A/N: Moving on. This chapter made me think of Mazzy Star's "Fade Into You". It's a classic.

Chapter 9: Fade Into You

August 2014, the end of summer

The few weeks following the visit to Alice's passed quickly. We have our weekly brunch session at the Cullen mansion and Edward spends as much time with me as he can. When he's not with his other friends, he's with me. We fuck, we make the most of the sunny weather, and we avoid confronting his impending exit date.

All too soon it's August and he's leaving tomorrow. I'm helping Edward finish the last of his packing. By the time the last box is finished we're exhausted and throw ourselves down on his bed to rest.

Edward and I have been pretty silent today. We're both somber but I don't want him to remember me like this. I want Edward to be happy about finally being able to leave this place. I turn to my side to face him and Edward shifts his body to face me as well. I smile at him the best I can, even though I can feel a tear escape my eye. Edward reaches his hand out to cradle my cheek and wipe the traitorous tear away.

He's so kind and I owe it to him to let him leave easily. So I give him my blessing when I say, "I'm happy for you. I truly am Edward. This is what we have always wanted. Don't you dare think I'm not happy for you. So go and don't look back. Respect me enough to not say anything that expresses any sort of guilt".

The words I speak come out softly and without any restraint. I mean them from the bottom of my heart.

"I know you're happy for me Bella. Thank you for giving me this summer. Take care of yourself here and know we're waiting for you out there. I'll miss you. Don't ever fucking question that.", he replies.

Edward doesn't have tears in his eyes but I don't expect him to either. He doesn't cry outwardly because he's always the one to wipe away our tears. He's always been there for me and Alice this way.

Knowing that I can't talk about it anymore and how words can't express enough feelings, we resort to using our bodies. We take time to slowly undress each other and burn this last time into our memories. We'll always have this secret summer with secret feelings. We won't ever have this time back and we can't acknowledge whatever lingering feelings may have grown. We only have this last moment.

When we're undressed we take turns pleasuring each other, trying to make it last as long as possible. Edward's fingers explore my eager pussy. He's pushing his fingers deeply in and out, rubbing my sensitive clit, and bringing me to an orgasm in less than 5 minutes. When I've come down from my pleasure I go down on him. I take lengthy licks of his shift, tease the tip, and suck hard on him. I alternate between taking him as deep as I can and bobbing my head fast. I swallow every drop of him when he cums down my throat.

Even after his orgasm, Edward is still hard. He climbs on top of me and I open my legs to feel him flush against me. I reach between us to place him at my entrance and look into his green eyes. I want to be as lost in them as I can for the little time we have left. We're both silent and he's staring into my chocolate brown eyes too. Our looks are conveying everything we can never say out loud and goodbye. When it's too much, I close my eyes and press my lips to his to give him a soft kiss. Edward thrusts into me with our lips still connected.

The first thrust is the best. The feeling of my body opening up for his is indescribable. It's ecstasy embodied and I savor the feeling as he slides in slowly. It's not animalistic fucking this time. It's passionate farewell and we take our time to build up a rhythm.

"It's so good Edward. Fuck. You feel so good. Don't stop.", I tell him in between breathy pants and soft moans.

"Your pussy was made for me Bella. You're gripping me so tight. I can't hold on for much longer."

I reach my hand between us to feel him thrusting into me. I want to memorize this connection before I lose myself in my orgasm. Edward let's out a groan when he feels my fingertips touching where we meet. I know he's close so I move my hand to my clit to reach my orgasm with him.

My pussy is throbbing around him and I can't hold on for longer either.

"I'm gonna cum. Cum with me", he tells me.

My pussy clamps down on him hard and Edward pushes himself as deep as he can into me. It's so deep it's almost painful. With a groan I feel Edward spill his cum inside me. He's pulsing inside me and milking my orgasm for everything it's worth. When we've both managed to catch our breath, he helps clean me up. We take turns redressing and lay back down to hold each other until it's time for dinner.

Esme and Carlisle are both happy and sad to see their son leave them. They're going on vacation once he's gone in order to ignore their empty nest. I don't blame them at all. I wish I could do the same but school is going to start for me soon. I'll spend my time visiting Alice as much as possible before then.

We eat dinner and laugh at how nervous Edward is that he won't make friends. It reminds me of how youthful and lively he still is. He's never been as equally jaded as I have been and I love him for that innocence. He'll be just fine, I know it. Edward will make new friends, fall in love, and this will just be a memory. He deserves everything good in this world just like Alice does. I want that for him, even if a part of me feels like it's going to die without him. I'll smile through it and move forward too. One day we'll laugh about this summer in secret. We'll all be somewhere else in a big city but together: Alice, Edward, and me.

I spend the night sleeping next to Edward and we fuck one last time. It's frantic this time, both of us desperate to not say goodbye but knowing it's necessary. He grasps my hands tightly in his while giving me hard thrusts. Afterwards he holds me while I silently cry. It's not a bad cry though. It's an accepting cry. It's the bittersweet kind.

"I love you dearly Edward. Don't ever fucking question that".

"I love you too B. Remember that."

I don't think too hardly on what kind of love I feel for him because it's irrelevant now. It's unnecessary and unacceptable. I don't think too hardly on what Edward might feel back because deep down I know he feels the same. It was there all summer even though we denied it. I've always been good at casual sex but Edward was never nobody to me. I should've known better, but I have no regrets. I know he feels the same too.

I fall asleep in his arms, comfortable and safe. In the morning he wakes me up to say goodbye and I'm not even grumpy. We don't have time for that.

"See you later Bella."
"Take over the world Edward Cullen."

I give him a big smile and it's genuine. His returning smile is so bright and heartbreaking. Above all else, we'll always be supportive.

Edward presses a kiss to my forehead and then my lips. When he pulls his lips away, I cup his cheek and give him an approving nod. I'm telling him it's time and it's okay.

We exit the pool house and he says goodbye to his parents. Esme wraps her arms around me as we watch him pull out of the drive way. We stand there until his car disappears from sight. I say goodbye to Carlisle and Esme as well, since they're leaving for vacation today too. Then I get into my car and take the long way home. The salty air on the 101 mixes with the salty tears staining my cheeks. I'm smiling and probably look crazy to anyone whose watching me through my windows. Fuck them all. My best girl and my best guy are free. All that's left is me and I don't have time to feel sorry for being the last one.