"Dear Kyuubi,

I think I might be broken...everyone around me is having sex and talking about how great it is...but I just don't feel anything, it feels more like a chore. Is there something wrong with me? Am I just doing it wrong like my parents and friends say?

-BroknLost-

Dear BroknLost,

You are not broken at all nor are you wrong...there is no 'right' way to have sex. Someone once told me that sex is like a ritual where partners exchange energy and worship each other body, it shouldn't have to feel like a chore.

With that said...if you are not interested in sex, that's perfectly fine as well! Perhaps you truly haven't found the right person to share that experience with or perhaps you are asexual. One of my close friends told me about it, asexuality is lacking an interest in sex but being interested in someone romantically. It's a sexual orientation just like bisexuality, homosexuality and all the rest that are out there.

You are not broken...just have patience with yourself. Thank you for reaching out to me and do let me know how things go!

XoXo Kyuubi XoXo"

The blonde quickly typed, moving to take a sip of his new coffee, the one that the redhead got him.

"Ow..Ow..hurts!" He hissed as he burned himself again and stuck his tongue out. It's been a few days since the whole confession thing and the blonde was still blushing. He kept reminding himself that it was okay for him to accept Gaara's feeling, that Sasuke wouldn't be furious with him over it...but it was hard.

He went through the rest of the letters then checked his schedule. Naruto needed to buy his plane ticket to go and visit Sakura in two month's time, his check-up was coming up, it also gave the tan a chance to see his sleeping best friend.

His mind went to the redhead, Sakura had requested to meet Gaara...but would it be too soon? Maybe they were rushing things and Gaara would get fed up...or what if there was another accident and this time it was Gaara who got hurt? Naruto wanted to call the redhead, to hear his voice and make sure that the smaller male was safe...but he didn't want to be a burden, the redhead had said that he would be busy with work.

Once more the tan hand moved to grab the fox mug, taking a sip of the honey tasting coffee, letting out a soft sigh. "He's fine...Gaara is fine..I am being dramatic again...I am being stupid." He mumbled to himself.

Naruto knew that he should call Shikamaru...that he should be talking about the symptoms returning but he didn't want to appear as weak...and he didn't want to complain when there were people much worse off than him. There was nothing worth complaining about, the feeling of dread that filled his body would leave and he would be fine.

He went through the rest of the week with that feeling of dread increasing, refusing to fall asleep. Everytime his eyes close he would see those familiar dark ones staring at him lifelessly, he would hear Sasuke's angry voice accusing him of moving on...or see those beautiful Jaded green eyes staring blankly at him, Gaara's body covered in blood.

Naruto was grateful when Saturday came along and Gaara called him to say where they would be meeting and at what time. The blonde was quick to shower, trying to fix his spiky hair even though he knew it was a losing battle. He put on a button down long sleeve orange shirt and dark blue jeans that he knew showed off his powerful legs and nice ass. He smiled at himself in the mirror, seeing his shining white teeth then added just a bit of cologne, a citrusy scent. It had been a gift from Sakura for his birthday ever since he was in high school.

Naruto had agreed to meet at the restaurant, he drove his mini-cooper to the posher part of town. The restaurant was a white brick building which was right by the lake. A valet parker came to take his car away, it was all quite fancy and the blonde suddenly wondered if he was dressed properly for the occasion. He went toward the host and gave his charming smile "Hello Lisa, I was told to mention the reservation under Subaku-No?"

"...Do you mean Sabaku-No?" The posh looking host asked with a slight raised eyebrow, not seeming impressed by the blonde.

"Oh yeah! Haha...Sabaku-No Gaara I believe. He's got really bright red hair and is pale like a porcelain doll." Naruto excitedly said, rubbing the back of his neck.

"...Hmm…" The host looked through the list "And who may you be, Sir?" She asked, looking at his outfit with slight distaste.

The blonde felt slightly uncomfortable, he parted his lips to say his name and got a call from Gaara "Oh...I am right at the front. Did you put the reservation under Sabaku-No Gaara?"The blonde asked.

"Yes...is there a problem? I will go and get you." Gaara calmly replied.

"N-No it's fine! Everything is perfectly fine, I think I might have gotten the dress code wrong is all." The blonde said, looking at the host who was starting to look annoyed.

"I will be there in a minute." With that, the redhead hung up.

"Sorry, he'll be here in a minute." Naruto sheepishly said, trying not to feel like a child that was being secretly scolded by a teacher.

"Yes, I am sure he will." The Hostess said with that look of slight distaste.

They waited silently for a whole minute until he saw the familiar red hair and jaded eyes, the blonde smiled brightly "Hello, Gaara-kun." He warmly greeted, feeling his heartbeat speed up. The redhead was wearing a button down dark red jacket that looked almost brown, he had on black pants and the small gourd around his waist.

"Hello Naruto-kun...is there a problem?" The redhead asked, his voice having a slight edge to it.

The hostess stiffened and turned pale "Oh no...of course not Mr. Suna...we were just getting ready to lead your...friend...toward the VVIP room. Everything is perfectly fine, no need to worry or get angry, really...lovely friend you have Mr. Suna!" There was a slight panic in her voice, giving Naruto a pleading look.

Suna sounded familiar to the blonde but he couldn't remember why. He didn't understand why the hostess looked so terrified. "Everything is fine Gaara-kun, promise! We were just having a nice chat, you know how scatterbrain I can be." Naruto brightly said, moving past the hostess and toward the redhead. "I am sorry...I got the reservation name confused and Lisa here was helping me."

"...Very Well…" The redhead gave one more cold look to the hostess who still looked petrified then Naruto and Gaara went toward the private room that the redhead had reserved. It kept them from prying eyes.

"Suna...Suna...why do I feel like I've heard that name before." The blonde murmured "I thought Sabaku-No was your surname, am I wrong?" Naruto blushed when Gaara pulled the seat out for him and waited for him to sit down then went to sit across from him.

The room was decorated quite elegantly. They sat at a round table with a rose in the middle, a black menu on their right side and a glass of water.

"Sabaku-No Gaara is my alias...my real name is Suna-No Gaara but it can be...inconvenient." The smaller male replied.

"Gaara of the Sand….I like how it sounds."Naruto brightly said and grinned then started to laugh as he remembered the ringtone he had for the redhead.

"What is so amusing, Naruto-kun?" The redhead tilted his head slightly.

"Haha...oh...no...its stupid..haha." The blonde gasped out, trying to cover his mouth but couldn't stop laughing.

"What is it?" The redhead asked once more.

"O-Oh...fine..give me a sec...haha...wait..haha." Naruto tried to calm himself down then blushed brightly "Errmm...promise not to laugh too much, okay?"

"...Laugh?" Naruto was sure that if Gaara had eyebrows one of them would have been raised right now.

"Hey, I've made you laugh before!" The blonde whined and pouted, then looked down "...I may have the song 'Mr Sandman' as your ringtone...and your surname is 'Sand' and you are a man so...yeah...you see?" Naruto squirmed and tried not to look at Gaara. He felt his cheeks redden when he heard the familiar, quiet laugh, his cerulean blue eyes quickly turning to his partner "See, I told you that I'd make you laugh!" Naruto was quick to point out and pout.

"I am unsure what song that is...but your logic is amusing." Gaara replied, his face softening slightly and a hint of a smile on his face.

Naruto held on to his chest, feeling his heartbeat speed up so quickly that he swore his heart would fly away any second now. "...One of these days you are going to give me a heart attack, it really should be a crime to be as perfect as you...I don't think my heart will be able to take it in the long term." Naruto mumbled, looking away.

The writer was met with silence, turning to see his partner staring at him with what looked to be gentleness and shock "...I am not perfect, Naruto-kun, you saw that for yourself."

"That's bullshi-" The blonde stopped as the waiter came with some appetizer and bowed "Would you like to order something, Sir?" The waiter asked Naruto.

"Oh crap...I forgot to look at the menu!" Naruto quickly opened it, trying to see prices but there was none, just different food. "I...errmm...haven't heard about most of these...is there something you recommend, Gaara-kun?"

"Do you have a food allergy?" Gaara asked, his face and voice back to that aloof look that the blonde knew too well.

"Nope, I am as healthy as a horse...or was it as healthy as a cow? I can't remember the saying right now...but I am super healthy!" The blonde brightly replied "No food allergies here!"

"Hmm...bring a second order of what I am having and a vase of Cactus Wine." Gaara ordered, the waiter writing it down and bowing.

"I will bring the vase right away, Sir...if you will excuse me." The waiter excused himself and left.

"Cactus Wine? There's such a thing?" Naruto asked in awe "How is it made?" He curiously asked, giving the redhead his full attention.

"It is made using the Prickly Pear Cactus for the base and fermenting it. Vodka can also be made using cactus." Gaara explained.

"Oh wow...I didn't know that. You sure know a lot about cacti, Gaara-kun! It's amazing!" Naruto gushed, seeing the waiter return rather quickly with an elegant looking brown vase and two wine glasses. Their drink was poured and the rest was left on a medal table.

"I am...quite terrible with alcohol." Naruto warned, looking at the beautiful crimson color of it. He took a sniff, it had a sweet scent then took a sip and another "O-Oh wow...it tastes like Grape at first and then like pear! This is delicious!" Naruto practically moaned out, finishing the half glass of the red liquid in record time.

The redhead swirled his glass, watching the blonde drink and snorted before taking a sip of it "It has only 2% alcohol...but you should still slow down. I am glad that you like it."

"Sorry, got a bit carried away, can I have more?" The blonde asked excitedly "It tastes really good, I thought it would have a bland flavor...or be very bitter but it's not." He looked at the appetizers, tilting his head, then went to grab what looked to be a brown-ish piece of meat that had a long shape. "Mmm, what is this?" He asked, looking quite pleased.

"That is Salted Tongue, it is one of my favorite things to eat." Gaara responded, a gentle smile on his face.

"...T-T-Tongue? This is a tongue?" Naruto asked, shocked, trying to get his heart to slow down. When Gaara smiled his whole face transformed, making him appear younger and more gentle.

"Oxtail tongue." Gaara clarified, sounding slightly amused.

Naruto poured himself more wine and drank about half of it "Oh..um...it's interesting." He felt guilty for the poor Ox but found himself taking another bite, not one to waste food. "Won't you have some?I feel bad being the only one eating."

Gaara let out another snort, shaking his head. His cheeks reddened when Naruto offered him a bite of the piece he just had. The redhead hesitated only for a second before leaning forward and taking a bite of it. They just had an indirect kiss...didn't they?

"What else do you like, Gaara-kun?" Naruto asked, finishing the piece, not seeming to realize that they just shared an indirect kiss.

"The chicken gizzard is also my favorite." The redhead replied, offering Naruto a bite.

The blonde moved forward and took a bite, letting out another moaning sound that made the redhead blush brightly. "Oh wow...what is a gizzard? That tastes really good as well...there's a bit of a kick to it at the end, isn't there? Maybe some chili pepper."

"It's part of the Chicken's stomach and why they do not need teeth...it grinds the food down when it is digested." Gaara explained, feeding Naruto the rest of the piece.

"It's delicious!" The blonde happily said, moving to take some more and drink his wine.

tbc

A.N:/ So my OCD will be bugged if I leave it at 10, I'll post one more chapter to have the perfect 1s.

I feel like Naruto would be the type to laugh at dad jokes and make them as well that why I can't help but laugh every time I read his explanation of his ringtone to Gaara "Mr Sandman...your last name is Sand and you are a man, get it?" No, Naru...no one else gets it but those of us with a terrible sense of humor haha.

I'll be posting now the second part of their date.