Here I am just a day later then last week! Believe me I didn't think this would get out at all!
Anne stirred from her sleep, confused for a moment that she wasn't in her own bed, but she was far too comfortable to care where she was. There was the familiar presence she was hugged into, the presence comforted her so much she didn't care to even open her eyes. It wasn't Roy there beside her, he would not be so gentle in holding her, his clothes would be far more clad and that smell! The smell that only Gilbert could give. Her leg raised up cradling his in hers. The action made the presence stir and turn slightly into her.
This made her eyes open slightly seeing they were in Gilbert's room lying on his bed snug together, the his laptop the only light in the room still dimmed from not being used, the film long finished.
She felt his arm squeeze her closer which made her smile and look up at him.
Part of her felt sad. In the morning she would get a call from Roy, right after he had slept with someone else, asking for her to forgive him again. She was stuck in this trap of a relationship. She wished she could find a way out of this, that maybe what she was about to do, wouldn't be so bad.
They looked so plump and beautiful, a dusky pink, just hers to gently caress. She kissed his lips gently.
The kiss woke him she felt his lips react under hers, once stirred more his arms gently held her to him. As the kiss lengthened she felt her lower body squeeze together, his leg still between her legs. Her lips opened slightly and she felt him hesitate and pull back.
They didn't say anything to each other as she moved back down his body cuddling into his chest, she felt his lips kiss into her hair. She was still so tired she fell back asleep thinking of the 'if only's'...
Anne woke with a deep breath, shocked out of the reoccurring dream. She sat up confused for a moment.
Was she actually still with Roy?
No that was impossible, because she was in Gilbert's apartment.
No, not Gilbert's, theirs. Well the last almost 2 years it had been theirs.
That was right, wasn't it? She brought her left hand up and looked to see her engagement ring safely on her finger, the engagement ring, Gilbert had given her.
She turned and looked, indeed the Gilbert reality was true, and she was looking at the stirring Gilbert beside her.
"Anne are you okay?" he asked groggily clearly only just waking himself.
"Just, a reoccurring dream." She said her heart pounding from it.
"Not a bad one I hope." He murmured.
"No not bad." She admitted. "Far from it." She continued "I kind of wish it had happened." She told him lying back down snuggling herself into him.
"It had happened?" he asked her.
She chuckled. "Its a dream I've been having, actually, you remember the night I told you everything and we'd fallen asleep on your bed?"
"Um." He acknowledged.
"Ever since then." She continued, "well, it was about that night actually."
"Nothing dirty I hope." He said a little smirk appearing on his lips.
She saw the smirk and tapped him gently on his bare chest "don't be gross." She reprimanded him. She lay silent for a moment before she whispered "I get turned on." She told him.
This makes his eyes open and he looked down at her with a smile on his face "Oh?" he questioned. "Now you must tell."
She chuckled before she looked up at him and smiled at him before she told him "well I wake from being asleep, I'm not exactly awake at first but I feel its you on the bed with me, and I know its you, its your scent and we're in your room and on your bed and your laptop was even a little light from watching Indiana Jones, but I'm sort of semi aware of all this because I look up and see you and you hold me a little tighter and I want to kiss you..." she trailed for a moment blushing before she continued "So I do, I kiss you and it wakes you, and our legs were already on each others and I can feel in my jeans I get..." she blushed more before she whispered "turned on." With this Gilbert sat up "Don't be mad, I wouldn't know I was turned on at the time, I mean I suppose its just, I mean I guess actually I did know... I mean I know it now and everything, and I suppose I suspected back then , but then it was we were kissing and it felt nice and I..."
"You opened your mouth." Gilbert told her.
Anne looked to him confused "How do you know that?" she asked him.
He took a deep sigh and his hand went through his hair. "I pulled back."
"Yes, you hesitate in the dream every time." Anne told him. Gilbert looked at her his brow furrowed before he saw it dawn on her. "Oh!" she exclaimed. They were silent for a few seconds before she whispered "I didn't dream it, it was real." She stated, to which she received a nod from him. "Oh." She repeated. "Why did you hesitate?" she asked him.
"You know why Anne-Girl." He told her with a serious look "You were still with Roy."
"We'd broken up remember?" Anne observed.
Gilbert's face turned unusually serious at her. "It didn't stop you from running back to him the next morning!" he told her.
"So?" Anne asked.
"So," Gilbert reflected before continuing "You were emotionally stuck in that relationship, you had just recounted to me what I can only describe as abusive memories, I would never take advantage of you like that!"
Anne took a deep breath "So, you wanted to... too?" she asked.
Gilbert grinned "Of course I did." He acknowledged, "I couldn't, you weren't mine to keep, and anyway what were we going to do? Have sex there and then in my room?" he asked her.
Anne let out a deep breath. "It was real, I really got..." she blushed.
Gilbert smiled in satisfaction "I turn you on!" he grinned.
"Shut up!" she said her pillow hitting his face as he laughed.
He grinned pulling her back into him "I believe I ended it by holding you like this..." he said taking her in his arms "and kissing you here." He said kissing into her hair again.
"Yeah." She whispered "You did." She paused before she asked "hey if you remember it how come you never mentioned it?" she asked him.
"Like you I thought it was a dream." He shrugged "only I thought I had it that night I've never had it since, I remember it of course like I do all the dreams I had of us..." he trailed and squeezed her tighter. "plus you know as well as I do, I had much more intimate dreams of us way before then, I suppose, my reoccurring ones are of us much younger."
"One of many." She acknowledged. Anne sighed before they went silent again. "Thank you." She whispered.
"What for?" he asked.
"Not taking advantage." She told him.
"Shouldn't really be thanked for it but okay." He chuckled.
"But you could have, I mean it would have been totally consensual it wouldn't have been rape or anything because I think I wanted to but..."
"Anne." He whispered. "I love you." He told her.
She smiled and hugged into him tighter and after a moments silence said "Gil?"
"Yeah?" he asked her.
She looked up her eyes fluttering at him "Do you fancy, maybe showing me what might have happened?" she asked him.
He smiled and he looked down into her eyes which were looking back up at him. "You want me to pretend its that night?" he asked.
"Roy has broken up with me..." she trailed "and I'm looking for comfort..." she whispered before kissing him gently as she did that night, their lips parting, this time his tongue met hers.
"Results day." Gilbert said with a grin to her. "You know you'll easily be top of the class." He assured her seeing she was uneasy.
"They don't get recorded like that anymore." Anne admitted. "I'll be happy with a distinction." She admitted "with what happened with Joy, my work wasn't as good as it might have been."
"No one can blame you that." He said quietly.
"You still came top of the class." She said quietly.
"What happened didn't happen to my body." He told her firmly. "Yes, emotionally..." he said slowly nodding his head "its been hard." He admitted "but it wasn't the same thing as happened to you."
Anne nodded "You're the closest thing to someone going through it with me though." She said quietly. "I couldn't have even came back if it weren't for you, well not so soon anyway."
Gilbert shrugged and came up behind her holding her close to his body "I'm just glad we spent it together." He whispered.
Anne smiled at his closeness. "Its all coming to an end again." She told him. "Its terrifying."
Gilbert looked down into her eyes "You know these people can be part of our lives forever, its not like when you were younger, you're not just going to move away and never see them again." He reminded her "remember, me and Charlie, Avonlea, you're still in contact with us and with Diana and Fred, we're all still close..."
"Can you believe where its taken us Gilbert?" she asked him. "I mean you're a Doctor!..."
"Josie can you believe it is on her way to being a physicotheaptist, Charlie is an accountant!" Gilbert smiled.
"The one thing he swore he would never be!" Anne laughed.
"Fred is a bank manager." Gilbert listed
"Diana a housewife." Anne countered.
"Ruby is a traveller across the world!" Gilbert continued
"Do you think they'll ever settle in one place?" Anne asked Gilbert.
Gilbert chuckled "a far of land maybe, somewhere exotic."
"You my love, are about to enter into training to be a teacher." He smiled. "I can't tell you how proud I am of you." He whispered finally.
She smiled softly "You told me long ago you thought you owed something to society, you wanted to fight against ignorance..." she shrugged "I'm no doctor but I think I can instill those ideals into the younger generation."
"You'll inspire." Gilbert smiled.
"And who knows, in our little town of Avonlea there may be the next penman of the next great Canadian novel."
"No great doctors?" he asked.
"No, it already generated one of those." She flirted with him to which he smiled widely.
"Are you looking forward to Marilla coming?" he asked her.
Anne nodded enthusiastically, "Avonlea feels like a lifetime ago..." she trailed.
"We'll be spending time there in the summer..." he tried.
"I know I know, and I meant what I said it was, it is my first home." She admitted. "And we won't be so far away from it as we are now." She said quietly.
"Seven hour drive isn't terrible." He tried again.
"But hardly a daily commute," she admitted. "45 minutes is much more manageable." She smiled.
He looked down at her and asked "Post should have come by now, do you want to head down?" he asked her.
She nodded as the headed towards the elevator. "When I graduated from College so much was still so uncertain, I was all mixed up by what was happening with Roy, what my feelings were towards you, I mean love wasn't great inside my head you know..."
He nodded listening.
"... but I don't know we've not had a smooth time of it either, and I know we had those days apart." She said thoughtfully, "but I'm glad we're together, I'm glad your my nearly husband." She smiled up at him.
"And you my nearly wife." He grinned. "Always where I wanted us to be." He told her.
"What I mean is, I didn't have a great impression of love before, love was poisonous for so long I didn't equate what we had as love because it was great it was fantastic..." she turned into him as the elevator opened and she kissed him sweetly "...you've made love for me."
He smiled proudly and kissed her gently. "I'm glad I'm such a good example of it then." He said as the entered the elevator.
She chuckled as the doors closed "Its so strange to think all of this, us living together, Joy, all of it might never have happened if I'd stayed with Roy." She said shaking her head "I mean I could be looking towards being a Gardner not a Blythe!" she exclaimed.
Gilbert laughed "No point getting hung up on all the what ifs." He said. "I sometimes wonder what if we did get together in the second year when we kissed what if you'd told me and somehow I was fine with it, what if..." he said with a shrug, "you know what I come up with?" he asked her.
She shrugged in response.
"That I would still be in this elevator with you right now, we'd somehow end up here anyway, so there's no point in tossing the odds about how it happened."
The elevator dinged as they exited onto the ground floor meeting the post man as he was digging through the mail. "Which apartment?" he asked them.
"Oh no, we can wait." Anne shook her head.
"No no, its alright now I still have all the others to do anyway." He said with a smile.
"The Penthouse please?" Gilbert asked.
"Ah!" He smiled. "The big envelope from the university." He said. "Awaiting result?" he asked her.
"Yes." Anne nodded.
The post man pulled out their bundle and handed them to her including the big brown envelope. "Good luck Anne." He smiled before he continued his work.
As they were walking away Anne whispered to Gilbert "Hey how did he know my name?"
Gilbert smiled "He delivers our mail he knows everyone's name."
Anne cringed realising her mistake as she called for the elevator, luckily the quiet time of day meant it hadn't moved in the few moments they were on the ground level, they entered the elevator Gilbert took the rest of the mail while Anne held onto the brown envelope.
He smiled as they went up the building "Aren't you going to open it?" he asked her.
"Its one of those moments, one of those life moments where you work towards something and then its there in front of you and you have to take it all in or the moment is lost forever in the abyss of eternity, poof just gone forever."
Gilbert nodded "That's how I felt opening my envelope." He finished speaking as the door chimed to their floor and he took the key out of the elevator, at the same time his phone chimed where he took the phone out and looked at the message he smiled. "Yes!" he exclaimed, and Anne looked towards him confused "The Lambs board have just approved the sale of the place to Leslie and Owen." Gilbert smiled.
"Oh that is good news." Anne smiled.
"we should let Leslie and Owen find out in their own time though right?" Gilbert asked her.
"Right." She said finally ripping the envelope open. She looked down at the results and smiled "A distinction." She sighed in relief.
Gilbert swept her up into his arms. "I could have told you that," he smiled "congratulations sweetheart." Before they kissed. "Fancy celebrating?" he asked her.
"Oh a party?" she asked him "One last one before we go?"
Gilbert laughed "I was thinking a more exclusive one for just you and I right now, but that's okay too, an end of a era party, we can invite everyone we love, one last time." He smiled.
Anne chuckled. "Oh." She blushed realising her mistake "but good, I'd like a party, and I umm... would like to celebrate." She flirted.
"Yeah?" he asked.
"Oh Yeah!" she grinned back. "but um don't you have work?"
"Not for another couple of hours." He smiled.
"Then after we're going out to celebrate again, the big dinner out." She asked.
"Yeah." He acknowledged carrying her towards the bedroom.
"So we can celebrate again?" she asked him.
"Oh Yeah." He concurred "and again and again and again..."