It took Penelope few minutes in the bathroom alone to finally come out and get to their table . She took her seat beside Josie and she noticed how worried Josie looked.

''Are you ok? I was about to go to find you.''

''I am just fine… I just needed a moment.''

''Are you sure you are ok?''

''I am ok… And we will talk when we get to the house and have a moment to ourselves.''

''Is it bad?''

''No… It's not…''

She kissed Josie and smiled at her.

''I love you Jojo…''

''I love you too Penny…''

''Good to know…''

Josie kissed her hand and smiled.

''My love, never doubt my feelings.''

''I wouldn't dare.''

''Good.''

''If you are done making us all sick, you could pick your order.''

''Oh, Lizzie, we just started.''

''I will kill myself with two of you for ten days.''

''Oh, finally this holiday season my wish would come true.''

Lizzie showed her the middle finger and Caroline told girls to behave. Josie just shook her head and had a huge smile.

''How will we survive two of you in the same house for ten days?''

Penelope whispered to Josie the very simple answer.

''Well, if it was up to me, I would make sure we don't leave much our bedroom.''

Josie blushed and Caroline shot Penelope a glare. She was not into Penelope's idea.

Josie noticed how her mom looked at them.

''I don't think my mom agrees.''

''It was just a suggestion.''

''I will think about it wife.''

''You see…''

Caroline looked at them.

''Josette Saltzman, you will not!''

''It's Park now mom!''

''Whatever! You are spending time with your family, not locked up in the room.''

''But we are family Caroline.''

''Penelope, don't push it!''

Alaric wanted this conversation to end soon.

''So, what are we ordering?''

They gave their orders to him and when the girl in charge of their table came, he repeated it. After lunch they continued their journey to the cabin and three hours later, they were at their destination. Josie and Penelope took their bags and carried them into their room. Caroline and Rick took care of their bags and food. Lizzie and Hope had to share the room so Caroline and Alaric would have each their own room. Penelope picked the most secluded room for her and Josie and Josie didn't complain about it. They were given few hours to rest before it was time to make dinner. Josie and Penelope unpacked their bags with Hope sitting on their bed nagging about Lizzie.

''I will murder her in her sleep. I can't believe I have to sleep with her.''

Josie looked at Hope and smiled.

''She is not that bad.''

''Come on Josie! She is pain in the ass.''

''You are just used to being alone in the room.''

Penelope was folding her shits in silence and not making comments about Lizzie.

''Penelope, you are way to silent.''

''I don't have much to say..''

''How is that possible?''

''I don't want to start the fight… It's simple…''

Hope was confused.

''What fight?''

''With Josie… If I say something it will soon escalate into something crazy and you will end up sleeping with me…or both of us.''

''What do you mean?''

''She would get angry, go to your room or living room…fall asleep there and come back to bed at some point because she can't sleep without me… You sleep like dead, so waking you up is impossible… And that puts three of us in bed… And I am not into that.''

Josie looked at the floor and then at Penelope…

''I would have stayed angry until the morning.''

Penelope smirked and pulled Josie into her hug.

''Baby , we both know that's not true… And if it makes you feel better, I can't sleep without you too.''

Couple shared a kiss and Hope had disgusted face.

''I can't believe I am saying this, but being with Lizzie is better than being in your company.''

Penelope winked at her.

''Then leave Michaelson!''

''Dinner is in twenty… Don't start anything you can't finish…''

''Oh, don't worry, we can finish…''

Josie hit Penelope on the hand.

''I can't believe you…''

''It's her fault.''

''Babe…''

''I am leaving….''

Hope left and it left girls with a minute for themselves. Penelope pulled Josie into a kiss and held her tight.

''What is wrong?''

''Nothing.''

''You are acting diffenet.''

''I am ok…''

''You would tell me if something was wrong?''

''We'll talk later… When we go to sleep… Ok?''

''Sure…''

Josie kissed her again and they went to have dinner with the family. Lizzie was talking about some boy most of the time and other three girls just rolled their eyes and made comments to tease her, even Josie. Around ten girls went to their room. Josie wanted to know what was happening with Penelope. They changed for bed and got under the covers.

''Will you tell me now?''

''Ok, but this has to be a secret…''

''Ok…''

''I am pregnant.''

''What?''

Josie was shocked.

''It worked Jojo… I am with child.''

Josie sat on the bed frozen, paralyzed with fear.

''Say something Jojo…''

''Holy shit!''

''I agree with that statement….''

When she processed a bit the information Penelope gave her, she started crying from happiness. She pushed the covers down and lifted Penelope's top. She put her hand on her belly and just looked at her wife in awe…

''I love you Penelope Park… You are my dream come true girl…''

''I love you too Jojo…''

''And I love this baby already… I can't want to hold it.''

''Well baby, now you can cross one more thing from your suicide love letter.''

''What?''

''You bucket list…''

''Suicide love letter? Why do you call it like that?''

''Because it is your suicide love letter. Let's be honest Jojo… You have every intention of dying… No matter what. If we don't' find the cure… you are the one dying…''

''Why are you saying that?''

''Because I know you…and I hate you for that.''

''Penelope…''

''It's ok Jojo… I have to find the way to cope with that.''

''Baby, mom will find the cure and we will live happy and long life with our kids…''

''I am happy you believe that.''

''You don't?''

''I am scared to get my hopes up…''

''Penelope.. I will never leave you.''

''I know Jojo… I know…''

They kissed and Josie noticed her wife's eyes were wet.

''Baby…''

''I just love you so much Jojo…''

''I love you too Penny…''

''Then fight!''

''Penelope… I have no reason to fight… I will be ok.''

Penelope just nodded knowing that they are living a lie. And she had just four more years of living it… Josie fell asleep in her arms and she couldn't sleep… She was too scared to sleep. She had no idea how would she manage to survive.