Song in this chapter is Demons by Imagine Dragons.
Forgive my lack of medical knowledge. Any info I'm using I got off the internet or saw on tv :)
What a shame that a girl who once believed in fairytales and magic had to be struck by reality with demons in her mind and the fear of never being loved.
KF
When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold
When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood's run stale
Savannah tossed and turned the whole night. Every time she closed her eyes she would see Logan's face. Hear his words.
You can run but you can't hide.
Those words sent shivers down her spine. She knew it was only a matter of time before he made good on those words.
The rest of the night followed the same pattern of closing her eyes only to be faced with her nightmare. A total of maybe an hour of sleep was had that night.
The next morning Savannah entered the hospital, both mentally and emotionally exhausted from the events of the previous day. Savannah wore her emotions on her sleeve so keeping her current state to herself was going to be difficult.
"Hey," Mark greeted. That gravely voice she quickly grew to enjoy. They only knew each other for a few days but that didn't matter to Savannah. There was something about him; something that made her comfortable whenever he was around. Her guard was always up when it came to men, but Mark Sloan was different.
"Hey."
"You okay?"
I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
She put a smile on her face because that's what she always did, "I'm fine." I'm far from fine.
"You sure? I heard about your patient yesterday and your argument with Hunt."
Damnit Mark Sloan why do you have to be such a great guy, "Just having a bad day. I'm sorry I snapped at you."
"It's all good sunshine. Pissed off Savannah's kinda hot," he smirked.
Red flush spread across her cheeks, "Maybe I'll have to get pissed more often." What are you doing Savannah? You cant flirt with him.
"You flirting with me Young?"
"Wouldn't dream of it Sloan." You're nothing. You're pathetic. No other man will ever want you Savannah. Logan's taunting words swirled in her head. Just like that the smile on her face faded away.
"I gotta go," and with that she walked off.
Three months passed. Savannah continued to receive texts and calls from Logan. She deleted the voicemails; knowing that hearing his voice would bring back the nightmares. His text all the same; the usual threats that she knew sooner or later he would make good on. She feared he'd find her. She didn't want to leave Seattle. It had become her home, she had made friends; Owen and Callie, and then there was Mark. Mark Sloan quickly wormed his way into her thoughts and it scared her.
At the curtain's call
It's the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl
So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you made
Don't wanna let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't wanna hide the truth
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
"Incoming trauma. Patient struck with a blunt force object. Unconscious," an EMT announced as she entered the trauma bay.
"Elizabeth."
Elizabeth Masters lay before a shocked Savannah.
"You know her?" the EMT questioned.
"She's a former patient," she turned to her intern Lexie Grey, "Get her down for a CT scan and page Shepherd now."
Images of the numerous beatings she suffered from Logan ran through her head. All the times he'd shake her so violently her head would hurt for days after. The punches he'd land on her face. The bruises she tried in vain to cover. Staring down at Elizabeth was like looking in a mirror.
"She's coding!"
Those words snapped Savannah out of her thoughts.
Immediately Savannah snapped back into doctor mode and called for a defibrillator.
"Heart rate is dropping," Lexie announced.
"Clear," she administered the shock. Nothing. Again. Nothing.
Savannah attempted to resuscitate for the next several minutes. She hadn't noticed Owen enter the room.
"Dr. Young," Lexie called trying to get her attention, "She's gone."
Savannah ignored her. In vain she tried again.
"Dr. Young. Call it," this time Owen spoke.
Savannah looked up, in a low monotone voice she spoke, "Time of death eleven twenty-three."
Tears stung in her eyes, she walked past Owen and Lexie, "I need air."
She sat on the bed of an empty on call room. The door opened; she tried to wipe the tears away. Looking up she saw a concerned Owen Hunt.
"I'm sorry."
"For what?" Owen questioned.
She wiped away the remaining tears, "For running out like that."
He took a seat next to her, "I'm the one who's sorry," she raised an eyebrow, "I'm sorry for not pushing harder three months ago."
"Yeah well there's nothing we can do now," her voice a mixture of anger, guilt and sadness.
"This is personal for you isn't it?" it was more of a statement than a question. Savannah remained silent but her eyes told the story. Her eyes full of sorrow, "How long?"
They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go
Your eyes, they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
"Five years. Please don't tell anyone," her eyes know pleading with the older man, "That's why I'm here. I had to escape. I came to Seattle to get away from him and then it started all over again with Elizabeth. I looked at her and I saw me."
"You got out. You survived."
"For now. What if he finds me?" the fear apparent in her voice.
"You're one of us now. Your safe here."
Something in his voice made her feel that he was genuine, "I want you to know that you can come to me with anything."
"Its hard for me to trust people. But your different. I feel at ease with you Dr. Hunt….Owen."
Owen smiled, "You've become like a little sister to me." He embraced her in a friendly hug.
"Does this mean you're my person? I hear that's a thing here," grinned Savannah.
Owen responded with a smile, "I'll be your person."
This is life. Bad things happen. Its hard. You find your people. You find your person and you lean on them.
Meredith Grey