Hello all; I was gone for a while. I know I never had a lot of followers or likes or whatnot and I know I was never popular here. Even within the loud house fandom. I was extremely depressed and for a time, I was in a dark place. I still am but now I am seeing a psych therapist and I am taking prozac for my issues. I was proud of the handful of fans who loved what I wrote and the reviews I would get, but it dwindled. I put more and more effort in and people seemed less invested and I felt like I was getting worse as a writer. Than someone PM'ed me every chapter and harassed me. I used my writing as a safe haven and eventually I no longer felt safe and I hate to say it but I did not feel welcomed either. I decided if my writing would feel as dull and empty as I did I would just never write a fanfic again, I don't know if anyone even still cares if I complete the story or not, but I will try to get back into writing. I don't know if I will ever be as giddy about it as I used to be, I use my stories to vent and I used to feel angry about the way I was treated and hurt through my life and my experience with death. Now I feel empty, and useless. I lost the spark a while ago and I will try to get it back