Closure

Jackson continued to have trouble suppressing his feelings for Maggie. She was constantly on his mind. He was getting distracted at work and when he spent time with April, Harriet was always there. He didn't want to be alone with her. He just didn't want to be around her.

He closed the door behind him and he walked them toward the bed. When they could no longer move, he laid her on the bed and pressed his lips against her. She let out a soft moan as she opens her mouth allowing his tongue to enter. His hands roamed all over her body as the kiss got deeper. He removed her top and began placing kisses all over her body. "Please keep going she moaned. Please don't stop," as he kissed the pulse point on her neck. His hands slid down behind her thighs causing her to lift it up. He loved the feel of her body against his body. Her touch, her kiss, it drove him crazy. "I've missed you so much Babe, I don't think you understand how long I've wanted to do this. All I do is think about you." he said as he placed kisses all over her face and neck. He removed her top and began to trace kisses all over her chest and breast. She whispered, "I want to be on top."

"Huh babe," he said in between kisses.

"I want to be on top."

"Anything you want babe," Jackson rolled them over and all of a sudden, he felt himself falling onto the floor. He opened his eyes and realized it was just a dream. "Not again, he mumbled as he got off the floor. I really need to talk to her, he thought as he made his way to the bathroom to get ready for work.

When he got to work he kept himself busy with consults and surgeries. He went to daycare to visit Harriet. He really missed her and wanted to spend time with her. On his way back from daycare, he walked passed Maggie's lab and saw her working on her rechargeable hearts. On his way to his lab, he had one of the nurses page cardio for a consult in one of the viewing rooms for Dr. Lee.

After receiving the page, Maggie made her way to the plastics viewing room. As she entered the room she found Jackson.

"Sorry Dr. Avery, I'm supposed to be meeting Dr. Lee. Maybe she meant my viewing room."

"No, you have the right viewing room. I had you paged."

"What do you need Dr. Avery?"

"I need to talk to you." He slowly walked toward her and grabbed her hand. With soulful eyes he looked down at her and said, "Maggie I am so sorry. I can't take this. I need us to be okay. I can't take you not talking to me."

"Jackson-"

"Let me finish please. I made a mistake, a big mistake. I did feel something that day with April in the storage room, it just wasn't what I thought. It wasn't love, it was nothing."

"What do you mean it was nothing Jackson. You broke up with me to try for Harriet. How is that nothing."

"I know. The feeling I got was, a feeling of freedom. Nothing holding me back from moving forward. Nothing keeping me from moving on with you."

Maggie looked away trying to hide her tears.

Maggie, "I am so sorry it took me this long to realize it was always you." He moved closer to her and lifted her head up so that he could see her face. He leaned in and grabbed her lips with his. The kiss was slow and very sensual. It was passionate and hot. She could feel herself melting into his embrace. She needed this, he needed this. As their lips connected, she felt the tears stream down her cheeks. He could feel them too… she pulled away and said, "Jackson we can't."

He wrapped his arms around her and dug his face into her neck. "Maggie, I don't want to be without you."

Maggie pulled away and said, "Jackson, you can't keep doing this to me. We can't keep doing this to each other. We are both in serious relationships and it is not fair to Robert or April."

"But Maggie-"

"Jackson I will not do to Robert and April what you guys did to Stephanie and Matthew. The Jackson I got to know and cared for wouldn't either. We had our chance and you know what, I am so thankful for you, I really am. I need you to just let me move on, and you should move on too." With tears in her eyes she left the viewing room.

...

Meredith was coming down the hall when she saw Maggie leave the viewing room with tears in her eyes. She called out to Maggie but Maggie held her hand up, " not right now, Mere."

Meredith walked into the viewing room and found Jackson pacing back and forth.

"Avery, what did you do to my sister?"

"Jackson covered his face with his hands and said, Grey not right now."

"Jackson what did you do? Maggie ran out of here crying and she won't tell me what's going on. So you need to tell me what you did."

"I told her that I had made a mistake. I told her she was that I felt nothing for April and that I wanted to be with her. I told her that I didn't want to be without her."

"Jackson-"

"Mere, I think about her all the time, she is even in my dreams. I want to be with her but I think I am too late."

"Jackson, you have to make up your mind. I know you care about my sister and deep down inside, behind all the hurt and pain, im sure she cares about you too. You just have to do this right. You can't be with April professing your feelings to her. You had your opportunity and you messed up and now you have to live with it until it comes again and that's a big IF."

"I'm going to check on Maggie. I will see you later Jackson," she said as she left the viewing room.

...

Jackson spent the rest of the day in his lab working on his spray on skin. He decided to avoid everyone...especially April. He just wanted to have a moment to himself in order to think about what it was that he wanted. After talking to Meredith he realized that he didn't want to be with April, he didn't love her. If he wanted to repair their relationship he would have done it a long time ago. I really need to end things with April he thought.

That night he went out to dinner with April and Harriet. They had a nice family dinner. Throughout the dinner Jackson appeared distracted. He was able to make small talk with April but she saw that something was wrong.

"Jackson, what's wrong?"

"Nothing April. Got a lot on my mind."

"You want to talk about it."

"Not really. Let's just enjoy our dinner and time with Harriet."

The ride home was silent. Jackson said nothing. Harriet was in the back asleep and April sat quietly in the passenger seat.

"April I'm going to spend the night in my apartment tonight. I'm going to drop you and Harriet off and go home."

"Ok," she said.

She turned her head and said, "Jackson, this isn't working huh? You have changed. You were laughing and smiling. You were happy. I was so excited about us getting back together because I felt like you were becoming the person I was supposed to marry. It's like you turned into someone else."

"You're right April. I was happy. I was able to express myself and not worry about being judged. I was a different person. That is who I was with Maggie. She brought that out of me."

"Wait? Maggie!"

"I was seeing Maggie and broke things off with her to be with you. I made a mistake. I should have chosen her. With you I am a different person. I have my defenses up. You hurt me! You put me through a lot of pain and heartache. I know I said I wanted to try again but this is not working. We are not working. We are not meant to be. I love you April and I really enjoy our friendship. I am just not in love with you. I am sorry if I hurt you and I rather we both be happy apart then miserable together. I want you to be happy. I want you to be with someone that brings out the best in you. That person is not me… I can never love you the way you want me to. I want to be with Maggie."

April looked at Jackson with tears in her eyes…

"Jackson I understand and I want you to be happy too. It was hard the first time around when we separated because I didn't get the closure. You strung me along and made me feel like things were going to work between us. Everything that happened in Montana between us, I thought that was our fresh start. Now I know. I can't force you to be with me if you don't want to be. I love you Jackson I always will, you gave me two beautiful children and I am forever grateful for that… Maybe I need to move on and find that person that brings out the best in me."

Jackson opened the back door and took Harriet out of the car. He gave her a bath, they both read her a story and then put her to bed. They walked into the living room and gave each other a hug. April thanked Jackson for always being there for both her and Harriet. She walked him to the front door.

"I am sorry April and thanks for understanding. I think this is the best decision we have ever made for Harriet."

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