Donna's POV
I look at the envelope I'm about to send to New York and my stomach twitches. I know I have to do this, it's time, it's been 3 years and I'm happy with Thomas, I really am, or at least that's what I keep telling myself. He proposed a week ago and it felt right I guess, it was bound to happen, we aren't getting any younger, we've been dating for a year and I suppose it was the next logical step, I want to marry him, he's a good man and he's there for me, he puts me before his work and still manages to be a very successful CEO and I feel worshipped, which is more than I can say about my what? Ex-husband, soul mate? He's not even my ex-husband yet, I'm actually sending him the papers to make that official.
You know those cliché stories, boy meets girl, fall in love at first sight and get married, yes that was us, straight out of a Rom Com, Harvey Specter swopped me off my feet the second I laid eyes on him, we went to Harvard together, he to become a lawyer, me to business school, we were inseparable, ever since he worked out the courage to talk to me at that party I knew I was a goner for that man. I let myself go back to that day even if thinking about him still hurts.
"You know, usually when you come to a party with someone, you stick with them" I hear a voice call behind me. I'm standing next to a couch nursing a drink when I turn around and find the most beautiful brown eyes I've ever seen.
"I'm sorry, do we know each other?" I ask. "No, but I saw your date is dancing with that brunette over there and I couldn't help but wonder why he would leave such a beautiful girl on her own" He smiles and I have to fight the urge to return his smile cause he's too hot for his own good.
"Ohh you mean Travis?" He's not my date, he's a friend, he's here with his girlfriend, the brunette you just pointed out, who just happens to be my best friend, Scottie" I explain even I don't know why I do.
"That's great, means I can get you a drink then?" He leans even closer to me and I can feel his breath way too near my face, I take a step back and look at him right in the eye.
"I already have one and you haven't even told me your name" I reply. He extends his hand, "That's easy I'm Harvey.." I interrupt him "Specter, I know" I say. His face is priceless.
"And how do you know that?" he wonders out loud.
"I know who everyone is, I'm Donna" I simply say
"Donna, nice to meet you, just Donna tough?" he flashes me a boyish grin and I want to take him to my dorm or jump him on the spot, what is wrong with me?! Keep it together Donna, jeez.
"Like a name and a title in one, you'll see" I shrug and continue talking. "Scottie and Travis are in your class, that's how I know who you are, Travis hates you, says you're an arrogant, self centered prick that thinks he's the smartest guy in the room, so I don't know why I should agree to anything with you"
He lifts an eyebrow amused and entertained by the way people apparently talk about him and I should find it annoying but I actually find it pretty hot.
"Well you could let me prove you wrong…. I'm going to be honest here Donna, I know we just met, but the moment I saw you I felt this pull towards you that I've never felt before and you may think that's the lamest pick up line ever but it's the truth, I like you and I also knew who you were before tonight, I happen to be more observant that you think" He blurts everything out in one breath and I find it adorable.
"So you knew I was friends with Travis and Scottie, and you just used the fact that I came into the party with him to approach me?" I really can't believe this guy, he's definitely something else.
"Guilty as charged, so will you go out with me?" he grins and I can't help it "one date, if you can't prove me wrong you never call me again" I challenge and he challenges back. "Ohhh I'll prove you wrong, you'll be begging me to marry you in no time"
And that was it, he proved me wrong, over and over again, I fell in love with him, hard. We were perfect; everyone would say so, Harvey and Donna, Harvard's cutest couple. He proposed on graduation day, I said yes because I'd never been surer of anything in my entire life, and we got married 3 month later in a very small ceremony in front of our friends and families.
I went to work for a trade company, he went to work as an associate at Pearson Hardman, But a year after, Jessica wanted him to gain trial experience so she sent him to work at the DA's office, he was there for 2 years and when he returned to Pearson Hardman, that was the beginning of the end for us.
I leave the envelope in the post office silently begging he just signs the damn papers when he gets them, but knowing him, he won't without at least putting up a fight. He's Harvey fucking Specter after all, he never backs down from a fight.
Harvey's pov
I arrive at the office earlier than I usually do, lately every client's been a pain in the ass, I have 3 mergers on hold because of fucking paperwork and an ex employee suing one of my biggest clients for wrongful termination, this week seems to never end, and it's about to get a thousand times worse.
I approach my desk with my coffee in hand and Gretchen enters right behind me.
"Good morning Mr. Specter, you have the meeting with Mr. Stewart at 9:30, lunch with Mr. Lewis and a deposition for the Greenwald case at 3:00, also this just came from you" She hands me an envelope and it comes from Chicago, my breath caughts when I see her name on it, I don't think about her anymore, well that's bullshit I think about her every day, I miss her everyday but she left me and took the last piece of humanity I had left with her that day.
Inside the envelope I find divorce papers, I knew this day would come, but I expected her to at least call me and talk about it with me, and suddenly I'm furious. Who does she think she is to send me the divorce papers as if it's nothing?, it might mean nothing for her, but it is for me and I'm certainly not going to make this that easy for her. I speak trough the intercom to Gretchen. "Gretchen, get me Dana Scott please". I don't have Donna's number, she was very clear she wanted a clean start and that didn't include me in any way, so her best friend will have to do to relay the message.
"Harvey what can I do for you this lovely morning?" I hear her mocking tone and I know she knows why I'm calling.
"Scottie, I'm not gonna bullshit you so I'll just say it, if she wants the damn papers signed she's gonna have to get her ass to New York, cause I'm not signing anything until she looks me in the eye and tells me this is what she actually wants" It's not Scottie's fault and I know it's not fair to take it out on her but sicne my wife won't let me reach her I have no choice.
"Harvey, it's been 3 years, you both need to move on, now, I don't want to get too involve with this because I know Travis is your friend, but if you can't solve this in a friendly matter, I will be her lawyer Harvey, I hope you can understand that" She sighs and I know she's right.
"I don't want that Scottie, I just, I need the closure too you know, I need to see her one last time and I need her to look me in the eyes and tell me she wants this" I hate being vulnerable and I hope no one notices my eyes reddening at the thought of signing those papers, because as much as I knew we were over, a part of me always hoped she'd come back to me, because even if I cannot admit to anyone other than myself, I know I will love my wife till the day I die.
"Ok Harvey, I'll talk to her, try to get her to come". Her voice softens and I wonder why the rush.
"Why now Scottie? Why is she in such a hurry to divorce me?" She makes a pause and exhales a long breath she was obviously holding.
"She's engaged Harvey, Thomas Kessler proposed to her last week" And then it happens, my chest tightens and I feel it coming full force, a panic attack, just like the ones I had when she left.
"I'm sorry Scottie, I have to go" And I hung up not even waiting for a reply. I run to the bathroom not giving a second look to Gretchen and when I get there I simply throw up, after I splash my face with water and ride the end of the panic attack like I used to all those years ago.
She is getting married, she's building a life with someone else, she's really leaving me behind, and I know she already left me 3 years ago but this feels different, this makes all hope go away. I've lost her, for good. And as the realization hits me, I simply let the tears fall.
N/A Hello everyone! This is my first fic ever and I'm really excited to have worked out the courage to actually publish it, I hope you guys like, I don't know how long it will be and I'll try to update once a week, reviews are appreciated and I will read every single one, but what I want the most is for you to enjoy this. Love, Nicky!