This was so hard to write for no reason
Chapter 7 Fashion disaster
RON POV
"This is why I don't like you… why just why did you go after Kim. I'm ok with Sheila you and her flirting alright it was fun enough to join. You DO NOT FUCKING PLAY WITH KP LIKE THAT"
"Ronald I get it but didn't you feel her responses she was into it. No more Monkey boy taking your best friend with the added bonus of making out with said vadical best friend".
"Shut up, I'm not gonna have you taking over and abusing KPs feelings. Pick one Sheila or KP I will lock you back up til you gotta tire yourself out again just to get a word in… no even further I'll have you gone."
" P-please wait, don't do that. I'm just keeping things open. I mean Sheila would be my choice but their presents a challenge there. Not even from Kimberly just the small fact that no matter what we do she's still wanted in eleven countries unless we can stop that then even if we're willing I doubt she would allow us to fall to her level. I apologize for coming off as I would like to be a player".
"... Not KP your right but no way I can do it to KP… it would destroy that she's comparable to Sheila. Yori either I can't do that to her… no no this is ridiculous I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. Deciding between girls and leading them on just to leave is so slimy".
"But…"
"What about KPs family, oh wise one. I only saw the memories you saw first hand how happy Mrs. Dr. P was. By now Mr. P probably knows. If she's so excited it's probably mutual what happens now? KP gets heart broken…"
"Then nothing happens Ronald. Anne and James are adults; you might as well be their child. You think Anne's first ever love was the man she only met in college? You think James hadn't broken a few hearts? Relationships either happen or they don't. You can hope and fight for it to happen till you die but people have choices. They have hope you will join their family. Why would that not coming true have them forsake you? Their are certain scum out there that abandon a child for less reasons it's shocking that you assume them to be the same as the wonderful people to take us in".
"... You're right but that doesn't change anything, stop with flirting… Wait, why do you even want to flirt? That's weird coming from an ancient power. Aren't you like technically thousands of years old"?
"Pfft HA. Ronald I shall never lie to you. I am you. The part you ignore and restrict. The parts of you that you kept under wraps due to various reasons. I am the confidence you hid away because Kimberly thinks you have a big head. I am the cunning and the smarts you hid because your teacher got angry that your laziness wasted it. I am countless emotions you hide on the daily… especially how you feel about people. I am the you that was hidden behind the mask of the happy go lucky funny guy you chose to be. So no I'm not some ancient spirit I'm just you, the part of you that doesn't know anything but what the MMP shares and being chained unable to express myself. I'm sorry that just for one little second I wanted to interact with people that have tormented me ever since you found out that women are beautiful".
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"Sorry… I guess I never thought about that… I can't begin to understand how that must be… You're not your own person we're well… we're both the same person but you're your own person… and you've been trapped for all that time… I'll try and tone it down the huh you know alward situation I go through. Can't imagine being around cheerleaders would be pleasant for you".
"I'm sorry I got a little emotional but you're right my entire existence is nothing but nightmares. I'm either experiencing all of our pain or suffering from all we don't experience… That's why I embraced the MMP and fused with it… It shared with me stories and memory's I yearned so heavily for. Just being able to walk and interact with people. Knowing what breathing feels like and it being me doing it and not some second hand experience".
"Wait, that terrible feeling I go through when we switch at first is what you constantly feel? Tell constant weight on your chest how breathing is unbearable".
" You don't want to know how certain things are. I'd rather die than be in Kimberly's body again. That scarred both of us equally. I had questionable thoughts on how everyone should be nicer to women with what they go through til we went through it out of ignorance of course hard to understand what you can't possibly know when you don't even know what it's like to eat food".
"Ugh God please stop reminding me never again. No wonder KP can do anything if she's doing gymnastics and fighting like that."
" Speaking of fighting, how do you feel about going into lessons? I always wanted to master the other styles. It wouldn't hurt when our destiny arrives".
"Yeah that… I mean shouldn't you be unstoppable? I mean can't you just take over our body and with full access to the MMP be insanely strong. I could make an earthquake by lightly tapping the ground when I accepted it a little bit".
"No you're not getting this I AM YOU! Their is no me or you their is us and nothing more. That was when I first accepted the MMP as I didn't like that school. Everyone looking down on us or thinking we don't belong or even worse treat us like some kinda precious resource to be used as they pleased. Tell you the truth, I hate the destiny part of the MMP. Those ancient scholars are so smart why not seal the evil away from everyone? What's stopping them from launching the evil into the sun? Nothing their cowards who put their problems on the future generation. Even the first creator of the MMP didn't last forever much less some ancient evil who's to say there aren't hundreds of 'chosen' that have died a fool's death. We are expected to give our lives up or to fight a battle that should have been completed many years ago and worse they do nothing to help us. We must help ourselves. I can't allow us to die. I love us".
"Wait a second… your right".
"Sorry that I'm new to the whole speaking my mind freely without getting locked up. I entered another rant".
I was thinking, which is another weird thing. I'm in my head thinking about thinking… I digress. We went to a ninja school. Full of trained stealthy killers yet they only taught me Tai Shing Pek Kwar not the mantis style or any other advanced fighting style or even advanced ninjutsu. Is… is being the chosen one like some sort of sacrifice? They want me to kill or destroy the great evil that's plagued the world forever yet…. No no I'm just… I'm not overthinking it. You're completely right about the helping part. About the people is a different story. A week's training and all they thought to teach me is something my opponent is a master of. Yono has so much more than us. How are we to beat him? They haven't even sent anyone over here to teach me other stuff. It's like they don't care that we aren't ready".
"Huh you know of Yono but how"?
I mean you're me and I'm you and you know. He's recorded all over the MMP and the experiences of past users well in different names and languages but the name Yono is most consistent".
"Haha this is great, one step closer to being together then. Is this joy? Happiness? I've never felt so so so…"
"Excited? Relieved?"
"A mix of both Ronald. You're much more accepting of the MMP and me than I ever hoped for. I thought it would be years of us dancing around the idea that we must become one".
"Why are you so willing to disappear? I mean you're the part of me that I rejected for different reasons and while I can say those reasons won't come back up and I won't reject myself anymore you're a person. You have a personality. You exist. We're us but I am myself I have memories you don't have I'm assuming and you have all the knowledge of the MMP that I'm just starting to get into. Our experiences in life are different. Why do you want to end it just like that? Wouldn't you want to I don't know find a way to get your own body"?
"Ronald I am vain, narcissistic, and any other other word you can bring up. I love myself. I love you. If theirs a way to sleep with myself or you I'd do it".
"Ewww woah now hold on a sec…"
"Don't worry it was a joke...kind of anyhow I can't allow myself to have any flaws and there's a huge one in front of me. We're not whole. If I was gone or sealed forever you'd never know hate, you'd be naive, and you'd be taken advantage of your whole life too spineless to change. If you disappear I would never know true love I'd be too paranoid to trust anyone, I would never know how to be happy, and I'll be a angry bomb shell too driven by negative emotions to ever live properly or to even have a laugh. I hate a lot of things but most of all I hate this distance between us. I hate how we're freaks too mentally broken to exist separately and be… normal. I don't like being less than other people. WE ARE BETTER !!! We both have many flaws and combined we would still have our flaws but they'll be ours. The real Ronald Dean Stoppable not two cheap broken novelty versions stuck on each other like a dented worthless coin. Flip flopping emotions at a flip of a coin in every situation. I can't love something so flawed yet I do. This existence is pain. I have so many negative emotions they flop around in me and contradict everything I believe in. Some part of me wanted to rip apart Sheila for daring to put her dirty hands on us and next I was hoping she'd choke harder. I'd love for us to go and slaughter monkey fist and set fire to the people that hurt Sheila yet the logical side of me knows that's not advised".
"Wait hold… I'm glad you explained and I agree with you. I like the feeling of confidence and being in that partially fused state is a different kind of empowering feeling. It is amazing. We can't skip past what you just said. You know who did that stuff to Sheila? How"?
" Well yeah duh we aren't the only people who hide behind a mask and ignore a part of themselves when hurt by trauma. Everyone goes through it. You think Sheila would allow a part of herself to be trusting again? If she didn't trust that she was safe because she is a super powered hero do you think she would follow two guys who randomly show up to her hotel into a heavily guarded facility? I talked to that repressed girl and I talked to the badass on the outside".
"I'm confused... you're hiding something".
" I 2ould hide nothing from myself… if it was my secret to not give out? That doesn't work… ugh no I shall not hold back secrets from yield I'm sorry it is the paranoid in me your so trusting to everyone paranoia had to go somewhere. Sheila trusted no one, not even herself. She only trusted her powers because well the entire world failed her as we know even herself. It was her powers that stopped her from a tragedy and it's her powers that earned her a living when the world threw her away. I connected the MMP to her power briefly to really talk to her. I made her see her life as I did you, switching her perspective to how the repressed sees everything. She learned the lesson and started recovering much sooner than expected. It was my first and only time I shall ever miss use the MMP but I believe it to be for an excellent cause".
"So you invaded everything about her to try and help? That's on another level of things not to do. I can't argue with the results. Sheila was less tense and I saw we helped her with some things she was going through but to damn near force her to change is evil".
" Bah what is evil. If helping my friend makes me evil because I did something distasteful then I'm the king of evil. I'll do it a million times over... and get more sleep time with her".
"Yeah I'm glad that meditation helps couldn't fall asleep at all. Back to the evil topic, it's wrong to invade someone's privacy even if your intentions are good".
Snort
"As if. Good and evil are subjective. What does it matter to you or me if we are split thinking it's evil or good? Sheila is happy and she sees me in a positive light doesn't that make me the good guy to her"?
"You think she would be happy knowing you violated her. You can't just use our powers on people without them much less literally invading their heads it's wrong".
"Teach me morals then funny guy. The joke you're telling me is amazing. Yes, instead of capturing bitter evil men and giving them the help they need, let's put them in jail to give them more reason to be bitter when they so clearly aren't all there mentally".
So what you're saying is we just go around brainwashing people forcibly that's so smart of you smart guy. You're really using your brain, let's go around messing with other people's heads when we can't even get our own head right. Who are you or me or anyone to use our powers to force others to be different. You're no different from Gil trying to mutant others just because he could. He has powers and he could use it to change people. By your logic he's in the right, he's the good guy".
"That's not the same. He was changing people for the worse. We would change the crazies like him or DNAmy to be normal".
"Ironic isn't it you bringing up DNAmy someone else who does things against people's wills just because she thinks it will make them better".
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"I-I… Not the same… you're right. I just wanted to help. I hated seeing someone almost as broken as us. I didn't mean to pull a DNAmy on Sheila… Is this what feeling like shit is? You can keep that to yourself...please I don't like it".
"I don't feel like a number two a lot why… oh my parents yeah you could have kept the feeling a bit longer".
" Would it be evil to go into their minds and give those two the abandoned child treatment".
"Yes incredibly no one should know that pain".
"Funny you should say that since I've been meaning to ask you. I shall explain myself before I tell you. You ignore obsession and it's molded into me. I will not lie to you. I want to further help Sheila. In fact I'm obsessed with it. I've gone my entire existence trying to help us not have nightmares. I was born during those dark days when our emotional damage peaked. I've tried for years to stop the nightmares to just have a day when we don't have to be in pain. Not even the MMP can stop it. All it took was for her to give us a hug and care. I want to help her the same way permanently. It's occupying my thoughts. I want the place where it happened gone and everyone to do with it dead but I kno…"
"Let's do it".
I watched my other self mind projection eyes go wide and the shock on his face broke the serious face I had. I couldn't help but laugh much to his annoyance.
" What I had this whole comparison to people in history and how perspective changes how they're viewed. Vlad the Impaler or Cú Chulainn. This… I don't know huh wha I don't… Confusion".
"Sorry sorry just getting back at you for the sleep with myself thing I looked into your mind. Let's do it, we're gonna expose him for the scum he is. We have to be anonymous and have to show the world such strong proof that even GJ has to arrest despite him giving them fundings. If we show Sheila the world can be fair maybe it will ease some of her pain… I don't know why but it feels like theirs more to it than just what happened and GJ siding against her. I mean she's so strong and even if it's not mentally I don't think she'd be that hurt that she'd give up on the world".
"It's her brothers Hego and Wego who did something when she came to them. The memories was too painful. She asked me to leave when we got to them and despite my lack of boundaries I wanted her to heal so I left".
"That's gonna have to wait then… til she's ready to have us know… Wait Sheila knows you can do all of that to her"?
"I uhh may have erased her repressed emotions memories of me. She thinks it was our conversation that helped. Haha could you not look at me like that I've already seen the error in my logic. Uh if it helps she thinks we'd make a cute blond couple".
"We're gonna talk about erasing people's memories later".
Why is he looking like that… I glared at him what's with that face?
" God I'm hot when I glare. If you'd called me a bad boy we'd have to clean our dirty mind".
"Look I know you're joking but I need you to stop. I get it I don't do dirty jokes a lot so you like doing them but save it for flirting with others".
" Hopefully ones that's green… you think the attraction to an older woman is a mother complex"?
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"Why is that something you'd say to yourself. I'm going back… you made it awkward. Honestly what's your damage why would you say that to yourself".
" HI me if you haven't noticed you got all the social anxiety and I got all the audacity, nothing awkward to me now tell me so I can set up the dynamic".
"And…..he's gone. Good time to plan".
If Ron had stayed he would have seen the violent look in his other self eyes. They burned with passion and you could almost see the malice on his face. This look lasted only for a few moments as the other Ron left and disappeared as they got up from their spot on the bedroom floor.
I wish we could have gotten any sleep at all. Ok time to start planning our disguise school still thinks we are missing from the mission and it's it's weekend. KPs probably going to some date with Josh right now it's the perfect time just needa find something to hide us…
Where are all my clothes… The note dangling in front of my face and the fact all my clothes are black and green easily exposes the culprit. We really need to steal a hovercraft. She had enough time to escape, come to my house, and burn all my clothes and get me new ones before we could get home.
" Told you she thought we'd be a cute blond couple I just didn't know she would be after our 'yummy ass' next time we meet".
"Shut it… aww man this tanks she's gonna beat us down if we don't wear something next time. Why couldn't she sneak in and sleep with me. I'm too sleepy to worry about clothes".
" I hate being tired, the feeling is tiresome. I vote as revenge. We break into her home with a pillow and a blanket and grab her yummy ass".
"I second that vote now come on let's try and find something".
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Ok off to Smarty Mart then to clean up scum. Ain't no way we're ever gonna fit ourselves into skinny jeans unless they got front support".
" We might want to get ones in a similar style. I'm all for getting beaten but I'd like to avoid having our friends' hands on our face instead of our…"
"Yeah yeah yeah she said she likes our butt and our muscles".
"What's your damage? It's not every day we get compliments… it's nice".
"I gotta agree with you there just not looking forward to when we do get sleep".
"Me as well Ronald me as well".