Chapter 2: Release
(Bpov)
I held the bottle in my hands, pacing the small hotel room. I had found Carlisle. I didn't know if the others were here with him or not, esme would be for sure. this would crush her. but did she really care? did any of them?
I hit the wall with my hand, letting the tears fall from my eyes. if they cared they wouldn't have left. they wouldn't have left me behind. with Jessica and lauren and the other girls who didn't miss a chance to remind me I wasn't good enough.
I wasn't good enough for him.
I couldn't take it anymore. I cant stand listening to them talking, cant stand the looks they give me as they whisper to each other. after mica died I promised myself I would never do the same. but here I am. staring at the bottle of sleeping pills in my hand. just one gulp and it will end. all the pain. the hopelessness. the loneliness. all of it.
I had given up the thought of being one of THEM. I gave that up when I woke up in my room after he left me in the woods, yes he left me by the house, but I couldn't stop myself from trying to follow him, so that part was on me. but all my hope was gone.
I sat on the bed and shakily took the cap off the bottle. Just a few more moments. I swallowed the pills and laid down.
Closing my eyes for the last time.
A/N: hey guys. been a while since i've been on here. how are you guys? is anyone still following me? I doubt it, but if you are awesome! here is a new chapter. sorry it took so long. I get started then I lose my mojo. I hope you enjoy it.
~twilightgirl587~