A.N:/ Thanks to UnkindnessWrites for the follow, it means a lot to me!
To the person who left me a review telling me I should delete this story, yup, I agree with you 100%, thanks for taking the time to review but I won't delete this story, leaving something unfinished bothers me more then the thought that everything I write is trash and should go down the drain. Only advise I kindly give you if you are still reading this crappy story is not to do that to another writer, you never know their state of mind, I just laughed it off and was like "Mate, if only you knew what my mind tells me on a daily basis, telling me that I should delete this story is something I eat for breakfast with my depression and OCD." Someone else might actually give up or worst, might hurt themselves because of your words.
Now on to the story, thanks to whoever is still reading this, even if its just 2 people interested, I'll continue this story and finish it.
Naruto stared at Gaara, fingers itching to touch him but refrained for now. He tried to remember what happened...they ate some delicious food...he got drunk and...oh no. His eyes widened as he slowly started to remember, moving to cover his face. The blonde heard a familiar snorting sound.
"How much do you remember?" Gaara asked, moving closer.
Naruto kept his face hidden and mumbled something then slowly brought his hands down "...I talked about Sasuke to you...then you got me some Vietnamese coffee...we walked toward the lake...and I fell asleep." Naruto mumbled with bright red cheeks, unable to look at the redhead.
"Anything else?" The redhead asked, looking at the embarrassed blonde.
Naruto tried remembering, it was a blur. He shook his head "How did we get here...and where are my clothes? Did we...did I?" The blonde wasn't sure how to ask if they had sex or if Naruto jumped Gaara. He squirmed, feeling that stare on him.
"We did not have sexual intercourse if that is what you are wondering, Naruto-kun." Gaara calmly said.
Naruto found himself laughing, looking at Gaara "Sexual intercourse? Really, Gaara-kun?" He giggled at the choice of word, all anxiety leaving him.
"What is so amusing? We did not have sexual intercourse, I promise." Gaara replied, tilting his head slightly.
Naruto shook his head and kept giggling then moved to hug the redhead "You sound like my high school sex ed teacher...most people would just call it sex, Gaara-kun." Naruto said with an amused tone, letting his nose nuzzle the pale neck "You smell really nice...like the earth..mmm and a bit salty it makes me think of the ocean." The blonde murmured.
Gaara squirmed slightly, feeling his cheeks redden "Are you still drunk, Naruto-kun?" The redhead murmured.
"I don't think so...why?" Naruto softly asked, closing his eyes then remembered where they were "I did warn you that I am overly affectionate and physical...and your body fits perfectly against mine, it's not my fault, it's yours!"
A snort left the redhead lips "You did warn me." Gaara simply replied "You also get very affectionate when you are drunk, did you know that?" There was a hint of amusement.
"...What did I do, Gaara-kun?" The blonde asked, eyes wide. He shivered as the cool breeze hit them "Can we continue this conversation inside? I am not sure your neighbors would enjoy seeing me in my boxers."
"Hm." The redhead only agreed because he wanted to be the only one to see Naruto in his boxer. He was dragged to the couch where the blonde proceeded to pull him toward the tan legs. Gaara tried not to squirm and pull away, this was something he would need to get used to...physical affection.
"Your body is so cool, I swear you were made to be cuddled!" Naruto said "Now, what did I do while I was drunk?" He knew that he could get quite handsy.
"Aside from kissing me...and trying to get me undressed?" Gaara casually asked.
"I-I tried to get you undressed?" Naruto asked in shock, feeling his ears turn red.
"Hm." Was all the redhead said.
"...I-I-Is that all?" Naruto quietly asked.
"You also proceeded to throw up all over both of us just as you were about to kiss me." Gaara added calmly, eyes lit up with amusement.
"...Oh my gods, I am sooo sorry, Gaara-kun! I swear I am not normally like that!" The blonde said horrified, hiding his face using the redhead's pale neck.
"So you don't normally start singing 'Mr Sandman' either, hm?" The redhead was highly enjoying this.
"Oh no." Naruto said mortified "I didn't!"
"I believe you said 'Mr Sandman bring me a Gaara' among other things." A soft laugh escaped the redhead's lips, remembering the drunk Naruto.
"It's not funny Gaara-kun! It's terrible...it sounds terrible." The blonde whined, holding on tighter to the smaller body, kissing Gaara's cheek sweetly "Fine, you can dump me right now! I can be exiled to the middle of nowhere and live the life of one of those nuns or whatever! Forever the world will know the embarrassing tale of Naruto Uzumaki...the idiot who threw up on his date!"
The redhead shivered and squirmed, feeling the warm lips against his pale skin. "I do not mind...I thought it was cute." The redhead said.
"Gaara-kun you are too good to me!" The blonde whined, letting their cheeks rub against each other "Honestly, you really are...so how did I end up with new clothes and how come my mouth doesn't taste like vomit?"
"...Your clothes were dirty so I had to remove them...and you smelled of vomit so I had you take a bath." The redhead softly said.
Naruto felt his cheeks turn bright red "Y-Y-You saw me naked!"
"I kept the light low, all I saw was the outline...but I was unsure if your prosthetic arm could get wet or not so I kept it outside the bath while you got cleaned up then you got dressed in my shirt and your boxer...and I had you brush your teeth with a spare toothbrush I had." The redhead explained, cheeks a bright red color.
The blonde stayed quiet for a bit, trying hard to remember but only got glimpses. "...It can get wet. Thank you for everything, Gaara-kun." He softly said.
"There is no need to thank me." The redhead replied, trying to stop his squirming, he was getting overwhelmed with the touches even though it was something so simple.
"Huh...Gaara-kun your face looks quite flushed, are you catching a fever?" The blonde asked, moving to turn the redhead's face and press their forehead against each other "...It feels a bit warm, maybe you should lay down." He murmured.
"I am okay...your lips tickles." Gaara quietly replied, biting his bottom lip.
"S-Sorry." Naruto mumbled, pulling away slightly.
"I don't mind...it feels nice. Is this what Uncle Yashamaru was talking about? That medicine for the heart?" Gaara softly asked, holding on to his chest. "For a long time...this part here ache and nothing I did helped...but you make it feel better...you make me feel warm."
Naruto tried to stop blushing, remember the ache in his heart when he had been younger and alone...then when it came back after the accident when Sakura didn't talk to him and he was alone. "Affection? We all need it...this is something important to what is called human nature. Even monkeys and apes won't last long if they are rejected at birth and don't receive affection." Naruto explained, his fingers wrapping around the red locks. He stared at the beautiful glass looking eyes, the dark rings surrounding it and then pressed their lips against each other, his eyes closing. Naruto was happy when he felt cooler lips press back, it was a simple kiss but it made the blonde feel warm.
A part of him felt guilty for feeling this happy, as if he was betraying Sasuke by moving on...by liking someone else. He pulled away from the kiss, resting their forehead against each other "You are not some selfish monster that deserves to be alone." Naruto was unsure if he was saying that for Gaara's benefit or his own.
"Naruto-kun?" The deep voice made a warmth spread throughout Naruto's body.
"Sorry, I am just being sentimental...ignore it." The blonde said with a soft smile, kissing the pale cheek.
"I do not think you are being sentimental...and what is wrong if you are?" Gaara asked, turning so that he was facing the blonde and straddling him "You are fine just the way you are Naruto-kun...you are my light."
Naruto felt his whole face turn bright red, staring at the beautifully pale face, his fingers running through the spiky, crimson locks then cupped the smaller cheek and rested their forehead against each other "I should be the one saying those words...you are the one that has become my light." Naruto murmured, rubbing their nose against each other. "If I am being too affectionate or physical...just let me know, okay? I don't want you to ever do something you are not comfortable with just because you'd think it would make me happy."
"...If it's Naruto-kun touching me then it's fine." Gaara practically whispered, pressing their lips against each other.
The blonde savored the kiss, he tried to memorize the feeling of their lips against each other, the salty yet earthy scent that seemed to belong to Gaara and the way their body seemed to feel against each other. Naruto tried not to let his mind go to the gutter, imagining a pale body, wondering just how hairless Gaara was, how would it feel if they...if they...it was embarrassing to even think about it!
"It's wrong for two guys to be together, Naruto...just forget what happened last time, it was a mistake!" The blonde could hear Sasuke's voice clearly, for a moment he swore that he saw the raven and suddenly the massive guilt came back.
Naruto pulled away from their kiss, he searched Gaara's face and held him tightly, body shaking at the memories. He wished that he wasn't like this, there was no reason for him to feel like this...he should be happy...he was happy.
"What's wrong, Naruto-kun?" Gaara's voice had a hint of worry to it.
The blonde shook his head and smiled brightly "Nothing is wrong...I am just happy...really happy." He would keep repeating those words to himself until it became true.
"You seem sad." The smaller male pointed out, pale fingers moving to run through the spiky blonde locks.
"I do?" Naruto softly asked and shook his head "I am not sad, I am perfectly fine! Actually I am more than fine thanks to you." The blonde brightly said, rubbing their cheeks against each other. He kissed Gaara more desperately, pulling the smaller body closer to his own, a groan escaping his lips.
Gaara kissed back slowly, almost awkwardly. He could feel that the blonde needed this closeness right now yet he could not understand what brought the change in mood. The redhead felt the warmer lips move toward his neck and kiss down it. The lips left a tingling sensation behind, he could feel warm hands sliding underneath his shirt and touch his pale skin.
The redhead put a hand firmly on the taller male's chest and pulled away "Naruto-kun...stop." The voice came out slightly breathless, Gaara squirming above Naruto.
The blonde stopped, looking at the redhead "You...don't want to?" He softly asked.
"...Not like this...not now when you are clearly not here with me. Your mind is elsewhere." The redhead replied, moving to get up "You wanted to take things slowly...remember?"
Naruto stared quietly, watching the redhead pull away from him "I...should go." He's just made a complete idiot of himself again. He stood up, cheeks bright red and looking embarrassed.
"Stay...right now you are not in the best mind to drive. You can sleep in my bed." Gaara calmly replied, looking at his partner. There was a deep sadness past those cerulean blue eyes. The redhead wondered if he would always have to compete with Sasuke.
The tan male shook his head "I should go...I don't want to become a burden to you, Gaara-kun. I just need to think for a bit." He softly said.
"You could never be a burden to me, Naruto-kun...now stay." The redhead hesitated before moving to wrap their fingers against each other, by the texture he could feel it was the prosthetic one. The redhead led the blonde back to the room and helped him get on the bed, tugging him in.
When Gaara moved to walk away he was pulled back by Naruto, feeling the blonde pull him to the bed and hug him. "...Cuddle with me?" The blonde softly asked, almost pleading.
Gaara searched Naruto's face then nodded, getting underneath the cover as well, feeling the tanned body pressed against his. The blonde nuzzled the pale neck and sighed softly then slowly dozed off. The redhead somehow ended up dozing off as well, the scent of citrus surrounding him.