Something New
Chapter 20
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It's been a week since the miscarriage. Physically Callie is back to normal but emotionally she is still a mess. She knows it wasn't her fault but she still feels empty. She still hasn't said much to anybody but Peyton. Jamie has tried his best to be there for her in away why that he can be. Callie isn't making it easy though, he tries to hold her when they are in bed but she either moves away from him or she gets up and goes downstairs. The last couple of nights Peyton has slept in-between them. The truth is he is hurting too but he knows he needs to be strong for her.
Jamie is out of sick days so he has to go back to work today. Callie has hardly got out of bed except to get away from him. Jamie gets ready for work and gets Peyton ready for day care. He knows Callie can take care of her but she keeps asking to see her friend Dylan. Plus Stef and Lena are coming to talk to her weather she likes it or not.
"You know I'm capable of taking care of my own daughter she doesn't need to go to day care."
"Babe I know you can take care of her. She wants to see Dylan and her other friends."
"Pway wift Dwan mama." Callie smiles at Peyton.
"Okay, sweet pea have fun with Dylan. I love you Peyton. Be good for Mrs. Scott." Callie kisses Peyton's head.
"Bye, bye mama. Ove you." Jamie kisses her but she doesn't kiss him back. Jamie can't help but sigh.
"Call me if you need something. I love you Callie." Callie nods and lays back down.
Jamie leaves and drops off Peyton before going to work. A couple of hours later Stef texts Jamie that they just got to the house and she would let him know how it goes. He knows Callie is going to be mad at him for calling her moms, but he has to do something. Callie groans when she hears the doorbell, she goes downstairs and sighs when she sees it's her moms. She lets them in. They aren't surprised when she goes back up to bed.
"Stef did you see how bad she looks?" Stef nods with tears in her eyes. They follow Callie and don't bother knocking. Stef lays one side of Callie and Lena on the other.
"Callie we are very worried about you love. Mom and I know how you feel bug and understand how bad it hurts." Callie cries.
"I just feel so empty… How did you get through it mama?"
"I know you to do Cal. I got through it with because I had mom and you kids that loved me. Saying goodbye with planting of Frankie's tree also helped. Callie you have Jamie, Peyton and all of us to help you. Peyton needs her mama, and Jamie is very worried about you." Lena says as she holds Callie.
"We have been trying for over a year. I was begging to think there was something wrong with me, since the wreck. We were so excited when I took the test. I don't know if I could go through this again. Will Jamie leave me if I don't want to try again?"
"Cal one thing I know for sure is that Jamie loves you no matter what, but bug you can't live in fear. The chances are very low that you would have another miscarriage. I'm not saying you should start trying again right away but you might feel differently later. You and Jamie need to talk. I know it's not your favorite thing to do but he is hurting too."
"Mama is right you can't live in fear of what might happen. I'm not saying you have to forget what happened because you never will but it does get easier. You have always put walls up to protect yourself, but Cal you have a husband and the sweetest little girl that needs her mama." Stef says as she kisses Callie's head.
"Thank you moms. I love you both so much. I promise I will talk to Jamie when he gets home…" Callie smiles and laughs when they pull her into a famous mama sandwich.
"You're welcome bug. That's what moms are for no matter how old you are. But first things first you my dear need a shower. Then you need to eat something. I will make you lunch."
Callie gets out of bed and goes to take a shower. Lena goes down and makes them lunch while Stef cleans up and changes the sheets on Callie's bed. She texts Jamie that everything is okay and she is willing to talk later. After a nice long hot shower Callie gets dressed and goes down stairs. Lena made Callie's favorite comfort food Mac and Cheese.
Jamie gets a call from the day care. Peyton was playing with Dylan and couple other kids they were running and she tripped and hit her head on the edge of the sand box. She is okay but is going to need a few stiches. Jamie tells them he is on his way. He calls Callie on the way.
"Hi Jamie what's going on?"
"Hi babe. Um Peyton fell down and hit her head. She is okay but is going to need a couple of stiches. I'm on my way to pick her up." Jamie says calmly so he doesn't freak her out.
Callie freaks out. "Oh my god. Okay I will meet you at the ER."
"Callie take a deep breath. Mrs. Scott said she isn't even crying anymore. It will be okay kids get hurt."
"I know it's just the first time she has gotten hurt." Callie hangs up and tells her moms what happened. They calm her down and Callie promises to let them know she is okay before she leaves. Her moms head home to San Diego.
Callie gets to the hospital and sees Jamie checking Peyton. Callie finally can breath when she sees her baby is in fact okay. Peyton reaches for her mama and Callie takes her from Jamie. Callie turns very pale when she sees the blood on her daughter's shirt.
"Hi babe. She is okay. Head wounds tend to bleed a lot." Jamie says as he turns in the forms and they sit in the waiting room.
"Hi, so what happened?"
"She was running and tripped when she was going down she hit the corner of the sandbox."
They call them back and the nurse checks her head. Callie is glad she is sitting on the bed when they take the bandage off of Peyton's forehead. The nurse assures her that it looks worse than it is. The doctor comes in.
"Hi I'm Dr. Young. It's good to see you up a around Callie and this little cutie as gotten big." Jamie remembers the her she was the doctor that saved Callie.
"Cal Dr. Young was the Doctor that saved your life…" Callie smiles and thanks her.
She looks at Peyton's forehead.
"She is going to need a few stiches. Since it is on her forehead I will page the plastic surgeon that is on call so she won't have too much of a scar. We are going to have give her a light sedation so she doesn't move. Don't worry Callie kids her age heal very quickly."
"Thank you Doctor." Jamie says as he holds Callie's hand.
Dr. Young goes and pages the plastic surgeon and gets the medicine. She comes back in the shot. Callie holds Peyton as she gives her the shot.
"She will start to get sleepy soon."
Once Peyton falls a sleep and Callie lays her on the bed so they can clean the wound. Callie holds her hand and Jamie holds her. The surgeon puts seven stiches in and covers the wound.
"She will be fine and the stiches will need to come out in ten days. Her regular physician can take them out. Keep them dry and don't let her scratch them. If they start to bleed or turn red bring her back in. You guys are free to go when she wakes up."
"Thank you Doctor." They both say and shake his hand.
He leaves the nurse comes back in to check on Peyton. She is starting to wake up she starts to cry Callie picks her up. She settles back down and yawns.
"Here are your discharge papers and your instructions. She will be tired from the medicine but it should completely wear off in a couple of hours. If it seems like she hurting you can give her some children's Tylenol." Jamie nods and signs the papers.
They head home. Peyton falls back a sleep in the car. Callie lays her in her crib and grabs the monitor before going down stairs. For the first time in a week she cuddles with Jamie on the couch. Jamie smiles and holds her close.
"I'm sorry I have been pushing you away. When I get hurt or scared I put walls to protect myself…"
"It's okay Callie I understand completely. But I'm not going anywhere Cal."
"I know. I'm was worried that if I told you that I can't go through this again and since I know you want more kids that you would find someone else you can have them with…" Callie looks at Jamie. He grabs her hand.
"Callie I don't care if we never have another one. I love you and only you. I know it is scary but when I talked to Dr. Green she said since you have and a successful pregnancy that the chances of having another miscarriage are very slim. But if you don't want to try anymore then we won't. It is completely up to you…"
"I love you Jamie. I'm sorry I haven't been there for you. I know you are just as sad as I am, but we can't let fear run our lives. I'm not ready to start trying again but I promise we will try again…" She kisses him deeply.
"I love you too. I am sad but I have to remember everything happens for a reason. I promise I won't pressure you into anything. So when ever you are ready, until then we will be safe." Jamie kisses her and holds her close.
They are both still hurting but with Jamie and Peyton it will get better. If Callie is honest with herself she is already starting to feel better about things since she talked to her moms and Jamie. Callie calls her moms to let them know that Peyton is okay and that she and Jamie talked and they are okay. Peyton wakes up and Jamie goes up to get her. He changes her and brings her down to Callie. Peyton plays with her mama like nothing ever happened to her.
4 months later
It has been a busy four months for Jamie and Callie. Jamie made partner at his firm and Callie has been busy with a police shooting case. She isn't happy that judge Wilson will be hearing the case. Callie is still getting over the miscarriage but it is getting easier. Today is Jamie's 28th birthday. They are going to go out with some of their friends. Jamie and Callie are excited to be going out. They haven't been out with friends a while. Jude is going to baby sit. Peyton is getting to be quite the hand full. It's hard to believe in two weeks she will be two.
Callie gets off and goes to pick up Peyton from day care. When she gets there Mrs. Scott tells her that she bit two kids and had a time out. Callie sighs and promises that they will work on her not biting. She gets home and makes her dinner. Jamie gets home not long after.
"Hey baby." Jamie kisses Callie and then Peyton.
"Hi, hi dada." Peyton smiles at him.
"Hi sweet pea. Where you good today?" She shakes her head no. Callie just shakes her head.
"What did she do now?"
"She bit two kids." Callie tells him. Jamie cleans Peyton up when she is done eating. Callie goes up to get ready to go out.
"Why did you bite two kids Ms. Peyton?" Peyton just wants down to play. Jamie doesn't let her and she gets mad.
"You can play later Peyton. Now answer daddy why did you bite them?"
"No want them to pway wift my toys." Jamie sighs.
"Peyton we don't bite and you have to share your toys with others. You are getting to be a big girl and big girls share their toys okay?"
"I big dirl dada. No biting." Jamie smiles and kisses her head. Jude gets there and plays with Peyton while Jamie goes to get ready.
Jamie takes a quick shower and grins when he sees Callie in a very sexy red dress. He kisses her neck and she moans softly. But pushes him back and Jamie pouts.
"Don't worry baby there will be plenty of that later, birthday boy…"
They finish getting ready and go down stairs. Callie tells Jude that she has been a handful lately and probably won't want to go to bed but don't give into her and to watch out for her biting. They say bye and head to the restaurant. They have a nice dinner with their friends before heading to the club. When they get their Sean had reserved the VIP section. Sean orders them a around of tequila shots. Few drinks later Jamie gets Callie out on the dance floor. Callie is already feeling pretty good. Jamie grins when she grinds against him. Later the party is wined down and Jamie orders them a limo to take everybody home since none of them should be driving.
They get home to Peyton, Jude and Conner a sleep on the couch. Jamie takes Peyton up to her room while Callie wakes up her brother and Conner. She isn't surprised when she finds out that Peyton bit both of them and hit Jude when he told her not to bite witch was a new thing. Callie apologizes to them and they leave. Callie heads up to their bedroom. Jamie wraps his arms around her and kisses her deeply. She doesn't respond like he thought she would.
"What's the matter baby?"
"Our daughter bit Jude and Conner then when he put her in time out she hit him…"
"Well she is a sleep there is nothing we can do about it right now so can we deal with her tomorrow?"
Callie nods and kisses him as she unbuttons his shirt. Once they make it to the bed Jamie reaches to his night stand to grab a condom. Callie isn't sure why but she stops Jamie. Jamie looks at her.
"Are you sure baby?" Callie nods and smiles up at Jamie.
The next morning Callie wakes up to Peyton's head next to her and her feet by Jamie's head. She was drunk last night but she doesn't remember Jamie bringing her in their room. Jamie wakes up when Peyton kicks him in the face. He is just as confused as Callie is about how she got in there.
"Did she cry last night?" He asks as he pulls on his boxers.
"I thought you brought her in here earlier…But since you were still naked…"
"She must of climbed out of her crib." Jamie says as he grabs his phone and checks the baby monitor video. Callie gets one of Jamie's t-shirts and shorts before Peyton wakes up.
"She did. She looks like it's time for a big girl bed…" Callie sighs as she watches her daughter climb out of the crib.
"What are we going to do with her? I mean she isn't even two yet and I don't even recognize her."
"Well I was talking to my mom and she told me I was a biter too. The doctor told her a lot of kids do it at that age. They do it for attention to ignore them when they do it."
"Okay what if that doesn't help?"
"Then more time outs. If that doesn't work we will take the next step. I know you have a hard time with it. But there is a big difference in spanking and a beating." Callie sighs.
"I know you are right but I'm not sure I can do it." Jamie nods.
"It will be the last resort babe. So not to change the subject but last night we didn't use anything, are we trying or what ever happens…" Callie smiles and kisses him.
"Honestly I want to try again… It still hurts a little but the thought of having another one doesn't hurt so much." Jamie smiles at her.
"Well then we will have fun trying." Jamie says as he looks at the clock.
"Would you like to join me in the shower Mr. Hunter?" Callie asks as she walks into their bathroom.