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Nicky.

HARVEY

Fuck! that's the only word running in my head right now, I screwed up, again, and probably blew up the only chance I had to get her back, goddammit! fucking Kessler calling at the most inappropriate moment, or maybe it's a good thing he did, she might have hated me even more if I actually made a cheater out of her.

I make my way to the Tanner's residence. Mike is my brother from another mother, but right now I need to talk to my oldest friend, the one that was there when it all began.

I hope they're not sleeping, it's almost midnight after all. I ring the bell. It's Scottie who opens the door and she's not happy to see me. Donna must have called her.

"You are so stupid Harvey Specter, I could kill you right now" She's glaring at me and I can't really blame her.

"Can I come in?" I ask her and she steps back so I can enter the house.

"Travis is in his study" She says and leaves, I assume, to their bedroom.

"Harv, what's up my man, why are you here at this time of the night? something happened?" He asks as soon as he sees me. "Donna" He says when he sees the look on my face.

"I screwed up man, really screwed up this time" He motions for me to sit on the couch and he pours us a drink before sitting on the single couch in front of me.

"I heard D&D were talking on the phone but couldn't make out what that was about". I involuntary chuckle a bit at the nickname they gave themselves when they were kids and suddenly there's a knock and Scottie's head appears from behind the door

"I'm going to see Donna, this asshole really upset her so I might spend the night there with her, Rachel's on her way there too" She says as if I wasn't there listening.

"Ok hon, take all the time you need, I'll have my hands full with the asshole anyway"

"I'm right here, you know?" I say looking between the two of them

"Oh I know, I just don't care" Scottie says as she enters the room heading for Tanner, kisses him on the lips and leaves.

"So…. I don't think my wife has ever been so cold towards you Specter, what did you do?" Travis asks me as he sips his drink.

"I took her to Harvard to see a play, then I recreated the night I proposed on the rooftop of her old building and I almost kissed her when her fiancé called and interrupted us" I explain leaning back on the couch and rubbing my forehead.

"Ok, that was uhhh, romantic but extremely stupid Harvey, what were you thinking?"

"Mike got this thing in my head about making Donna remember why she fell for me in the first place, and I guess I just… thought it might be a good idea at the time" I feel really stupid as I say it outloud, god what was I thinking….

"You listened to the advice of the pup Harvey, really? You should have come to me, I certainly would have given you better advice"

"Well it's done, and now I've lost her for good" I feel like crying really, but I never would in front of Travis, Donna is the only person I've ever let myself be that vulnerable with.

"Well yeah, but honestly Harvey, you lost her three years ago, what's the damage to keep on trying for a few more days?" He suggests and I look at him perplexed.

"Really Travis? she's probably going back to Chicago tomorrow, she said our deal is off, I'm pretty sure she's letting Scottie handle the divorce from now on"

"Let her cool off Harvey, try again tomorrow, or sign the damn papers if you're just going to give up after the first try" His words cut me deep and his gaze softens a bit when he notices I flinch a bit. "She's not leaving buddy, she's staying at least until Friday for a dress fitting, she chose a designer from New York, the same that Scottie had for our wedding" I feel relief flood over me at that, and I've never been more thankful for her best friend being married to mine.

"Thanks Travis, this really helped, I'll try to talk to her tomorrow" I get up to leave.

"And Harvey…. Please don't upset her again, I hate sleeping without my wife next to me"

"God, you're so whipped Tanner" I tease him but I couldn't be happier for my friend.

"Well, if I remember correctly you were even more whipped back in the day" I smile at the memory and nod at him.

"I was, and I hope I can be again" We share a manly hug and make our way to the door.

"You will my friend, I have faith in you" he slaps my back and I leave his house.

Now, all I have to do is figure out a way for Donna to forgive me. I don't see her the next day. I text her a couple of times to apologize again and to ask her to let me talk to her but she doesn't reply to any of my texts.

We were supposed to have dinner at her parents' today, and I wonder if she'll show up, if she does I still might have a slight chance to talk to her, if she doesn't, well, I guess that she'll be leaving tomorrow after the fitting and that will be it.

I decide to drive to Westchester, where my in-laws live, since it doesn't make sense for Ray to drive me, besides I can use the distraction. I make my way to the Paulsen's huge driveway and park my car beside Elena's SUV. She comes to the door as soon as I ring the bell.

"Harvey my boy! don't you look handsome tonight?" She says as she envelops me in a tight hug, I'm using a pair of light brown pants with a white shirt and a navy blue v neck sweater above it, Donna has always loved blue on me.

"Elena, it's so nice to see you" I say as I pull back and hand her a bottle of Donna's favorite wine.

"You too, Ohh, this is an outstanding bottle of wine Harvey, thank you" she says as she ushers me inside. "Jim is on the back with the grill" I make my way to greet him and he smiles when he sees me, he has a "The GrillFather" apron written with "The Godfather" logo, I gave that to him for father's day as a joke the year before Donna left.

"Harvey, good to see you son, where's Donna?" he asks as we share a manly hug with a pat on the back.

"Um, I don't know if she's coming, Jim" I say and look down.

"Oh, she is, she talked to Elena earlier, I just thought she'd be coming with you" The doorbell rings and suddenly I'm as nervous as a kid on his first day of highschool.

"Donna, sweetheart I've missed you so much" I hear Elena exclaim as I assume she hugs her daughter.

"I missed you too mom, where's dad?" Their voices are near and suddenly I see her, she's wearing a black dress, cut just above her knees showing those legs that go on for miles and long flowy sleeves, she's a sight for sore eyes and I don't know how to react. She doesn't seem surprised to see me, I guess she knew I'd be here and decided to come anyway.

She meets Jim for a long hug and I think he notices the tension between us but doesn't say anything. They chat for a bit and then she looks at me and I can't for the life of me figure out what she's thinking, it's so frustrating.

"Harvey'' she acknowledges me but that's it.

"Donna, you look beautiful" I compliment her as I always do and she blushes a bit, god she's adorable.

"Thanks" Is all she says and she heads back inside to help Elena in the kitchen.

"Wanna share what that was about?" Jim looks at me with a pointed look.

"I messed up Jim, I tried to kiss her, Thomas called and interrupted us before I could"

"Mmhmm" is all he says. He takes a deep breath and continues.

"You know Harvey, I never tried to pry on your relationship with Donna because I know you're a good man, you love my daughter and I'd be an idiot not to see that, you know I was mad at you for a while after she left but then I understood how much you were hurting too, and you know I love you like a son, but that being said, she's my little girl, and I wouldn't like to see her being hurt like that again" He pauses a bit and sighs before continuing.

"I don't know if this Thomas is the man for her, honestly I don't think anyone is going to love her as much as you do, ever, but if this is what she wants, you should let her make her own mistakes Harvey. If you try to force things on her, it won't work. You were married to her for 7 years, you should know that by now" Jim's words leave me thinking and I miss my dad so much right now, but I'm also grateful for having a father figure like him to make me see some sense from time to time.

"You're right Jim, it's just… I'm not ready to let her go" I tell him with some emotion in my voice.

"You never will be son, you're in love with her, but at some point you have to, so she can see what you letting her go does to her" I'm about to reply when Elena comes up, she's on the phone and looks at me.

"Harvey, could you please be a darling and help Donna with the salads? Addison kicked Eric out again and she's not doing well" she motions to the phone rolling her eyes and I nod at her.

"Of course Elena" I make my way to the kitchen and Donna doesn't even look up at me as she chops some vegetables.

"I told her I could manage" she mutters.

"I assumed as much, salads are the only thing you never had trouble managing in the kitchen" I mean it as a joke to lighten the mood but she drops the knife forcefully on the counter.

"What are you doing here Harvey?" she asks now looking at me and I look down, not being able to face her.

"I told you, I come…" she lifts her hand to interrupt me

"I know what you told me smartass, I just thought you wouldn't show up after what happened" she says and grabs the knife to continue chopping the vegetables.

"I wanted to see you" I confess as she sighs. "I was an imbecile, I shouldn't have done that" I give the best apology I can come up with and she stops chopping once again to look at me, I meet her eyes this time.

"Why did you?"

"Because I needed to know if you still had feelings for me" I confess and let out a sigh I didn't know I was holding.

"I thought that was clear earlier that day when I specifically told you I didn't want you to pull off any shit like that" I take a few steps towards her and she lifts her gaze up to me, I move my arm behind her to grab a knife that's sitting next to her to help her chop because I need to do something to distract me of the need to kiss her I'm feeling right now, she seems uncomfortable at our closeness but doesn't say anything.

"I know, it won't happen again… unless you want it to happen" I say and I smirk at her to lighten the tension.

I can tell she tries to remain serious but can't help to smile a bit, I've alway known how to work my charm on her, some things never change I guess "You're so full of yourself Specter" she says in a lighter tone and I throw a small piece of lettuce at her that lands on her hair.

"What the fuck Harvey?!" she exclaims as she throws a piece of cucumber to me and I laugh as she motions to throw me another one but I stop her, pinning her hands behind her and pushing her flat against my chest so she can't move, I let her go before I screw up again and the awkwardness is back, but I'm glad we're at least speaking again.

Dinner goes quietly, we talk about everything and anything and when Donna tells Elena about the dress fitting my heart aches a bit, Jim must notice this because he comes to the rescue discussing the last Yankees' game to distract me. We continue to talk, even bring up some old stories. Donna actually smiles at me a couple of times and at some point, it really feels like old times.

After dinner, Elena says something about the dishwasher being broken and the technician not being able to make it until Monday, so Donna and I offer to take care of the dishes as her parents settle in the living room with a movie.

At some point Donna and I end up getting involved in a water fight as she accidentally splashes some water on my face with the sprayer and I turn it back to her, she gasps and almost slips on the water on the floor but I catch her on instinct by the waist, we stand there, looking at each other and the rest is a blur…

She's the one that leans in this time and before I know it she's pulling me by the head kissing me with all she has, and god it feels like heaven, I grip her waist pulling her closer and she pulls her arms around my neck caressing the hairs at the nape of it and it feels like being home after so long.

The kiss is slow but passionate, I slid my tongue between her lips and she eagerly opens them, letting our tongues fight for dominance. I turn her around and push her against the kitchen island, she lifts her leg to wrap it around mine and I push my hardening member against her stomach, I'm losing my mind, the kiss and the feeling of having her pressed against me making me dizzy and as I feel her hand crawling under my shirt I'm the one that, surprisingly, actually realizes what we're doing and I pull back gasping for air to reach my lungs.

"Donna… wait, we can't" I say as I let her go from my arms and miss her warmth as soon as I do.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me, oh my god….. what did I do?!" she says as she steps farther away from me and runs her hands through her hair.

"Hey, it's ok, that was… amazing Donna" I say and I'm sure it's not the right thing to say right now, but it just comes out.

"Amazing?! I've just cheated on Thomas, Harvey!" She points out "And not just that, I wasn't the one to stop the goddamn kiss" she feels guilty and I ache for her but I can't bring myself to regret what just happened.

"It was just a kiss Donna, it doesn't have to mean anything if you don't want it to"

"I think it's best that you leave Harvey" she says and I nod, knowing nothing I say right now will make things better.

"Yeah, I think it is" I enter the living room to say goodbye to Jim and Elena and leave without another word.

Donna kissed me and even if I hate the thought of her feeling guilty, I can't help the happiness I feel for having her in my arms after so long. I felt all the sparks between us coming back to life, and I know she felt it too.

I arrive home feeling hope again for the first time since the Harvard fiasco and thoughts of red hair and hazel eyes fill my mind as I drift off to sleep.