefully what I feared wouldn't happen now, would it? If there was a God, he would spare me this scenario! But far from it! All of a sudden I could see the broad, tattooed and above all naked back of Renji, who was just about to strip the haori of my brother from his shoulders.

No! No! No! No! - The last thing I wanted now was to see my brother naked! - I quickly slapped my hands over my eyes. I really couldn't watch this. And if that wasn't bad enough, I suddenly felt my face flush with shame when I heard Byakuya moaning lustfully. - Help! - A loud rumbling sounded and I immediately looked in the direction from which it came. I ignored the two, almost completely naked men on the bed and registered the two zanpakutos lying on the floor. But neither Renji nor Byakuya seemed to care and went back to their lovemaking, which they now intensified a bit more. Renji, whose Shihakushō was only held by his obi at the hips and thus only exposed his upper body, started to completely remove my brother's clothes and stripped the Shihakushō from his legs. And I really had to admit that my brother possessed a beautiful and graceful body, which one often did not suspect under the wide Shihakushō. Renji seemed to be of the same opinion, for he was now leaning over Byakuya and spreading gentle kisses on his chest. Thus Renji, kneeling between my brother's legs, concealed his private parts from my gaze - which I was honestly grateful for! - and let his hands wander between them at the same time. I was one hundred percent sure that I had turned the color of an overripe tomato when I realized that Renji was really touching my brother there. However, I must have been the only one for whom this was new, because Byakuya merely reared back with a groan and stretched towards Renji like that.

"What?" laughed Renji hoarsely.- "I haven't even really touched you yet, Commander" - Renji was still laughing and at his words, took his obi off his hips. I swallowed hard as the thought occurred to me that Renji had merely untied the knot of his obi instead of actually touching Byakuya. And yet he had reacted to him like that? I couldn't really describe how I felt right now. Stunned? Astonished? Relieved? Because Byakuya in particular never allowed any emotional movement, always had the same cold expression in his eyes. And it was Renji who made him thaw. - A smile stole onto my lips.

And while I was thinking about it, I didn't really notice how the two figures on the futon had already moved on to the next step, until a loud, almost scream-like groan brought me back to reality. I saw Byakuya and Renji kissing intimately. Renji's right hand had disappeared between their bodies again and I could - unfortunately - get a very good picture of what was happening. The slight up and down movement Byakuya did on the thin fabric of the futon spoke volumes. And that my brother took great pleasure in it could also be seen. His hand, which had previously been tightly gripped in Renji's shoulder, loosened and moved up to Renji's hair, which was still tied into a braid.

"Don't" - Renji's voice sounded low, hotter and excited as he finished the kiss between them, grabbing my brother's wrist with his left hand. - "They're way too long," had been the answer to Byakuya's questioning look. And he was right. The long red hair, tied far up at the top of his head, still fell over his shoulder and tickled Byakuya's skin with its tips. Ever since Ichigo had lost his powers, Renji hadn't had his hair cut. Whether there was a connection, I didn't know. When I asked him why he let it grow now, he always just said-

"But I like it when they're this long" - Byakuya reached for the red ends of his hair and let them slip between his fingers. He touched them gently and almost reverently. At this sight, I firmly forgot that Byakuya used the same words as Renji. Was that why he had let his hair grow? For my brother?

"I know. But if they are open, I won't be able to see you" - Carefully Renji gave a kiss on the back of my brother's hand. - "You'd better continue with this hand somewhere else" - And with those words, Renji, guided Byakuya's hand downward, between their bodies as well. Renji gave a stifled moan and leaned his forehead against Byakuya's shoulder. He seemed to be enjoying what was happening between them as well, but that still probably wasn't enough. After a few short minutes, which felt like hours to me in this cramped closet though, listening to the two of them gasp, moan, and scream, Renji sat up again. He took his hands off Byakuya's body and now completely unclasped his Shihakushō which was still hanging loosely and lightly at his waist. He knelt between Byakuya's legs again and I was ashamed to realize that I had a good view of my best friend's erection. And I was even more ashamed when I had to admit to myself that it really wasn't of bad proportions. My face got hot at the thought. I knew, actually, I shouldn't have continued to stare. Actually, this moment was clearly too intimate for me to be a fly on the wall, but something kept me from taking my eyes off them. Was it perhaps because of the expression on Renji's face?

"Renji?" - Byakuya seemed to have noticed it too, as well as the long seconds Renji had spent just looking at him. It was almost as if he had drifted off with his thoughts and been pulled back to reality by my brother's raspy voice. - "Y-yes. I-" - Renji swallowed hard and leaned over my brother again - "Ready?" - Byakuya frowned almost imperceptibly, but he nodded. He probably hadn't expected his bed partner's question himself, and he probably thought Renji was acting kind of strange, as did I, but he said nothing. He much preferred to press his head further into the pillow when Renji's hand found its way between them again. And that was exactly the moment when I averted my eyes. My brother's stifled sound and Renji's suppressed gasp, conveyed to me all too accurately what was happening, and I still had decency enough not to look now.

"Breathe easy," I could hear Renji say dully, probably burying his head in the crook of Byakuya's neck. But I did not open my eyes. I didn't know exactly what was happening. I only heard the restrained sounds that clearly came from Renji and my brother's stifled moans. I also didn't know how long this went on between them. In any case, long enough that I was amazed at the stamina they both displayed. And at the same time I knew that this was not a quick number for in between. Renji seemed to put a lot of feeling into this act, which was already underlined by the sounds I heard. Because I was truly already old enough with my almost hundred and fifty years to recognize how vanilla sex sounded. And this was definitely some! What I really would not have trusted either of them. Or at least not Renji. I had never thought about it with my brother. Which I probably never would have if it hadn't been for this day here!

"Renji, what- is wrong with you today?"- Tentatively I opened one eye and dared to look back through the small gap into the room. And for heaven's sake! I really saw the two of them having sex! And I would probably never get this sight out of my mind for the rest of my life, how the two most important people in my life - except for Ichigo - were lying on this futon, on top of each other, and Renji was gently making love to my brother. There was really no other way to describe it! Because what Renji was doing was not happening at all. Rather, he merely slid into him, but that also gave Byakuya pleasure.

And though Byakuya had spoken to him, he did not pause in his movement. He continued to hold him by the hips on the futon, sliding into him tenderly. "You- do it differently- than usual" - Byakuya didn't manage to suppress the occasional gasp between words, preferring to hold himself tightly in Renji's shoulders and enjoy what he was being given. What Renji was willing to give him. - "Y-yes" - Renji, not recognizing a question in the last sentence, continued to be silent, still without interrupting his activity. - "Why?" so Byakuya now asked, suddenly moaning louder than before. - "I want- I want you to feel good"-Renji gasped, lowering his head to Byakuya's shoulder again. - "Feel good?" - If I wasn't locked in this damn stuffy closet and already completely out of it anyway, by this scenario that was playing out before my eyes, I almost claimed that I could hear a desperate undertone coming from Renji's words. But I discarded that again. Why should it? It was clear that Byakuya liked it, so Renji really shouldn't worry about it. - "Yes, very good" - Byakuya managed to lift Renji's head in his direction and kissed him. He kissed him gently and languidly, matching the rhythm of their bodies. He wrapped his arms tightly around Renji's neck and ran a hand through his hair, slightly shifting the ponytail Renji had tied out of his hair.

I looked away again, with a firm promise to myself not to look at them again. For it was only just now that I understood the full extent of this situation. It wasn't the first time this had happened. It wasn't the last time either. It wasn't something they just did. There was something between Renji and Byakuya that I had never seen before. Familiarity, caring, and deep feelings that had nothing to do with hatred or rivalry. - Had I really been that blind? Or is it the two of them who are blind? Are they aware that this was more between them? Did they know that they appeared to have feelings for each other? Because that's exactly how it looked to me. At least with Renji. Because I already knew him long enough to recognize when someone was really important to him. And Byakuya was it. Already alone the look, with which he considered him. The tender touches and the care. He wanted to do everything to make my brother happy. Damn! He even let his hair grow for him! If this isn't lo-.

A loud and stifled cry, instantly tore me from my thoughts and I opened my eyes again. I could just suppress looking at them again. I could vividly imagine what had just happened and when I could only hear heavy and heavy breathing, I was confirmed in my assumption. I gave them a few more minutes in which I hoped that they would consider a blanket and then cautiously squinted again through the gap. And indeed! My brother was lying peacefully and contentedly at Renji's side, with his head on his chest and gently stroking his skin. Renji, on the other hand, had wrapped his arms around Byakuya and finally put a blanket over them both. It was truly a picture to the gods to see the two of them lying together so peacefully, usually met with an icy tension standing between them.

It took a few more minutes before they both calmed down completely and were now breathing calmly and evenly. They were merely lying next to each other, enjoying each other's presence. And as beautiful as I found this between them, I fervently hoped that they would not lie there like that for the rest of the day. I still planned to come out of this closet someday! What I could not, however, as long as the two were still groping each other on the futon!

"Renji, is something wrong?" - There was silence for a few seconds after Byakuya spoke, and it immediately made my ears perk up again. - "No, everything's fine" - Lie! Dirty lie! I just hoped my brother recognized it too. - "Liar" - Of course Byakuya recognized it. He was his Commander, after all. He raised his head to give him an icy stare, which also had an instant effect. Renji sat up, pushing Byakuya off his chest as he did so, and let out a soft sigh. - "It-it's really nothing, Commander" - He looked at my brother with a wry smile, which didn't seem to placate him at all. For Byakuya now sat up again as well and looked seriously at Renji. There was nothing in his face to suggest that just a few minutes ago he had been lying on that futon, panting and groaning, surrendering himself to his Vice-Commander. He had put on the same emotionless and cold expression as usual. - "I'm not buying it. You were already completely out of it at work today, and your behavior just now was strange, too. And now you're going to tell me right now what the reason is" - Like an order, these words reached my ear and I was strangely excited and eager to hear Renji's answer. Did he know? Was he the one of them two who was no longer completely blind? Would he tell Byakuya now-

"Commander, it's really nothing. Please don't worry about it. I'm just a bit thoughtful today" - "So it is something," Byakuya urged him in a calm tone. - "Because otherwise thinking isn't your strong suit either" - Renji lowered his head, his braid still slightly out of place and I could see him clenching his hands into fists. - "That was mean, Commander" - He forced a weak smile on his lips. - "Then tell me what's bothering you so much that you even have to think about it while you're sleeping with me" - Byakuya really was a master at hiding his feelings. But even though he still spoke coldly and calmly, I could see the anger sparkling in his eyes. He clearly had a problem with Renji thinking about something other than him. I wonder if he was aware that his words sounded jealous. If so, Byakuya would have confidently put an instant stop to anyone with Zenbonsakura who had witnessed his words.

Renji raised his head again and looked at Byakuya. This time, a more honest smile stole onto his features and he reached out his hand to my brother. He stroked his chin-length hair. Stroked it back gently. - "Nothing at all" - Renji tucked a strand of hair behind Byakuya's ear. - "Renji!" - Clearly angry, Byakuya slapped his hand away. He seemed to be running out of patience. Renji sighed again. - "I-I'm always thinking about you!" - Renji had finally said it. Though he hadn't managed to withstand Byakuya's gaze during the process, he had finally told him what was on his mind. And when the first words were spoken, it seemed like a broken dam that now paved the way for the many other words that left Renji's lips. - "I've been thinking about why it's like this for so long now. And then when I met Ichigo in the human world and he told me how happy he is in his relationship, how in love he is, and how much security they have to give each other, I knew" - Renji looked Byakuya in the eyes again. - "I want that too! I want what Ichigo has too! I want someone who cares and looks after me. Who loves me unconditionally and can still yell at me too. I want to be with you!" - The words came crashing down on Byakuya like an overpowering flood, and all he could do was stare at Renji, who had leaned over a bit, both hands propped up on the futon. He returned his gaze, hoping for an answer. - "Why?" - Slight astonishment resonated in Byakuya's voice as he managed to answer. The words had gotten through to him and seeped into his consciousness.

"Isn't it obvious? I love you, Commander!" - Oh God! Renji had confessed his love to Byakuya for the first time, and I was there live and in color! Could you believe it? The two of them really had what could be called a love affair and no one noticed anything until now! It was so surreal that I really had to pinch myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming the whole thing. Had I perhaps fallen asleep waiting for Renji in that closet? Did I snore now loudly before me, while Renji- Ouch! Okay, that was probably not a dream. It was all real and so unbelievable-

"I'm only going to say this once" - For the third time now, I was pulled from my thoughts and looked to the couple on the futon. Byakuya sighed deeply. What would happen now? Would my brother return his feelings? I hoped so to Renji. - "Because I'm really not the type to do that" - "That's what you said the first time we met," Renji interrupted my brother, instantly catching his icy gaze again. I pressed my hand over my mouth to keep from laughing outright. That was so typical Renji. Him and his big mouth! Byakuya didn't find it particularly funny, though. - "I- I'm sorry" - Renji laughed apologetically and scratched the back of his head, probably hoping that Byakuya wouldn't be too angry with him. He, however, looked to the side with his arms folded in front of his chest, almost as if he was really offended, which put an oppressive silence over them both. Renji didn't dare say anything again, just lowered his head again and heard Byakuya sigh heavily. He uncrossed his arms again. - "Me too" - It was almost a whisper and for a moment I thought I had imagined that Byakuya had really said something, but Renji seemed to have heard something as well. For he looked at my brother excitedly. "Wh-what, you- Say that again!" - Renji leaned over to Byakuya another bit, his eyes fixed on the beautiful face in disbelief. - "Nothing at all I will"-Byakuya turned his head again and returned Renji's gaze. - "You heard it perfectly well, and I won't say it a second time anytime soon. And you only heard it now because I felt it was appropriate for the situation" - The cold tone Byakuya had taken while saying that just bounced off Renji - probably because he already knew that enough - who was now grinning broadly. His feelings were written all over his face. Unable to hold on any longer, Renji hugged my brother tightly and buried his face in the crook of his neck. - "Thank you."

Carefully, Byakuya also put his arms around Renji and hugged him lightly. I knew, and more importantly I could see it, that Byakuya was a little overwhelmed with the situation, even if he would never admit it. There had been no one in his life for ages that he could love in this way. And that it had now hit his Vice-Commander, of all people, was probably even more inconceivable for him. And still I noticed that it could not have gone better. On Byakuya's lips a smile formed which I had never seen on him before. And it made me incredibly happy.

"Commander," came the muffled voice from the crook of Byakuya's neck. - "I want to do it again" - What?! - "I- You made me so happy with your words. So unspeakably happy that I could burst. And I want to share that with you. I want to touch you, to be close to you" - Renji's grip on my brother tightened, but he still didn't come out of the crook of my neck. - "I want to feel you" - Again that smile on my brother's features as he heard Renji's words. - "May I? Byakuya" - My brother raised his hand, buried it in his Vice-Commander's fiery red hair, and smiled. - "Yes, you may."

I averted my eyes from them again. I knew what would happen now. The kiss that followed these words had told me. And likewise, I knew that I would not be coming out of this closet anytime soon. But that was okay. - I quietly leaned against the hard wood of the closet and let myself sink down against it. I was now sitting here in this dark closet, letting the second round of my two favorite men wash over me. I really didn't know what to think about it. I didn't know how long this had been going on between them. I didn't know if it would work between them. I didn't know if they were in a relationship now. And I also didn't know if they would ever take it out in the open. I didn't know if Renji would ever tell me about it. But what I did know was that I couldn't face them in the near future without blushes shooting up my face! For now, I would probably have to avoid the two. And nevertheless a smile crept on my lips, while I leaned my head also against the cupboard wall behind me and looked at the dark ceiling.

17.10.2014