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My internal clock woke me up around five. I needed to see Tara before I went to work. I managed to slide from Happy's arms and move into his bathroom to take a shower. I thought about my father and where he was right now.
Once I was clean, I left the bathroom and caught Happy putting on his white shirt. I shook my head.
"Happy, rest. I am going to see Tara for my appointment and head straight to work." I said.
"Not letting you do this alone. I'll drive you to the doctor. And while we're there, Juice is going to head to your house and put the new tires back on your car." he explained. I tilted my head.
"When did you have time to buy me new tires?" I asked. He looked his shoulder at me and I could see the mild guilt in his eyes.
"I went ahead and bought them after I slashed your tires… didn't want you to be too pissed at me." he explained. I shook my head and smiled before moving to the other side of the bed and running lotion over my body. "So what's all going to happen at the doctor?" I shrugged some.
"She said they may just give me a pill. I'm not sure." I replied. I really didn't want to discuss this or think too much on it. I just wanted to go and get it done and it be over with. I looked over my shoulder at him as he placed his black vest over his shirt.
"You gonna be okay?" I asked. He nodded.
"Yeah. I'll be fine, hell be even better when I kill these fucks." he said. I nodded silently and moved to my bag and pulled out some black slacks and a white blouse that had a silk tie around it. I had just finished tying it into a nice bow and observing myself in Happy's full body mirror when I could see his reflection behind me looking me over and biting his lip.
"Damn all this to teach some kids?" he asked, his voice husky and low. He started to move toward me and I turned and held my finger up to him.
"Down boy. We have things to do." I replied and he just opened his mouth and ran his tongue up my finger wiggling his brow at me. I just laughed and hit his chest before grabbing my purse.
"Come on let's go." I replied and he smirked and followed me out of the room. We through a drive through for breakfast which was fine, because I was honestly too anxious to hold anything down. So Happy just bought me orange juice. I could find something to eat for lunch later. Once we arrived at the doctor Tara saw me immediately which made things even worse. I was hoping to have to wait for a bit and gather my thoughts. But here we are in the patient room. Happy just sat on the chair across from the room, his legs shaking from left to right. I sat up on the bed that they had.
Tara reentered the room once the nurse checked my blood pressure and stuff.
"Hey, how are you feeling?" she asked looking at me and Happy. We both just nodded and shrugged.
"Fine." I replied and she nodded.
"Okay. Well since you're not too far along I can recommend our abortion pill which consists of two medications. One dose of mifepristone and the other is misoprostol." she said. I looked her over some curiously.
"How does it work?" I asked. She cleared her throat some.
"First, you take the mifepristone pill. Pregnancy needs a hormone called progesterone to grow normally. Mifepristone blocks your body's own progesterone, stopping the pregnancy from growing. Then you take the second medicine, misoprostol, either right away or up to 48 hours later. This medicine causes cramping and bleeding to empty your uterus. It's kind of like having a really heavy, crampy period, and the process is very similar to an early miscarriage." she informed and I stared at her for a long minute finally looking at Happy. I was worried and afraid and unaware of how this was really going to affect both of us.
Happy could see this in my eyes and stood up and moved over to me.
"Give us a few minutes." he said. Tara looked at me and I nodded in agreement and she nodded.
"Okay. I'll be back in a few minutes." she replied and turned and left out the door. The second it closed I began to pant and gasp covering my mouth as I felt I was severely overwhelmed. Happy took my other hand and stood in front of me.
"Hey, hey. Look at me." he said softly and I looked up at him, eyes watering and my body shaking. He shook his head. "I have never seen you so strong as you are now. Whatever happens after this moment, happens and we won't ever talk about it again. You are my only concern and whatever you decide will not be challenged by me or anyone else." I feel his forehead press into my forehead and I finally start to calm down.
I felt more at peace knowing he was with me on this, truly with me. If he had second thoughts, then he would have voiced them a long time ago. I nodded and leaned forward kissing him gently and he replied embracing me in the process.
After I was completely calm, Happy called Tara back in and she looked at me with calm yet questioning eyes as if asking "what do you want to do?" I nodded at her.
"I'll take the pill." I replied. She nodded.
"I'll go get it ready." she said professionally and left the room. Once the deep and dark deed was done, Happy and I left out into the parking lot. I was stunned to see my car was waiting beside Happy's truck, four nice new tires attached. I looked up at Happy and he smiled pulling me in and kissing my forehead. I closed my eyes and leaned in to his embrace and we just stood there for a bit. We will not discuss what happened today.
"I'm going to go meet up with Clay and Jax. Come by the garage after work and we can talk more about how to find Adams." he explained. I nodded.
"I'll text you when I leave work." I replied and he nodded and pecked my lips before we separated. Once I arrived at school I made sure to put a pad on before entering class. All of my children looked at me. Some smiled others were bored and didn't want to be in school anymore. Just seeing them made my spirit lift and I realized that every day I had children. They may not have been from my body, but still they relied on me to protect them, to educate them.
"Morning everyone." I replied cheerfully.
"Good Morning Ms. Adams." They all replied.
"Okay so who's ready for a little quiz!" I replied and they all groaned and I playfully groaned with them.
"It's okay children. After your quiz we'll watch an episode of reading rainbow then start class." I replied. As the room was quiet, I merely walked around the class watching my students smiling at them just being present. I walked right by Abby, her hair was in a long braid with a red bow wrapped around it. I merely patted her back and continued my walk. As I returned to my desk, I noticed someone outside staring up at me. I paused in my walk and leaned closer to the window. I swallowed some as I already knew in my heart who it was.
Antony Adams, father's first born. He was wearing black tinted glasses and staring right up at me. He's leaning over a motorcycle and he had on a black leather jacket and blue jeans. He's pale, but has grown, standing at 6'5, black short hair that's dark as the night. I wonder if he sees me? He answers by waving very slowly. I tensed some wondering what I should do? I turned to my desk and moved to pull my phone out of purse.
"Stay quiet kids, I'll be right outside the door." I told them and stepped outside. I dialed my phone and pressed it to my ear. The phone didn't even ring once before it was picked up.
"Hey, what's going on?" Happy asked.
"He's here." I replied.
"Adams?" he asked, his voice laced with concern.
"No. Antony." I replied.
"We're on our way. Stay in your class room." he said and I hung up upon hearing heavy footsteps cutting through the silence of the empty hall. I looked down it and immediately pulled out my keys from my pocket. I opened my class door, locked it from the outside, discreetly, and reentered the classroom. I gave my kids a light smile before moving back over to the window and looking out it. Antony was gone, but his bike was still there. He had entered the school that much I knew. I moved back over to my desk and sat down slowly, feeling knots form in my stomach. I was cramping badly so I pulled out some Motrin and took it. I just stared at my children for a second.
"When you're done with your test bring it up to my desk and form a pile." I told them. After a few minutes, the papers were all turned in and I cut on the TV as promised. Reading Rainbow was just starting.
Butterfly in the sky, I can go twice as high.
"Ms. Adams, can you cut the lights off?" Billy asked and I almost jumped at the sound of his voice, but I masked it by smiling.
"Sure." I replied and got up and walked over to the door where the light switches were. I moved to flip the lights off when a figure suddenly appears through the small glass window of the door. I paused immediately and jump slightly. There he stood, bluish-grey eye staring down at me with no emotion, no feelings what so ever. We just stared at each other, visions of the past coming back into my mind.
My small form crying as he had just finished cutting off the head of one of my dolls.
"We lose loved ones all the time. Learn to accept it. The pain won't hurt as much if you do!" he demanded, but still I cried and my father was walking in.
"What's all this nonsense? Meera why are you crying?" he asked as he got down on one knee before me.
"Ant broke my dolls! I want to go home! I want my real family!" I bawled and he shushed me gently pulling me into him and embracing me.
"Oh ssshh sshh. Don't cry my love, Daddy's here. Antony, we do not break our siblings' things! We need to protect each other, not bully and ridicule each other. You will get my belt when I return." he said angrily as he lifts me up and carries me away. I stare at Antony as father carries me away. He's glaring at me and I just sniffle sticking my tongue out at him in anger.
Now here we are, staring at each other with obvious stares of anger and deep hatred. He then took hold of the door handle and jiggled it, the lock clearly keeping us separated. He then raised his hand up to the glass and with his pointer he slowly curled it in his direction, demanding I come out to him. My jaw tensed and I gave a defiant stare not knowing what it could cost me. Antony then raised his shirt revealing the holstered gun at his waste. I looked from the holster to my Ant and he challenged me yet again with his eyes.
Maybe he was that insane that he would use the gun right here and now. I glanced back at the kids who were too deep into the TV to realize what was going on. I then looked back at Antony to see him tilting his head to the side and preparing to take hold of his gun. I winced in fear and quickly grabbed the door and slowly opened it.
"Children I will be right outside this door." I said carefully and slowly exited the classroom. I shut the door slowly and quietly, my back pressing into as I did so. I looked up at Antony watching as his lips twitched into an uncomfortable smile.
"My my little sister, how you've grown into a woman." he said, his voice deep and dark. I visibly tensed.
"Brother." I merely answered with disdain in my tone. It had been years since I had seen him and he too had grown. His shoulders broad and his apparent muscles were bulging through his jacket. I had to stall him long enough for Happy and the others to get here.