A/N thanks so much for all your likes/comments/follows so far on this story. It's give me motivation to write more. This chapter takes it up a notch on the maturity level. Enjoy people :)
I ended up taking an extra week off work after I came back from London. I felt although I needed time to myself and evaluate what I wanted in life. To be honest I knew what I wanted, but I knew it was too late. Emma wouldn't want to be with me, especially after that night in my office. If the roles were reversed I would feel incredibly rejected.
I found myself back in my house after returning from London, I was informed Robin had moved out. Kathryn offered to come along with me to help me sort out the rest of his stuff but I declined the offer.
So here I was Sunday evening, half a bottle of wine down already, tears streaming down my face sorting through the rest of his belonging. The ironic thing is that I wasn't crying over Robin, hell I wasn't even sure what I was crying over. But blonde hair and green eyes were flashing in my mind constantly and it was driving me insane.
I stood up after finally sealing the last box. I placed it down stairs ready for the removal van coming tomorrow morning to take the rest of it away. My house suddenly felt empty, quiet and eerie. I was alone for the first time is years and I couldn't tell if I liked it or hated it. I heard my phone buzz from the kitchen, when I glanced down at it I saw several missed called and messages from Kathryn and a few from Emma? That's strange.
I open a few from Kathryn where my heart stopped at what I read
Hey Regina, so the rumours may or may not have started going around the office that you and robin have separated, taking theee weeks away from the office was inevitable going to get people talking. Sorry I'll try and keep it under control.
God! How on Earth has this got out. I hate my private life aired
Regina dear. Why didn't you tell me about that bloody scum bag cheating on you. I'm your mother I could have helped castrate the bastard.
Shit, how the hell did mother find out. I decided to quickly text mother back as I hated knowing I've potentially upset her
Sorry mother. I've just been extremely busy sorting it all out. I'm fine I promise. I'll get a flight down to see you in a couple of weeks where I can talk to you properly. Please don't worry. I'm rid of the bastard now! Love you
I put my phone down not wanting to deal with anymore messages. I went to walk out of the kitchen but heard my phone buzz again. Sighing, I turned back around to grab it again. Seeing Emma's name flash up again, I momentarily forgot there was other messages from her, they looked like they had been sent throughout the day
- hey Regina, are you back from London?
- Hello again. Will you be at the gym tonight? Henry was asking, I'm curious also
- so I can't keep it in and I have to ask. I've heard some rumours around work. I don't normal take much notice of them but when I heard your name I couldn't help but listen. Are the rumours true. Are you ok?
- Sorry if I'm bothering you, regardless of the rumours being true or not, just so you know I'm here if you need anything at all. Just let me know you're ok? I haven't heard from you in over a week. Also I'm not sure what you want me to do at work as you're not really there to tell me what to do. So please message back (works a good excuse to message)
- Regina, you always respond. Please message me I'm worried.
- Ok well I'm heading into the gym now, I hope to see you there otherwise I'm tempted to come over to your home afterwards to make sure you're not drowning in wine and actually breathing.
Holy hell what time is it, I looked at the time and noticed that it was nearly 8pm. I sighed in relief knowing that if she was coming she would have been here already. I drank the rest of my wine and made my way up stairs, I was exhausted, slightly drunk and just wanted to sleep. I took my phone out once I sat on the bed and started to message Emma back
Emma, although I appreciate your concern, I am fine. I am alive and well and not a drop of alcohol has passed these lips. Don't believe everything you hear. Goodnight!
Fully satisfied with my reply, I decided on having a little night cap and get ready for bed. I sat and drank a glass of whiskey whilst attempting to read which was near on impossible. I gave up after around 30 minutes knowing I really should go to bed this time. As I walked out of the bathroom I heard the front door. Not wanting to deal with anyone else, I groaned and crawled into bed.
I heard the front door again, then again then again. Completely pissed off by now I threw the covers off and stormed down the stairs, forgetting how drunk I actually was I missed the last step and went falling forward towards the front door.
Truly mad with myself I stood up and hobbled to the door swinging it open "can you please stop fucking knocking-"
I stopped in my tracks as Emma was stood in her gym attire with her hair tied up in a messy bun and her hand frozen in mid-knock
"Emma" I breathed out, shocked as I haven't seen her in weeks, and blushing as she looked good enough to eat
"Regina" her cheeks flushed as she quickly brought her eyes back up to mine. Was she just checking me out? "sorry, I was, erm I was worried"
Wrapping my arm subconsciously around my waist as I felt my entire body heat under her gaze "what, so you just decided to continually knock on my door" I snapped
"Well" she looked to the floor "yes"
We stood there in silence for a few minutes, neither one wanted to speak again. So I silently stepped to one side, she took the hint looking into my eyes and stepped into my home.
"I messaged you saying I was ok. There was no need to come over" I spoke up as I closed the door
"You also said no alcohol hadn't passed your lips but that was a lie too" she raised her eyebrow and crossed her arms
"You're not my mother, I can do as I please" I hobbled into the kitchen to get a drink
"No I am not, but that doesn't mean I don't care" I sat at the island and poured myself another glass of wine. I went to pour her one too but she shook her head no. "Mind if I make myself a tea?"
"Go ahead" now I felt like an alcoholic "actually do you mind making me one on also"
"Of course, she smiled" I pushed my wine away, she took it away and poured it down the sink
"I'm fine you know" I whispered
"Keep telling yourself that Regina" I snapped my head up to say something back to her but when I seen a small smile on her face I couldn't bring myself to say anything rude
"I saw Kathryn at the gym" I raised my eyes at her again, god what the hell has she told her. As if reading my mind "she didn't tell me anything, I didn't ask her what's happened but I could tell she is worried about you. As am I"
She sat in the stool next to me "do you want to talk about it" I shook my head no "do you want to tell me why your hobbling again" I let a laugh escape my lips at that
"I fell down the last step, rushing to kill the person banging on my door only minutes ago" I saw her eyes widen "it's not your fault, I shouldn't have drank as much as I have today"
"You don't seem that drunk" she said still not taking her eyes off me
"I am remarkably well trained in the art of acting soba whist completely inebriated, many years of practise as a teen getting past my mother" Emma laughed. I loved that sound
"Well how drunk are you on a scale of 1-10" she asked
"About a 5 I would say, but if I had anymore I would have made top marks" I laughed at myself
I felt a cool hand touch the side of my bare knee making my body turn to face hers. I jumped slightly at the contact "what are you doing"
"Shh, just let me" I frowned not knowing what she was doing but I noticed a slight smirk on her face
"E-Emma what are...Oh" I felt her lift my knee so that she could hold around my calves lifting my leg over her own. I felt both of her hands start rubbing around my ankle releasing some of the pain I was feeling when I landed on it earlier "that feels nice"
After a few minutes of her running her hands over my ankle I let out a quiet moan "feels good right?" She smiled
"It does" debating what I should do I pulled my leg reluctantly away "can we, can we go sit on the sofa, it's more comfortable?"
She smile and nodded, we walked into the living room where I noticed my ankle felt much better "you must have magic hands" I saw her blush slightly when we sat down
"I'm sorry" she suddenly said
"What for"
"I'm sorry for what happened in your office, if I knew you were going through what you're going through I would never have said those things" I saw her face looking sad
"Don't be, its ok. I am the one who should be sorry" I reached for her hand with all the confidence in the world "I'm sorry for not following what I wanted" her eyes widened
"Don't say that Regina" she pulled her hand away, but I held it stronger "I shouldn't have said what I said knowing your married. I shouldn't have put you in that position in the first place"
"I am. I truly am. I haven't been happy for a long time Emma, what happened in the office was me being stupidly loyal, but I should have followed my heart. I came home that night to find Robin in bed with my neighbour. I was so mad at myself for allowing that bastard to take advantage of me"
"I'm sorry you had to find him with her, but I'm also pleased we didn't do anything. Although he was the one that cheated I never wanted to put you in a position where you cheated. You're an amazing a loyal person that's what I love about you"
"I choose him though Emma" I sniffled trying to hold back my tears "I wanted to be with you so badly, I've not been able to get you out of my mind for months, hell for years Emma"
She lifted her hand to my face cupped my cheek and rubbing my tears away with her thumb "shh it's ok Regina, although I was upset, I knew I was in the wrong. I wasn't mad or upset at you because I understood completely"
"You're not?" I said not quite believing it
"I'm not" she said so softly. Her eyes were burning into my own "do you still want to"
"Want to what?" I gasped as she leaned towards me
"Want to be with me?" She whispered
"More than any-" I didn't finish my sentence as her lips cut me off. I moaned as I felt her lips move against my own. I lifted my hand and placed it on top of hers as she held my face. The kiss intensified as I felt her tongue run along my bottom lips, I gasped opening my mouth as I felt her tongue dance with my own.
The kiss started slow but soon our breathing become faster, I felt my core burn with need as her other hand held my waist and I felt her thumb slowly caress my hip. "Fuck" I said between kisses. She grabbed my waist firmly and lifted me onto her legs so I was straddling her. My hands landed on her shoulders as our kiss didn't break once, I felt her zip from her jacket rub across my core. I moaned again as I started to slowly grind trying to find more fiction her hands held my hips helping me move
"Re-Regina" she panted, she suddenly sat forward so she was sat on the edge of the chair, she wrapped her arms around my waist bringing me closer to her body. The position we were in had her head bent backwards as she was kissing me. I held her jaw as I was kissing her furiously, "I love kissing you" I could feel the wetness drip from me, suddenly realising I had no panties on I was aware that I was now rubbing my bareness onto her pants.
"We have" I felt her tongue on my throat "we have too-god that feels amazing" I felt her teeth bite my neck "we have to stop"
"Do we?" She said between kissing and biting my neck
"I don't know" I felt her hands run up my thighs and under my top "fuck Emma" I said breathlessly as I knew she now knew I had no panties on, both of her thumbs were buried into my hips tightly
"Shit Regina" she said as she lifted my top up towards my breasts "you have 10 seconds to tell me to stop otherwise I'm going to take you up then stairs and fuck you"
A new wave of wetness dripped at those words, I couldn't even stop if I wanted too, god this side of her was so hot "no"
Every part of her body froze suddenly "no?" She sounded rejected, as she started to pull her hands away
"I mean no, no don't you dare stop" I pulled her jacket off her shoulders and arms and throw it on the floor, I then grabbed the hem of her top and ripped it over her head. "Shit your stunning" my eyes fell to her toned stomach. Fire burned in her eyes, a squeal left my throat as I found myself lifted up and wrapped around her body
"Wheres your room" she said breathlessly as she sucked my neck again
"T-top of the stairs, third do-or to the right" I was incredibly turned on by the pure strength she had carrying me up the stairs.
She was carrying me like I weighed nothing, I never was this turned on with Robin. There was something so elegant and strong about Emma that I truly loved. She walked in my bedroom and placed me on my bed not once removing herself from me.
She lifted her body just above mine looking into my eyes as if she was searching for something. "Am I taking advantage?" She said so quietly I almost didn't hear it
I grabbed her neck and pulled her into a passionate kiss "never, you could never take advantage of me"
In one quick movement, she lifted my upper body up and removed my clothes leaving me completely naked, legs spread apart waiting for her. She looked at me as if I was the most precious thing in this world, I don't think I've ever felt so wanted by someone looking at me. "You're beautiful" she finally said
I lifted myself up on one elbow and tugged her pants by her waist "remove" was all I said. She moved so quickly and discarded them, clumsily may I add. She was left in a sports bra only. I was finally seeing her naked for the first time. I didn't know someone could look so gorgeous naked before. I rushed to the edge of the bed not wanting to waste another second not touching her. I immediately dragged her sports bra over her head, the second it was gone I pressed my body against hers feeling our skin touch for the first time.
"Oh my god, I've waiting for long" she said as she wrapped her arms around me
"Me too" she pushed me back onto the bed where she crawled up over me. I felt her lips on mine again and felt the pressure of her body lay over mine. I groaned at the feeling and bucked my hips to her. The sound that escaped her lips was a sound I will forever want to hear. She lay there kissing and grinding, feeling each other's bodies. I felt her shiver when I kissed her neck and grazed my hand on the side of her breast "you're amazing" I whispered as I flipped her over and straddled her waist, I felt our cores brush against each other, the feeling was so erotic my head flung back immediately. I felt her hands run up my stomach and cupping my breasts. She pinched my nipples hard where I hissed with a mix of pain and pleasure. She placed her hands on my hips and as we grinded against each other, our combined moans filling the room.
"Come here" she said and pulled my body back down. I was on fire I knew it won't take me long to come but I wanted this to last for as long as possible. She switched positions again "I'm sorry but I've waited to long not to touch you like this" I closed my eyes as I felt her hand on my waist again running up my side to cup my breast. Heat engulfed my nipple as she took it in her mouth. Her other hand pinched my other nipple. I was a wiggling mess below her, thrusting my hips to find more friction again. I felt her smiling around my nipples knowing what she was doing to be
"Don't tease me" I heard her laugh as she pushed my legs apart with her free hand. She started rubbing her fingers in slow circles around my inner thighs "Emma" I moaned "I need you"
"You need me huh?" She said in a cocky manner I felt her wet lips run down from my breasts to my stomach
"Y-yes I need you" I felt her finger graze over my clit "fuck" I hissed bucking my hips
"Calm down" she ran her finger over it again, this time I tried to steady my breathing but it still hitched when she ran over it a third time "how much do you want me?"
"I will give you my first born to be fucked by you right now" I snapped at her "Emma please would fu-"
I was cut off as I felt her tongue run the entire length of my folds. Oh my god was I in heaven? am I dreaming? She was relentless and god dam talented, where did she learn this, god she must have had experience, trying to get that thought out my head I felt her push her fingers inside of me
I let out of a scream as she started to pound me with her fingers while never taking her tongue off my clit "I can't, it's it's too much...arghh fuck Emma, what are you doing to me" she was hitting a part of me I've never felt before
"Relax baby, I got you" I gushed again at her words, I've never felt this way before, ever. The second I started to do as she said and relax the most incredible orgasm I have ever experience started to rip me apart from the inside out, my lower stomach was my fire my legs started to shake. I screamed Emma's name so loud I would be surprised if no one else heard in the surrounding area. I clamped my legs around her head riding out my orgasm.
My body slowly started to relax, I let my legs fall but Emma was still licking and sucking. It was too much so I tried to push her away, but she carried on, something else happened that has never happened before, another orgasm erupted, it was so intense and quick that I didn't have any warning. She pulled away slightly never removed her fingers "are you ok?" She asked with a smirk on her face
I rolled my eyes and dropped my head back on the pillow "that was the best orgasm I've ever had" my arm was over my face covering my eyes
"It was huh?" I felt her crawl up my body but she still kept her fingers in place
"Yes" I panted "aren't you going to remove them"
"Not yet" she simply said. I looked at her with raised eyebrows, she laughed "I'm not finished"
"What?" I don't think I can go again" I said shyly
"That's because you haven't had someone to really take care of your needs" she smiled and kissed my lips, I tasted myself on her and found it surprising arousing. I moaned as we deepened the kiss again working ourselves up into a heated mess. I felt her lift her leg over mine so her core connected with my thigh "fuck" she said as she started to grind herself on me.
"Fuck that's hot" I said as I felt her juices rub over me "but, I need to feel you"
I quickly straddled her making her fingers leave my core where I shuddered at the loss "god Emma, what have you done to me" I said as I closed my eyes
"Took care of you" at those words I wasted no time, I didn't care that I've never been with a girl before, but I needed to taste her, I needed to make her feel the way I had, I raked my fingers down her body, watching her muscles contract with every pinch and kiss I made, I took time on her nipples, licking, sucking and biting each one making her moan and spill my name from her lips, the second I was down between her legs I could smell her sweet scent, I couldn't wait any longer, I leant forward and ran my tongue along her lower lips, the sound that escaped her lips from above encouraged my actions, I found her bundle of nerves and concentrated on that, she was a hot mess above me, I held her hips down with my hands so I had full access without risking losing my rhythm, it didn't take long before she was screaming my name, she had tight hold of my hair which was a major turn on. It wasn't until she was pushing me away that I reluctantly stopping, I rested my head on her thigh whilst rubbing my thumbs over her hips
"I hadn't done that before" I spoke softly
"What?" She gasped, she sat up and pulled me up the bed so that my head was rested on her chest "you're kidding right?"
"No" I felt her arm under me pull me closer
"Well you did amazing and I'm honoured I was your first" I smiled at her words
"I don't know why I ever waited so long, I'm totally gay now"
She laughed "technically you've always been gay, no one just turns gay"
I closed my eyes and sighed "it's only ever been you Emma, I only ever wanted you" I felt her tense below me but felt her body relax after a while
"I've only ever wanted you too"
We lay there in silence for a while holding each other, I felt her hand play with my hair. "I don't think I ever want to leave this position"
"Me neither, but I fear I must leave soon"
"What, No, please stay" I squeezed her pulling her closer. I felt her chuckle
"I suppose Henry is sleeping out tonight" she said after a few minutes
"Then you have no excuse" I sing songed back to her
"Only if you're sure, I never want to make you do anything you don't want" my eyes were getting sleepy now I dare not look at the time
"You wouldn't, I don't think I'll ever let you go again after tonight" I mumbled back
"I hope not" was the last thing I heard before I drifted off to sleep being held tightly in Emma's arms.