Raphael entered the chamber and scowled, when he saw that Leo wasn't there. Only Karai's head remained, the eyes seeming to mock the emerald skinned turtle. Enraged and snarling, his green eyes flashing, he kicked out at the head and watched it roll to a stop by the opposite wall.

"How the fuck did ya escape, Leo?" Raphael yelled. "Maybe it was Donnie and Mikey, who helped ya. Fuck them. They're gonna pay for takin' ya from me. Yer mine. I'm gonna reclaim ya and never let ya go!"

Raphael stalked out and headed to the lair.

XXXX

Mikey entered the laboratory and saw his brothers sitting on the floor, Leo holding Donnie's hand.

"What happened, Leo?" Mikey asked in alarm. "I heard crashing and the sound of things breaking."
"I lashed out at Donnie and he crashed into the wall," Leo said tearfully. "I was so mad after everything that happened and I…I hurt our brother, Mikey. What kind of brother am I?"
"Someone, who's suffering. It's unlike you to have a meltdown. Why did it happen, Leo," Mikey asked, as he checked Donnie's pulse. "He's unconscious. Probably has concussion and he should wake up soon."
"What happened, Leo? We rescued you, but I don't know the facts."
"Raph raped me, Mikey. He was like an animal!" Leo said, blinking back tears at the memory. "He fucked me over and over again and called me his mate. He was savage. He even raped me with his sai in a bid to dominate me. It worked. I was a blubbering mess. Me, the so called Fearless Leader," Leo choked out. "I'm supposed to be courageous, Mikey, but I sobbed like a baby and he didn't care. All he wanted was sex and to dominate and he killed Karai, because he thought she was competition for my affection. My treasured Karai. He placed her head near me to taunt me. Oh, Mikey. I loved her so much and now she's gone. My takara!"
"Oh, Leo. I'm so sorry," Mikey said sadly and dropped to his knees. He folded Leo into a hug and said, "We'll get through this, Leo. I swear we will, bro, and no one will ever harm you again. Do you know why Raph did that, because he'd never do anything to hurt you? He loves you and idolizes you, although he'd never admit it. You're his hero and he lives for your praise."
"Donnie suspects he was drugged and reduced to his primal state, so all he'd think about was sex, rutting and breeding….."
"Good thing you can't have babies then. Who'd do that to Raph and why?"
"One of our enemies. Probably Shredder, so that we'd be too focussed on our sexual needs than protecting the city. Mikey, there's something you should know. I'm intersex, which means there's a good chance I'm going to fall gravid with Raph's babies. I don't want that, Mikey. It'd be a constant reminder of the abuse and I….I want you to dump the eggs when I lay them. I don't care where…..Promise me you'll do that."
"Leo…."
"PROMISE ME! I also don't want Raph around me. I can't face him now. Maybe not ever, okay?"
"Leo, I…."
"Mikey, promise me. Please, little brother. I couldn't be a parent to those kids and give them what they deserve and need. I couldn't. They'd just be a constant source of pain to me and I….I don't want that and Raph isn't equipped to be a parent. I don't think he'd want the babies either, because if he's cured, he'll be ashamed of his actions and want no reminders of it all."
"Leo, I understand you're hurting, but the babies are innocents. You're all innocents. Even Raph. He was drugged and not himself."
"I've made up my mind, Mikey. I'm getting rid of them. They're mine and I can do as I please," Leo said firmly. "Nothing you can do or say will sway me."

Donnie came to and said complainingly, as he opened his eyes, "My head hurts. Man, I feel like I was hit by a train."
"Donnie, you're awake," Leo said joyously. "I thought I'd lost you. I'm so sorry. I don't know what came over me. How are you feeling?"
"Other than the splitting headache, I'm fine," Donnie said, sitting up. "I think I have concussion. It may take a few weeks to clear. How are you?"
"I'm mortified I hurt you. I'm so sorry. I was so angry all I wanted to do was lash out and….Please forgive me."
"It's the trauma you've been through, Leo. I understand and I forgive you. I'd probably have done the same thing if I'd endured what you have."

"Leo told me what happened, Donnie," Mikey said. "I can't believe Raph hurt him. Our temperamental brother's always been a spitfire, but he'd never intentionally hurt us. Leo said that you believe Raph was drugged. That makes sense."
"I do, which means I need to find a cure and we need to find Raph."

"No!" Leo screamed, his sapphire eyes wide in panic. "He can't return here. He'll get me and I can't go through that again. I can't. Have you any idea what it's like being pinned to the ground and your little brother rapes you, but you're powerless? It's soul destroying and I can't go through that again. I can't."
"Leo, we won't let that happen," Donnie said and hugged Leo. "Me and Mikey will shoot him with a tranquilizer dart and will keep him tied up until I have a cure. If you're that afraid, I'll turn his room into a virtual prison with a steel door."
"What about if he's cured? I still don't want him near me."
"Me and Mikey will guard you day and night until you're ready to talk to him. I hope someday you'll see that it wasn't really his fault. It was the drugs and I hope you'll forgive him. The Shredder or whoever will have won and will have succeeded in destroying our family if you don't. You don't have to now, Leo. I'm just saying."
"I know," Leo said, pulling away. "I know it technically wasn't his fault, but I still can't forgive him, Donnie. Not that and maybe not ever. You haven't a clue what it was like and maybe if you did, you'd have more empathy for me instead of the rapist!"

Donnie flinched, as if he'd been kicked in the gut. Leo had a point. It did seem that he was more sympathetic towards Raphael, but he didn't mean to be. He loved both of his brothers and felt like he was in the middle.

"You're right, Leo," Donnie said. "I don't know what it's like, but I do know you have to forgive him someday, because the hatred and rage you feel will only consume you if you don't. I know Raph will be torn up and devastated that he hurt you. He'll do everything he can to earn your forgiveness and he won't live with himself if he doesn't get it. He also may not be able to forgive himself and if you forgive him, maybe he can try to forgive himself. Do you understand?"
"I do, but he might never get my forgiveness, Donnie, and that's something you'll have to deal with. It's not like a petty fight. It was rape, Donnie. Do you grasp that? He violated me in the worst possible way and murdered Karai! How am I supposed to move on from that? She was my true love and I….You know what? You clearly love Raph more than me and are siding with him!"

"He's not!" Mikey said quickly. "Leo, look, bro, I know you're hurting, but our family's fractured now and your forgiving Raph will be the only way of mending it. I'm not saying now, Leo. No. Take all the time you need and know you have our support and love. That's what Donnie means. We love you so much, bro."
"Mikey, there's a chance the family may never become whole again and it's not because I'm being difficult. I just don't know if I can forgive what happened, even if it was technically not his fault. Anyway, we're talking in circles. I'm going to bed…."

"YER MINE!" Raphael growled, his green eyes blazing, as he entered the lab and saw his 'mate'. "Mine, Leo. Not theirs. Ya belong ta me."
"No!" Leo yelled and clung to Donnie. "Don't let him get me. Don't!"

Mikey sprang to his feet, saw a syringe on the table, grabbed it surreptitiously and hid it behind his back.

"Raph, you don't want to do this," Mikey said. "You don't want to hurt Leo. He's our brother and you love him. Don't you remember?"
"HE'S MY MATE. PISS OFF, MIKEY, AND GET OUTTA MY WAY!"

Mikey suddenly charged at Raphael, knocking him to the ground and then quickly injecting him in the shoulder.

Raphael howled in rage, wrapped his arms around Mikey's neck and sank his teeth into Mikey's arm, eliciting a shriek from him, but the damage was done.

Donnie smiled. The syringe contained a powerful liquid that'd send Raphael into dreamland. Donnie and his brothers sometimes suffered from insomnia and he'd finally perfected a sleeping potion. One he'd planned on using that night.

"Ya dirty bastard!" Raphael hissed, "I'm gonna….." He never finished his sentence, because the drug took affect and he drifted off to sleep, his arms falling at his side.

"Mikey, you saved us," Leo said and heaved a relieved sigh. "Thank you."
"No problem. Let's tie him up before he wakes."

Donnie and Mikey quickly bound Raphael to a stretcher.

"Leo, why don't you get some rest?" Mikey said. "We'll stay with Raph."
"All right. I'll try, but….You sure he won't break those bonds?"
"Not even you could, Leo. Rest now."
"All right. I'll try," Leo said and headed to his room.

XXXX

Donnie typed frantically on his keyboard, looking for a cure for their out of control brother.

Two hours later, Donnie announced he thought he'd found one and concocted a potion.

Raphael woke up and growled, when he realized he was tied up, "Ya bastards. Let me go. Leo's mine. Not yers. My mate."
"Leo's not your mate, dude," Mikey said. "He's your brother. That's all. I know you didn't mean to harm Leo, Raph. It was the drugs and Donnie's going to find the cure, okay? You're going to return to your old self and our family will…."
"HE'S MINE!" Raphael screamed, yanking on the bonds, his eyes and face looking wild and feral, a look Mikey had never seen before and which frightened him.

"Donnie, quick," Mikey said. "Hurry with the cure. I'm afraid he's going to break the bonds. He's crazed and there's no telling what he can do with his rage. Donnie, quick."
"I'm hurrying as best as I can, Mikey. I thought you said they were so tight he couldn't break them."
"I thought so too, but rage and strong determination can do anything!"

Raphael snarled, "Let me go!" He yanked harder on the ties and grinned in satisfaction, when his left arm was free. Now it was only a matter of seconds before the rest of him would be.

"Donnie!" Mikey shouted. "Donnie!"
"Got it!" Donnie said and quickly injected the syringe into Raphael's shoulder.

The emerald skinned turtle hissed in pain and swung a punch at the genius, who winced and rubbed his aching jaw.

"Ya asshole," Raphael roared, freeing his right hand and then his legs, his green eyes flashing dangerously. "Now yer gonna get it. Both of ya…."

Raphael blinked, as if he'd been in a fog, as the drug took affect.

"W-what's goin' on?" Raphael asked. "Why am I in the lab? Why are ya lookin' at me in trepidation?"
"You don't know what happened, Raph?" Donnie asked.
"I remember my party and Shredder and then nothin'. What happened?"
"There's no easy way to say this, Raph, but we think Shredder injected you with a drug to reduce you to your primal needs, so you'd seduce us , we'd be focused on that and wouldn't care about protecting the city. But the kicker is…." Donnie swallowed hard and said, "You forced yourself on Leo. You raped him and murdered Karai."

Shock, mortification and disbelief flashed on Raphael's face.

"Yer jokin', right?" Raphael asked, horrified. "Tell me ya are. I wouldn't hurt Leo or none of ya. Tell me yer makin' it up…."
"No and another mind fuck is Leo could have your babies," Mikey said. "He's intersex."
"Babies?" Raphael whispered, the color draining from his face. "I'm gonna be a daddy?"
"That's right…."
"I'm a monster," Raphael said wretchedly, as tears filled his eyes. "I raped my brother and there are gonna be babies. I don't deserve ta live. Kill me."
"No! That wasn't you, Raph. That was the drugs and it turned you into a sex crazed zombie. You don't even remember what you did. Bro, we know you'd never have hurt Leo or any or us."
"I WANNA DIE!" Raphael screamed, the full weight of what he'd done consuming him. Guilt gnawed at his soul, even though he knew technically it wasn't his fault. "I'd never hurt Leo. Kill me, please. I don't wanna live with the shame and….Please… I can't live with knowin' what I've done and that Leo probably hates me."

"Sorry, Raph, but we're not losing you," Donnie said and injected his arm. "This'll calm you down. Raph, and will allow you to sleep. It wasn't your fault. Leo knows that and he'll forgive you someday. I know he will…"
"I'll never forgive myself and I wanna die," Raphael muttered, tears streaming down his cheeks. "Leo, oh, Leo. I wanna die. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. Please, please."

The drug took affect and Raphael fell asleep.

Mikey and Donnie watched him, knowing that their family life as they'd known it was over. The family was fractured and bonds were severed. Maybe forever and they had no idea how to fix it.

They had two broken brothers and how were they going to heal them and the immense rift between them? And what if there were babies? Could they really do as Leo wished and dispose of them?

No, Donnie thought. I won't do that. I'll raise them myself if I have to, but I won't get rid of them. They're innocents and need and deserve love.

A/N Will the family ever heal? Will Raph want the babies?