A/N: Hey guys. Look I updated and so soon too. GO ME!! Anyway I have a few special things to say today before I let you get on with the story alright.

First off: I'm not sure if I'll be able to keep to my update Tuesday thing as you can see I havent been making it and today I'm early. See school starts for me the 19th but starting tomorrow I have Vocal Jazz day camp and I know I wont have time then.

Secondly: Please read the poem before this as well. It goes with the end of the chapter as well as the next one. Well possibly the next one depending on your answers.

Speaking of which: At the bottom of this chapter there will be a few questions for you to answer. They're things to help me with the next chapter basically asking if you want two different things to happen. you know which one you want and such.

Now for my normal stuff

Warnings: This is Slash meaning M/M pairings. If you dont like that, WHAT THE HECK HAVE YOU READ THIS FAR FOR!!

Warnings for this chapter: umm I'm not telling much but some ppl may not like the end of it. Oh and its another cliffie!!! lol!!

Ramblings: I wanna suggest that everyone go see Spiderman2 and the Bourne Supremecy. They are both really good movies. And guess what!! I actually spent 400 dollars on clothes in TWO DAYS!! That is completely not like me. I usually hate shopping. But its my senior year and I wanna look good. I even bought a skirt and I HATE skirts. Uhh...yea thats it for now. Your free to read now.

Behind the Closed Door

Screams in the night

Echo through these halls

A horrifying flight

Written across these walls

Painful past

Mournful present

A hope that should last

That simply doesnt

Tears of blood

Fall from your eyes

Like rain drenched mud

You've lost your disguise

You're spirits they dampen

It's happened before

These things that happen

Behind the closed door ---Me

Chapter 9

Behind the closed door

"Harry...HARRY!"

"huh...Oh what is it Herms?" I asked turning towards the girl on her left.

"Are you alright? I mean, you haven't spoken at all today," Hermione said, giving him a worried look.

"I'm fine, Herms. I just...got a lot on my mind I guess." Casting a quick glance around the hall I turned back to my food and my thoughts.

'Draco hadn't been to a single meal today and I found myself beginning to worry. Over the past two weeks he had begun to eat once more. I mean, actually EAT his meals and not just push his food around. Of course he still only ate a little at a time but it was a start. Now he's back to skipping meals and he's skipped all three today.

'Could it be that he's still angry with me? I mean I didn't mean to pry I just wanted to know what was wrong. Maybe I was pushing too hard for him to tell me. I mean, I probably should have approached the fact that I thought he may be harming himself in a different manner. I'm really not even positive that he did those cuts. I'm pretty close to positive but I'm not there yet. Oh but the way he reacted. He got so angry about my knowing, why else would he be so angry about that? Or maybe its the fact that he didnt do them and I just assumed he did.

'But what if he thinks I'm angry with him? Would he really skip meals just because he thought I didnt want to see him? Then again it probably wouldnt take much to make him skip a meal. But all three? Did I even really seem angry when I left him yesturday? I dont think so, but what if he thought I did? But I told him I'd stop by tonight after dinner...what if he thinks I'm just going to try and make him tell me about the scars?'

I look down at my watch, dinner had just started not even ten minutes ago. 'Hermione and Ron have been getting suspicious enough about my disappearing acts lately. Would they take it the wrong way if I left now? Probably.

'I just hope that Draco and I can still be friends. I dont know what I'd do if he pushed me away. It's so strange to think like that. Just over two weeks ago I would have been happy to have him not want to be anywhere near me and now...Things just changed so much. Over the past two weeks I've gotten to know the real Draco. It's amazing how well someone can act sometimes. I admire him for being able to pretend to be so heartless when, inside, he was quite the opposite.

'It made me feel good to be the one with him all those times. Sure it was in secret but it felt so wonderful to be the one to make him laugh. To make him smile...He looks good when he smiles, it really suits him. But the smile never reaches his eyes. I wanna be the one to make him smile; truly smile. But what if my pushing him to tell me about his scars pushed him just that much farther away?

'But what if he does something drastic? What if he's hurting himself right now?' I feel my eyes widen at this thought. 'Oh gods what if he's hurt himself? The mere thought makes my stomach twist and I feel my appetite, small as it was, slip away. "I'm not hungry," I say to my friends as I stand suddenly. "I'm going to go for a walk."

"Alright there Harry?" Ron asked, looking up from his plate for, what I guess, the first time tonight.

"Fine," I reply forcing myself to sound such, "I just have some pent up energy. Need to get rid of it, you know. I'll be in the dorm later though." Without waiting for either of them to answer I turned from the table and hurried from the hall returning to my thoughts at the same time.

'What would I do if Draco had done something? For some reason I dont even want to think about that. How can things change so much in such a short amount of time? I mean we were more than likely to curse each other in the halls that look at each other just a few short weeks ago and now I'm worried about what I'm going to do if Draco's de...I cant even think it. Normally I can at least bring myself to think of the possibility of losing a friend. Ron and Hermione are always in danger just for being around me. Why can't I even bear to think of Draco like that?

"What's different about him?" I ask myself allowed as I walk toward his room. 'Why does the Prefect hall have to be so far from the Great Hall?'

"Where you going Harry?" I look up at the sound of someone saying my name.

"Oh, hey Rayne. I'm just going for a walk. What about you? Why aren't you down at dinner?"

"I just finished a tutoring session with Professor Flitwick. I'm heading to dinner now."

"Alright, well...I'll see you around then." I say, wanting to continue my journey to Draco's room, which was now only three hallways down. 'So close that I can see it.'

"By Harry," I hear her say as we both walk away from each other. "By the way, he likes you too."

"What? I ask turning back to her.

"He likes you too. He's not mad "

"Who are you talking about Rayne?" I ask, truly confused now.

"Draco," she says with a smile before turning and hurrying down the hall toward the Great Hall.

I stare after her for a moment, wondering what she was talking about. 'Draco likes me too? Well, yea, we're friends. But, for some reason, I dont think that thats what she meant. But I dont like him like that do I.' For some reason I dont even have to think about the answer to that question, 'Yes...I do. But Draco's not even gay. Or, at least...I dont THINK that he is. How does she know Draco anyway? I'll have to ask her one of them that later...But she said he's not mad at me.'

I turn once more and continue down the hall at a slightly faster pace. 'He's not mad at me, which means that there was another reason that he didnt want to come to meals today and I dont want to think of what those reasons could be.

As I enter the Prefect's Hall I find myself frozen in place as a scream echoes through the corridors. It's the type of scream that can make a persons blood run cold and I find myself shaken by its intensity. The pain it held was enough to widen my eyes and chill my very soul.

"Draco," I whisper to myself before running as fast as my legs will carry me down the hall toward the portrait at the end, hoping for nothing more that to get to Draco before something terrible happened to him.

Skidding to a stop outside of the portrait of a young girl I gasp out the word "Repentance." The portrait of the girl looked up at me with a frown before swinging open to reveal...

A shut door.

'That's never been there before,' I thought before reaching out and attempting to turn the handle. It wouldnt budge. I reached into my robes pocket and pulled out my wand, muttering "Alohamora" but nothing happened. The door remained locked and closed.

"Draco!" I yelled beating on the door. Part of me hoping for him to open the door and for all of this to be some way of getting back at me for trying to make him tell me about his arms.

I waited, pounding on the door with all my might. Nothing happened. No one opened the door and the door refused to move no matter how many times I cast the unlocking charm.

"Draco!" as I yelled his name a second time I felt tears of fear and frustration slide down the sides of my face. Why wasn't he answering? Reaching into my pocket I began to search for something to unlock the door with. Coming up with a paperclip, from the essay I was working on earlier with Hermione, I unbent it and knelt down and began my attempt to pick the lock on the mysterious door. "Draco, can you hear me?" I yelled as I worked on the lock. "If you can hear me say something!"

I scream out slightly as the pin in my hand grows hot and I feel it burn my hand. I reflexively yank my hand away, causing the pin to fall from the lock and fall to the ground. 'Something is wrong,' I say to myself. 'Really wrong.'

I throw myself at the door, grapsing the handle and attempt to push it open. Tears now run freely down my face as I realize that the person I had grown to care about, more than even I had realized, was in danger and I was once again powerless to do anything about it.

I stop for a moment, pressing my ear against the door, hoping to hear anything that may give me a clue as to what was happening to Draco behind the closed door.

Everything was silent. Too silent. It was as though no one was in the room yet something told me that the silence was something to fear. Suddenly I heard the slamming of a door and immediately found myself face down on the floor. The door I had been leaning on had vanished with the slamming of the other door.

Pushing myself back onto my feet I look in horror at the scene before me. The room is in total disarray, unlike the way that Draco usually keeps it. Picture frames are broken, they're glass covering the floor, and papers are strewn everywhere.

Blood was splattered across one wall and ripped material lay strewn about the room.

A sob escapes my throat as my eyes land on the figure lying motionless on the bed...

Draco...

A/N: I know I know another cliffie. PLease dont be angry with me but yea it was getting kinda long winded specially for one of my first person chappies. It was still somewhat long though which made me really proud of myself. Oh and I brought Rayne back. Hehe I love her. And yes shes an important character. You see how she knows Draco soon. Not too soon but soon. Umm...Well are you happy? Harry's realized that he likes Draco. I mean really likes Draco. And I made Harry cry because he was worried. Personally I kinda like this chapter and I dont say that often but how bout leaving your oppinions in a review along with the answers to the following questions...

1) Next chapter do you want to learn what happened to Draco (which means I'd have to go back in time which is fine) or do you want for him to wake up later and have it be a memory. Either way They're both almost finished so just say which you want and I'll finish that one.

2) What did you think of the poem. I know its a stupid question but I wanna know cause I really kinda like it and I think its one of my best so far.

3) If you want Draco to have a huge flashback when he wakes up would you like him to wake up next chapter or have a chapter with harry worrying at his bedside first.

4) If you want to see what happened to Draco next chapter instead of having him remember for ya would you like him to wake up the chapter after or have harry worry over him for a bit.

Thats it. simple huh.

OK now for shout outs:

ShaeLynn: For the bold and underline I used the Review/edit button that shows up when I first upload but it also seems that if I use WordPad the underline and stuff stays as well. I hope that helps some sorry if it doesnt. Thanks for the review.

Saylie Rain: Well Harry and Draco will be together soon so dont worry about that...--wink wink---

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Robin the bird: Yay I get to write a long reply!! I love these!! yea Ron was kinda like the twins there wasn't he? Oh well I thought it was funny...---shrugs---o well. Well...no it wasnt harry there but well you know soon who it was...I'm afraid that Draco's gonna uhh suffer for at least a few more chapters. He's still gotta get over everything thats happened things will get better in a few chapters but the angst is no where near done. See Harry did try to save the day. But the door wouldnt open. He even got BURNED while trying. Now that's caring. Anway thanks for all the reviews. I'm really glad you like the story so far. I hope you enjoyed this chapter as well.

BioHazrdusMatrial3: Have ever told you how much I enjoy getting your reviews? Well I do its always great to hear from you. I hope you liked the chapter...

canihavea-soda: yes I used to do that and no its in no way naive of you to not be able to imagine it. Never start it thought it really quite adicting. I hope you never have a reason to start. ---hugs back then jumps up and down---- I actually made someone jealous. I guess I may be too hard on myself when i write then. I'm such a perfectionist. Lol. I'm glad you like Harry in this story. I didnt want him to whine about everything you know. I mean he just seems the person who after a year of whining can get over it and realize that it wont help him. Yes youre review made me very happy and I'm glad you had fun at that concert!!

smilesing: Umm ---looks up--- sorry bout the cliffie. heh. Thanks for the review though!!

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silverblueeyes: its ok that you didnt review the other chapter earlier. I understand really I do. And yes draco is very cute when he pouts. That discussion was actualy quite important so please remember it alright. Well at least I know one person wont hurt me. Thanks for that. I'm one of your favorite authors ---tears up and hugs you--- thank you so much. No ones ever told me that before. ---wipes eyes--- i think you just made my week. Harry's gonna try with all his being to be there for Draco through everything. Sadly he couldnt get to him this time but well...you cant stop everything I guess. Thanks for the review. Its really great hearing from ya!!

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