Hello everyone and a happy new year and new decade. I hope this will be a great one for everyone.

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Sorry for not updating. This crazy writer's block just won't leave me be.

I've done this twice before years ago. After I'd been bad with updating I wrote one new chapter for each and every story. Then left it until I had finished them all and updated all stories at once. I've decided to do that same thing again and hopefully that will make a change as of how much I'll be able to update more afterwards… I guess only time will show. I hope you like this chapter.

Are there any fans of the movie a royal Christmas out there? Just asking because I put up a oneshot a few days ago and I'm a bit obsessed with all of my stories having at least one review.

Now if I could only make sure not to fall in these high- heeled shoes.

I did though.

How could I ever think I could make it through that whole, long church aisle without falling in these high heels.

After about half the way towards the altar I thought that I might have a chance of actually making it all the way. And as the Gus Carmichael played the organ loud and Mike was walking next to me with the Taylor's as ring bearer and flower girl right in front of me I relaxed just slightly…

And of course, I fell and lost grip of Mike's arm while everything else just stopped.

"I'm fine. Just give me a chance to get up."

I made my way onto my feet, then took the shoes in one hand- no way was I taking them on again. I looked to Seth who still stood tall by the altar, and to Johnny and Tee who had stopped right were they were. I then took Mike's arm with my left arm again and nodded to Gus who kept playing.

Tee and Johnny were still right ahead of us, and as of now I did hold on tight to Mike's arm. And made sure I put my feet right on the floor not to fall.

While Mike led me up to the altar where I met Seth and the priest, and also Seth's best man Shawn and Cam, while Mike moved to stand next to her I couldn't help to think about for the millionth time that I wasn't the only one in here who had come such a long way before we were back here.

I thought back to how Johnny had been desperate to get fostered and how Tee had only gone with how he wanted. How he had blamed Lily for getting fostered by Cam…

…Then there was that whole story with Lily following me up onto the roof…

I looked to Harry and remembered how Jeff would always be either on his side or in his hand- and there I would mean always!

I looked to Liam who had constantly gotten into trouble. And Elektra… well those two were just long stories in themselves…

And then to my own story… And how Cam had come to the dumping ground to write and certainly not to foster a child…

And the rest would be what you call history.

I barely had any idea of what the priest said during him speaking. All I knew was that I was on one side of the aisle, and Seth was on the other and I just wanted to be married- yesterday if I would have chosen.

"Well then. It's time for you two to read aloud why you're choosing to be here today… Who of you wants to go first?"

"You." Seth said after a second. "You go first."

I gave a nod and held onto Seth's hands while I took a deep breath and started.

I couldn't have a blackout now, could I? Not after all my thinking and wondering and choosing I could not have a black out…

Then one word came. The one sentence I had been so sure about all along. And as for the rest of the short speech, it just came rolling out of me.

"As we all know I'm a writer… sure not the bestseller I wish I was but… I put one word to the other and it all ends with something that people actually read. Then I was… we were doing this… and I couldn't get one single word out of what I wanted to say. And if I did it was referring to the past and today is not about the past but about the future…"

I tried to go through my head everything I had been thinking the past couple of weeks- there must be some good way I could at least finish it.

"A future I hope I'll be able to spend with you."

Seth had tears in his eyes and I could feel I had too.

I was a writer though. If nothing else I always wanted to come up with something finishing…

"Seth? Do you want to go?"

"Yeah." He answered and cleared his throat. "I'm just trying to make sure I know the whole thing. But the thing is… I know I always have it. And I will always have it…" He patted his hand over his heart. "In here… You know. I can still see you in front of me. In the back yard of Elm Tree House and holding out a kitchen ladle as a weapon… or at least to protect yourself with… if I don't remember it wrong the words I said were "put down your weapon." And now that was the first time you and I ever spoke to each other."

I couldn't help but to laugh shortly and remembered the day when a big trunk of money had ended up in the dumping ground and a day we all wished and pretended had never happened.

"So. Here we are today and Shawn helped me to bring you a present." Seth looked back on his bestman who reached him a wrapped gift. "I was hoping you could open that here and now."

There was no denying on the smirk on Seth's lips. He had planned something, and I knew exactly what when I dropped the wrapping paper to the floor and found…

"A ladle?" I held it up. "Very funny Seth. It might not be exactly the same that I used then though…"

Seth laughed and there were some spread laughter here and there. The priest was quiet but I saw him biting his lip to stay quiet. I held the ladle up (the one I had today) and hit it slightly in Seth's head, before the priest took the word again and now it was finally time.

"Do you Seth Foreman?"

"I DO." He yelled before the priest was done. "I don't need the rest to know that."

The priest seemed a little unsure about what to do, but only for a second before he looked to me.

"Do you Tracy Beaker…"

"Just skip out the boring bits now would you? I do."

"Well then." There were some spread laughter in the room. "I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss each other."

I had to reach up to kiss him while he bent slightly down- the perks of having a tall boyf… husband!

But as I felt his lips against mine, then broke away and then kissed him again my heart beat so hard it could have hopped right out of my chest. Never in my life had I been so happy and in love.

Someone could have read aloud the most important in my life and I would not have been able to hear a single word. All my mind was taken up that I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with this man next to me that I loved so very much…

That I was where I belonged and where I would belong- and that forever.

Soon Gus had started playing again and it was time to go. I was all shaky when I took his bent arm and if I'd fallen this time around it was shaking from happiness…

But as I turned around something outside flashed by in the corner of my eye. And it was when I turned and looked more closely I could see my mum sitting in the bench furthest towards the back doors. The furthest into the corner as if she was hiding from something or someone.

At first a gust of nothing else but anger blowing through me. That I did just have moments of thinking about myself and my own life and then she would come and make it about her.

Then I looked to my side and saw Seth, to my other side where Cam and Mike stood, gazed over the group of people we had invited to come here...

…Even though we had met most of them at the dumping ground things couldn't have been more perfect.

With my next move I turned my head and headed forward. I would do my best for not ever caring about her again…

My mum was my mum. Nothing could change that and I wouldn't ever want to change that. I knew that no matter how much I tried not to I'd go back, think of her and wonder how things could have been different if she had been another type of parent.

But as I clenched my fingers slightly around Seth's sleeve I knew that there was nowhere else I would have ever wanted to be…

Random fact

I watched a few clips of the Tracy Beaker- episode where Justine's dad and stepmum gets married. And in the end Tracie says. "Well speak fast and cut out all the boring bits" or something like that. And you can see I used I did use a bit of that where Tracy says like "cut all the boring bits" in the chapter.