Chapter 48 Emotional Misunderstandings

"Lucas, are you refusing to make love to me because I am pregnant?" Elizabeth asked getting all worked up the tears starting to form in her eyes.

"Oh dear God, Love I would never do that. You are all I want and desire." He said exhaustion in his voice.

"My body is changing and you are finding me less appealing." She said tears now pouring out of her eyes and Lucas was wishing he had not made that choice.

"I never said that. Elizabeth you are always beautiful to me. I don't care how much your body changes. I will always desire you." He said while pulling her to him to hold her.

"Just, not tonight. What about tomorrow? Will I be desirable to you then?" She said irrationally pulling back.

Lucas was treading water at this point and feeling defeated. He had no idea what to say next. In his mind it was clear nothing was going to fix this. "Elizabeth, please don't be upset with me for being overly exhausted. It has nothing to do with you. I am just overwhelmed."

"So, now I am overwhelming you. Well then Mr. Bouchard, maybe you should sleep in the guest room." Elizabeth said emotionally.

"You can't be serious right now." He said confused.

"I don't want to add to you being overwhelmed and burdened, it may be for the best." She said emotionally.

"I'm not leaving this room until we fix this." He said adamantly. "Elizabeth please calm down and listen to me."

Her emotions had taken over and she was pacing the floor, tears running down her face. "Did you really want a large family or were you just saying that?" She asked her emotions all over the place.

"Of course I meant it." He said now beyond the point of exhaustion and running on pure adrenaline.

"Why is it overwhelming you so bad that we are having triplets or are you done with me now that I am pregnant? She asked still pacing and unable to look him in the eye.

He caught her and turned her to face him. "Stop running from me and look at me." He lifted her chin so she would be looking him in the eyes. "I am fine with whatever hand we are dealt, I will adapt. I am not going to lie and tell you I'm not scared about being a father. Jack is older and I have never had to change diapers and feed crying infants. I will do what I need to do for you and our family. I will learn, but don't expect perfection. I am not perfect Elizabeth. I love you and can't stand it that you are upset with me. What can I say or do to fix this?" He asked gazing deep into her beautiful blue eyes and rubbing the tears off her cheeks with the pads of his thumbs.

"I don't know Lucas? I always thought we had this passionate, loving relationship and now I feel like it's been ripped away." She was obviously struggling to keep her emotions in balance.

Lucas was not prepared for this kind of emotional breakdown, he knew from what the doctors had told him about pregnancy she would be emotional. This was something completely overwhelming. He had no idea how to respond to her at this point. He never wanted to go through this again.

"Elizabeth I love you more than life itself!" He picked her up and gently placed her on the edge of the bed. He knelt down in front of her and placed his cheek gently on her abdomen while wrapping his arms around her waist. "Please don't be mad at me."

Slowly he backed away and rubbed her feet, then massaging her legs, moving upward gently rubbing his hand across her stomach, then her arms, her breasts then he moved so he was now directly behind her massaging her shoulders and then placed his own kisses on her neck.

"Lucas what are you doing?" She asked

"I made a mistake and I am trying to apologize for it." He gently pulled her down onto their bed beside him. He slowly caressed her body. "We will always have a passionate, loving relationship Elizabeth because I am forever in love with you." He kissed her gently and then pushing his own exhaustion aside he positioned himself on top of her, kissing her all over until she began to reciprocate his affection.

"I am mad at you! Why do you do this? You know I can't resist you." She whispered in his ear.

"I never want you to be upset with me." He responded deepening their kisses until she gave in and all clothes were gone. He pulled the covers up over them and they spent the evening in perfect synchronicity as they forgot all the emotional drama they had just endured. When all was done she fell asleep with her head on his chest and he had his arm around her holding her as close as he could. Lucas thought to himself that was a lot to endure for the same end result. He had learned a valuable lesson about Elizabeth and never wanted to make that mistake again.