Peyton walked towards Karen's Café early that morning. She tried to forget about the events of last night but she couldn't. She reached her hand out and pulled the door open and stepped inside, but she quickly turned around when she caught sight of Lucas sitting at the front counter. She pulled her jacket tightly around her and started home again.
"Peyton…" She didn't need to turn around to know who it was. She just continued walking, hoping that he would get the hint and go back inside. "Peyton come on, we need to talk"
"About what?" She continued walking but quickened her pace.
"I think you what" Peyton stopped walking and turned around to face him, her hair blowing carelessly in the wind.
"No I don't know so why don't you tell me Lucas. Oh and do me a favor and talk fast because I have places to be." Her voice was harsher then she intended but she didn't care. She wanted Lucas to leave her alone and if walking away wasn't gunna do the trick then yelling at him might.
"Well a minute ago you had to be at the café but that changed when you saw me so I guess you have time to spare." Lucas walked up to her and looked down into her eyes but she bowed her head down to the ground. "Peyton what was that last night?" He asked, his voice soft and nervous.
"The truth." She whispered as she shoved her hands into the pockets of her faded jeans.
"The truth. You can do better than that." He looked at her and waited. Lucas knew that had to more to it then that she wanted to see Brooke happy. "Why wouldn't you give us a chance? You didn't know about the baby until after you showed up so that can't be the reason." He bit his bottom lip and continued to stare at her.
"Look what does it matter now anyway? You have a family now Lucas so there can't be an us. It doesn't matter why I made the decision because the fact is the only reason you need is Brooke and your child." Peyton shook her head and turned around to walk away but Lucas grabbed her arm.
"Peyton that's not good enough for me. I wanna know why you gave up on us, Brooke is not gunna be your excuse. Peyton I want a real reason." Lucas let go of her arm and took a deep breath. He knew that he had to be there for Brooke now, but he needed to know why Peyton had initially made her choice.
"I told you already, you don't need another reason." Peyton turned around again and started to walk off.
"Yes I do" Lucas said as he grabbed her arm again.
"BECAUSE I NEVER LOVED YOU, OKAY." Peyton tore her away from Lucas's grasp and stood back to look at his shocked face. She could feel the guilt eating away at her but she knew she had to do it.
"I…don't…believe that." Lucas stuttered as he gazed at Peyton's blank face."
"It's true. It's a game Brooke and I always play. We take a guy and see who gets him, but it didn't exactly work this time. You see, she fell in love and I was determined not to lose. It was a game to me Lucas, that's all. I'm sorry that I did it because I didn't realize how much it was gunna hurt people." Peyton looked up into his blue eyes and she immediately wanted to take all the words back but she couldn't. It wasn't a complete lie, Brooke and her did play those kinds of games and Lucas was their next target. The only detail Peyton changed was the fact that it remained just a game, because somewhere in the beginning she had fallen in love with him. "Lucas I'm sor…" She reached out to touch his shoulder but he waved her hand away and cut her off.
"I don't want your damn apology Peyton. Just stay the hell away from me. Have a nice life, but keep in mind that I don't wanna be a part of it." Lucas glared at her and shook his head before turning and walking back to the café. Peyton just watched him walk through the doors and out of her life.
She turned around and walked home as the tears slid down her pale face. This wasn't how things were supposed to turn out. She didn't want Lucas to hate her and she didn't want to remember his face from just moments ago. The pain and the disgust he had shown her were not what she wanted to think about, it wasn't the Lucas she had grown to love.
Peyton stayed home for the rest of the day because she didn't wanna take the chance of running into Lucas again. The next morning Peyton didn't want to be inside anymore so she went out into town. She walked around and looked into various stores but nothing seemed pleasing to her.
She drove over to the mall but she wanted to leave as soon as she stepped inside. The first thing she saw was Lucas with his arm around Brooke as they looked into the window of one of the baby stores. Lucas caught sight of her and pulled Brooke closer to him and kissed the top of her head lightly. Peyton watched her best friend smile and point out different things. It broke Peyton's heart to know that she would never be able to do those kinds of things with Lucas, that she was gunna have to do it all on her own.
Peyton stormed out of the mall and drove home. She ran into her house and down to her basement. She looked around until she found what she was looking. She wanted Lucas back but she knew that she had screwed up. He wasn't an option to her anymore and there was nothing left for her. She knew her two options and as much as one tempted her she chose the other. Peyton came up from her basement and looked around her house. She closed her eyes and walked slowly up to her room, confident in her decision.
You were the sweetest thing that I ever knew
But I don't care for sugar, honey, if I can't have you
Since you've abandoned me
My whole life has crashed
Won't you pick the pieces up
'Cause it feels just like I'm walking on broken glass
Walking on, walking on broken glass
Walking on, walking on broken glass
The sun's still shining in the big blue sky
But it don't mean nothing to me
Oh, let the rain come down
Let the wind blow through me
I'm living in an empty room
With all the windows smashed
And I've got so little left to lose
That it feels just like I'm walking on broken glass
Walking on, walking on broken glass
And if you're trying to cut me down
You know that I might bleed
'Cause if you're trying to cut me down
I know that you'll succeed
And if you want to hurt me
There's nothing left to fear
Cause if you want to hurt me
You're doing really well, my dear
Now everyone of us is made to suffer
Everyone of us is made to weep
But we've been hurting one another
And now the pain has cut too deep . . .
So take me from the wreckage
Save me from the blast
Lift me up and take me back
Don't let me keep on walking . . . don't let me keep on walking
I can't keep on walking on, keep on walking on, keep on
Walking on broken glass
Walking on, walking on broken glass
Walking on, walking on broken glass
Walking on, walking on broken glass
Walking on, walking on broken glass
A/N: okay thats it for this chapter. The song is Walking on Broken Glass by Annie Lennox. Don't forget to review!
