Soothed by Don's presence, Leo fell asleep.

Leo found himself in a large room that looked like a nursery. A blue crib was in the corner and Disney characters were stencilled and painted on the white walls. A yellow rocking horse with red handles was near the crib and there was a large assortment of toys scattered around the room, including a large stuffed panda Leo recognized as Raphael's.

How bizarre, Leo thought. How'd it get here? Where am I?

Crying sounded and realizing it emanated from the crib, Leo went over to it and peeked inside.

Twin girls flailed their limbs and looked up at him. Their skin color was forest green, like him, and they had his sapphire eyes.

They're beautiful. Little angels. Mine, Leo thought, as he continued gazing at them? But then who's their other parent?

Raphael appeared and Leo's stomach tightened in knots and his blood ran cold. Instinctively, he turned to run now knowing the answer to his question.

Raphael was the dad and he….This was their home and those were their babies. His living nightmare of being Raphael's mate had come true and he was trapped. He had to leave. His life depended on it.

Raphael leapt high in the air and kicked out at his brother, taking him by surprise and sending him sprawled onto the ground. Winded, Leo panted, as Raphael climbed onto him. The emerald skinned turtle pressed his full weight onto Leo and pinned his arms down. Leo tried to wriggle free, but Raphael was way too strong.

Green eyes blazing, Raphael hissed, his face mere inches from his brother's, "How many times do I gotta tell ya that ya ain't goin' nowhere, Leo? Yer mine and ya ain't leavin' me, Maddie and Rosie! Get it through yer skull once and for all. Guess I gotta teach ya, who's boss again and teach ya a lesson!"

"I'm sorry!" Leo said. "Raph, you don't have to do this. I just….."

Raphael sank his teeth into Leo's collarbone, eliciting an undignified squawk from him. The volatile turtle's breath tickled Leo's neck, sending a shiver down his spine, and his musky scent filled Leo's nostrils. It was intoxicating and heady and Leo didn't want it. Didn't want any of this. Didn't want to be stuffed by his brother and treated like a toy. Not again.

"I'll behave. I promise," Leo begged tearfully. "I'm sorry. I…."

Raphael snorted contemptuously, roughly kneed Leo's legs apart and said, "Gonna fill ya with my seed. Ya like it, bro? Yeah. Ya like it when I fuck ya good and make ya submit. Gonna make ya so compliant, ya'll never think 'bout leavin' again. How could ya anyway, when I treat ya well and ya got babies? Yer a selfish bastard, Leo! Always thinkin' 'bout escapin' me!"

Hot tears ran down Leo's face, as he wept, but Raphael ignored him and plunged his thick cock inside of his brother, his eyes hooded, as he succumbed to his animal desire of rutting and dominating his mate, his deep rumbles of pleasure echoing off of the walls.

Leo screamed and squeezed his eyes shut, as his forehead beaded with sweat, his heart pounded, his body shook and tears streamed down his cheeks. It had happened again and he'd been powerless to prevent it. How could he call himself a leader now? He wasn't fearless. He was weak and a shell of himself. There was no way he could fight in battle when he was afraid of his own shadow and when fear gripped his very being and he wanted to die.

"Leo," Don said softly, taking in his obviously traumatized brother. It was clear he'd had a nightmare. Probably about his time with Raph, Don mused. "Leo," Don said and gently shook his brother. "You're safe with me. Open your eyes. I promise you're safe."

Sapphire eyes opened and still quaking, Leo said fearfully, "Raph was here and he was…..We had babies. Twin girls. It was horrible. I….He's here, isn't he? I smelled him. His breath, his scent. He's here! He's going to hurt me. I can't go through that again!" Leo's voice rose in panic and he said, "He'll hurt me. I know he will! Keep him away!"

Don folded him into a gentle hug and said, "He's not here, Leo. You're safe. It's just us, okay? There are no babies and Raph isn't here. You had a nightmare."

"But it was so real. The babies were called Maddie and Rosie and Raph was mad when I tried to escape. He went ballistic and forced himself on me," Leo hiccupped.

"It was a bad dream. You're safe. Look around. There are no babies."

"But what if that happens. I don't want babies, Donnie! You'll have to help me get rid of them, Donnie. Please."

"Sh. We'll cross that bridge if it happens. Do you think you can go back to sleep?"

"I don't know," Leo said, pulling away. "I keep seeing his face twisted in fury and lust looming down at me and I feel sick to my stomach. I don't think I'll ever get over it. My baby brother raped me, Donnie. It wasn't supposed to happen! How can I get over this? And how can Raph and I ever work through it and become close again? Just hearing his name chills my blood and makes me flatten my tail against my body! I'm petrified and there's no way I can be leader now. You'll have to be. I wish Dad were alive to help me and offer me pearls of wisdom, but maybe it's good he isn't, because he'd be revolted by his spineless, pathetic and tainted son. His son, who was fucked by his own brother and who couldn't fight back!"

"Stop saying that, Leo," Don said and rubbed Leo's shell in circular motions to calm him down. "We'll get through this. I promise. You're tough, Leo, and you can withstand anything. I'll be your support and so will Mikey. And stop blaming yourself. It wasn't your fault and it wasn't Raph's either. He was drugged. We'll return him to normal and you can talk to him when you're ready…."

Leo covered his face with his hands and said, "I doubt I'll ever be ready to talk to the brute and I don't want any babies. They'd be a constant reminder. I'll carry them if you can't terminate them, but I'll get rid of the eggs when I've laid them and you'll help me, Donnie. Please. And you won't tell Raphael if I'm gravid. He doesn't need to know. Assuming there's a chance Raphael and I'll mend things, having the eggs around won't help with that. It'll only complicate matters and cause unnecessary angst. Do you understand?"

"I do, Leo, but Raph would have the right to know…."

"He doesn't!" Leo yelled. "It's my body and my choice alone. Do I make myself clear?"

Not wishing to further enrage his brother, Donnie nodded and said, "Yes, Leo."

"Good. Rapists shouldn't have rights. I get he was drugged, but he still raped me. He doesn't get a say in anything and you should consider castration to prevent it happening again if you don't find a cure for him."

"Leo, that's a bit drastic," Don began, stunned Leo would think about that being done to one of his brothers.

"Drastic?" Leo said sneeringly. "Go through what I have. Then you'll understand why I said that! You think I want my brother castrated? No, but I'd need it done if there's no cure, so I'm not harmed again! I always place my brothers' welfare ahead of mine, but I'm thinking of myself first now. You have no idea what it's like being pinned down to the ground, while your baby brother ruts you like an animal! And besides, if he doesn't rape me again, he could turn on you or Mikey. Do you want that and Raphael plugging your hole or poor innocent Mikey's hole? Do you want that, Donnie?"

Don winced at Leo's bluntness and said miserably, "No. I'll do what you ask if I find no cure."

"Good."

An uncomfortable silence stretched for a few minutes. Then Don said, "Think you can sleep now, Leo?"

"Only if you stay with me. I'm sorry for biting your head off, Donnie, but I'm scared."

"There's no reason to apologize, Leo," Don said, mentally vowing to find the cure no matter what and to tell Raphael he was a dad if that happened. His brother deserved to know, no matter the circumstances in which the babies had been conceived.

Leo smiled weakly, lay down and closed his eyes. Don sang a lullaby that Splinter had sung to them when they were small and he watched as Leo soon fell asleep, his plastron rising and falling with his even breathing.

Leo was bewildered to find himself in an underground chamber, the walls closing in on either side. Panicked and desperately trying to climb up the walls, but without any success, he was relieved when he heard a female voice and saw a rope tossed down to him. Leo shimmied up it and kissed the ground. Never so grateful to be alive, as he was then. His exhilaration changed to grief and astonishment when a figure approached him, holding a severed head in its hands, the dark hair matted with blood and the pale face looking like a death mask.

The face he'd lovingly gazed into and had adored. His beloved.

Karai.

Stunned, Leo remained frozen to the spot, his mouth open in a silent scream.

"Leonardo, avenge my death. Then join me," Karai said. She placed the head on the ground and opened her arms, beckoning him closer. Arms that had once caressed him. The head rolled and stopped by Leo's feet. He took a step back in revulsion and shivered.

"Join me," Karai repeated and moved closer to him. Then her mouth slackened and her eyes stared vacantly at the sky. The beautiful almond-shaped eyes Leo had loved so much closed forever.

Leo let out an ear splitting wail, his heart shattered once again, his body trembling, as nausea bubbled in his belly and sweat beaded his forehead. His precious Karai was no more. Murdered by his brother.

Leo jerked awake, panicked, vaguely aware of someone talking to him and holding him close.

"Karai," Leo wept. "I saw her. She was standing right here."

"It's okay, Leo," Donnie said. "You had another bad dream. I've got you, okay?"

"He murdered her, Donnie!" Leo sobbed. "I loved her so much and she loved me. We were soulmates and so unbelievably happy together. Raphael robbed me of her, my takara, my soul, my heart. She was standing here and holding her severed head in her hands and she begged me to get revenge and then…."

"Leo, I'm going to give you something to calm you down and to help you sleep, okay?" Don said gently.

"I DON'T WANT FUCKING MEDICINE. I WANT KARAI BACK! How the hell am I supposed to carry on without her? I can't. I want to die. I want to be with her. I want the pain to end. Karai, my love, I miss you so much," Leo wept.

Feeling helpless at being unable to console his traumatized and grieving brother, Donnie stood and said, "I'll be right back, Leo."

"Don't leave me!" Leo shrieked. "He'll find me. Don't go."

"I'm not, Leo. I'm just getting some water from the sink there, okay? I'm not going to leave you." Donnie filled a glass with water from the sink and returned to Leo. Then he opened a drawer, took out two sleeping tablets and said, "Leo, I want you to take these, okay? I know you hate meds, but it'll help you get some rest."

"I DON'T WANT MEDICINE" Leo screamed, angrily shoving his brother aside. Then he rose to his feet and started throwing and kicking objects around, unleashing his rage, his grief and frustration on everything he could to Don's immense despair. Gone were several of his precious projects. Never had he seen Leo so worked up before.

"I'm going to kill Raphael!" Leo growled. "He took Karai away from me. He deserves death. I want him to bleed. I want to watch the light die out in his eyes!" Leo roared, as he kicked Don's lab desk, sending it crashing against the wall and sending bottles, beakers and canisters to the ground, their contents spilling out and forming a large puddle.

Donnie tried to stop him and grabbed his arm, but Leo was a force to be reckoned with when he was pissed and he lashed out at Don, kicking him in the plastron and sending him flying against the wall, his head hitting it with a sickening crack. Don crumpled to the ground in a heap, his eyes sliding closed.

Suddenly overcome with remorse by what he'd done to his brother and his fury abating, Leo crouched down by his brother's body and cradled him in his arms. "Donnie, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," he sobbed. "Please don't die. I didn't mean to hurt you. Please come back. I need you."

A/N Sorry for the long wait in updating. Was a bit stuck. Thanks for your patience and for following and reviewing the story.

Is Donnie dead? Will Leo ever recover?