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Chapter 7
Kikyo.
It always come back to her doesn't it?
Maybe if things had been different…
Kagome wouldn't have left me.
Keh. I know that's dumb. She didn't have a choice. I knew that was possible but, for gods knows what reason, I always assumed there'd be more time to sort shit out. Instead we got a year. A year where I was a complete dumbass chasing around my dead ex and proclaiming love for her instead of the one I really loved.
What choice did I have though?
Kikyo died because I wasn't strong enough to protect her. What kinda heartless bastard would I be if I didn't try to make things right? I'm not gunna say I didn't love her because I'd be lying. I did and I still do but…not like what you think. Kikyo was the first person to ever talk to me and treat me like I wasn't an abomination since my mother died. Without her, I would've never met Kagome or Miroku or Sango or any of my friends. I'd still be galivanting around the country doing whatever it took to survive. I'd still be someone who'd all my friends would've killed at first sight. They've never asked but yeah, I've killed people. I've killed a lot of people actually. Some because they were tryin' to kill me, others because they had something I needed but, to be fair, I've never killed anyone for sport or just because I could. That has to count for something right? Doesn't it? Doesn't the fact that I'm different now mean something? Maybe not. Doesn't matter anyway.
Anyway, where was I? Oh, right. Kikyo. Okay, so I loved her and a part of me wanted more than anything to fix what we had. I kept thinkin' I could make her love me again. Never said it was a rational thought but it was the one I had. Maybe if I'd've gotten my head out of my ass I could've started something with Kagome but…I was scared I'd make the wrong choice. Yeah, I knew Kagome loved me but I also knew Kagome'd leave eventually whether it was back to her own era or whatever I didn't know. I knew she'd leave and I was right. Still…maybe if we'd been together…if I'd've said something she might've stayed or the jewel wouldn't have taken her away.
Who the fuck am I kidding?
The jewel took her away as its last act of vengeance against us.
She didn't want to leave but that's all there is to it. She's gone.
It would've just hurt more if I'd told her I loved her beforehand.