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A.N. Just a heads up, there is fairly heavy bullying and some minor torture in a dream. And fuck me sideways, thirty-six follows, seventeen favourites and ten reviews, you guys are making me very happy. I'm also glad that so many people are liking, that really surprised me.

Pansy

It's been two weeks since I became a Gryffindor and I still haven't gotten used to walking the halls as one. In my Slytherin robes the crowds would part for me, everyone feared me, and at the time I thought I loved it. But now I realise that respect is much nicer. Of course, most people only respect me based on my robes and once they see who I am the respect usually turns to hatred or fear. But the feeling still persists.

"Hey freak!" A voice behind me called out causing me to quickly shrink down as much as I could as I picked up my pace to get to class, the taunting hadn't stopped and seemed to be getting worse. "Don't ignore my bitch!" the voice called out again, and I was stopped by a pair of strong arms.

Looking up I found myself looking at a Slytherin student, he seemed to be a few years older than me, and he looked down at me with disgust, "I believe you were told not to ignore him." The young man said as he spun me around.

I came face to face with Draco and his minions Crabbe and Goyle, I narrowed my eyes down at him, "The hell do you want?" I asked spinning as much venom into my voice as I could.

They all just smirked as they drew their wand's, I struggled against the older Slytherin's grip, but I couldn't get free, I couldn't get to my wand. "You brought this on yourself," Draco sneered at me. "Locomotor Wibbly!" Draco yelled as he forced his wand through the air towards me. Instantly my legs gave out, and I slumped down to the floor. "Good, right where you belong."

"Screw you dick," I spat at him "What's wrong couldn't handle me alone, had to get your goons to help you?" I smirked as his face contorted in rage.

"Someone needs to shut you up, Langlock," I felt my tongue fuse with the roof of my mouth, I tried to move it, to speak but it just stayed in the one place. "Good, now you can't interrupt us with that shrill voice of yours, boys" Malfoy, Crabbe and Goyle advanced on me with evil grins on their faces they raised their wand's and started hurling minor curses at me, causing shallow and deep lacerations to appear on my body. I tried to scream out in pain but it came out muffled, I looked to the crowd for some help, pleading with my eyes, but the majority of them were Slytherin's, no one else had the courage to step in when surrounded as they were.

It had felt like hours before they stopped, but in reality, it had only lasted a few minutes, "Time for the last punishment, Slugulus Eructo!" as the words left his mouth, I felt a burning desire to kill the little bastard rise up inside me. "Come on guy's a professor will be along soon." Malfoy ushered his minions to follow him.

As I lay on the floor vomiting up slugs and slime, the people that were crowded around started to wonder off. It appeared as though no one was even going to help me and as I started to accept that I truly was hated a familiar face was brought to my eye level. Emily looked at me with a sad smile, she lowered herself and wrapped her arms around me, the slugs I was vomiting up ended up on her robes, but as I tried to pull away, she just held me tighter.

"It's okay Pansy," her voice was soothing as she stroked my hair, I couldn't help but start sobbing in her embrace, "Shh, it's okay, you're safe now."

"What the hell is going on here?" Professor Snape asked with his permanent scowl in place.

"That prick Draco and his cronies attacked Pansy." Emily snapped at the professor.

"They did what?! Where did they go," the professor snarled.

"They took off down the hallway."

Nodding Professor Snape turned to go after them "Get her to the infirmary," he ordered as he walked down the hall.

Immediately I felt my body being lifted by somebody, turning my head I saw it was Fred Weasley, he looked a little out of sorts at the notion of helping me, but he complied anyway. I smiled appreciatively at him as he supported my weight, helping me walk through the halls. The other students were staring with concern at me as I walked passed them, covered in blood with slugs and slime spewing from my mouth.

"Who's that? What happened to her?" I heard people whispering and realised they were only concerned because they didn't know who I was.

Once we made it to the infirmary and Madam Pomfrey had set to work healing my wounds, Fred immediately disappeared into the school, leaving me with Emily. She sat beside me as Madam Pomfrey worked, occasionally helping when asked, but other than that she sat there in silence, just staring at me with a concerned look in her eye. It had taken hours before the nurse was finished healing my wounds, and she insisted that I stay there overnight to help with the tenderness that I felt where the cuts used to be.

"How are you feeling?" came the quiet voice of Emily sitting next to me.

I smiled at her, "Well, my wounds have been healed, I can feel my legs again, I can speak again, and I've stopped vomiting up slugs, so, all in all, I'd say I'm doing much better."

"You know what I mean" Emily laughed as she lightly punched my arm.

I smiled appreciatively at her "I'm doing okay" I relented "It's much easier to deal with when I have someone to help me, back in the Great Hall, I felt as if no one would care and it hurt. But, now I have a friend, a true friend."

She smiled and nodded "That you do," she then let out a loud laugh which garnered a questioning look from me. "I never would have thought that last year's tormenter would become a friend." She explained. I nodded in agreement, "But I'm glad you did, you've been very nice to me." She leant in and gave me a brief hug before standing. "Well I'd better get back to the Great Hall it's almost time for dinner unless you wanted me to stay?" She asked a little unsurely.

I shook my head "I'm just going to go straight to sleep," I said as I shooed her out the door with a smile.

Once she was gone, and I was now alone with my thoughts I couldn't help but let my mind wander to Ginny. I'd been avoiding her ever since that first night when I almost pleasured myself, I'd get up early and get back to the common room late so I wouldn't have to face the shame of what I almost did. But even with avoiding her, I couldn't shake the feeling that I needed to see her, to feel her, and it terrified me, it was like I was somehow in love after one conversation, hell after one look. But that was impossible, how could I love someone if I didn't know much about them, I couldn't, not really. I closed my eyes and cried myself to sleep, as I had done every night since the incident with Malfoy.

Ginny

I sat in the Great Hall watching for Pansy, I had only seen her in passing these past two weeks, and when I waved, she'd look away or pretend she didn't notice and it was starting to hurt. I didn't know why I wanted to be part of her life, I didn't even know how I wanted to be in her life I just knew that I wanted to be there for her. I watched as Emily walked into the Great Hall, but no Pansy, this shocked me as Pansy was always with Emily when they came down to eat. What also shocked me was that Emily was headed to the Slytherin table with a scowl set deeply in her features.

I stood up and quickly ran over to her, guiding her back to our table, she fought me every step of the way, but I managed to get her away from the Slytherin table.

"What?!" She snapped at me causing me to flinch.

I built back my resolve as I looked her in the eyes "I should be asking you what you were trying to accomplish. I saw that look in your eye, and you would have been eaten alive by them." I tried to calm her down with the harsh truth that she would have been destroyed.

"I don't care!" she screamed, causing a few people to look in our direction, she lowered her voice and leant into me slightly. "After what that dick Draco did to Pansy, he needs to be taught a lesson."

My eyes narrowed as I looked in Malfoy's direction, "What did he do?"

Emily bit her lip as if she were contemplating whether to not to tell me what happened. She didn't spill, and throughout the entirety of dinner, I ignored my friends to badger her into telling me, while also listening to the rumours floating around about it. I knew this would garner suspicion from my friends but I didn't care, something bad happened to Pansy, and I needed to know what. The rumours were wild, insane and always different and I didn't know what I could believe. Emily had to hear them too, but she never batted an eye, never made some sort of indication that one of them might be right.

After attempting to persuade Emily to talk to me, with no success, I trailed my way to the Gryffindor tower, still ignoring my brother and friends. Upon making it back to Gryffindor Tower, I had resigned myself to staying up late to ask Pansy herself what had happened. I sat in my bed staring at the door waiting for Pansy, but she didn't show up, I began to get very worried. I stood up from my bed and started pacing, picking at my pyjamas as I did so. I imagined everything that I'd heard from the rumours, I imagined her being beaten, whipped, berated, and worst of all I imagined her being raped. My fists clenched when I did, and I tore a massive hole in my pyjama shirt. "Shit," I muttered under my breath.

"Where could she be?" I muttered under my breath, "It's like ten thirty at night… she should've been back by now…" I turned back to the doorway and stared intensely at it, willing her to show up, but she never did.

I sat back down in a huff and closed my eyes, grumbling to myself about how I should go and look for her, just in case. "Ginny…" I opened my eyes and saw Emily, she had gotten up and was sitting on Pansy's bed.

"When'd you get there?" I asked surprised.

"About ten minutes after you sat back down," she said with a smirk "But let's not focus on that, I… I think it's best if I tell you what happened. Otherwise, neither of us are going to be getting to sleep. I can't believe Hermione is able to sleep through this." She huffed.

Upon hearing her name Hermione rolled over to face them, "I'm not asleep, how could I be? With all the damn pacing and crap." Hermione grumbled annoyedly.

"Sorry Mione," I said as I looked at my best friend.

Hermione got up and sat next to the redhead, wrapping an arm around her shoulder, "It's alright, Ginny, now then Emily tell us what happened so Ginny can calm down and we can all get some sleep."

After recounting the whole story for us, I had definitely not, in any sense of the word, calmed down. I was seething, furious at what happened and I needed to take it out on someone. Unfortunately for Emily, she didn't tell me right away and my enraged mind settled on her.

"Why the fuck didn't you tell me!" I screamed at her, reaching for my wand. Hermione pinned me to the bed before I could get it, "GET OFF!" I struggled under her pushing and wriggling with as much force as I could muster. "She could've told me earlier, and I could've put that dick in his place, but no, she had to keep it to herself."

"Of course, I kept it to myself," Emily spoke over me, "It wasn't my place to tell, and I'm not going to go around gossiping about it." She huffed as she walked back over to her bed and slumped down into it.

I rolled my eyes at her, even though somewhere in my mind I knew she was right. I closed my eyes and started to breathe deeply, forcing myself to calm down. As I opened them I looked over at Emily, she was staring at me expectantly, "Your right," I relented, "And I'm sorry."

She nodded her head, "Believe me, it's okay, I understand how you feel."

I wished she did, but in my heart, I knew that she didn't, she didn't feel the same way I did about Pansy, I knew that somehow, I wanted to be with her, "What!?" I shouted as I thought it, causing the other two to jump.

"What?" Hermione asked quickly, concern laced through her voice, I could see the worry in her eyes as she looked at me.

"It's nothing," I replied as I laid down, "Just… stuck in my own head."

"Okay…" I could tell Hermione was sceptical, but she laid down to go to sleep anyway.

I closed my eyes as I let the thought swirl around in my mind, it couldn't be true, I've never had those feelings for another girl before, in any way, shape, or form, I can't be into her like that.

"I'm not," I whispered resolutely as I closed my eyes.

I woke the next morning feeling much calmer than when I went to sleep, I was up much earlier than usual, but I rushed to get ready anyway, I had an appointment I needed to keep. I grabbed my wand and walked brusquely toward the Great Hall. Upon entering my eyes immediately searched out my prey, Crabbe and Goyle, sitting alone at the Slytherin table, already having breakfast. I smiled to myself, it was nice when people stuck to a schedule.

Walking up behind them, I tapped their shoulders and waited for them to turn to face me, as they did I whipped out my wand holding it threateningly in front of Crabbe's face. The boy looked utterly terrified, his eyes widened, his face paled, and he shrunk down slightly.

I smiled maliciously at him, then at Goyle who sat there stunned. "Now, I need you two, to answer a question for me, where. The fuck. Is Malfoy." Crabbe stuttered as he tried to formulate a coherent answer.

"H-he's t-talking to P-P-Professor S-Snape."

"Where?"

"In Snape's office, behind the Defence Against the Dark Art's room." Goyle answered, saving his friend the embarrassment of stuttering like an idiot again.

"Good boy," my voice filled with venom as I spoke. I raised my wand before bringing it down in a firm ark, "Densaugeo!" Crabbe's teeth immediately started growing, he tried to stop them with his hand, but to no avail. I then turned my wand to Goyle.

"No, please don't" He begged.

I leant into him "Did you think to stop when you were hurting Pansy? You're basically getting off scot-free compared to what she suffered. Calvario! Cantis! Tarantallegra!" I swung my wand with force with each incantation. Goyle's hair disappeared while he started singing and dancing like a madman, the few students in the Great Hall started laughing their asses off While I stalked off to my next destination.

As I approached the Defence Against the Dark Arts classroom, I could already hear Professor Snape screaming at Malfoy. I smirked as I listened to the professor berate Malfoy as he listed off extra chores, work, assignments and detentions for the dick to complete. As I listened, I pondered whether or not his punishment was harsh enough. But as he walked out of the room, I knew immediately that it wasn't. I glared at him as he walked past me without even realising I was there. I followed him down a couple of corridors until I believed we were far enough away, from Snape that he wouldn't hear me.

"MALFOY!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, he jumped about two feet into the air before he turned around, his terrified look quickly turned into a scowl as he saw me.

"What the hell do you want," he snarled at me.

I smirked at him, Snape had confiscated his wand as an extra punishment, so I wasn't afraid in the slightest. Although, even if he had his wand it wouldn't help, being the best friend of the smartest witch in the school had its advantages after all.

Drawing my wand, I swung it back and forth as I attacked him with Jinx's and Hex's, not really anything dangerous, just enough to get back at him. After I'd finished I smirked at my handiwork, Malfoy's head had grown to twice its original size, he had several boils along his arms, and he'd sprouted another set of legs. Last, but certainly not least, he was now vomiting up slugs and slime, just like he did to my Pansy.

Ignoring the possessive way I thought that, I walked over to Malfoy who was now on his hands and knees, I spoke in a low, dangerous tone, "Stay. The fuck. Away. From Pansy." I turned to walk away, only to come face-to-face with Professor McGonagall and Professor Dumbledore. McGonagall instantly bypassed me to help Malfoy while the headmaster motioned for me to follow him.

I held my head high as I walked through the now crowded halls, following Professor Dumbledore to his office, my fellow students smirked at me, some full-on laughing. They were talking about what I'd done to Crabbe and Goyle causing me to smirk, apparently, they hadn't heard what I did to Malfoy yet.

As I walked into the headmaster's office, he offered me a sherbet lemon from the dish on his desk that was always full. I declined with a shake of my head, causing him to shrug before sitting behind his desk.

"What was all that with Mr. Malfoy?" he asked with a light voice.

"He hurt Pansy. He deserved what he got." I gritted out.

Dumbledore shook his head, "Even if that were true, you are not in a position to decide. And Malfoy's punishment was already given, but I think you already know that." I opened my mouth to defend myself, but the professor held up his hand, effectively stopping whatever I was about to say. "The fact of the matter is… you attacked an unarmed, defenceless student, I have no option but to deduct thirty points from Gryffindor." Again, I opened my mouth to protest, but he silenced me again, "I'm not finished, you also have detention with the head of your house, you are to receive the same amount of extra work as Mr. Malfoy and, you are to hand me your wand." He said holding his hand out expectantly, I grabbed my wand and slapped it harshly into his hand. "You'll get this back in three days' time." I nodded my head as I stood to leave. "And, Ms. Weasley, if this happens again we'll have to talk to your parents."

I left the office in a huff, and walked towards my first class of the day, throughout the day no one spoke to me, they all seemed to be afraid of me, of what I'd done. I ignored the stares and the whispers as I waited impatiently for lunch, I needed to speak to someone, but none of my actual friends were in the same classes as me.

As the last morning class came to a close I stood up and was out the door before any of the other students, and standing there waiting for me was Luna Lovegood, we'd bonded after I defended her. She looked at me with a small smile on her face, "So, I heard you tore Malfoy a new one. You wanna talk about it?" She asked with the natural dreamy lilt in her voice.

I nodded my head as I grabbed her wrist and practically dragged her to the Gryffindor common room. Once we arrived at the Fat Lady, I couldn't help but smile at the memory of when Pansy first approached her. Comparing it with the first-time Luna had, the difference was astounding, the Fat Lady accepted Luna quite easily while she still grumbled to every student about Pansy.

Arriving in the common room, I noticed it was quite full so I pulled Luna up to my room instead, upon entering I was glad to see that it was empty. We both sat cross-legged on my bed, I stared at nothing in particular while Luna watched me.

Realising she'd need to start the conversation she quickly spoke, "What's going on?" She ventured which was enough for it all to come pouring out.

I told her about when I first saw Pansy, as in really saw her, I told her what Malfoy did and the effect it had on me, what I did to him Crabbe and Goyle in return. She nodded along with my story occasionally gasping at some of the more horrible things Malfoy did while laughing at the way I got revenge on them. "But why are you acting like this with her? When you defend me, you just yell at the bullies. But with Pansy, you went out and attacked those three boys'." Luna looked confused as I nervously scratched the back of my head.

"I- Honestly, I don't know why I did it, I just felt like I needed to. He hurt her so bad… He needed to be punished." I said the last part with malice.

Luna gave me a massive grin, "Sounds like you got a crush." She teased.

My cheeks started burning as the words left her mouth, "N-No way," I laughed nervously, but a small voice in my head was saying yes.

"You do" Luna replied with finality as she stood from my bed "But it's time to get back to class." She practically sang as she walked from the room. I chased after her trying to protest it, but she just ignored my attempts.

Pansy

I walked towards my first-afternoon class with my head down, it felt as if the rest of the students were staring at me and every time someone bumped me I found myself jumping, worried I was going to be attacked again. But as I walked I realised I wasn't the hot topic of conversation anymore, now it was Malfoy. According to the rumours, Ginny had kicked his ass up and down the halls of the school, torturing him the way he'd done to me. I smirked at the thought even though I didn't believe for a second she'd have gone that far.

I walked towards the Great Hall with Emily after classes had finally let out, deciding I needed to thank Ginny. I didn't know exactly what she'd done, all I knew was that she'd somehow defended me. I saw her sitting at the Gryffindor table laughing with her friends, but every now and then when her friends were pre-occupied she'd shoot a death glare at Malfoy. He was cowering in his chair from the look, and I couldn't help but laugh at the effect she had on him.

As I walked towards her, I felt fear building up inside me, but I ignored it as I walked, determined to thank her. Once I was standing next to her, she, along with her friends, looked up at me. "I just wanted to thank you for defending me." I blurted before I could chicken out.

"I was happy to do it," she said patting the seat next to her in invitation, I took it without hesitation. Emily wasn't able to sit next to me, so instead, she sat next to Harry, and I saw a slight tinge of red cover her cheeks. She quickly started conversing with the boy effectively keeping his attention off of anyone else.

"What did you actually do?" I asked, "I believe the rumours were a little… over-exaggerated."

She scoffed at that "Probably not as exaggerated as the ones that were circling about what Malfoy did to you, some of the worst had him raping you in front of a huge group of students."

"I don't know," I said with a smile "Some of the worst had you ripping his dick off with your bare hands… that was probably started by the same people that said I was raped."

Ginny laughed, "I think I may have if he had of raped you, and I would have loved doing it." She said a little evilly, sending a shiver down my spine, "But anyway, I just cast a few Jinx's on him, as well as Crabbe and Goyle, but Malfoy got the worst of it. I got a pretty harsh punishment for it as well."

"I'm sorry you got in trouble defending me," I apologised.

She shook her head, "No need to apologise, like I said I was glad to do it."

We talked through the rest of dinner and on our way up to our dorm room, I found that I really liked talking with Ginny, she was a very funny and engaging person. And kind too, so kind she was willing to speak to a freak like me.

Once back in our room, I laid down on my bed and started to fall asleep, only to be shaken by someone, opening my eyes I came face to face with the redheaded girl of my dreams.

"Don't you think you should change first?" she asked with a smirk, motioning towards my school robes, I sighed as I climbed out of my bed.

"I guess you're right." A small smile graced my face once she'd turned around. I watched as she started to pull off her own robes and drew in a sharp intake of breath. I quickly turned around before I saw something I really wanted to see and quickly got changed before laying back down. I closed my eyes again, and slowly drifted off to sleep with no tears, for the first time in weeks, there were no tears.

I stood chained to a wall, my hands and legs were bound, and my clothes were ripped in a few places where deep lacerations covered my body. I looked up into the eyes of Malfoy, Crabbe, Goyle and a handful of other Slytherin students.

They took turns hurling Curse's at me, some were mild and only caused light scratches to burn my skin, but others burrowed deep into me, so deep it felt as if they were digging into my very soul. One after another the Curse's kept on coming until someone much older approached, he stopped Malfoy's next curse with a tap on his shoulder.

"It's time for you all to learn how to really inflict pain," the man's scratchy voice grated on my ears, "First, you need to fill your minds with hate anger. As much hate and anger as you can muster. Then you need to really want to inflict pain on your victim, if you don't want to, then it won't work. Lastly, you need to swing your wand with as much force as you can. Before ushering in the curse. Crucio!"

Not light at all came from the wand, but I knew immediately when the spell hit, as the pain was the most intense I'd ever felt, it felt as if every cell in my body was being torn apart several times, before being forced back together only to be torn apart again. The feeling seemed to last for an eternity as I screamed in pain, but there was nothing I could do besides endure it.

My eyes shot open, and I heard the end of my own scream. I looked up into three very concerned faces, Emily, Ginny and Hermione were standing over me with terrified looks on their faces. I reached up and rubbed away the tears that I'd been crying in my sleep.

"What the hell is going on!?" A loud authoritative voice called from outside the room, I looked towards the open door, it was packed with students looking on with concern and terror in their eyes.

I looked back to the girls and immediately lunged at Emily and Ginny clutching them to me as more tears started to pour from my eyes. Their arms quickly wrapped around my body as they whispered comforting words into my ear.

I heard Hermione speaking to whichever professor had come to investigate and the students that stood outside the door. She explained that it was just a bad dream, I knew she was right, but it felt so real. Usually, it was easy to differentiate between a dream and reality, but during this one, it felt so god damn real, and it still did.

I stayed awake for hours after that, Ginny, Emily and Hermione all stayed up with me, comforting me, until I was able to finally fall back to sleep. I awoke the next morning with a smile on my face, happy that I hadn't had any more nightmares. I looked over at the Hermione and Ginny and knew that they'd also be happy not to have been woken up to comfort the freak.

A.N. 2 I was going to add some Hermione into this chapter but it ended up getting a bit long so I'll be starting with her in the next chapter.