HARVEY
I wake up earlier than usual with an excitement I haven't felt in years. Seeing Donna yestarday had the exact effect I knew it would. She looked beautiful in that burgundy dress and it was almost as if nothing had changed, except everything has, because she's with another man and she's not mine anymore, but I don't dwell on that much, I have seven days and I'll make full use of them.
I put on my favorite set of dark blue jeans and a tight black v neck t-shirt and make my way down to Ray who's already waiting for me outside.
I arrive at the hotel and she's already at the lobby, and damn, she takes my breath away like every time. She's wearing a black jumpsuit, her aurburn locks spread to the side on her right shoulder, she looks beautiful and I curse myself for having let this woman go, I did always know I didn't deserve her to begin with.
"Donna, good morning, you look amazing" I tell her with a confident smile, I won't let her see me sweat.
"Good moring Harvey" I'm having a hard time reading her and that's a first.
"Ray's outside" I say as I motion to the door.
"Good to know he still puts up with for you" She jokes and I laugh, Ray always did prefer her over me. "It's only a couple of blocks Harvey, we can walk" she suggests and I shrug.
"He's kind of exited to see you, I couldn't say no, you know he likes you better than me" I explain and she seems satisfied with my reply.
I open the door for her and Ray immediately turns his head around.
"Mrs. Spec…Donna, so nice to see you again" she frows a bit at his slip up but recovers quickly and smiles at him as she squeezes his shoulder.
"Good to see you too Ray" she simply says and we move forward trough NY's traffic.
The rest of the ride is pretty short and silent. She types into her phone most of the time and I wonder if she's texting him.
We arrive at Nougatin and sit at the farthest table we can find. I order our usuals and she seems surprised I remembered.
"So, how have you been?" I break the silence and she seems a bit startled, never in a million years I would have thought breakfast with the love of my life would be this awkard, it usted to be so easy being around each other.
"I've been good. I'm COO at Thomas's company, That's actually how me met" the mention of his name makes my blood boil but I understand her need to protect herself by reminding me she has a fiancé.
"That's great, I bet you make one hell of a COO" I complement her while completely ignoring her mention of fucking Thomas Kessler.
"I do" she smiles before continuing. "So, managing partner huh? You finally made it, how did you pull that one off?" I can't help but notice the slight spite in her comment, my wife would have been so proud of me, maybe she isn't the woman I married anymore after all, or maybe it is due to what we had to lose for me to achieve my goals.
"I actually didn't want it, but after Jessica left it was either Louis or me and he wasn't ready, he really screw up, so I had to step in" I explain as the waitress arrives with our order.
"You honestly expect me to believe you didn't want it? It's ok Harvey you don't have to pretend with me" I sigh and drink some coffee.
"I'm not pretending Donna, loosing my family put some perspective in my life, I realized success is not that enjoyable if you don't have the right person to share it with" I pointedly look at her and she looks away from me, not being able to meet my gaze.
"Yeah well, too bad it was too late when you finally came to that realization" she says again without meeting my eyes, focusing on drinking her coffee.
"yeah, too bad" I repeat her words and we stay silent for a moment.
"How's Mike?" she asks trying to lighten the mood
"He's great, made it to junior partner, continues to be a pain in my ass everyday, but I'm guessing you already know all this from Rachel" she nods.
"What are we doing here Harvey?" she suddenly says.
"We're having breakfast at your favorite place" I shrug and I know I'm a smartass.
"You know what I mean Harvey, this is awkard, we're trying to make small talk and avoiding the big elephant in the room" she tries to reason with me but I'm not having it, I'm not backing down from our deal.
"I'm actually enjoying your company, I always have. Do you want to talk about the big elephant in the room?" I ask her quietly
"Actually I don't think I'm ready for that yet" she looks out the window deep in thought.
"I'm not either" I say back. "What do you think I ask for the check and we take a walk around Central Park? I suppose you still enjoy taking walks, we don't have to talk if you don't want to" I suggest and she gives me a genuine smile for the first time today
"I'd like that Harvey" she replies.
The walk through the immense park is really enjoyable and suddendy we fall into easy conversation reminiscing about the past while we stop at her favorite cart for a hot dog.
"It was your fault cause you made me burst out laughing" I say and she giggles, the sound fills my heart.
"you spit a piece of shrimp and it landed on her hair" she says as she takes a sip of her Coke.
"It got stuck in there like a tick" we're both laughing so hard and suddenly I can't remember how I went three years without this.
"You said you'd divorce me if I ever put that amount of hairspray on my hair"
"And I would have, I loved smelling your hair, no husband should ever die of intoxication smelling their wife's hair" I comment as our laughter dies out.
"This was nice Harvey, I'm glad we did this" she says and stands from the bench we were sitting at.
"You're leaving?" I ask
"Well, I'm having dinner with Scottie and Rachel, so…"
·"Donna its 4, do you usually have dinner at 4 p.m?" I don't want her to go, and I'm adamant to stop her.
"Well no, but what else do you want us to do?" She's nervous again and I hate it.
"What about we rent a boat and take a ride through the lake?" I suggest and this is something she always liked to do when we were married, and like the asshole I was taking my wife for granted back then, I always complained about it, but have missed it since she left.
"Really Harvey? You hate rowing" she points out and I look down.
"I don't, I never did, I secretly loved it every time we did it"
"But you never said anything" she says as we stroll down the park.
"Yeah well, it's no secret I was an ass". I throw her a smile and she returns it.
"Alright then, but you're doing the hard work" she links her arm through mine and it's the best feeling I've felt in long time.
We have a blast and it's just like the old times, and I love the way she stills laughs at every single silly joke I make, making her laugh has always been one of my favorites. Before we know it it's almost 6 so I walk her back to her hotel, she's staying at the Ritz, so it's a short walk there.
"So…" I start but can't seem to find the words.
"Today was fun Harvey, I'm glad we did this, have good night" She says softly.
"Goodnight Donna, see you tomorrow" and out of habit I lean forward and softly kiss her forehead, she doesn't say anything, she just gives me a sad smile and leaves.
I pull out my cell phone to call Mike "Hey buddy, wanna grab a beer?" I tell him as soon as he picks up.
"If you're calling me it means one of two things, either it went great and you're as excited as a teenager after the cheerleader said yes to him to go to Prom and you want to gossip with your coolest friend, or it went horribly bad, she slapped you and you need me to pick up the pieces of your shattered heart" he comments in his most smartass Mike Ross style.
"Alright you little pain in the ass, I'm feeling like a quarterback today, because it's been the best day in the last three years, so you want that beer or not?"
"Meet you at our usual, you're buying" he replies.
"Don't I always?" I retort.
Mike makes his way into the bar and we fist bump "So, tell me everything, is she dumping that moron of a fiancé and you and I are having a double wedding?" he looks like a giddy teenager.
"Will you ever grow up? First, we couldn't have a double wedding, Donna and I are already married you idiot, and second, no, she didn't dump him but I'm confident if every day of this week goes like today, she might" I'm confident Donna might have seen today that there's still something there, we definitely shared some moments.
"That's great Harv, I'm happy for you, did any touchy subjects came up?" I know what he's referring to and I look at him pointedly.
"No Mike, it was not the time to talk about it, I actually offered and she said she wasn't ready, but being together again felt so right, you know? Like she never left" He sees the hope in my eyes and chuckles.
"Yeah, only she did, and now she's marrying someone else. Are you prepared to face the fact she might actually want to move on Harvey? Because it seems to me the only possibility you are contemplating here is her leaving her life in Chicago behind and coming back to you" his word cut deep, because I know he's right but I'll face that only if it comes to it.
"She's the love of my life Mike, you don't just move on from that, if and that's a big IF, she's ready to move on, I'll let her but I'm certainly not going down without a fight, I just don't know how to make her realize we can go back to being us" I'm frustrated and even tough Mike's a pain in the ass most of the time, he's also a great friend.
"Well, she did fall in love with you once, she can certainly do it again, remind her why she did in the first place Harvey, take her somewhere she can remember the best moments you guys had, before you screw everything up and she might be willing to give you another chance" He sips from him beer and I nod, out of the corner of my eye I see a blonde woman looking in my direction, normally I would smile at her, excuse myself from Mike and invite her a drink to end up spending the night in my condo to numb the pain and have a good night with a hot woman, but this time I don't, and I don't want to because my energy is all put on making my girl come back to me, no matter what.
"I'm gonna win her back Mike, whatever it takes" I say confidentially as I lift my glass to him.
"Alright Harvey, to winning the fight of your life" He lifts his glass and we cheer to that.
A/N Thank you all for reading and please keep the reviews coming, I love reading your thoughts on this.