A/N: Thank you all for all the reviews
I have potrayed Harry more aggressive in the fifth year since that was a darker year in the series. With the connection of Voldemort's soul and people calling him a liar , Harry was lashing out at many people including his best friends in the books who supported him. So Harry was potrayed to be more aggressive towards Estella this year. The Voldemort's soul in him relishes harassing people and thereby trying to isolate Harry from the ones he love.
Sirius death certainly changed Harry. For the better or worse is yet to be seen. Why Harry blamed Estella? It's similar to his thoughts on Snape. In the fifth book, Harry tries to blame Snape for Sirius death but Dumbledore cuts down his arguments against Snape. Snape had tried to help Sirius by informing the order. But Harry feels otherwise. With Sirius death, Harry will tame the Voldemort's soul in him for the time being. But a soul connection is too powerful to be controlled completely. It will grow and Darker Harry will certainly cause relationship troubles.
I don't know much about Harry 'the boyfriend .' from the books. He is an insensitive idiot ( expecting Cho to move on so quickly) and falls for pretty quidditch stars ( Cho & Ginny) and has an impulsive streak (kissing Ginny in common room) . So most of Harry's actions towards Estella is based on impulse without much thinking. And I have put in liberal use of my imagination to sketch out that aspect of his personality.
Again thank you for all the reviews. They really help me to improve. I know last two chapters were rushed. So I am adopting a slower pace.
The half blood prince
Guilt
' It was a trap.. I told you so...' said Hermione accusing him
Harry saw Ron bleeding...Estella hit by a stunner...Neville tortured while Luna and Ginny were running..
Harry saw Sirius falling through the veil...
'SIRIUS...SIRIUS..' Harry yelled
A high pitched laughter ... Bellatrix
Harry Potter woke up in his bed..his face covered in sweat breathing heavily...He put on his glasses . He was overwhelmed by grief.
Harry had gone back to the Dursleys for the holidays. He had not even whined about it. For once he was happy to get away from the wizarding world. He wasn't ready to be the chosen one..to be the reason of hope... He couldn't save the world..he couldn't even save his godfather...how could he save them all?
Harry closed his eyes trying to sleep knowing that sleep won't come. It was the worst summer for him. He still grieved hoping that it was all a nightmare. But finally he accepted Sirius was gone...gone forever because of him...His stupid hero complex...The nightmares reduced over time but still Harry realized that life was too Short . There were a lot of things he wanted Sirius to know...how much Harry loved him..how much he meant to him... But life was too short. Too short to fight with his friends...too short to live in the guilt of causing Sirius death...He'd live his life..He'd live his life for Sirius who died protecting him.
Harry got up from the bed. He wouldn't be able to sleep. The night was silent occasionally disrupted by uncle Vernon's was a beautiful night. His thoughts drifted to silver grey eyes...
"I like you too" a blushing Estella Malfoy had told him ages ago on a similar night. Harry sighed
He remembered her face when they broke up..No when he broke up
"We are over Malfoy"
She was too stunned to utter anything. Harry remembered it too well. She stood there like a stone as though the words didn't mean anything to her. But her eyes betrayed the hurt she felt. Harry had stormed off. His soul enjoying the pain it caused her. But the guilt came soon. Sooner than he expected. She had fought with him against the death eaters and he had broken her heart by accusing her to be one of them. He knew he was the one who caused Sirius death. His mind had tried everything to prove otherwise. To blame anyone but himself..Finally he accepted the ugly truth...
Harry always knew his relationship with Estella would end up in a disaster. He had trouble distinguishing her from the evil deeds of her family. There was a part of him that expected her to be a spy...her to turn out like the rest of them...her to use him...her to kill him...He broke her heart before she broke his...
But still Harry knew he owed an deserved that after all she had done for him. He wasn't sure whether he wanted to rekindle the relationship. Knowing Estella ,Harry was sure that she wouldn't want him back. Not after how he behaved. He was not sure of his feelings for her. It was too complex. He wanted to protect her from everyone but who will protect her from Harry himself?
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An owl delivered a copy of Daily prophet to him through the opened the paper praying that at least today there was no article about him being the Chosen One
'Draco Malfoy takes over the Malfoy Apothecary'
Draco Malfoy,16 has been officially appointed as the wizardhead of Malfoy Apothecary after a unanimous voting decision by the company stakeholders. This comes after the removal of Lucius Malfoy as the wizardhead of the company. It comes a shock to many who expected Mr. Matt Zabtini, 47 , major share holder to take up the mantle or even Mrs. Malfoy to come forward.
But true to the Malfoy tradition, the male heir has stepped into the seat. As reported earlier, Mr Zabtini was Keen to remove Lucius Malfoy and secure the seat for himself. But according to rumors, the young heiress of Malfoy empire, Ms Estella Malfoy is all set to get engaged to Mr. Blaise Zabtini next year. The matrimonial contract between the two families has clinched the business deal for the Malfoys which is crucial at this juncture.
Harry scanned the photo on the paper. Draco looked proud along with his mother. looked smug. But Harry didn't see any of them. His eyes were on Estella smiling and waving at him with Blaise wrapped around her. They certainly looked like a happy couple.
Harry felt a sharp pain in his chest as he looked at the picture. He looked at Estella feeling angry. Within two months, she had moved on.. was that all Harry meant to her? He had lost his temper and she ran to the next man...Blaise Zabtini..Harry felt like jinxing him to make him impotent...His insides we're filled with kerosene now..For the first time in over two months Harry felt something other than grief and rage... jealousy
He looked at Estella...Her smile was fake one..he knew that..Harry knew all her smiles..He loved the one she used to give him when he would kiss her forehead. He secretly hoped that he was the only receipient of that smile...and the one when he had danced with her...the innocent laugh that had captivated him...his Stella...Blaise had his arms around Harry's Stella...he wanted to sever those hands..
Harry looked at the picture again. Blaise was looking at Estella with lust .But Estella was gazing ahead. There was a triumphant glint in her eyes...
As though she knew Harry will see this picture. Harry tore the picture and threw it away.
"Women" he muttered.
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Harry entered The Burrow after Dumbledore had personally come to escort him. Harry felt Dumbledore had used him to get to Slughorn. But he wasn't angry. At least the headmaster had started to talk to him again... not keeping him in dark...he'd settle for that
Harry entered the Burrow and was greeted by Mrs. Weasley who hugged him.
'Harry!' yelled Hermione who came running towards him closely followed by Ron who was grinning.
But before either of them could reach Harry, he was engulfed in a hug with his face covered in flaming red hair. Ginny overtook both of his friends and hugged him. Harry stiffened and then returned the hug to Ginny awkwardly. He saw Hermione's smile falter slightly and Ron looking thunderstruck.
Harry knew why his friends were stunned. No one ever dared to overtake Hermione when she rushed to hug Harry. No one ever had the right..no one except Ron Weasley.
When Ginny pulled back, Harry turned to his best friends. Hermione flung her arms over him trying to knock off Harry. But after five years, Harry knew what to expect...a bone crushing hug and bushy hair on his face...followed by Ron patting him and their man hug...but Harry would never trade that for anything else. Harry Potter was unlucky in a lot of things but friendship has never been one of them.