A/N: *waves somewhat sheepishly* So, uh, hi, guys. We need to talk. I'm trying to finish up Camp NaNoWriMo, and this series has been so successful so far, I've found it rather distracting. Therefore, I'm attempting a trade: This double drabble (so exactly 200 words) for a week away from this series. (And sorry that it breaks the Strong arc, but I'm hoping the angst will make it up to you) I've been updating frequently, every day or every other, and I'm sorry, but I'm taking the rest of the month off. When I'm done with Camp, I'll come back and shower you with love and drabbles, but not until then. I hope y'all understand, and know that I love everyone who reads and reviews my stories. Be back in a bit!
Be the reason someone smiles today. :)
Episode: Commando App, Spike's Got Talent, Spike Fright, and Spike V. Spikette. So, um, allllll the episodes Spike pops up in.
Rating: K+ for angst and speculative gore
Warnings: Nothing not already mentioned.
Inspiration: Contemplating what it would be like to wake up knowing that you were your brute of an alter ego and having no idea what you did. *shudders*
Every time Chase comes back to himself with the words COMMANDO APP DISENGAGED flashing across his vision, he panics. Because for who knows how long, he hasn't been himself, he's been a destructive maniac, and the worst part is, he can't remember it. Any of it. He could have been doing literally anything, from robbing a bank, to destroying his house, or murdering his family. So, the first thing Chase does when he comes back to himself is to look frantically around him, not to reorient himself, like one might think, but to make sure his family is alright.
Chase is haunted by nightmares of waking up surrounded by rubble and the mangled bodies of his siblings and parents, because he knows they wouldn't kill him, even if Spike turned on them. It hurts, so much, when one of them triggers Spike on purpose, because essentially, they're saying they don't want Chase around; they would prefer even Spike's company to his. But what hurts more is knowing what Spike might do to them... What he might do to them, at any time while under the Commando App's control.
And that terrifies him.