Chapter 43
*L*
-Earlier That Night-
"Are you certain about this?" I ask seeing her tug on her jean jacket uncomfortably. Earlier when I had just decided to send Watari to check on her, she had come inside the room with her hair dyed. I was also able to watch her place green contacts in her eyes. I didn't know if I should tell her that I preferred her usual appearance more or not. So I have kept quiet, hoping she would explain herself as she finished packing up the items for the Taskforce members and making sure the laptop was inside safely so it wouldn't jar around and break the screen.
"Yes, as I said. Initially, we made up the death of Kira Lake so we could show Light Yagami that he isn't as secure as he believes himself to be. This will just be another reminder. An attack, if you will." I watch as she highlights her face with makeup she never normally wears. Obviously like the hair contacts and bag, the makeup was bought for this very event. "We don't want him getting comfortable again while we focus on Amane. So we are just going to continue throwing curveballs at him."
"Kira… Why do you keep referring to yourself in the third person ever since you got back?" I had to ask, it didn't make any coherent sense. Her entire demeanor just seems off somehow. Did something happen to her to make her act like this? If so then what could have possibly happened? Did she get her memories back? It's possible though watching her I couldn't quite believe that possibility. She was still open just like she had been when she woke up. Her emotions visibly swirling in her eyes as she speaks her mind.
"Well.." She began but pauses as she looks away from me out of the corner of her eye. "I'm not Kira Lake anymore. She's so different from me that it's really confusing. She, a mass Murdering Serial Killer and… me the detective S. It's easier for me to look at things that way. Rather than, the me before, the me now. Me. me. me. I. I. I. It's confusing so…"
"You would like to separate S and Miss Lake." I say as I figure out what she is getting at. She is right, the two are completely different. As if they are two different people altogether. Bringing my thumb to my lip, I turn in my seat to more fully face her. "Then, with all things considered. I will call you Sapphire. Kira Lake has been laid to rest." She looks at me before gently smiling giving me a nod.
"After tonight, she most definitely will be. We have made the world believe she is dead. All that is left is for her is to give the few possessions she has that she would have wanted to if she died." I see. Holding some sort of odd memorial service for your old self. So you can completely cast her away. If that is the case and it will help her get over this... complex.
"I see, let's get them together. Compose a script and act. We then shall proceed." I agree, turning back to the computer. She never ceases to surprise me.
*-Present time-*
*S*
Walking out of the office I pull the bag I had specifically gotten for this further up on my shoulder. I knew who they all were but I hadn't been expecting to see Rem and Ryuk in the back behind them. Making me rethink my initial thoughts about those death note pages I have. They were obviously somehow from both notebooks. Letting out an exhale of air I move forward through the police building. -Think positive S. They didn't suspect it was actually you, so this. Is a win. And knowing Ryuk from the anime he won't tell Light Yagami who I am but Rem... I guess since he didn't say anything he won't speak about my identity unless he feels it is absolutely necessary... Right?- Reaching beneath my jacket I pull my necklace out of hiding so the pendant of the moon was resting in the palm of my hand. -Light Yagami gave this to me? And Lucien even said with how I felt about him I would have wanted it buried with me.- I know it's rather childish of me. I thought as I slipped the necklace back out of view so it was hidden beneath my shirt. But, I was still kind of hoping those dreams about Light Yagami were truly just dreams. I guess that marks another fact that I can't deny.
" me." The familiar voice calls to me through the hall. -shit.- I halt my walking and look back towards him. Light Yagami himself came running up to me the envelope I had given him nowhere to be seen. Causing me to believe either he placed it in the breast pocket of his jacket or he removed the keys and placed them in one of his pants pockets. "I was curious, why were you the one sent here by L rather than Watari like usual?" Hmm. So he's asking questions. Well, he wouldn't be much of a detective if he didn't. Turning back around I begin to walk away from him again. "Hey, wait!" He calls and I hear his footsteps move up behind me. I can't talk to him. If I do, all we have done so far will be for nothing.
When my right arm is grabbed and I'm spun around to face him I give a breathy gasp. His eyes upon me narrowed. They were cold and calculating. Scary. But, he is a murderer so what else can I expect. "I asked you a question." He said as he loosened his hold on my arm. Clearly calming himself. Has my pushing against his emotions caused him to snap? To lose what footing he had on reality? How am I suppose to get out of this situation? Think quick S. Think! Pulling my right arm away from him I give a point to my throat as I lightly touch my fingertip to it opening my mouth and giving an exhale of breath. "You... Can't talk?" He questions as his eyes seem to soften. Nodding to him I look down at my feet gripping the bag strap tighter. "I... I'm sorry, I didn't know." This time his voice came little more than a whisper causing me to look back up at him.
The emotions in his gaze were quivering. As if they wanted me to see them, so they wouldn't be ignored any longer. There was a lot of pain and guilt in their depths that nearly took my breath away. "I was hoping that you could have explained to me why it was you and not Watari." Coming up with an idea that I didn't know if it was still because I wanted out of this situation or... if the emotions in his eyes really got to me that much. I let my eyes widen before I shrug the bag off and dig into it. Pulling out a cell phone that I had borrowed from Watari I open it up to the note section and begin to type. "Huh? What are.." His question is cut off as I turn the phone so he can see it.
-Watari, is with L. I was contacted and instructed to come here instead.-
"But, that doesn't explain why Watari wouldn't come. Isn't he suppose to be the only one L relies on?" I nearly rolled my eyes, instead, I turned the phone back to me, clearing my first message and typing again.
-I have never met L but he has a lot of contacts that he can use. I think Grief.-
"I guess, that would explain it. He did sound depressed in the office." I give him a nod picking the bag back up and pulling the strap back over my shoulder. When I went to turn around though, a hand caught my shoulder making me look back at him. "I am sorry, I was insensitive."
Looking down at the phone I let my fingers fly before letting him read it. -Don't worry, you didn't know. I'm used to it.-
He drops his hand from my shoulder after hesitating. His features were soft but the pain roaring from him was almost enough to cause my chest to constrict around my heart. Threatening to crush the beating muscle. Why is he making me feel like this? He's a murderer, the one I am after... "Heh, I guess a lot of people would mistake you for being rude then." I give him a nod before looking back down at the phone.
-You have no idea. Anyway, I have to go.-
"Oh, okay then. Maybe I'll see you around?"
-Not likely. I'm going back home. I only came here under L's request.-
"Going home? Where do you live? I mean.. how do you know L?" Awe... He's fishing. I've stuck around too long.
-My mom used to work under L.- Is all I told him before pocketing the phone and walking towards the entrance of the building. Light Yagami. You really are naïve. No one who can't talk can be S. The sound of a complete electronic voice would be far different than one only using a voice filter. Of course, he believes he doesn't know me so lying to him was simple. My quick thinking was working better than I could have hoped. Maybe instead of a detective, I should become an actress.
"Wait." He calls out again causing me to briefly stop and look at him just in front of the doors. Seriously can't he take a hint? "I was wondering since you were leaving. If you would like to have some coffee with me?"
He's asking me out on a date? Why? What about his little girlfriend? -Sorry, my plane is leaving soon. Maybe another time if I am ever in the area again.-
"I'll look forward to it." Is he really so self-confident? Well, I guess it does fit Kira's personality. Kira has a psych that has reached god-like proportions. He wouldn't be likely to feel insecure about a girl.
-Me too.- I wrote him before turning again and walking out the doors and to the curb to flag a cab. Guess it couldn't hurt to set things up with him in case I needed to talk to him. I'll just have to remember that I can't speak.
*Light*
At first when I was turning the short blonde towards me and I caught sight of just the side of her face I had almost thought she was Kira. For an instant, the image of her had darkened. Given her more tanned skin, black hair, charcoal eyes, and take away the growing dark circles from under her eyes. She very well could have been Kira when I created her that way. But the girl walking away from me now. Was far too fair-skinned, a blond with deep emotional green eyes, and definitely doesn't sleep as much as she should. Such depth of emotions I have only seen Kira hold a few times in the amount of time we had been together. Maybe I was just wishing this girl was Kira or it is possible that from being around Misa so much, the quiet is a nice change. It would have meant that Kira wasn't actually dead. Though, the fact is. It's impossible for this girl to be Kira. Their styles are completely different, this girl cant talk, and the air about her.. wasn't Kira.
I must just be stricken with enough grief that girls, in general, were looking like her. I wish I could see her one last time. I would explain to her why I did what I did. It wasn't because I didn't need her anymore like what I had told Misa. I wasn't casting her away as if she were just a piece of garbage. I only wanted her safe. Following the girl out I take note as she flags down a taxi before sliding into the back seat of one and rides away. Her hair really was long. Longer than even Kira's. That girl though was still beautiful just like Kira. Well-formed body, tight jeans that formed around a perfectly curved rear. Shaking my head I make my way through town. To let dad drive home. My apartment isn't too far either way. Besides the night air, reminded me of Kira and I could definitely use the time alone to come to terms with everything.
I have a new adversary named S. Who reminds me a lot of L even Kira. But, the conversation with the real L tonight proved something to me. S and L are two completely different people. L is stricken with remorse and grief over the loss of Kira. Whereas S is like L had been in the beginning. Level-headed, deceitful, sure of himself. He is enjoying playing games with me just like Kira had whenever she was revealing the next step to take. She enjoyed keeping things from me, watching to see how I figure things out. She didn't do it to cause harm to me though. I am certain if I veered away from her plans she would correct my position to keep me out of harm's way. By either telling me more about what is happening or... If I couldn't figure out someone's name that was critical to my safety she would have killed them herself. So far with just the two times of S contacting the task force, he has been spot on. He knows I am Kira. Just as he knows there are still two people killing. He is not thrown off by a fake death note. I have to try and keep my focus long enough to get the suspicion off of me. So I can get close to S like I did with L, only this time. S will not survive. I just have to figure this S guy out so I can plan accordingly. "Kira... What would you do in my position?"