Chapter 10

I sighed as I crawled into bed. It had been four weeks since Ren and I's special date.

She laid her in bed as she teared up, ever since then, she had locked herself in her bed.

What if the president was going to disband Starish all because we were together?

"I love Ren... but I don't want to ruin his life... his career..."

Laying there, I also stayed here because of my symptoms. In the last week I had been experiencing bad cramping, almost like a period cramp. I had spotting too, but never got a full on menstrual cycle.

Perhaps because I was stressed, my cycles were light?

Sighing, shaking my head, I rested my head into my pillow, hearing a knock on my door.

Closing my eyes, I sighed, "Come in." I called out.

Tomo-chan came in, smiling at me, holding a plate with oatmeal.

"Good afternoon Nanami-chan. Are you okay?"

I shrugged, "I'm okay... still not very good."

Tomo-chan set the tray next to me, smiling sadly at me. "You know... Ren really misses you. He's been seen sitting next to your door, wanting to knock, but he doesnt out of respect. You... You should talk to him."

"I want to... I'm just scared. I... I don't want to ruin his life or his career."

Tomo-chan sighed and looked to the door, "Come in."

Looking towards the door stood Ren, the guys behind him.

I looked at him and moved my knees to my chest, my face hidden.

Ren sat on my bed and gently rubbed my shin, "My Honey, please, talk to me?" He begged, his voice sounded so rough.

Slowly, I looked up at him, Tomo-chan turning on the nightstand table.

Ren's brows furrowed when he saw how pale I was.

"My honey?" He probed further, gently caressing my face. "Listen, I love you. I really do."

I nodded. "I know. A-And I love you too. But..."

Ren came in closer, "But what?" He asked, gently placing a kiss on the back of my hand.

"But if we are together and Saotome-san finds out... you guys will be disbanded." I whimpered, tearings running. "As much as I love you, I don't want to destroy what you have worked so hard for. Your career is important."

Ren shook his head and pulled me to his body quickly, hugging me tightly.

I gasp, hearing him quietly sobbing. "Haruka, when are you going to realize that you are more important than any of this!?" He asked, looking into my eyes as he gently held my face in his hands.

My eyes widened. "But... Ren..." I cried.

Shaking his head. "Please! Please understand that no matter what happens with this band. We will all still be together. Even if I were removed from Starish, I could never leave your side! I love you! You hear me! I love you."

I gasped and tears flowed, when I was suddenly hit with a sudden urge to vomit.

I quickly moved my hand to my mouth, breathing heavily.

"Haruka?!" Ren asked, letting go. "What's wrong?!"

"Nanami?!" Everyone yelled as I ran out to the restroom, Tomo-chan on my tail.

Unable to hold it, I vomited into the toilet, Tomo-chan coming behind me and holding my hair away from my face.

I felt like my life was flashing before my eyes. I had never been feeling this sick before in my life.

Once the sickness subsided, I dropped, breathing heavily as Tomo placed a handkerchief to my forehead, wiping away the sweat.

"Nana-chan, are you okay?" She asked, placing her hand on my forehead.

I took deep breaths, opening my eyes.

"What's going on?" Ren asked, now also standing in the doorway, squatting down. "I know I shouldn't be in here, but I needed to make sure that you were okay."

I nodded.

"Have you been sick?" Ren asked, gently caressing my face again.

I leaned my head back, "Well..." I sighed, making sure to talk slowly as to not trigger something again. "I've been having bad cramping... um, I've been spotting but on period..."

Tomo-chan's eyes widened almost immediately. "And now your nauseated?

I looked at her, my expression concerned.

"What are you getting at Tomochika?" Ren asked, his tone worried as well.

She leaned in, "We need to get some pregnancy tests." She whispered. "I'll be quiet about it. Take Haruka back to her room and sit with her. I'll go get some."

My eyes and Ren's widened.

"What? You think that's it?"

She shrugged. "Well, you two have had sex, right?"

I blushed.

"Yes, we have."

"So then it is very possible." She pet my head and looked to Ren, "Get her to her room. I'll be back."

Nodding, Ren gently held me, walking me back to my room, the guys sitting in the common area.

"Nanami-chan, you okay?" Ittoki asked.

I nodded, remembering not to say anything yet.

"I'm going to make sure she lays down. She's a little under the weather. Maybe come back in a little to check on her?"

The guys nodded, all of them leaving for their quarters, except for Masato.

I laid Haruka down and sat outside, taking a deep breath when I saw him still standing there.

"Masato?" I asked, confused.

"I know what's going on... I just hope I'm wrong."

My eyes widened as I pinched the bridge of my nose. "I... I don't know what to do." I admitted, nervous.

Masato smirked at me and sat next to me. "If it's positive, you be the best father you can be." He whispered. "I'll wait with you. I'm guessing that Shibuya-san went to get tests?"

I nodded, leaning my head back on the wall.

"I just... I wish I would have been even more careful. Cause not only will this be hard on her, it could take away her career. I was selfish."

Masato shook his head, chuckling.

"Ren... She loves you. As much as I hate saying it. It will be a huge change, but even you said yourself that she was more important, right?"

I knew he was right. I loved her and if a child was to come, I could handle it, be there, be the best father. I wasn't ready by any means, but I knew that I needed to take responsibility of this, if she really was pregnant.

We sat there, nearly 30 minutes before Tomochika came back. She saw Masato there and looked at me, nodding that he already knew.

She walked past me and went into Haruka's room and took her with her to the bathroom.

I watched after her, wanting to follow her, but I knew I needed to give her and Tomochika a moment.

I felt a hand on my shoulder, Masato trying to soothe me?"

"I'm feeling more nervous than ever." I chuckled, me bouncing my knee as I tried to look at anything.

Tomochika followed me into the restroom, "Okay Haruka... I got three different tests. So, you need to pee into this cup and then use the tests in urine and let the tests sit for five minutes."

I felt my legs going numb.

"Tomo-chan, I'm scared. What if this comes out positive?" I sobbed, hugging her.

"Well, I and everyone will be there for you. Especially Ren. But we need those tests done to make sure."

Nodding, I grabbed the tests, I went into the stall, and shakily removed the tests from the packaging. Sighing, I peed into the cup Tomo-chan had given me

Taking a deep breath, I used it on the tests.

After discarding the cup and it's contents, I rolled them into the bag and followed Tomo-chan to my room.

I could see Ren still sitting here, and Masato, he must have already known.

Breathing out deeply, I sat on my bed, Ren now coming in and sitting on the floor in front of me.

Masato peeked in for a moment. "Hey, I'll go to the kitchen and make lunch for everyone." Looking at me, he winked, "Don't worry Nanami-san, It will be okay. No matter what, we will all be by your side."

I smiled a little, his words along side Ren and Tomo-chan's support making me feel a little better.

I took the tests out of the bag and placed them on the night table, covering them with paper.

Taking deep breaths, I leaned down, Ren's arms securely and lovingly wrapped around my waist, his head resting in my lap.

I soothed his hair, gently petting his mane.

Knocking us out of silence was Tomo-chan's phone timer.

The jingle itself was harmless, but the knowledge of what was to come... made it scarier than it needed to me.

"Okay, you two... Nana-chan, you should look at them."

I sobbed. "I'm scared Tomo."

Petting my head now, Ren looked at me, "I can look and tell you."

I nodded, not looking as I could feel Ren moving.

I heard the paper be moved and then a sigh.

I had known what it was going to say by that sound alone.

Ren then got down on his knees and wrapped his arms around me, holding me to him tightly.

"Haruka, my honey," He paused, hugging me tighter, "It's positive, we'll be having a baby."

To Be Continued...