L-Learn

It was moments like this that she really missed when she was pregnant with Van. She never had a man who would sit with her during Lamaze class and help her learn the art of breathing. More than that, she had never experienced the joy of becoming a parent with a partner who truly wanted to be there...she could see in Brandon's eyes that he did. Sometimes she would still get that look of sadness in her eyes and Brandon knew she was lost in the pain of the past. Today was one of those days.

"Do you think if Van had a father around more, he would have turned out differently," she asked him, after all the people left?

"Sweetheart, this isn't your fault. You did everything you could for that boy. You still do. You still can't help but see the best in him...even when he doesn't deserve it."

"He's my son Brandon...I know he blames me for his screwed up life but...but I can't help it...he's still my baby."

"And that's my point...you are a good woman Guya...you gave him everything...and he still let his jealousy destroy him...this isn't you...and I don't think that having a father around would have made any difference...he just has something inside him that is so different than you..."

"It just makes me so sad...Van is my son...but Gina and Owen are like children to me too...I raised them for a good part of their lives."

"And you did a damn good job too...you're going to be an amazing mom to our child...don't you forget that."

"I love you Brandon...you've always seen the best in me...and I can't wait to put this child in your arms...you are going to be a spectacular dad..."

"You think so huh? "

"Don't get all detective on me Mr. I know you...if we have a son then you will take him to ball games and go fishing with him...if we have a daughter then you will be right there with her when she decides she wants to do ballet or gymnastics...it won't matter to you Brandon...you will give our child, everything they need to grow up to be their own amazing person...because that's who you are."

"You know what the most amazing thing we can give our child is?"

"What's that?"

"Love...The best gift we can give our child is two parents who are crazy about each other...and I think we've got that one covered, don't you?"

"You better believe it."

She brushed her lips across his in a kiss that was both sweet and tempting and he pulled her up off the ground..."Let's go home so I can teach you everything I learned about babies...starting with how they were made."

"You bad, bad, boy," she stated with a grin...and he was then leading her out the door before she could say another word.

She not only learned new things about her unborn baby today...she learned what it meant to have a partner instead of just a sperm donor...and it made all the difference in the world.

She was embracing her future instead of running from it.