Synopsis:

She was happiness. She was joy. A charming little girl with who would always see the positive side of things and try to find the good in people's heart. . . That girl was me, at some point. An innocent soul with a pure heart along with the mindset where everyone would get their happily ever after, prince charming and everything like in most fairy tales. . .

But this story is not one of those.

There is no prince charming or a knight in shining armour, but I can guarantee you that there will be dragons with flames, demons from many kinds, creatures from legends, and battles like no other.

But the greatest fight of all is. . . The conflict within the heart with weapons that many know as. . .

Emotions. . .

I am Miyuki Urameshi. The girl who lost her spark, but ended up coming back as the whole damn fire.

Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho or the show's characters, only my OCs. One OC, however, belongs to a friend of mine ( _b.b.e_art_ on Instagram.)

️Warning: There will be cursing, violence, blood and other stuff that you might not like. So read it with your own responsibility.

Yusuke got slapped in the back of his head by Genkai, who, as always took no crap from the boy who at the moment was whining about not wanting to wash the dishes that he had created.

"What was that for you old hag?!" The Urameshi boy irritatedly cried out as he rubbed the spot where it hurts. However, his suffering was far from over because the old lady pulled the ten-year-old figure by the ear with no mercy in her eyes whatsoever. "OUCH! HEY!?"

"Just because you're a small whiny brat, doesn't mean you can be a lazy bump around here." Genkai barked back at her pupil, harshly pulling the boy's ear even more like many mothers would do, whenever their children get into big troubles. "Now pull your head out of that sorry ass of yours and wash those dishes." She once more demanded and pointed at those dirty plates and bowls.

"Why me?!" The young Spirit Detective once again throw his hissy fit as he finally escaped from his master's grasp. "Why don't you ask Miyuki to do that?! She is a lot higher than I am at the moment."

"I won't." A new voice replied to his question, snappily, making him and Genkai turn to the mentioned person with her Water-bender partner by her side. "And neither will Ruby." At that the mentioned teen girl nodded her head in agreement.

"Hey, what with the outfits?" Yusuke asked as he eyed the normal and casual street clothing that the girls are wearing. "Are you two going somewhere?" He was now getting interested since it was rare to see his sister go out to just hang out. He was always the one doing the wandering while Miyuki keeps everything clean and organized at home. Being the responsible one in general.

"We are." Ruby confirmed it as she hugged Miyuki's arm, which caused the girl to blush, and look away awkwardly, while her bender friend's smile never left her face. "Botan and Keiko invited us for a girls' day out." Without anyone's notice, Kurama just came back from his small walk he had spent in Master Yara's and Genkai's garden. It was a bit of a surprise to the boys but they recovered quickly. Mainly Yusuke since he wanted the way out of the house chores.

"Can I come?" The black-haired boy questioned, eagerly in hopes of getting away from the temple.

"Absolutely not." His sister figure shut him down with an empty look. "You and the boys stay there. As Ruby said, Keiko will be there and she will no doubt recognize you."

"Awh, but that's not fair." Yusuke ranted on angrily like a spoiled brat, making Miyuki mentally roll her eyes.

"Well, I think it's perfectly fair." The master with greyish-pink-hair corrected the boy before turning to the teeh girls with a small hint of a reassuring smile dancing on her facial expression. "Be careful you two, and have your fun. You earned it."

"WHAT THE HELL GRANDMA?!" Again, the little Urameshi brat exclaimed irritatedly as his ears couldn't believe it how his sister is getting away scot-free while he is stuck with his two masters and his child friends.

"We will master Genkai." Ruby reassured her master before dragging the Urameshi girl by the arm and leave through the giant door. Once the girls were completely out of sight, Genkai turned back to her little successor.

"Make sure that everything is clean to the core by the time I get back. And don't you even think about skipping your duties Bonehead!" The Master sternly instructed and with one last warning, she disappearing into the hall with the young male Spirit Detective huffing to himself. However, when Genkai was finally got out of the room, and Yusuke thought he was safe, he began to imitate Genkai's words, impersonating her in the most childish way possible. However, when he looked around the room he was in, his chocolate-brown orbs met with the emerald-green ones. Then his famous Chesire cat-like grin revealed itself on his expression. Seeing that, The redhead's warning bels immediately went off within his head.

"I don't think it's wise." Kurama told him as much, knowing full well what kind of mischievous plan his Spirit Detective friend is thinking about right now.

"Pff, oh just loose up a little Kurama." Yusuke reassured his friend, still grinning wildly as he walked over and wrapped one arm around the young Fox-Demon's shoulders. "We will be back within a flash before the crazy grandmas can even blink once. "

"W-we?" Kurama asked with hesitation in his voice, because he didn't expect that part to come into play.

"Well, duuh." The little Spirit Detective boy nodded his head. "Now let's get dressed and find Three-Eyes." Before the small red-head can even say anything in protest Yusuke yanked him to the guest room.

After like one or two hours of our walking journey, we finally arrived at the location where our girl friends are supposed to be waiting for our presence.

"Where are they?" Ruby asked in a mumble beside me as she was also looking for Keiko and Botan. But just then, and in perfect timing, they made their presence known to us.

"Yoohooo!" A very familiar high-pitched voice greeted us from a few feet away. I turned to the source and sure enough, it was my blunette assistant with Keiko walking by her side.

"Hello!" My bender friend politely greeted them while I just mutely nod my head in acknowledgment, still not being much of a talker.

"Hey, Miyuki!" My best friend from childhood greeted me before warping her arms around my small frame like he usually would. I didn't hug back, but I did give a small pat on the brunette's back, letting her know that I still care about her. Even though I just promised myself that I will try to change, I never thought this will be that hard. But I will do my best to change things. "Who is your friend?" My brunette friend asked me curiously as she pulled away from the embrace.

"Keiko, this is Ruby, my partner at training." I quickly made up a lie since I don't want her to get suspicious.

"Training?" Keiko asked a little surprised.

"In the Boot Camp where I attended with my brother, remember?." I reminded her, earning a small 'oh' from her as she now remembered about the months, which my brother and I had spent off at Genkai's and Yara's training. "Ruby, this is my other best friend from my childhood, Keiko Yukimura. Yusuke and I met her and her parents when we first arrived to this city." I introduced the brunette to Ruby who stretched out her hand for Keiko to shake.

"It's nice to meet you." My brunette friend cheerfully greeted my training partner with a bright and welcoming smile on her face.

"Like wise." Ruby replied happily, returning the friendly gesture, right before I saw her eyes scanning my friend's fashion choice for the day. "Love the outfit."

"Thank you." My brunette friend said sweetly as she placed one hand on her cheek while turning away shyly from the kind but honest compliment.

"I hope we will get along, swimmingly." Ruby commented still having that friendly smile on her face.

"Oh, we will." Botan chimed in with a tone that is sure about that 'get along' part. Then she clapped her hands together as bright smile formed on her lips. "Now let's go, and do some shopping." With those words, she grabbed a hold of my wrist and dragged me to the first shop with the other girls not far behind.

Needless to say, this whole girly stuff was everything that I expected it to be. A total torture to my soul, not immediately, but mostly when we got in the middle. Our time in the café was nice, we got some sweet and hot drinks and all, I was listening to the girls friendly chats while I admire the lively atmosphere around us.

It was all fun and games until it was shopping time.

No, that was not even the worst part of it, don't get me wrong. . . Not really. . . But. . .

"I refuse to wear something so hideous like that!" I exclaimed my words loud ad clear to Botan, who showed me a light blue dress. Well, it didn't look awful. In fact, I thought it was pretty, but I am sure as hell that it won't look good on me. I still have my bandages on and everything. And I hate dresses with passion!

"Awh, come on Miyuki, just this once? Pretty please" The blunette pleaded with her puppy eyes, like some child, who wants to get some candy.

"No." I told her flatly as my arms were crossed over my chest.

"Miyu." Keiko called me a little sternly as she joined to Botan's side. "It won't hurt if you would look a little lady like for a short while." For that, I just huffed and turned my gaze away.

"Yeah." Ruby butted in as she sided with the other two girls, clearly agreeing with them. "It's not the end of the world."

"Hn, maybe not the end of the world, but the end of me." I replied bluntly as I turned my head away and closed my eye. Man, this is ridiculous. Now I really starting to regret coming here with these people.

"Well, maybe to you, but I am sure a certain someone wouldn't mind seeing your true beauty. " Botan egged on as she wiggled her eyebrows.

"Excuse me?" I demanded in a not so nice tone. What is this girl even talking about, what 'special someone'? Who? I have no one to show off to. Why do I even want that? Because let's be honest here, I am far from the word, pretty or beautiful.

"Oh, you know who I mean." The blunette said with a cat face. "Charming smile with a high intelligence, dreamy emerald green eyes, and red hair." I can feel my face go pale and probably blue once this girl began to describe my childhood best friend.

"Say what now?" I stammered out my question as I tried to stay composed, but the uncomfortable cringe was already creeping on me, punching me in the guts hard. What in the fucking world Botan?!

"Yeah, what are you talking about?" Ruby butted in as well as she rose a questioning brow and crossed her arms. From the looks of things, I would say she is displeased for sure and uncomfortable like me. However, I see something else too, in those eyes of hers, that sent a small amount of chill down my spine. In other words, she looked kind of scary. . . I had never seen this side of her before, and it surprised me.

"Just young love." My idiot of an assistant kept on going with a mischievous glint in her eyes, having no shame on continuing on teasing me with her stupid conclusion. "You know, when-."

"Oh, hey Botan look at that dress!" Thankfully to my rescue, Keiko suddenly cried out as she pointed at another girly dress not too far from us. "You should try that on. It would definitely look amazing on you."

"Woah! Gorgeous!" The blunette exclaimed happily as she rushed over without any hesitation. My brunette girl friend gave me a knowing nod, and in reply, I nodded back with a grateful look.

My smart friend, thank you for saving me from the cringe. However, now I was left with my other good friend here, for some reason gave me a look that made me feel. . . small. . . and uncomfortable.

"So. . ." Ruby started awkwardly, but from the posture and look on her expression, I can tell that she was trying her hardest not to like kill me with her cold glare.

"So?" I asked her back as I try to figure out what is going on in that mind of hears, wanting to know why the sudden hate.

"You and Kurama. . . ." The water-bender continued with a serious tone as she looked at me from head to tone like she was trying to figure me out like a puzzle. "Are you two are. . . a thing?" Again I feel my colours leaving my face, now feeling completely drained, but nonetheless, I remained uncomfortable as hell to the point I feel like I am about to barf.

"Of course not." I told her with honesty as best as I could, because I feel my stomach twist in many ways, making me hard to keep myself from the embarrassment I was feeling at the moment and mind you it was really painful.

"Are you sure?" Ruby asked with her eyes going narrow in suspicion. "I-I mean. . . you look so close and even Botan said it. . ." Her voice trailed down as hesitation took its place on her expression.

"I am." I told her now standing on my ground once more, but my voice was gentle and soft. "Yes, I admit I deeply care about Shuichi, but my love for him is more like the one I have for my brother. " Then I let out a sigh as my eye looked at the very bubbly Botan who was twirling around the dress Keiko had shown to her earlier. "It's only Blabber-mouth having the bad ideas that had created her own fairy tale within her fantasies. Probably because of that one day when I was with Shuichi in the park talking privately about stuff."

"Why were you with him?" Asked Ruby further as more suspicion began to sparkle in her coffee-bean orbs. At first, I didn't get it why she is acting like this. I mean I already told her that Shuichi and I were just close friends during training and stuff. And I never once hinted that I am interested in anyone-. But then slowly but surely, realization hit me. She is falling for my favourite Rosehead and she probably thinks that I sorta betrayed her or some shit. Anyways, I took a deep breath, and then I shook my head a little, reminding myself to stay on the original track of my explanation

"Because of this." I reply pointedly. My eyes turned to Keiko and Botan quickly and seeing that they were too busy, it allowed me to show my dragon-yang mark again.

"Why did you look for him for that?" The Water-Bender girl asked, now her expression softening up a little.

"Because I had seen a tattoo on Hiei." I began to explain in a low whisper so no one can hear me. Especially Blabber- Mouth. "It looked similar to mine, but instead it had a ying-phoenix. So I thought this might be some sort of demon thing, but knowing that I won't get any answer from that jerk, I went to Shuichi instead and he told me everything I need to know." Now I can see the relief wash over my friend before getting back onto the topic.

"So, what does that mean?" Ruby was now curious, looking between me and my right wrist that I quickly covered back up.

"He said this is called the Mark of Destiny." I told her, still whispering since I don't want my dear and loud mouthed assistant to hear it, at all. "It's like the Red Thread of Fate." Ruby's jaw dropped to the floor, but quickly covered it with her hands.

"You mean it like, you and Hiei are. . . Soulmates?" Concluded my partner in crime earning a small nod from me and slowly but surely her statement jogged back the conversation that made me come here in the first place. "And what are your thoughts about this? Are you okay?" Ruby asked me, now with concern in her voice.

"Truth be told. . . I'm not. . ." I replied to her truthfully as I turned my body away from my close friend, feeling a bit self-conscious. "Ever since I've become Spirit Detective, many events came which caused some change within me." One hand then went up to my black locks and pushed them away from my left eye. "I reunited with my childhood best friend and met so many new people when I. . . wanted nothing more than to just push away the people around me. . . away from me. . . So in that way, I wouldn't cause any pain or problem. . . I won't become their burden. . ." Then I took a deep breath as I try to solve my struggles with the words. "But it all later on changed and well. . . my feelings at times took control over me without me knowing and now. . . I. . . I. . . I don' know if that somewhat counts but. . . "

"You what, Miyuki?" Ruby asked as she grabbed me by my shoulders and turned me around. I didn't say anything, nor looked at my friend in the eye, however, I did give a hint by staring at my right wrist. As expected Ruby let out a gasp, meaning she understood. "Oh my gosh. . ." She breathed out in disbelief because by now, she knew I was never this good with emotions like before. "You're-!" My hand quickly pressed itself onto her lips.

"Please stay quiet about this." I sternly told her. "I don't want anyone to know about this! Not a single soul, you got it?" Ruby said nothing but nodded her head. Slowly I removed my hand from her. "However, I also want to ask a favour from you. . ."

"A favour. . . ?" Ruby asked as she titled her head to the side like a confused puppy. Again, I took a deep breath, preparing myself for the next words that I never thought I would ever say to anyone. . . nor ask for something that is probably so little to many, but so huge for me. . .

"I. . ." I began hesitantly but after taking a huge swallow, to compose myself. "Do you remember the first time when we first met?" I finally started.

"Uhm, yeah. . ." Ruby said with a small nod. "But why-?" I lifted up one finger, cutting her sentence off.

"Please, let me finish . . ." I say to her gently. "After one of my closest friend's death. . . I closed off. . . Turning me into the kind of person who was never good at making new friends. . . because I would end up either hurting their feelings or end up with a broken heart again. . . " My gaze then lifted itself upwards, making me looking Ruby's eyes deeply. "But when I saw you. . . I felt a connection. . . I didn't know how, but after some time. . . I realized something. . ." Then my good eye lowered itself down. "You reminded me of so much of who I once was. . . A girl, so pure and free. Not to mention strong and brave to openly show her emotions. Share her happiness, joy, and love to others so carefreely. . . " At that, I closed my eye for a short time as I took a brief breath.

"What are you trying to get at Miyuki?" Asked Ruby with a little caution. With all the strength and courage I have left, I once again looked into my friend's eyes deeply.

"I. . . I want to feel again. . ." I told her, my voice suddenly began to tremble. "In the true way, I mean. . . I want to learn how to feel emotions again in a normal and healhty way. . ." I trailed down as now I found myself trembling a little because of the amount of anxiety that is coming out of me at the moment, triggering many bottled up emotions. My eye shut tight as my hand brought themselves up to my chest and clung onto the spot, where my heart is. I never thought I would ever got back to that one point in my life where I allow myself to truly feel. The way I once used to. So letting it out it had a huge toll on me. I felt another heavyweight falling off of me, so much so that it almost made me stumble, but thankfully, Ruby prevented me from the embarrassment when she suddenly hugged me tightly. It didn't startle me since I was too caught up with the chains that began to break within me. . . one by one. . .

Yes. . . I know this sounds utterly weird to ask someone to help me understand the concept of emotions again. . . but. . . After Sanyu's death, I trained myself to mostly disconnect from them because I thought that. . . that would make me stronger and not weak and vulnerable like the little naïve child I was back then. . . But now. . . I want to understand them again. . . This strange force that came out of nowhere, is making me want to reconnect with my true emotions and. . . find the courage to show them again. . . to the people who I love. . . to tell them how I truly care about them. . .

Even though I know, Hiei wouldn't like it. . . But why should I care about what he thinks anymore. . . His words made it clear to me that he doesn't want this. . . relationship that made us connected in some way. . . That Shadow Lord doesn't want to do anything with it. . .

"I must admit that this request sounds strange but. . ." Ruby answered with warmth in her tone, making me rip away my thoughts of Hiei. "I understand your situation." My friend then pulled away from my embrace. "And I will do my best to help you in any way I can." Then a wide smile stretched upon her face. "I'm so glad that you started opening up. But as your best friend, I am really proud of you as well." I didn't know what to say but nodded my head as my lips twitched upward just a little. "However, I have two conditions for you." The girl added with the smallest hint of mischief sparkling in her eyes, and soon the smile on her face turned into a mad grin.

Before I can say what does she want, she lifted up that blue dress, Botan had thrown at her before leaving for that other dress.

I feel the colour drain out of me as a small drop of sweat rolled down from the side of my head. . . Now I start to regret things. . . So far I had made some good decisions, but also got too many bad ones at the same time. . .

And it's official. . . I hate shopping.