Huge thanks to Sherry and Paige, without them these chapters would not get out to you guys so quickly! Any mistakes are my own :)

"Yesterday

All my troubles seemed so far away.

Now it looks as though they're here to stay.

Oh, I believe in yesterday."

-The Beatles-

EPOV:

It's strange, seeing the colorful autumn trees and feeling the cold bite of the air, without a single drug in my system. I can't remember the last October I spent sober. I can't remember the last time I experienced the changes the season brings without every sense being amplified and contorted. Although normalcy still feels foreign, I welcome the feeling of control.

Charlie loves the weather, and like always, he takes in the new sights with wide and curious eyes. I'm thrilled with what I have managed to plan for the day. While my muscles are still sore from strenuous work, I knew I couldn't pass up the opportunity to have an amazing day with Charlie and Bella. The date doesn't even seem like something I could have come up with, or at least, it didn't seem like something the oldme would have done.

Our picnic in the park was great, and the sandwiches, I woke up early to make, were a hit with Bella. They were simple, but they were a step-up from my usual cooking. Bella promised to show me how to cook a few things, and I was more than happy to agree. Any excuse to be close to her will always be a welcome one.

"Is he going to stand?" Bella asks, as Charlie tries to pull himself off of the ground with the sleeve of my shirt.

Charlie is pure concentration as he sticks out his tongue and tries to put all of his effort into standing. He pulls himself up for a moment, and then falls back down on his butt, before trying again. I give him an encouraging smile, and he smiles back at me, momentarily dazed, before he finds the strength to pull himself to his feet.

"Oh my gosh! Charlie!" Bella exclaims, applauding my boy as he stands before her.

Charlie giggles, and his laughter sends him back on his ass. He pouts for a moment, before reaching for me to pick him up. He giggles in my arms and I find that it is the most relaxing and assuring sound in the world. Grabbing my thumb, he puts it in his mouth and gnaws on it.

"Aw, Edward. He loves you so much," Bella says, crawling across the blanket to get closer to me.

I smile at her, knowing this is probably true. It's weird to think about Charlie loving me. It's weird to think about anyone loving me. After loathing myself for so long, experiencing anything else is a shock to my system. Since Charlie, my confidence has grown, and I find that I hate myself a little less. I don't know if I'll ever be able to love myself, but I do know that I am capable of love. Charlie is everything to me, and Bella...I can't even begin to describe the way I feel about her.

After our picnic, we end up at the local pumpkin patch. The hayrides, caramel apples, and rows of pumpkins in various sizes brings me back to a happier time with my brother. Mom and Dad used to bring us every October, to pick out a special pumpkin to carve. I had loved it, and would spend the day picking out pumpkins as my dad carried me on his shoulders. Some years, I would chase Seth around the patch and we would play in the hay until mom would eventually drag us out.

"Seth, stop it!"

Seth chase me. He scary when he jumps. Hay is in my mouth and Seth laughs. Seth hold his hand out, but I no up. My head hurt.

"Ed you okay?" Seth sound scared.

Daddy run to me. He look mad. He funny mad. I giggle at him and he stop running.

"Guys, what did I say about roughhousing? You know your mother doesn't like it."

Daddy pick me up and kiss my head. He put me on shoulders and let me pick pumpkin. I like big orange. It funny looking. Daddy get one for me. He let me down to play Seth. This time I chase him. He runs away and I roar. Seth laugh and I tackle him. I laugh too. Seth funny. I love brother.

"Stop that!" Mommy say.

She pull me off ground and spank my bottom. Seth frown. He hold my hand.

"Seth are you okay baby?" Mommy ask.

Seth okay, he says. He hold my hand. He bring me to daddy. Mommy and Seth look at pumpkin. Daddy get me apple. He let me sit on lap. I want to play. But mommy not like it.

"Where did you go?" Bella asks, as she rocks Charlie in her arms.

"I was just thinking about how I used to go to places like this as a kid."

Bella nods her head, and doesn't ask me about it. She understands that all my childhood memories include my brother. One of the hardest parts about him being gone, is that all my memories feel gone as well. No longer can I look back without the pain of what I have lost.

"Want me to take a few photos of you and Charlie? You know, so you can remember his first October?"

Bella gives me an adorable smile and I have to agree. Who could deny this girl anything? As silly as I feel, I pose with Charlie in front of a large pile of pumpkins. Charlie is giggling in my arms as I play with him, and Bella is all smiles as she snaps some photos with her phone.

"These are so cute Edward," she approves as she stares at the photos on her phone.

"Can I see?"

She nods and hands her cell to me and I scan through the pictures, barely recognizing the man covered in tattoos holding a little boy. I look so happy, I can't remember the last time I smiled for a picture. Charlie looks even more content, smiling broadly in the photos and holding onto my finger. We look like the perfect family.

"Can you send this to me?"

"Of course," Bella smiles.

Pulling out my phone, I pull Bella forward to join us by the pile of pumpkins. "I want a few photos with you," I explain.

This causes her whole face to light up with gratitude, and she is eager to sit next to Charlie and I. I snap a few photos, a few of us smiling and a few silly ones. We feel like a little family, and I find that this is a feeling I could easily become used to. As I snap the last photo, Bella leans in to kiss me. Her lips are soft and perfect against mine.

Every kiss feels new and different with Bella. Whenever her lips meet mine, I have to restrain myself, never wanting to lose control with her. Our relationship is still new and I don't want to do anything to fuck this up. She pulls away with a blush, and bites her lip, just like she usually does when she wants more. I would give her more, I would give her everything if she would let me.

A/N: So, what do you guys think of Edward's flash back and his date?

Song- "Yesterday" by The Beatles.