Sorry for the long delay in posting and the shortness of the chapter. The next chapter will be out much sooner and will be longer. Thank you to all who continue to read and favorite.
Also, I am not completely following canon but will be using storylines from different seasons.
Song is Skyscraper by Demi Lovato
"When I look in the mirror, I know I'm looking at someone who isn't sure she deserves to be loved at all."
Nicholas Sparks
Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
There's nothing left of me?
Owen and Savannah were currently eating breakfast at Geraldine's Counter a local diner in Seattle. The two tried to make an effort to go out for breakfast at least twice a month.
"What's wrong?" questioned Owen nearly ten minutes after they sat down to eat.
"Nothing," Savannah shook her head as she took a sip of her coffee.
"Savannah," the older man gave her a stern look.
"I'm fine Owen."
"How's the support group going?" he changed the directory of his questions hoping to get an answer.
"It's fine."
"Sav."
"What do you want me to say?" she began, "That I don't think that I'll ever be able to move on from Logan? There are days when I feel at ease and confident that I'm going to be okay. But those days are outweighed by the bad days. I feel alone and scared and that all the things he's said to me are true." I'm not going to cry
"What have you learned from these meetings Sav?"
"That I'm a survivor."
Owen smiled, "You're a survivor."
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
"But I'm tired of everybody treating me like I was made of glass," admitted Savannah. Seattle may be a big city, but Seattle Grace Mercy West was a city in and of itself. Everyone knows everything. Somehow word got out about Savannah's past. Though not upset people knew she felt like they were treating her different. "April's been super nice and supportive, but she keeps hugging me," Savannah let out a chuckle, "Jackson and Callie told me if I ever needed anyone to talk to, they'd be there. Hell, even Karev threatened to hurt him if he ever shows his face in Seattle again."
"What does that tell you?"
Savannah cracked a smile, "That this is my home."
As the smoke clears, I awaken
And untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better
To watch me while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet
Savannah truly enjoyed the meetings; it was therapeutic for her to be able to talk to other women who had been through what she had. Like she had told Owen, there were days that she struggled. The negative thoughts and feelings outweighed the positive a lot of days. She tried to remind herself to think positive but boy that was easier said than done.
"Ladies, please welcome Jo to our group," Ashley introduced.
A shocked Savannah looked up from her seat to see a timid looking Jo Wilson standing in front of her. Jo had heard the murmurs through the hospital about Savannah but had not spoken to her coworker, so she wasn't sure if the rumors were true.
"Why don't you take a seat next to Savannah" Ashley pointed to the empty chair next to the brunette.
Ashley took her seat and spoke up, "Jo, would you like to share anything?"
Jo took a deep breath, "My ex, my husband. A lot. Everything I did was wrong. He almost killed me," tears were freely flowing, "I was scared. So, I ran. And now I'm with an amazing guy who wants to marry me, and I can't because I never divorced my husband. Now I'm scared he'll find me."
Savannah was silent as she grabbed Jo's hand and gave it a squeeze. Silently letting her know she was no longer alone.
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
Several days later, Savannah was doing her rounds when she saw Mark exiting an on-call room, looking slightly disheveled. Moments later a nurse walked out, heading the opposite way.
Their eyes locked. Savannah tried to hide her jealousy, but Mark saw right through her.
He was walking towards her now. She quickly turned and walked the other way.
"Savannah wait!" he picked up his pace to catch up to her.
"What?" the hurt was evident in her voice.
"I'm sorry."
She shrugged her shoulders, "For what?"
"Savannah," he began.
"You have nothing to apologize for Mark. You don't owe me any explanations about your life."
She began to walk away.
"Savannah," he called out.
"I've got rounds to do Dr. Sloan."
"Thanks for forcing me to come out tonight Callie. I really needed this," Savannah spoke as she took a sip of her beer."
"And I needed this girl's night," smirked Callie.
"Hey ladies," the smooth voice of Mark Sloan filled the room, "Fancy seeing you two here."
Savannah glared at Callie, "Really Cal?"
She put her hands up, "Hey I didn't invite him."
"Come on sunshine am I really that bad?" he smirked.
"No but I am," her tone was serious. Before he could say anything else, she walked away.
Callie gave Mark a scowl, "What did you do to her?"
"I didn't do anything."
Callie continued to glare at him, knowing something was up.
He sighed, "She caught me with another woman."
"You're a pig."
"We're not together Callie."
"But you want to be. You damn well know she wants it too. You might have just royally screwed that up."
"Let go of me," Callie and Mark heard the scream. They knew the voice belonged to Savannah. The two doctors rushed over to where their friend was only to see her land a right hook square in the man's eye.
"You bitch!" yelled the stranger as he took an aggressive step forward.
"I wouldn't do that if I were you," Mark spoke, stepping in between the two of them.
"She hit me."
"You grabbed me you jackass."
"Leave now," Mark sternly tells the man.
"Whatever," the man storms off.
"You okay?" a concerned Callie asks
"I just wanna go home."
"I'll call you a cab."
"I'll take her home," Mark speaks up.
Savannah, who was in no mood to argue simply said, "Thanks."
"Let me know when you make it home" Callie said giving her a hug.
"I will."
Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear
Yeah, oh
Go run, run, run
Yeah, it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here
"Thanks for the ride home."
Mark said nothing as he entered her apartment.
"You can come in," she said flatly.
"You got a mean right hand there," he jokes.
"When he grabbed me," she paused, "I looked at him and all I saw was Logan."
"Did it feel good?" he questioned.
"Little bit," her face broke out into a small smile.
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Oh Oh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
(Like a skyscraper)
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
"My dark days made me strong. Or maybe I already was strong and they made me prove it."
Emery Lord