I should really be doing my coursework that is supposed to be in on Friday but at the moment as you can see, all I feel like doing is updating my stories, well this one at least. Had LOADS of miner seizures today, I think my body is telling me that I better watch it cause I could be having another major seizure soon, that or it was heat stroke. Yes the college student kitchens are as hot as hell when you and 9 other students are trying to cook 3 different starters, mains, veg and deserts, and the kitchen don't have a very good ventilation system so it got quite steamy. My lecturer got scared when I splashed a little oil from the pan I was cooking in when I kinda 'chucked' in the pork patty. -_-' Hahaha.
I've decided to be creative and make up my own song, as I couldn't find one that suited the feelings at the time so Your Jealous Eyes is mine and no one can take it Mwahahahaha. I've been neglected and have had no reviews so I am not going to let anyone have any of the cherry sponge I made yesterday, so there. I'm still putting this chapter up though.
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"Speech"
Thoughts
'Exclamation'
Julian thinking
Yue thinking
(Author's note)
(Author's note with sarcasm)
/Lyrics shortened to satisfy T+C/ (except in this chapter the lyrics actually belong to ME)
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Hidden Lives, Hidden Destiny Chapter 4
(In England)
Two figures, one a young male the other a young but older female, were walking through a shopping center. The female had long brown hair with a small part in a plait and had brown eyes, she was wearing a black strapless top that read 'slap me I'm a bitch' in white on the front, dark blue denim jeans and black strapped high heels. The male had light blue jeans and a forest green button down shirt and black sneakers and wire rimmed round glasses. His hair was midnight blue and long enough to be tied back in a ponytail. He also had a midnight blue catlike toy on his left shoulder.
"Master, is it wise to let the half-demon near the card mistress" the toy asked.
"Yeh, I mean she tried to kill you, what makes you think that she'll do the job, she might even try to kill Sakura and the others, you just can't trust her" the female added.
"I haven't completely been honest with you two. Spinner, Ruby, what do you think of me, not as a master but as a person." The male stopped suddenly and looked at his two guardians seriously "What kind of person am I".
"What brought this on master" the female now called Ruby asked thoroughly confused.
"Yes, I fail to see the point in this. What does your behaviour have to do with the phoenix" the cat toy now called Spinner said, also confused.
"Just answer the question for me please."
The girl looked thoughtful for a second "I think that you have a complicated mind, you want to help people but you take the dangerous route to do so. Your calm a lot but you can be very cheeky and cunning and you get scary when you are like that. Your wise beyond your years and you never get angry, you have never hurt anyone on purpose and you have a pure soul."
Spinner nodded at the remark "I think so too, you're just like Clow was"
The male looked hurt and angry "I was afraid you'd say that, no one knew this but Clow had a dark side, and it cost the happiness of many people from one single act of jealousy."
"Master Eli what are you talking about" Ruby asked timidly, now scared.
Eli launched into the story of how Clow's jealousy took him over the edge and nearly killed an innocent.
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(Back in Japan)
"You ok" Julian sat down on a swing next to Dranzer's false form. After college she had gone there to think and Julian felt the need to ask her about what happened today. Someone nearby had a radio on and was listening to music. "What happened today, your emotions did a total 180, did I do something wrong."
Sayuri quickly looked up at him with tears in her eyes "of course not, it's just that… that bun… there was someone I lost a long time ago, he used to make something like that for me all the time, and that bun you gave me reminded me of him, that's all. You did nothing wrong, I don't think you ever could, you've got that attitude, the one that stops you from being mad at anyone or anyone mad at you. He was like that too".
"I'm sorry, I didn't know, how did he die" Julian was suspicious; she looked only Tori's age. As he wasn't human his appearance was made to look that of a young adult, he suspected that Sayuri was the same as she had mentioned that she lost someone a while back and she couldn't of had a boyfriend like that as a child, could she? Besides she had a conflicting aura, she couldn't be human.
"He didn't die. We were separated because his 'father' hated me, he nearly killed me." Sayuri looked down at her feet, memories that were too painful to remember were once again surfacing and constricting her heart.
Julian had to look away; he couldn't stand looking at her like that, close to more tears. He decided to lead his attention elsewhere and ended up listening to the radio which was announcing a song. The announcer said it was You Jealous Eyes by Immortal Fire.
/I'm dying inside and there's nothing I can do about it
I'm trying to hide it but it's eating me inside
I needed a friend my past held nothing but sorrow and pain
I found a love and he loved me but you loved him to
You were jealous and tried to keep us apart
Well now you have and I'm paying the price so live with it
And now I run afraid of your anger
Afraid of your power, afraid of your torture
I'm running from your jealous eyes
I fear you with all my mind
I can't sleep I see your hate
You took my love away from me
Your eyes they pierce my skin
I can't hide from your jealous eyes
I have never loved another man, I can't live without him
Being tortured by generations of men, my entire life I was taken
My father was one of them, the one who took my innocence away from me
Losing my childhood at a young age with a family who needed me
I was one never known to smile, to laugh, to cry, to be loved for being me
There was only one and because of you there is no one to look after me
And now I run afraid of your anger
Afraid of your power, afraid of your torture
I'm running from your jealous eyes
I fear you with all my mind
I can't sleep I see your hate
You took my love away from me
Your eyes they pierce my skin
I can't hide from your jealous eyes
The pain is just too strong
(I'm not gonna hold on)
Loosing all of my strength
(I'm not gonna last long)
My man is my lifeline
(My sanity has gone)
Deep down inside the pain is killing me
And in my mind I know it's your fault
I fear you with all my mind
I can't sleep I see your hate
You took my love away from me
Your eyes they pierce my skin
I can't hide from your jealous eyes
I close my eyes, I need to scream
You say I'm the only one
To hurt and destroy your child
You beat me up and turned away
I can't hide from your jealous eyes
Julian looked back at Sayuri who looked as if she didn't hear the song. It was a bit like what she was feeling about having someone taken from you, even the beating was in there. "You know the homework we got today"
"Yes"
"How would you like to study with me and Tori, as long as it is all right with him?"
"I wouldn't want to impose"
"Certainly not, it would be my pleasure"
"I don't know"
"Nothings going to happen"
Sayuri raised an eyebrow at him but didn't mention it. "Ok."
"Great I'll just go call Tori" and with that got up walked out of earshot, while pulling out his mobile from his pocket, and called Tori. Never knowing that the song he had just heard was exactly like his new friend, or that she was the singer.
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Meanwhile back in England Eli, Ruby and Spinner all heard the same song in the café that they were in as they was listening to the same radio station (somehow). Eli felt really bad as he knew who the singer was and his past life was the cause of the pain that she felt. But what made him feel worse was the fact that he had encouraged the pain and hadn't told Dranzer the entire truth, the only information he had given to her was that the card mistress was in danger and she needed to be prepared, indicating that Dranzer needed to complete the task that Clow had given her 1000 years ago but had taken away from her. Eli never told her that Yue would be there only that she needed to complete that task as soon as possible. He never knew of the past that she had or the way that she had suffered since she was born, only Yue had.
Eli decided to go back to Japan to make everything better again and to stop the death of a princess.
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YES another chapter done, how did you like my song, was it good or should I not quit my day job.
It seems that Eli is now trying to play matchmaker even though he WAS trying to keep them separate. Bad boy. Will Yue and Dranzer ever see each other again, will the others find out, will Tori ever accept Yue's love for Dranzer if he finds out, will Kero and Yue sought ought their problems as brothers, will Sakura get her test, will we see Ms. Mackenzie again, will I get any reviews. I hope so or I wont put up any more chapters and I'll fall back into my one little world of solitude for the completely insane and die a slow and painfully lonely death. There's cake in it for anyone who does. Later.