Chapter 2

English is not my first language so I apologize in advance for any grammar mistakes.

Harvard, 10 years ago

DONNA

"Do you ever wonder where we'll be 10 years from now?" I ask him while we're on the roof of my dorm looking at the stars; he's sitting behind me with his arms wrapped tightly around me as we lean against the wall.

"I know where we'll be, living in New Work, probably married, with a kid and another on the way" he simply replies and my heart swells for this man

"How is it that you always know what to say?" I tilt my head back to be able to plant a loving kiss to his lips.

"Because I'm superman" He says it so serious that it almost makes me laugh "You're supposed to say I was thinking the same about you" I throw at him.

"Oh, but superman wouldn't say something like that, he'd just expect Lana Lang to get it" I can see he's trying really hard to remain seriuos as I continue our banter.

"In case you haven't noticed, I'm not Lana Lang, I'm Lois Lane" I smile at him and he smiles back.

"You're the best of both, because Lana was a redhead" I'm about to make a retort but he covers my mouth with his once again.

"What do you say we get out here?. It's getting cold and I'm really looking forward to cuddling with you in a warmer environment" he nuzzles my neck and then helps me stand.

"Only cuddle huh? I thought by the way your lower parts were just pressing into me, that you'd be up to more than cuddling Mr. Specter"

"Ohhh Ms. Paulsen, you have no idea, I'm planning on ravishing you all night long" He leans down to kiss me one last time as he takes my hand and leads me to my doorm.

As soon as the door closes behind us he has me pinned against the door and starts kissing my neck while touching me everywhere he can reach and I'm already consumed by him. I haven't slep with a lot of men, but I knew without a shadow of a doubt that no one could ever make me feel the way Harvey Specter did. He was loving and passionate but also firm and rough when I wanted him to be, he was perfect and I loved this man more than anything else in the world.

He continues his ministrations, teasing me as he painfully slowly starts taking my clothes off, starting with my sweater, then my shirt and touching my nipples through the fabric of my bra. After what felt like forever, he has me naked in my bed and we become one once again, and no feeling in the world compares to the feeling of being filled by him and only him.

A while later we are still naked in my bed, my head pressed against his chest while he strokes my hair and I run small circles on his right arm.

"Sometimes I wish we could get stuck in moments like this and never leave this bed" he murmurs softly.

"Mmmm I don't know, wouldn't you get bored?"

"Of you? Never. I love you Donna, sometimes I'm not sure you actually realize how much" He's not a sap, but there are times, usually if something is bothering him, when he gets like this, all sappy boyfriend and I love it but I also know something is wrong.

"Ok, what is it that has you so emotional Specter?, spill it" I lift my head to look at him and he smiles down at me.

"Nothing in particular, we are a few weeks away from graduation, and we're off to start our lives together and I don't know, I guess I'm afraid once we make it out to the real world, you'll realize…..you could actually do much better" I pull my hand up to caress his cheek.

"Harvey listen to me, I love you, as in I'm in love with you, I want a life with you. I'm not going anywhere, and yes maybe living together won't always be all hearts and flowers but we'll make it work because it's us and we're meant to be, you're it for me. A kid and another one on the way in ten years right?"

"I hope they are gingers" He replies and I smile."Mmm I don't know, maybe a ginger girl and a sandy blonde boy. I'll definitely want a mini Harvey" I grin at him and I know at least for now, that I put his worries to rest, we seal the deal with a soft kiss that turns into a passionate kiss and go for round two.

The second the plane lands at La Guardia I'm a nervous wreck, fuck Harvey, I knew that he wasn't going to make this easy, but making me fly down here was ridiculous, I tried to get Scottie to talk to Travis and convince Harvey to just sign the damn thing but she flat out refused, said that Harvey at least deserved to get some closure and that she agreed with him that the right thing to do was for me to face him one last time. And deep down I knew she was right, didn't stop me from calling her a traitor over the phone tough, she just laughed it off, we're like sisters, we fight, we banter, but we love each other fiercely and I know that if it would come to it, she'd be on my side and represent me as my lawyer, not giving it a minutes thought. And I really hope it wouldn't get to that.

I grab a cab and head to my hotel just to check in and leave my luggage, I send a quick text to Thomas to let him know I arrived safely and immediately feel bad for hiding the real reason I'm here from him. It's not that I don't wanna tell him, he know I was married when I lived in New York but I never really felt the need to tell him we actually never had the chance to make the divorce official, because I would have to tell him why I left in such a hurry and I definitely wasn't ready for that.

I head straight to the offices of what now is Specter Litt, already looking forward to seeing everyone again, everyone but Harvey of course, who the last time I saw…. Well let's just say we didn't part on good terms.

I enter the building and head straight for the 50th floor and it's the longest ride of my life. Once the elevator dings indicating I've arrived my heart starts beating really fast. Seeing his name on the wall gives me a nostalgic feeling, I knew it would be up there, but the last time I was here, it was about to be changed to Pearson Specter, so I had never actually seen it up there until now.

The first person I see is Louis Litt who actually looks at me like I grew antlers or something.

"Donna! Oh my god it is you! I can't believe it, I thought I'd never see you again" He comes to me and envelops me in a tight hug, which I return.

"It's good to see you Louis" I say and he pulls back

"Are you here to… see… Harvey?" He's hesitant and I understand why, after shit went sideways I just left, not really bothering to say goodbye to the people that were kind of part of my family for the almost 7 years I spent married to Harvey.

"Yeah Louis, I'm here to see Harvey" He motions with his hand for me to move forward and I start making my way to Harvey's office when he stops me. "oh Donna, sorry, I didn't realize you didn't know, Harvey is managing partner now, his office is Jessica's old one"

I'm surprised by this, but not really, he got everything he ever wanted, good for him, hope it made it worth to lose his marriage and his…. I'm not going there, I can't, and I'm only here to get those papers, grab dinner with Scottie and Rachel and be on my way back to Chicago by tomorrow morning.

I thank Louis and head towards Harvey's office, I can sense him before I see him and I hate that it's still that way, and there he is, looking as hot as ever in a three piece grey suit, Tom Ford I presume, he's the man that's made me the happiest and the saddest I've been in my life, because things have always been a bit extreme between us, all or nothing.

I knock on his glass door and he looks up and my god he's gorgeous, even more handsome than I remembered, he's not shocked to see me, Tanner must have told him I was coming.

We stare at each other and for a second there I feel like he's trying to take me all in, memorize me in case this is the last time we see each other, but that's not possible, he gave two shits about us when he had the chance and now he got everything he wanted, so I can only assume there are no regrets.

I break the silence first. "Harvey, nice to see you again"

"Donna, you look beautiful" he blurts out and I can see he regrets it the second the words leave his mouth.

"Harvey, please" I plead with him not to do this to me and he obliges. "I'm sorry, take a sit, please, I'll have Gretchen bring you a cup of coffee" He means to press the intercom buttom but I stop him.

"That's not necessary; I'm good, thank you" He smiles at me and I can't stop the butterflies in my stomach. That fucker! How is it that after so many years away from him he still has that effect on me, I hate it.

"Donna, I know you are here for the divorce papers and tough I appreciate you coming all the way from Chicago, I'm afraid I will not simply sign them" And all the charm is gone just like that, and I'm fuming.

"Are you kidding me right now Harvey?!" "You made me come all the way here, leave my job in a hurry, to what?" "Not sign the damn papers?!" He's calm, too calm, I know him or remember who he is enough to know he is up to something.

"You see Donna, when you left me, you didn't give me a heads up, you just left, and now, you just sent those papers and pretended for me to sign them and ship them back to you, well, that's not how it works, I'll sign the papers if you want me to, but not today" He simply shrugs and I want to strangle him.

"I didn't give you a heads up?! That's not fair and you know it. I'm here Harvey, you wanted me to come, well here I am, now please sign the goddamn papers so we can both move on" He's hurt and I ache for him but I can't let him see that.

"I don't want to make a rush decision Donna, when I said I do to you I meant it forever, I want you to stay the week, give me 7 days to prove to you we can go back to being us, and if it doesn't work and you still want a divorce I'll sign the papers, you'll never hear from me again"

He's delusional, it's the only thing that makes sense, and the bastard thought about this too well, because he's way too calm, and I want to strangle him.

"What are you talking about Harvey? We've been separated for the last three years, I'm getting married in a couple of months, your time to prove yourself is way over. I love Thomas and I'm not coming back to you Harvey" He looks away from me when I mention my impending wedding and loving my fiancé.

"Then if you're so over me and you have moved on from us, what is it to you to spend a week here?, you can catch up with your old friends and we can spend a couple of days together as a proper goodbye, prove to me you've really moved on and I'll let you go Donna, I'll even send you a wedding present"

Arrogant piece of shit, he's so sure of himself and I want to wipe that smirk out of his goddamn face, but I know him, he's made his case, he's not signing unless I stay and I realize I don't have much of a choice, not really.

"Alright, one week, you'll be working all day long anyway so I won't even have to see you, I'll prove to you that we are ready to move on and you'll sign those damn papers"

His grin gets bigger and I know I'm in for trouble.

"I won't be working; I'm taking the week off to spend it with you, Louis and Mike will cover for me" And he's got to be kidding me, when we were married he couldn't take a day, and now that he's suddenly so adamant of proving what we had isn't over, he can suddenly take a whole week.

"Were you that certain I'd agree?" I smirk at him because I can play this game too.

He waves his right hand as if to make a point "You have always had trouble resisting me Mrs. Specter"

"Don't call me that, that's not my name anymore and don't get so cocky Specter, I'm very much capable of resisting you, I'm not the woman you married anymore" I state the fact and he just looks at me.

"We'll see about that, see you tomorrow at 7 a.m, I'll pick you up at your hotel, we're having breakfast at Nougatin, just text me the adress and I'll be there, my number hasn't changed" he tells me.

"And what makes you think I still remember it? I ask

"You're Donna" He simply states and I just curtly nod, honestly I could have just told him I'm staying and the Ritz but I don't because then I wouldn't have an excuse to text him, what is wrong with me? Before I can leave he calls back to me.

"I wish things had been different, I wish I could have found a way to make you stay despite what happened" He just had to bring it up, and as tears start forming behind my eyes I reply without turning around.

"But you didn't, see you tomorrow Harvey" I leave without looking back and not noticing the tears forming in his eyes as well.

After I leave Harvey's office I make my way to my other best friend's office and she beams at me when she first sees me until she notices the sad look on my face.

"Oh no, that bad?" Rachel asks and I try to put on a smile but she sees right through it. She pulls me into a hug "I missed you Donna" and I cling to her because I can really use the comfort of my friend right now.

"I missed you too Rach, but I really need to get out of here" I say as I let go of her.

"Ok, you and me coffee now" She says and I agree.

At the coffee shop we sit at a table next to the window looking out the New York heavy traffic and it hits me for the first time since I arrived how much I actually miss this, being home. No, no, Chicago is home, where Thomas is, that's home.

"Soooo, you gonna spill how the reunion with the husband went?" She asks.

"I asked him to sign the divorce papers but he refused, says he wants me to spend a week here and hang out with him, he said that if I can really prove to him that I love Thomas and I have moved on he'll sign them, it's ridiculous, we've spent three years apart, I don't know why he believes there's still something there" I run my finger through the top of my coffee cup as I tell her what happened.

"I'm sorry Donna, please don't be mad at me, but I think he's right" I look at her shocked.

"Are you kidding me right now Rachel? I've agreed to marry another man in a couple of months, I'm over Harvey Specter, trust me" I try to be convincing, tough I know I'm not.

"Well, you didn't actually leave because you didn't love him anymore, so he may as well have a point, and you're you after all, Harvey and Donna, meant to be" I glare at her.

"He kind of tried to bring up the unspeakable subject, said he regretted not finding a way to make me stay" I look down and fight the urge to tear up for the second time today.

"Well, that's definitely not a subject to bring up the first time he sees you after three years, I guess he wants you to know he hurts too"

"I don't know Rach, I know he hurts but he didn't give two shits about it when I needed him to be there, because he was too busy climbing the corporate ladder and getting his fucking name up that wall" I look pointedly at her and she smiles at me.

"He was a wreck when you left, I told you this before" she takes my hand but I pull it off.

"Can we please not talk about Harvey anymore?. It's hard enough I have to deal with him for the next 7 days". She immediately drops the subject.

"Sure, we can talk about your wedding instead, I know Scottie will be your maid of honor, but as the most important bridesmaid, I already have a few ideas in store" I throw her a genuine smile.

"Nothing would make me happier Rach" and just like that we go back to the old days, gossiping and planning things for my wedding, trying to push all thoughts of the man that will actually hold my heart forever, aside.

A/N Thaks to every single one of you that took a moment to leave a reply, you guys are as awesome as Donna. I'll update as soon as I can. Thanks for reading!