Peyton let the wind blow through her hair as sped down the highway with her music blaring. She continued trying to forget about Lucas and Brooke, everything in Tree Hill, but no matter how hard she tried her thought would always return to the place she left behind. She wouldn't call it home because it hadn't really been home since her mom died. Her dad was never there and she was always alone. Most people thought that's what she wanted, sometimes she thought that too, but having people around her made her feel wanted and that was a good feeling. She would never let anyone know that though, not even herself because letting people in led to getting hurt.
Brooke had learned that the hard way when she let Lucas in. She finally opened up to someone only to have her heart ripped out by none other than her best friend. Letting Luke in had only gotten Peyton hurt as well. It was good well it lasted but that one stupid night was the reason she had to leave. She was trying to make amends for everything she had done to people over the last couple of months. Her leaving would help people move on with their lives and be happy.
Peyton knew that most people wouldn't really care that she was gone. That was either because they didn't know her, which applied for most people, she had betrayed them like Brooke, or in Luke's special case, she had told the everything they had, the love they shared was no more then a cruel game. Haley and Nathan are would be the only two who would want her to stay. She could hear them telling her that everything would be all right and that there were other alternatives, especially Haley. But the only other alternative didn't only affect her, it affected someone who couldn't protect themselves yet so that removed that option.
Peyton didn't want to put up an act anymore. She didn't want to have to worry about whether she had told people the lie and given the same excuse for what was bothering her. She hated the fact that she had to lie to Luke but there was no other way. Peyton knew that Brooke was going to need him more, after all Peyton was used to having to fend for herself. She didn't want people to think she was perfect, it was all just an illusion, and it was one that she couldn't uphold anymore. She tried to bend and mold herself to fit every one's demands but she finding that she just couldn't bend anymore. She was being pulled in every direction and there was no where left to turn, nothing left to do but break away, even if it meant leaving the ones she loved behind.
Peyton didn't know where she was going, she was just driving. She had gotten onto the highway and decided to turn on exits according to the alphabet. The first exit she got on was headed to Amsterdam (made up name like the rest of them are gunna be). That put her on another highway until she reached an exit for Belleview Lane. Once she got off there she was just driving straight and now she was busy searching for a street that started with C. She was hoping that it was a sign that led her to another highway because that would lead her further from Tree Hill and the further she was the better. Peyton Sawyer was taking back her life and making it the way she thought it should be instead what everyone else wanted it to be. She couldn't please everyone and she was done with trying. She spotted a sign that pointed to I-95 for Canopy Bay and she turned to continue her journey to wherever fate lead her. She only hoped fate didn't take her back to Tree Hill, but no matter what she had made up her mind and now there was no turning back.
When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you always wanted to see
When I pretend, I can't forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just cause I know I can but
I can't pretend this is the way it'll stay I'm just
(trying to bend the truth)
I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be, so I'm
[Chorus]
(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life,I'd rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you is me)
I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fittin' in
And now you think this person really is me and I'm
(Trying to bend the truth)
But the more I push the more I'm pulling away 'cuz I'm
[Chorus]
(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I'd rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is ME)
This isn't what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn't what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn't what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn't what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
[Chorus]
(You)
No turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I'd rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is me)