45 – JH focus
How dare they? Honestly, how dare they? The question dominated Hoseok's thoughts as he took Seohyun's hand and pulled her out of the restaurant. He was the one who got them together, he was the one who made them happy and then they go and try to destroy his relationship. Hoseok was glad that he loved Seohyun so much; he would never doubt her.
"Hobi-oppa..." Seohyun whined and Hoseok looked round. He didn't like to see or hear his girlfriend in distress. "You're hurting my wrist…" she admitted and Hoseok immediately let go.
"Oh my God, sorry," he said immediately and Seohyun giggled at him. He smiled back at her. "I'm not sorry for taking you out of there, though. I want you safe." Seohyun held his hand and swung it as they started walking again.
"I know. What did he even do?" she asked and Hoseok laughed.
"He tried to make me doubt you. He called you a liar for some reason. Obviously, I didn't believe him," he assured her and she laughed again. God, it was magical.
"Why would I lie to you? I love you." She pecked him on the cheek and Hoseok blushed, grinning.
"I love you, too." He would never doubt Seohyun. He really did love her. He was so happy that their cute couple story was authentic and unplanned, unlike all his friends' ones.
Hoseok used to look at Seohyun a lot. He knew she loved Yoongi and that didn't bother him. Until, one day, it did. He didn't tell anyone, but he admired her grace, her gorgeousness, her adorable demeanour. He wished that she would pay attention to him instead of Yoongi but it just didn't happen. And then it did.
Hoseok saw her trip and was immediately at her side to catch her. He was worried he would come across as desperate or eager but she flushed. Embarrassed, Hoseok decided to help her with the rest of her dance. She was madly talented, he knew that.
The final bar ended and she spun around quickly to face him, hands on his chest. Her hair smelled amazing. She looked him in the eyes and kissed him so gently that Hoseok wasn't even sure it was real. It was smooth and soft. Hoseok was becoming even more certain that Seohyun was a fairy in human form.
Their relationship spiralled in secret. Seohyun stopped flirting with other guys, even Yoongi, at Hoseok's request. He didn't have time to tell the others until so much later into their relationship, what with everyone else's relationships taking up so much of their time. He didn't tell anyone until after Christmas.
She hadn't mentioned Yoongi, or so much as looked at him since they had started going out and Hoseok was convinced that she was over him. Even if she wasn't, he would be the best boyfriend ever and make her forget all about that small pianist.
Hoseok walked Seohyun back to her campus. They didn't go to the same school, but they weren't too far away. They often stayed over at each other's dorms and it was so perfect. Especially since Seohyun's roommates were never in. They stayed out on weeknights to help each other study and go on dates and things. Leaving the apartment free for Hoseok and Seohyun to enjoy for themselves.
"You know," Seohyun mused, putting down her bag, "seeing you be all tough was kinda hot," she smiled and Hoseok laughed, moving closer.
"Really?" he asked, wrapping his hands around her back.
"Kinda really hot," she confessed, her arms encircling Hoseok's neck. He kissed her once and she kissed him once back before they kissed for real. Hoseok didn't know what lip gloss she used but it was delicious. He could taste her forever.
He pushed her back gently to the wall, taking a more dominant stance than he was used to. The kiss became deeper and she tugged lightly on his hair. Hoseok moved his mouth away from hers and sucked on her neck, making her let out a shaky breath. He liked that he had that effect on her. He traced a line up her spine and dragged his nails back down again. She moaned and he bit down on her skin.
"Y-Yoongi-oppa…" she breathed and Hoseok froze. What the fuck? He detached his lips from her neck and she whined at the loss of contact. Hoseok let his hands fall as well and that made her open her eyes. And realise her mistake. "Oppa, I didn't- " Hoseok just didn't want to hear this. Or anything from her mouth again.
"Save it. I'm leaving," he announced and walked out the door. In a way, he was proud of himself for not crying while he was still in the room. Tears spilt from his eyes as he walked off her campus, hailing a cab to get back to his own.
He couldn't believe any of this. He wanted to believe that he had misheard her. That she hadn't moaned fucking Min Yoongi's name. But he knew it had really happened, as much as that killed him. He was such an idiot. An idiot for falling for her. An idiot for not seeing this. An idiot for believing she had really changed.
An idiot for not believing Namjoon and Seokjin. Goddamn, he was going to have to admit he was wrong. And he would honestly rather do that now than later. If they knew he was crying, they were less likely to laugh at him, right? Still doubting his life and scolding himself for being such a whipped and blind human being, he picked up his phone and dialled Namjoon.
It took a minute for him to answer, during which time Hoseok fell into a panic. What if Namjoon was really mad at him? What if he wanted to cut ties because of his relationship and what Hoseok had said? So much was going wrong that he could believe that. He was so gullible anyway. Namjoon's voice sounding through the phone solved that panic.
"Heya, Hobi," he answered nonchalantly and Hoseok was silent for a while.
"Aren't you going to ask why I'm calling?" he asked and Namjoon hummed in confusion,
"Actually, I was waiting for you to yell at me some more. What's up?" he said and Hoseok felt so insanely guilty.
"Joon, I'm really sorry for saying all that stuff, I- are you eating?" he asked, noticing the faint chewing sounds.
"Oh? Yeah, we're still at the restaurant. You said we were paying so we decided to make the most of it," he told Hoseok, who sighed.
"I'm sorry. I'll pay you back, I swear. Seohyun has… expensive taste," he cringed.
"Aren't you with her?" Namjoon questioned, confused. Hoseok paused trying not to cry more. "Take a breath," Namjoon told him, sensing his pain. Hoseok waited until no more tears threatened to come out and explained,
"Well, I walked her back to her dorm and it was fine. Her roommates are never in so we had the place to ourselves. We started to get…" he stopped out of awkwardness rather than pain, "intimate and then… she moaned Yoongi's name," he admitted, as a wave of nausea hit him. She was such a disgusting person for using him like that and he hated himself and her equally.
"Oh my God, I'm sorry, Hoseok," Seokjin's voice gasped. Hoseok shook his head.
"No, hyung, it's okay. You tried to tell me and I didn't listen to you. I'm just ashamed that I fell for her."
"Don't beat yourself up over this too much, okay?" Namjoon advised. "We've all been in love, as you know better than anyone. They do say that Cupid was blind, after all." Hoseok managed to laugh.
"Thanks." The cab pulled up outside the campus and he thought for a second. "Do you guys want to meet me at a bar? I want to drink."
"Of course," was Seokjin's immediate response. "Rapture?" he suggested and Hoseok smiled.
"Perfect. I'll meet you there." He hung up and redirected the driver to the most thriving student bar in the city. He arrived and paid the driver before leaning against the building and waiting for Seokjin and Namjoon. He was thinking about getting a drink first but decided against it. He didn't want to drink alone. Not tonight.
Thankfully, they didn't take long. Hoseok hugged them hard. Not all friends would be willing to ditch a date to hang out with a guy who called them ungrateful liars not long ago.
They were about to go in when someone burst out of the door, stumbling out into the street. They would have fallen over if Seokjin hadn't caught them. Taken aback, he tried to stand them up safely before letting them fall again. He looked shocked. Speechless, he turned to the others, the insanely drunk person still in his arms.
"It's Jungkook."
A/N: yall are not ready for the next bunch of chapters there is some *major* drama about to happen in like 4 chapters ish I'm sorry in advance lol