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Chapter 9- Satisfied?

After we got back it only took Alice and Esme about an hour to meet us. Alice saw what happened and came back. They were both happy to see me; Esme was extra sweet towards me. I was still pretty quiet, but the others didn't seem to mind. They gave me a little bit of space. I laid in my room listening to music for a couple days. They occasionally checked on me. I know they were hoping to see a change in but I didn't show many signs that reassured them. On the fourth day Esme decided to try a different approach. She came to check on me but this time she a little sterner in the way she treated me. She sat down next to me on the bed before speaking.

"I am remodeling the office to double as a library. I would like it if you helped me." She said.

"I don't really think…" She interrupted me.

"No, I think this will be good for you. You have to start moving around. So, come on." She said as she got up. She didn't allow me to answer before leaving the room.

I groaned as I sat up. I sat and stared at the doorway she had just left for a minute before following her. I had to motivate myself to get up.

I came down stairs and found the office. When I walked in it was already beautiful. Esme had started bringing in painting supplies wearing her paint-covered overalls. She looked me up and down.

"Are you going to wear that? You will get paint on those clothes." She remarked. I just shrugged and came over to help.

I eventually got into what we were doing. We painted the walls and then we made an entire wall a bookcase out of shelves that she made. She was really talented, actually. After that she wanted to remove the carpet and so we did. After that we started putting in hardwood type flooring. She had to guide me on how to do just about everything but once we got done it looked amazing.

I have no idea how long it took, but for the first time in a long time my mind was focus on more than the thoughts that usually tortured me. I still felt a little numb, but seeing that project finished actually made me feel excited. I felt like I completed a goal and I liked the finished product. Esme and I stared at the room from the doorway. She put her arm around my shoulder and gave me a squeeze.

"Good team work." She sighed.

"This was mostly you… and me fumbling around trying to keep up." I said laughing.

She turned her head to the side as if I grew another head. I realized then that she probably hadn't heard me laugh since I had back from Seattle. I was taken back myself by my laughter. I relaxed and sighed awkwardly, remembering the life that I had.

"It is good to see you coming alive." She said encouraging me.

"It's just hard for me." I said shyly.

"I know, but keep trying." She said.

"I will."

"I think it would help if you had some food in you, sweetie." She said motherly.

"I don't think that's a good idea." I shook my head as if to answer 'no.'

"We can all go, we will be there to help you and encourage you. Give it a try for me."

"Erm…ok…I guess."

Esme went and changed while I was tasked to gather the other two girls for our family hunt. When I asked Alice to come with us she was more than happy to go, she actually cheered. I asked Alice to find Rosalie and ask her, she rolled her eyes but did what I asked. I think she was just so happy that I wanted to hunt that she was willing to do anything for me. No matter how nice Rosalie was trying to be earlier, I still didn't know how I felt about her. She sort of intimidated me still.

We all set out to find our prey together. I had never seen Esme hunt, I was curious to see if she was as beautiful and dainty with a bear caught between her teeth. Alice and Rosalie walked together while Esme and I followed. We caught a scent of a moose nearby and the others immediately looked to me. I think they expected me to go crazy like a rabid dog or something. I didn't, although my throat burned I again had the same problem of guilt. I had an internal battle waging inside me. My vampire was ready for its first meal in a month while my human side was ready to hide under the covers back at the cabin.

"Well, go ahead hun." Esme gave me an encouraging push on the small of my back.

"I…erm…I actually don't know about this." I instinctively took a step back.

"Sure you do Bella, you have got to be starving. I am! I'm having a hard time not going after that thing and it's only been less than a week." Alice said.

"I know I need to, but I don't want to hurt anything!" I felt the pressure bubbling up inside me. I started to walk away. At least this time I wasn't running away. Rosalie caught up to me and got in front of me.

"Listen, I know you are new to this. I know you don't know how to vampire, but you need to do this." She said point blank.

"No, I don't." I fought back, starting to raise my voice in frustration.

"Yes, you do." She said sternly. I didn't understand what the big deal was. Why was my family so intent on me killing things? I pushed past her and continued to walk away. She let me pass but spoke to me without trying to catch up.

"You know what will happen next time you smell a human after not feeding?" She paused. I stopped walking, keeping my back to them. She continued. "You won't be able to control that hunger, that burning will be more intense than you have ever experienced. If you don't feed you are going to go on another rampage. Next time it may not be sick men."

"Rose!" Esme protested her harsh and convicting words.

I turned around angry that she knew it was me, angry that she assumed I would do that again, and most of all angry at myself for the truth of it all. I growled loudly and showed my teeth to her. She didn't move or show any change of demeanor. She stood firm in the path I had made. I growled louder frustrated that she didn't seem to take me seriously. It was then that the emotions boiled over in me.

I hurt the thing closest to me, which happened to be a tree. I punched the tree as hard as I could. The giant timber gave with a loud "Crack" and came falling down. None of us moved. The tree had fallen between the rest of the group and myself. I set off in the fastest sprint I could towards the group. With little effort, I bounced off the tree log and soared over the group. When I landed, I kept running, running towards the moose that had taunted me before.

I caught up to the moose with ease; I didn't pay attention to anything else but catching him. I was within ten feet when I leapt and tackled the beast. Before we even hit the ground, I had sunk my fangs in his thick neck. Blood spewed out and made the snow crimson. It took a matter of seconds for me to drain him; he gave out a final steamy breath into the cold air. The thirst I had was only intensified with the appetizer I had. I continued on a path to find my next victim.

I drained a total of two moose, a dalls sheep and a caribou. My thirst was satiated and I was back in control of myself. I had made a mess of myself; I took in the damage to my saturated clothing. I looked up and around me to see the others close behind. Alice was oddly smiling, Esme was in shock and Rosalie was unreadable as usual. Alice sprang forward and put her arms around me.

"My Bella is back!" She said cheerfully.

Esme leaned in and whispered to Rosalie as Alice hugged me.

"Thank you." She whispered.

Rosalie nodded her head in a way that said "your welcome." After I could get Alice off of me we continued to hunt for the others. Alice took on a grizzly bear while we all watched.

"Is she going to be ok?" I asked leaning to Esme.

"Oh yes. She lives for a challenge."

Alice took down the grizzly seconds after the bear had ripped her shirt. I think she just did it out of anger at that point. The way she brought it to its knees made me think that the previous sparring she was doing was just to toy with it.

Esme and Rosalie both found caribou to feed on. After that we headed back to shower and relax. It had been a full day for sure. If we had been human I'm sure we would have been so tired we couldn't function. Well, had we been human we probably wouldn't have lived through the day we had come to think of it. I haven't known many humans to wrestle a bear. Just Emmett, and from what I hear, he didn't do too well.

After I showered and changed I walked downstairs to see what the others were up to. There was loud music playing. It was old music, band music with brass, it sounded jazzy. When I got to the bottom of the stairs I saw Alice and Esme dancing in the living room to the music. I stood on the last step until Alice noticed me and called me into the room.

"What are you doing?" I questioned.

"Haven't you ever seen dancing?" Alice teased.

"Not like this, what kind of dance is it?"

"We dancing the Foxtrot, it was the popular dance in my time." Esme responded as the two of them whirled around the room.

"Is this swing music?" I asked again feeling like an idiot. It wasn't every day that I heard or saw this. They laughed.

"No, it's ragtime! Swing came later than this." Esme stated smiling. "Rosalie, put on some early swing."

The song started after Rosalie switched tracks on the phone dock. The song sounded very similar, I wasn't sure how they could tell the difference. I must have had a puzzled look on my face because Alice insisted on explaining what this type of music was for.

"Bella, this is the popular music from when I was a teen, its Jazz with a quick tempo. We danced the Charleston. It's the first dance I remember after I was changed. Of course, I don't know what I did before!" Alice said light heartedly. She began to step forward and back quickly, swinging her heels out with each step. She looked kind of funny.

Her and Esme danced together for a few songs, alternating the foxtrot and the Charleston. Sometimes they were just dancing freely to the music. After they were content that I understood the difference they were ready for something new to show me.

"Rose can dance the lindy hop swing, she is really good!" Alice said putting Rosalie on the spot. Up until then she had been sitting near the speakers playing DJ and watching quietly. When she was put on the spot she seemed almost bashful.

"I think Bella been tortured enough by you two, she doesn't need to see more." She said humbly.

"Actually, I would like to see it. If you are up for it." I said boldly. I surprised myself.

She looked at me for a second with a shocked expression. I saw her switch from being surprised to being cocky. She gave a smirk and switched the song. She got up and centered herself on the faux dance floor that was the living room.

"Alice, can you keep up as my partner?"

"Of course." Alice smiled.

The music played, it was a very quick tempo, a sort of bouncy song. I saw the two of them begin to bounce their knees a little and before I knew it they were coupled in a quick paced dance with their feet moving a mile a minute. They kicked out their feet with almost every step and Rosalie twirled Alice around her. I was pretty amazed by the moves they were pulling. Rosalie was picking her up and spinning her one-second. Then she was dipping her the next, she was constantly using her like a rag doll. Alice didn't seem to mind one bit though. They ended the song with Alice straddling Rosalie's hips in a dip.

At first I didn't know how to respond. They were frozen in the position they ended in waiting for my response. Then it came to me.

"But! But can you do The Macarena?" I said with my finger in the air. I guess I was making jokes now.