And only one day after the mission with Kim Possible. All she wanted to do was relax, however, today was the day Shego dreaded. One of the days she agreed to see a therapist, who just happened to be her co-club owner. While he was recommended by her psychiatrist, he technically wasn't licensed. Shego thought he wasn't even as good as her psychiatrist was at the whole therapy thing, but there wasn't a long list of people willing to help her kind. They met at the bar and sat down in a booth and exchanged pleasantries.

"And What are we covering today," Shego asked incredulously.

"Your past. I would like to cover the time you left Team Go."

"Past is off-limits,"

"Perhaps we can discuss Kim Possible then?" He smiled while Shego frowned.

"You don't have to say everything, just what you feel comfortable with…" He softened his voice.

"Fine, I was fed up with Hego's Platitudes and diatribes" She nearly shouted.

"Your medical records I received stated you ran away from home around sixteen years of age. Not long before you left Team Go." Shego's eyes shifted away from his.

"I was assaulted." He looked confused.

"I believe you were a superhero, is fighting not the norm." He said.

"Sexually, I was sexually assaulted." The club owner froze. Though over his words carefully but couldn't stop from speaking unconsciously as Shego swore for a brief moment his eyes went bright red.

"You were sexually assaulted?" His tone was a mix of unconscious anger and empathy.

" yes, and after that, I just remember running and running, and running as fast and as far as I could away from that hell hole. I ran for what felt like forever until I came across a bridge over a river. I remember jumping the bridge." Her words flowed more naturally.

"And that was the first time you tried to kill yourself."

"That obvious Sammy?" Shego's attempt at distraction fell flatter than she hoped.

"Shelia, you know that's not…"

"Sorry Sammy, I overheard you and your brother talking. That's your real name, Samuel." Shego Interrupted as her therapist pursed his lips.

"Continue." Her therapist signaled with a wave of his hand.

I woke up from a nightmare on a beach by the woods.

"A nightmare about the assault you experienced shortly before?"

"Yeah, now are going to let me tell you what happened?" She asked incredulously.

Her therapist asked for a quick moment while he got up and poured himself a glass of scotch from the bar of club Sandiego.

"Now, I'm ready." He said as Shego rolled her eyes.

I woke up from a nightmare on a beach by the woods. I don't know what I was doing, I actually thought I died at the time. I guess I didn't, anyway as soon as I was awake I just started running. I ran over logs, rocks, fallen trees, only to trip on a mess of vines. It was only after I fell did I notice something wasn't quite right anymore. The forest had become lusher and almost jungle-like. Flowers of many colors contrast the green. I didn't even hear her walk up behind me. Though I guess it was her domain now.

"Hey Kid what are you doing here?" That voice, I know that voice. I recognized it from the news. I turned to look in the direction and there she was standing right in front of me.

"I, um, uh…" I stammered and she looked like she was about to get very mad at me so I closed my eyes in preparation for what was to come. Because even I know what happens when you cross her. However, the expected violence never came. I felt a soft hand on my shoulder.

"Hey kid, you look like you've been through hell, what's up with that?" I opened my eyes and stared into the deep emerald gaze. Admired her hair that looked like bright fire in the wind. Then there is her skin, her green skin. Maybe it was the fact that we had a similar skin tone or was it the soft features on her face looking to reassure me. I just knew I felt safe again.

"Kid?" She knelt next to me.

"Oh, I was running and I jumped off a bridge," I muttered.

"That's a good way to get yourself killed."

"That was the plan," I spoke as fast and as quietly as I could. I don't think it worked. Because I could have sworn I saw her pupils dilate.

"What's your name kid?"

"Carm…I mean Sheg… I mean Shelia!." Not only did we have to go by those stupid superhero names, but he also made us change our real names in a courtroom. I love my name. When mom told me the real reason she named me Carmen, God, I miss her. If she was here then… then….

"Hey, now don't cry Shelia, but I have to ask, you're on that new Team go right." I nodded.

"Why is Shego of Team Go trying to kill herself?" Her voice was unusually gentle.

"I killed someone…" My voice was barely audible from my perspective as I noticed her brow furrow.

"Tell me about it." Her voice and expression were flat and colder than before. Was she going to kill me? Why she was a villain right? Why would she kill me, unless? Did I damage any plants on the way here?

"I, last night.." I took a deep breath.

" Last night I had eaten dinner alone after fighting Aviarius. I had finished my homework and just lied down for bed. It was about twenty minutes later that I heard my door open. I hoped it was just one of my new foster parents checking in on me. It would have been better than the last set of foster parents. They beat me, never could make a case."

"Apparently being a superhero means, having broken ribs and bruises is a normal part of the job…" I laughed looking off into the space beyond Ivy,

"Anyway, turns out my hopes were miss placed. He called out to me. I ignored him. He must have thought I was asleep initially. He started caressing me. Started to touch places i knew he shouldn't. I wanted to do something to stop it, I felt my powers surging begging to do something, but I heard Hego's words echo through my head. We couldn't harm our foster families no matter what; we had to protect them because even taking us in puts them at more risk. I heeded those echoes and didn't fight back. That was until he started to grab my breast. I didn't have much choice; I pretended to wake up and told him to stop or else. Next thing I know I have I'm being held down by my throat. I closed my eyes trying to fight him off without hurting him. Hego's words still echoed in my head as I tried to hold back my own cosmic power. Then I felt him rip off my pajamas, I felt his….. Against my….."

"You don't have to go into that much detail, I understand what happened." Ivy looked at me I couldn't quite place the look in her eyes at the time.

"After….while….before, I don't remember all I know is I saw a flash of green light. When I opened my eyes everything around me was ash. Half the house. I was sitting in a pile of ash. It didn't take long for me to realize what I had done, so I ran. I just kept running until the bridge. I figured dying on my own terms was better than being executed like Hego said would happen if we crossed over to villainy. I mean I murdered an innocent civilian."

"No!" Her voice scared me, I stared at her as she stared at me.

"You defended yourself. He was not innocent. His actions…."

"I lost control of my powers," I screamed.

"You defended yourself, You did nothing wrong." I felt like I was being scolded by my mother. I was pretty sure I started to cry. God, I miss her, Ivy pulled me into a hug.

"Shelia…"

"That's not my name…."

"What would you like me to call you." She had unusually kind eyes from what I would expect for someone of her caliber.

"Miss Ivy, my name is Carmen, Carmen del la Valdez."

"Well Carmen I'm glad I met you, but please just call me Ivy," I remember her laughing and taking me back to her house.

Shego sat back in the booth she shared with her therapist/ club co-owner. He sat back finishing his glass.

"So that's how you became a villainess, by meeting your idol?" He asked. Shego shrugged and got a glass of water from the bar and sat back down.

"Not exactly I only stayed with her for six months before returning to team go. But those six months were everything to me. "

"Explain."

It was about three months after staying with her, I remember sitting at her kitchen table once again drinking this nasty tea.

"Miss Ivy, why do you keep serving this gross tea to me?" I asked.

"It's a mix of Kava, Saraswat Churna, and honey. Both herbal mixtures are a special breed to make their effects as strong as what would normally be prescribed by a psychiatrist. They work as antidepressant and anti-anxiety medications. We are going to have to start weaning you off of them, but I'm going to have a friend come in and help with your emotional dysregulation. Your powers seem to be under control now, let's get the rest of you that way." She explained.

"Oh, ok miss Ivy." I readily accepted

"It's just Ivy, the whole miss thing is really weird."

"I have an aunt Ivy so just saying Ivy is really weird for me." Ivy stood there contemplating my response.

"I suppose you could call me Dr. Isley, no that would be too formal…I…" I remember she was muttering for a while. Something about taking in orphans before and it not working out so well. She was so lost in thought.

"It's ok, I can learn…"

"How about Sis?" The words she spoke seemed so out of character for her. At least anything I knew about her. I guess it wasn't much, but the fact she hates human beings was so well known.

"Um…" She looked at me forlornly.

"Is it because I am a villain and you're a hero. Cant be associating with the likes of me?" She frowned but I burst out laughing.

"No, that's not it at all, besides my momma always said that there were three fine lines between good and evil. "

"And those are?" Ivy's voice upturned.

"The two edges and the space between." I got a confused look in response.

"Boredom, the law, and one's own moral compass and how far one is willing to go to abide by it. Think of boredom and your moral compass as the two edges. They are the only things that can shift sides of the coin. The space between them aka the law is the deciding factor on what is good or evil slash right or wrong. That's at least according to society."

"Then what is your reservation, Carmen?" Ivy asked me.

"I've never really had anyone, my brother sure, but anyone else. The comet hit when I was six. My momma died from cancer caused by the residual radiation a year later. I've had foster families, but as you know those weren't the greatest. No real friends. Hard when you're a green freak." Ivy gave me a pensive stare.

"Sorry… it's just the other kids…they bullied me a lot. Coming out made it worse. At least I could take my frustrations out on the 'bad guys' but I had never a friend let alone someone who you know would want to be like a sister to me….let alone someone as amazing as you?" And with that, she burst out laughing at me.

"Trust me, kid, you're plenty amazing as you are, i mean not many people can do what you do."

"Besides," She smiled at me.

"Even though I don't need anybody. I just wish...I wish I had someone like me. That sounds like it could be you. We could be two peas in a pod if you want. Let me show you the world. Let me show you a new perspective, let me be your sis, Carmen Del la Valdez." I ran up and hugged her. I could have died then and there, thank god for comet healing powers.

Just then there was a knock at the door. Ivy hadn't even made it to the door before a bubbly blonde burst through the door.

"Hiya Red!"

"Dr. Quinzell," Ivy stated bluntly

"Oh right, is this the kid?" Dr. Quinzell nodded furiously as Ivy pulled her into another room for a bit before they walked out and formally introduced me to her.

"So Is that how you became a villain?" It was her therapist's turn to step back and take a contemplative breath.

"Nope, I went back to Team Go, refreshed. A new understanding of the world. Blindly thinking I could help it. I was wrong."

A half a year later It started the night before putting Electronique away before she broke out many years later. Ivy and Dr. Quinnzell gave me a reduced strength tea to have twice a day, Ivy said that Dr. Quinzell said it was better to stay on the med for now. She also gave me a rescue inhaler. It contained special hybrid cannabis and lavender extract. Fast-acting, she said I might have panic attacks, I didn't believe her because in my entire six months I had stayed with her. Through everything, I never did have a single one. I guess it was just a precaution.

I went to go grab a teabag from my room only to find it was missing. All of them were missing. A whole three months worth missing. I took a deep breath. Centered and went to the main living area.

"Hey guys, I had a box in my room with some tea in it, do you know where it went?" I asked as nonchalantly as possible. The Wego's and Mego simply shrugged. Hego on the other hand had a look to him. I stared.

"Where did you put it Hego?" the demand in my tone.

"Excuse me I noticed you never call your brothers by their real names?" The question was simple but Shego still pondered the question her therapist asked.

"The Wegos are too young to remember the name Momma gave them. Mego changes the names he uses into whatever is appropriate for the moment. He does it logically, can't blame him. Just using Mego just keeps things easier for purposes of our discussion. Hego, that's all I will ever call him. He threw away the names that were given to us in exchange for more American aliases. Then we had to get these stupid Hero names so we could be 'all American heroes.' The jackass basically erased everything we were given. Everything!" Shego slammed her fists into the table.

"Then why do you go by Shego?"

"So I can run everything he holds dear through the dirt." Her answer was simple enough.

"Anyway.." Shego said with a wave of her hand.

"Where did you put it Hego?" the demand in my tone.

"Your drugs?" He raised his eyebrow.

"My tea, in tea bags, inside a locked box," I said, anger rising.

"Shego It was green funny-smelling plants in small baggies. I know what marijuana is Shego. I threw it in the incinerator." He talked so confidently. This idiot wouldn't know a daisy from a rose.

"Hego, It was tea that was in tea bags, inside a box that was locked. How did you get in?"

"Super Strength.." he shrugged.

"You invade my privacy, throw out my personal items." By this point I was shaking, I knew it. All I could think is what happened the last time I went without my Tea. I lashed out striking Hego. He lit his glow and I lit mine. He was throwing clumsy punches. I could outfight him before, thanks to a few impromptu gymnastics and some unconventional fighting lessons and I could have wiped the floor with him had I not been so angry.

Angry enough to not think logically or tactically, angry enough to not see whatever I tripped on. Before I knew it I had Hego on top of me screaming something. I don't know I blacked out. Well, that's a lie. I for a brief moment was back…back in that bed, with that man on top of me. I came back when a surge of my powers blew him off of me. I tried to run to my room. Hego grabbed my wrist.

"Don't touch me!" I screamed so loud I think I remember my throat being horse afterwords. When I made it to my room I used my inhaler as instructed. Blow out for four seconds. Breath in for two, inhaler and inhale for two seconds hold breath for four seconds, blow out for four seconds. It didn't help. I reached for my phone and called Ivy. When she picked up I was erratic.

"Help, I..Please, Sis, Hego he…., Help me." I heard her try to calm me down

"Please, help. I.. can't " I melted my phone. After that I just remember crying and screaming, I don't know how long. I remember the unintentional discharge of my powers. I don't remember when the door was broken down but I know I turned to look.

"Harley?" She was standing there holding a giant bag of ice and a glass of water.

"Hey, Ivy will be in soon she just has to…take care of some things." I nodded as she set down the bag of ice. Then she picked me up and plopped me down so I was sitting on it.

"Where are we right now sweetie?" Her voice was soft, understanding.

"Um…, we're at…Go Tower." It was hard enough to think, it didn't help that I felt like my ass was about to become a frozen tv dinner.

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"Good," She had me get up and put a towel between me and the bag of ice. At least now I wasn't going to be freezer burnt. She offered the glass of water and did a basic medical check. Heart rate, bpm, blood pressure, etc.

"Ok, tell me what happened?" I did my best to explain everything that happened. From the missing tea to the fight.

"Then I don't know it was like I was back…there" I didn't really have the words to describe what happened.

"It's called a flashback sweetie." She smiled at me, she then proceeded to tell me we were going to make some changes to my treatments. After Ivy came through the door she offered to have me move back in with them. I told her I'd consider it, I but really wanted to try being on my own. We agreed to regular visits.

It wasn't until the next day that everything really boiled over. We had been called in to stop Electronique. Her plan wasn't bad. Short wave mind control over the radio waves. Not bad, except like every supervillain she has to gloat. Always the smartest person in the room.

Mom always said 'Think out your plan like a woman of action. Then act out your plan like a woman of thought.'

Electronique didn't exactly do the latter half. We had chased her to her hideout. My brothers fought off the henchman and there she was on the catwalk. I think it was a superiority thing for her. It made it quite easy to fight her.

"Electronique what are we doing here?" I said one part confidence, one part false concern.

"Yes, What is your dastardly plan villain," Hego exclaimed and I pinched the bridge of my nose.

"Hego, Please for just five minutes. Shut the fuck up."

"Sister, hero's don't use curse words." I rolled my eyes.

"Mine do," I said as I blasted him to the other side of the room. The rest of the team stepped back. Now watch me do my thing.

"Electronique…" I drawled.

"What are we doing here, doing the same old song and dance. Really you're a brilliant technopath. You control electricity, yet here you are fighting these four D-Tier heroes." I pointed to Team go.

"Why not go out and fight in the big leagues, be a part of medical advancements, do something that advances technology. Yet here we are," I sauntered over with a slight sway of my hips. Changed my tone to something softer.

"What is it you want? The thrill, or recognition?" I played with my hair a bit on the last one.

" We can help you, maybe not totally keep you out of jail, but I'm sure we can work something out. You could do so much good in this world and even maybe get a little bit of what you want." I put as much 'care' into my voice as possible granted I'm sure I laid it on a bit thick.

"Is your ego so big that you think you can save everyone?" She laughed. Great denial and deflection. Ok, we can still do this peacefully. The next step is my favorite. I lit my power hotter than anything else I had before. I'm sure the others could feel the heat radiate off of me.

I launched a consistent stream of plasma at the floor using the pressure to launch me up on the catwalk next to her. Using the remaining heat I melted one of the steel safety rails before powering down.

"Not, everyone. Maybe not even you, however, I can at least give you a starting…" Before I could finish Hego crashed into the catwalk knocking us all to the ground. He then started to punch down on her Like a playground bully. I blasted him off and told him to stay off her. I tried to help her out, but she blasted me with her electron beam. I flipped over her kicked her knees out and used the prison zip ties from my leg pouch to restrain her.

Hego tackled me stating he was going to arrest me for attacking him while he was engaged in combat with a supervillain.

"Hego, you were beating a downed woman who was going to give up," I argued.

"Sis, we beat villains up. Stop their plots and arrest them. What is so hard about that?"

"That was excessive force I screamed," I screamed as he once again lunged at me. This is getting old was the only thing I thought as I flipped over him. We engaged in fighting once again.

"Sister I feel you are turning to the dark side. After what happened with Aviarius and now this I fear it may be too late." He said through a punch that was easily dodged. I countered with a strong kick to his ribs.

"Yes, I was helping him! He just wanted to save the wildlife. Now he swore revenge against Team Go. If we would have helped him back some initiatives and built some habitats. He would have just been a bird-obsessed crazy old man. " I got a good punch on his face and backflipped out of his counterattack while using the moment to kick him in the jaw.

"I mean hell the local battery factory was dumping into GO lake and killing wildlife and vegetation to the point where we attracted an A-list Eco… never mind. If that factory wasn't blown up and the CEO murdered they'd still be dumping and poisoning our water table. That would eventually be killing thousands of people." Another flurry of attacks.

"Shego that sounds like villainy. Team Go would never engage in any kind of evil for any reason." Great, more of his platitudes I couldn't help but laugh.

"Really now." The smirk on my face grew.

"How do you think We've funded Team Go? The jet, the tower, and everything else." I asked.

"From what I understand mostly inheritance." After that, my face hurt from my own smile.

"How do you think momma got all that money?" unfortunately before I can drop the bombshell Global justice broke in and I was facing Elizabeth.

"Dr. Director, I am placing Shego under arrest," Hego stated.

"Why are we placing her under arrest." Elizabeth had one Eyebrow raised, strangely enough, it was the one over the eye patch.

"I fear she has fallen to evil she once again tried to help a villain. She even attacked me." He was like a damned toddler going to mommy.

"I was using nonviolent de-escalation and you were using excessive force," I explained.

"Hero's don't attack other heroes."

"That's it, I'm done. I quit, I'm out." I turned to Elizabeth.

"Sorry, not sorry Elizabeth." I went to release Electronique from her restraints.

"I can't let you do that," Elizabeth said. I looked at Electronique. I whispered in her ear one final offer. She rejected it and guess what; she swore revenge on Team Go. I walked away.

"You get this one courtesy, Dr. Director." I then went outside through the hole that GJ made and used my powers in a way that I only theorized I could. I allowed my glow to encompass my body like Wego, Mego, and sometimes Hego did. I then used plasma from my hands and feet and what do you know I could fly. I went to go tower, put my things into the Go-Jet, and stole that, and well you know the rest. Became an internationally feared thief and then got a job with Drakken and eventually started kicking Kim Possible's ass on a nearly weekly basis.

"And now you're friends with Miss Possible." Her therapist laughed.

"I guess so" Shego shrugged. He looked at her features, studied her, and took a breath.

"Do you feel bad about the way you left your brothers?" He asked.

"No,"

"Do you still resent your brothers?"

"Just Hego, the rest, while annoying, aren't as bad as they used to be…Besides I got to meet, Sis, Kimmie and connect with my cousin so I think it all worked out." Her voice trailed off.

"Ah yes, your evolving relationship with Miss Possible how is that going?" His grin was starting to annoy Shego.

"Fine."

"First you fight her, save her life, then help her save the world. Now you, get coffee, spar, and help her on missions."

"One mission." Her green eyes narrowed wondering what his point was,

"You two seem to be getting rather close." his words echoed in her mind.

The two sat in silence before a timer went off on the club owner's phone. He looked at his phone. 'Appointment with Possible in 5 minutes' He sighed.

"I'm afraid our time is up we will have to delve deeper into this on our next appointment." He said before walking out the door of the nightclub. Although instead of leading to the street it opened to a waiting room in a generic clinic. Shego stood there her eyes wide as she watched the door close. She rushed after it and pulled the door only to be greeted with the street outside Club Sandiego. As Shego closed the door she got a call on her cell phone.

"What's up Izzy?"

"Hey, cous I need a favor."

"What?"

"I was paid to steal a rock."

"A rock, like a special rock of historical significance?" The former thief questioned.

"No, it's an ordinary rock. You're going to think I am crazy, but for some reason, it gives me bad vibes?" The current thief admitted. Shego rolled her eyes, here we go again.

"Meet me at Kimmie's place. I will send you the address and fill her in later." Shego instructed wondering how many shoes the universe could have on standby.