Something New
Chapter 26
AN: Thank you for all the reviews. I'm so happy Good Trouble is back and Jamie was so cute when he told Callie he was sorry and he loves her.
3 Days later
Today is the day that Callie and the twins get to go home. To say Callie is a nervous wreck is an understatement. She is still very sore and she is also worried about Ryder's heart condition. The doctor assured her that they wouldn't let him go home if it was dangerous. It doesn't help that Jamie and her haven't really talked about anything except the babies. Peyton is still having nightmares and still very clingy but loves being the big sister.
Jamie takes their bags down the car and gets the car seats. He comes back to find Callie up trying to change Jayce and Ryder is happily sucking way on his binky.
"I could have done that Cal." She shakes her head.
"It's not a big deal I can change a diaper…" Jamie sighs and puts Ryder in his car seat and buckles him in. Then he puts Jayce in his, which he is not happy about. He can already tell Jayce is going to be a handful.
They sign all the paper work and Jamie carries the twins while the nurse pushes Callie in a wheel chair. He is thankful Ryder isn't every heavy with his broken hand. He puts the car seats in and helps Callie get in the car. The drive home ends up putting them both to sleep. Once they are home Stef helps Jamie get the twins and Lena helps Callie get into the house. Lena and Stef takes the twins out and puts them in their bassinet. Followed closely by Peyton. Jamie helps Callie up the stairs. They stop outside of the nursery.
"I want to show you something. Sean and me finished it a few nights ago I wanted it to be perfect for when they came home…" Callie smiles as Jamie leads her in to the nursery. She isn't a huge baseball fan but Jamie is and she is amazed about how perfect it turned out. She loves how he painted their names on the wall above their cribs.
"Wow it turned out amazing babe. I love it, thank you." Callie kisses him softly and Jamie is surprised by the kiss but he doesn't kiss her back.
"You're welcome. I'm sorry, it should have been done a while ago… I lets get you into bed." Callie shakes her head.
"It's okay it was done before they came home. I want to take a shower first." She says as she walks into their room.
Jamie plays with Peyton and Molly while Callie showers. Brandon, Eliza and Caleb came over for a little while. They got some really cute pictures of Peyton and Caleb holding the twins.
"Guess who is back in town?" Eliza asks her brother.
"Jenna… She is the one that took care of my hand."
"Does Sean know yet?" he nods as he feeds Ryder. He still isn't a big fan of a bottle but he is getting better about it.
"She said she ran into him but it didn't go very well. I was going to call him later." Callie looks surprised.
"Isn't she the one he proposed to and she turned him down?" Eliza nods.
"They were together through high school and college. He asked her right before she left for med school. I still don't know why she said no."
"She never told you?" Jamie asks and Eliza shakes her head no.
"They got pregnant and she thought he was just asking her just because she was pregnant. But she ended up having a miss carriage a couple of weeks later."
"No wonder he hasn't really got serious with anybody else."
They don't stay very long. The rest of the afternoon Callie rested on the couch while Jamie, Peyton and her moms decorated for Christmas. That evening Jamie gave Peyton her bath while Callie nursed the twins. Peyton feel a sleep next to Callie as they watched a movie. Jamie gets up and grabs his pillow and a blanket.
"Where are you going?" Callie asks.
"To the couch. I figured you wouldn't want me in here…"
"It's fine you can stay if you want too." Callie isn't surprised when he doesn't stay.
"Good night Cal." He says before going down stairs. Callie sighs she cuddles with Peyton and tries to get some sleep while she can.
The next couple of weeks have been a blur. They are both exhausted but they manage to make Christmas nice for Peyton. Who is still having nightmares and has noticed the change in her parents. Who have been arguing more and more. They agree on thing they need to find some one to talk to about Peyton and how to help her more. She loves her brothers but the last few days she started to get a little jealous. Callie and Jamie have been trying to include her as much as they can and making time for just her. But with the twins it hasn't been easy.
They are starting learn the boys' personalities. Jayce is the night owl who is fussier. Ryder is the more laid back one and is already a mama's boy, which is completely fine with Callie. Jayce just likes to be held it doesn't really matter by whom. Callie and Jamie have both learned that changing boy's diapers is a lot different than girls. Both boys have peed on them more then once. Peyton finds it very funny. They have learned that the boys sleep better together but it if one cries it wakes the other one up. They still have a couple more weeks until they find out if Ryder will have to have heart surgery.
They have had their fair share of arguments but they are really trying to make this work for now. But they have been more like roommates than husband and wife. Jamie took Peyton to the park to play with Dylan. This was a big step for her, the therapist told them to start resuming normal actives a little at a time and see how she handles it. Mariana came by to spend sometime with her sister and the boys.
"So how is everything going?" She asks as she helps Callie fold laundry.
"It's okay. The boys are starting to get into a better routine. Peyton is getting a little jealous but nothing to bad…" Mariana notices she didn't say anything about Jamie.
"So have you and Jamie worked stuff out yet?" Callie sighs.
"No and he is getting more and more distant towards me. He has been great with the kids though so I'm grateful for that. I couldn't do it with out him. It's like we are roommates that happen to have kids." Callie says as she wipes a tear way.
"Maybe its time you two talk. Decide what you guys really want. Maybe you guys could try counseling."
Callie nods and Mariana hugs her. The boys wake up from their afternoon nap. They change them and take them down stairs. Mariana loves her nieces and nephews so much.
"So how are things with Raj?"
"Their okay. I kinda thought he would have asked me to marry him by now. Sometimes guys are so stupid… But not you two, you guys are just the cutest and sweetest boys there is." They both coo at their aunt.
"I agree with you they really can be stupid."
They visit a while longer and Jamie comes back with a sleeping Peyton. Marian leaves so Callie can talk to Jamie. He takes her up to her room and grabs the monitor.
"Hey babe how did it go?"
"It took her a little while but she ended up playing with Dylan while we watched them." He says as he picks up Ryder and Jayce.
"Hi guys daddy missed you today. Did you have fun with mommy and auntie Mariana?" They look up at him. Callie steals Jayce from him so they both can cuddle. Jamie pouts but doesn't say anything.
"Jamie I think its time we talk…about us." Jamie sighs as he nods. He knew they needed to.
"What about us? I thought you were pretty clear about what you wanted…"
"Look between the stress of what happened and the hormones I wasn't thinking clearly. I don't want to lose you Jamie. I'm sorry, I love you and I want my husband back." Callie looks at him.
"Callie I love you too. But I can't keep going back and forth so tell me do you still blame me?" Callie sighs.
"I blame you for not telling me they were out, but I understand you didn't want me to stress out." Jamie nods.
"I still blame myself Callie. I can't even look at Peyton and think about what happened. I can't look at you and not see the hurt in your eyes that I caused, or the fact that Ryder might have to have heart surgery from being premature…"
Callie puts Jayce in the swing and then takes Ryder from Jamie and puts him in his bouncer. She walks over to Jamie and pulls him in to a hug.
"I want you to listen to me Jamie. You had no idea they would do something so crazy after being in jail for so long. Peyton is getting better and when she gets older she won't even remember what happened. We knew that having twins there was a very high possibility that they would be premature. You are the best dad to all three of them I could ever ask for and they love you so much."
"I know but it doesn't make it hurt any less. I need to know if you trust me? Because I don't know if I trust you…" Callie lets go of him and looks at him with hurt in her eyes.
"What do you mean you don't trust me?"
"Callie what happened at the hospital just about killed me. I don't think I could ever go through that again. So how do I know that if something happens or life gets hard you aren't going to want a divorce again…"
"It won't ever happen again. I have realized I can't lose you and I'm really working on trusting you again. Maybe we could talk to somebody. We both are dealing with a lot. My point is I want us to try. But please tell me that this is worth fighting for."
"Callie what is a marriage if either of us trust each other?" Callie starts to cry.
"So you are just going to walk away and not even try to work this out?" Jamie sighs.
"I want this to work Callie. I really do I just don't know how to fix it."
"I will do whatever it takes baby. I love you and I miss you so much." Callie kisses him hoping he can feel how much she loves him. Jamie kisses her back but it feels more like a goodbye kiss to him. Callie breaks the kiss when she hears Peyton wake up on the monitor.
"I will get her. You should probably think about what you want to do. The ball is in your court. But if you still decide to leave us. You are telling her I'm not going to be the bad guy here." She says before going up to Peyton's room. Jamie sighs and leans back against couch not really knowing what to do or say. He loves her so much but he feels so guilty and it's eating him alive.
"Hi sweet pea. Did you have a good nap?" Peyton nods and socks her thumb.
"I wet mommy." Callie smiles at Peyton.
"It's okay. Let's get you cleaned up." Callie carries her in to her bathroom and gets her cleaned up.
"I pway wift dywan. I miss him mommy."
"I'm glad you had fun with Dylan. I know he missed you too."
Callie helps her down the stairs. She sees her daddy and runs over to him and jumps in his lap. He spends sometime with her and Molly before getting some work done. The rest of the day either one of them really say anything to each other unless it has to do with the kids. Callie makes dinner then feeds the boys. After dinner Jamie cleans up while Callie gives the twins their bath and puts them to bed. She decides to check her email and goes in to the office. When she opens the laptop she sees that Jamie has been looking at apartments and it is like a knife to the heart all over again. She just sits there and cries. Peyton comes in and sees her mommy crying.
"Why you cry mommy?" Callie quickly wipes her tears.
"Mommy is okay baby. Can you go watch TV and ask daddy to come here? Please?"
"Otay mommy." She hugs her and goes to find her daddy.
"Daddy mommy wants you. She sad and crying. She said to watch TV." Jamie sighs and puts on cartoons for her and goes to their office.
"I see you have made your mind up." Callie says pointing to the apartment website. Jamie hangs his head.
"I'm sorry Cal. I think we need sometime apart to work on our selves…" Callie is fed up why couldn't he just say he doesn't want this anymore.
"Fine if that's what you want. I'm tired of fighting Jamie. It's clear you don't love me anymore. You better go tell Peyton and kiss the boys because if you want to go you are going tonight…"
"Callie I told you I would stay and help with the boys."
"No you want to leave so bad just go. I will do it on my own." Callie says as she walks out of the office. She goes to the bathroom to wash her face. Jamie goes to the living room and picks up Peyton then turns off the TV.
"Hey Peyton, daddy is going to go stay with uncle Sean for a while. But I want you to know I love you and I promise to come see you a lot and you can come stay with daddy okay?"
"Why daddy? I no want you to weave…" Peyton's lip starts to tremble. Jamie is trying to keep it together.
"Peyton daddy needs to go for a little while. I promise to call you a lot and you can call me whenever you want too. I need you to be a big girl and help mommy with your brothers okay?" Peyton cries as Callie watches from the other side of the room. Jamie looks at her asking for some help. Callie shakes her head as she walks over to them and takes Peyton from him. Which causes her to cry harder.
"Shh it will be okay. Pey daddy loves you so much and he will come see you and he will call you a lot." Callie has never seen her daughter so upset. Jamie sighs and goes upstairs and packs some stuff. He goes over to the bassinet.
"Daddy loves you both so much. I know you don't understand what I'm saying but I want you to know that it wasn't your fault or your sisters fault but daddy has to go for a while. But I promise to come see you guys a lot. Be good for your mommy she loves you so much." He kisses both of them before going back downstairs. Callie is still trying to get Peyton to calm down.
"I'm going to stay with Sean. I still want to go to counseling. I will call tomorrow, but if you need help please call me Callie. I love you." Jamie kisses her cheek.
"Bye sweet pea. I love you to the moon and back. Be good for mommy." He kisses her head and she reaches for him but he doesn't take her.
After Jamie leaves Callie locks the door and Peyton cries her self to sleep on her mommy's shoulder. Callie puts her in her bed before going in to the bathroom and cries harder then she has ever cried before. Jamie sits in his SUV and cries for a long time before he drives to Sean's apartment. Jamie isn't surprised when Jenna answers the door. She can tell he has been crying.
"Hey Jamie please come in. Is everything okay? Sean is in the shower." Jamie shakes his head no as he walks in.
"What happened? Is it Ryder's heart?"
"We broke up…" Jenna hugs her friend. Sean has told her a lot about the couple and she can tell how much he loves her.
Sean comes out of the bathroom in just a towel he wasn't expecting to have company besides Jenna. He tells Jamie hi before going to get dressed. He comes back out and hands Jamie a beer. Jamie explains what happened to them. Sean wants to smack some since into him. Jenna understands the guilt he is feeling but thinks he is going about it all wrong.
"I agree with Callie on this one Jamie. I think you really need to talk to someone. But you also have realize everybody makes mistakes and yes this one hurt a lot but she loves you and you love her." Jenna says.
"Look Jamie if Jenna and I can get passed the past. I know you and Callie can. But you guys need to go talk to somebody together. You have to remember it's not just you and her anymore. That little girl loves you so much and the boys need their dad."
"I happen to know a very good marriage counselor. Even though she is very hard to get into she would make room for one of my best friends." Jenna says as she writes her aunts number down and gives it Jamie.
"Aunt Emily is a marriage counselor?" Jamie asks.
"Yes and she her business partner is one of the best child psychologist in the country."
"Thank you Jenna I will call her tomorrow."
"You're welcome Jamie, you know you can stay as long as you need too."
Jamie finishes his beer and goes to bed. Callie finally pulls her self together when she hears Ryder wake up and fuss. She goes and gets him before he wakes up the other two.
"Its okay buggy mommy is here." She changes him and gives him his binky.
Before she can get him back to sleep Jayce wakes up and cries. She lays Ryder down and gets Jayce but not before he wakes up Peyton, who is super cranking. She changes him and gives him his binky but he just spits it out and keeps crying. This is going to be a long night.
AN: Thank you for reading. Please review.