Friday.
This week had been one hell of a week. First the news of Dean returning. Then the photos of Monty and I. Then my mum announcing her seventh and final pregnancy. It had been a bit of a whirlwind. But lucky, my friends and family had been there, supporting me, but mostly distracting me.
Friday had arrived which meant the jocks would finish off the week with a baseball game. And I had to be there to support my Monty. And of-course the other boys.
The girls and I were in home room, creating our little banners for the boys for the game. Each of us dedicated our own banner to our own boy. Mine was a light blue back ground, with Tiger Pride across the sheet, and the name and words de la Cruz stretched out on the bottom. Finishing the product, sticking the last letter on the sheet with a glue stick, I rolled it up and placed it in my bag carefully, before the boys walked in grinning.
"What are you boys smiling for?" I asked them.
"Just a big game tonight, what's better starting the new year winning a game?" Bryce smiled sitting down next to Chloe "And what are you girls up to?" he asked. Monty peaking into my bag, using my hand I gently pushed him away by placing my hand on his cheek.
"No cheating" I told him.
"I would never cheat on you" he winked, kissing my cheek. "But seriously, what are you girls up to? You're hiding something, and you're all smiling, trying not to giggle" Monty commented.
"You will find out tonight during the game" I told him.
"Ooh. Is it body paint, and you have written something on your tits?" Justin asked "Seen it in a movie, can't remember what though"
"Maybe a porno?" Jessica commented.
Justin rolled his eyes at her. "Hilarious, and no…I don't think so. I'll have to do some research" he told himself the last bit.
"And to answer your dirty mind Justin. No. Doesn't involve body paint on our boobs" I told them "You will find out tonight" Soon the bell rang throughout the school halls. "What's our first lesson?" I asked them.
"Mathematics" Bryce perked up. Something tells me, Bryce was a nerd for maths. Standing up from the sofa in home room, Monty took my hand in his, leading me out of the room and towards the classroom for maths. Entering the class, the teacher wasn't there yet. Of course, the boys 'reserved' the back chairs for them and us girls, but we wouldn't complain. Some of us actually did our work, and some tended to just play, meaning Justin and Monty. They got distracted easily.
Sitting down in my chair, beside Chloe and Jessica, away from Monty so he wouldn't distract me, or himself. I used to sit next to him, but after his wandering hands and small notes containing words not for young children, I moved. And though de la Cruz was a little sad from it, he knew what graduating meant to me. Plus, he would work more often and get less distracted.
Opening my fancy back pack, I pulled out my maths books, one which I could write in, the other which contained tips, lessons and questions, and my pencil case. I leaned back in my chair, listening to everyone talk, the boys discussing about the game, or the single boys such as Jeff and Scott discussing girls they wouldn't mind hooking up with. But they were too much of a gentleman to actually do that. Soon the teacher walked in, her long brown hair into a short bob, holding the essentials she nodded.
"Right class, I know it's an exciting day today" she said motioning to the boys in the back, meaning the game. "But we need to focus, and I would like to make Friday less stressful for me" she added "And we are also welcoming a student back to Liberty High, so make him have a warm welcome when he arrives" she said, grabbing some white board pens and writing starter questions, containing fractions, percentages, and algebra. I ignored most of what she said, until she mentioned the new student. I suddenly perked up in worry. But of course, Jessica and Chloe were more concerned on what they were wearing tonight, and the boys talking about boy stuff. I had to distract myself. My heart was racing against my rib cage. Opening my writing math book, I grabbed my pencil and started writing down the questions, then trying to figure out what the answers were. But I was too distracted.
There was a knock on the classroom door, the head master standing in the door way. "Got the student for you Miss Turner" He said, moving out of the door way, before he walked in.
Dean. He was here. I had to blink several times to make sure I wasn't seeing things, but the blinks were creating tears. Everything stopped in my body. My heart stopped beating, my lungs stopped breathing, my body just froze. And panic started rising.
Not now!
I couldn't take my eyes off him, I wanted to draw my eyes away, but I just couldn't. Miss Turner provided him with a new writing book and revision book, before she pointed to an empty chair beside Abby, and in front of Chloe. Too close. He was going to be too close.
I felt a finger tapping my skin, but my eyes and head couldn't look away. Before I saw Chloe's face in front of mine.
"Lexi…talk to me…are you having an attack?" she asked concern showing in her face. I just couldn't move. I was frozen, but the tears started trickling down my face. "Monty" She whispered, motioning her head towards me. I didn't need to look, but I felt Monty's eyes on mine. As Monty got up to walk over to me. The boys all had their eyes on Dean, not letting him get a welcome wagon. Jessica looked at me. But nothing was going to make it better. Not even Monty or Chloe. As Monty walked over to me, Dean turned his eyes, our eyes locked, the panic rising in my body. Walking towards his chair, he couldn't help but smirk at me, before winking.
I shot up from my chair, knocking my chair back onto the ground. As much as I tried to control it, my panic attack was taking over me. I couldn't breathe, I just couldn't do anything. I needed air.
"Lexi? Everything okay?" Miss Turner asked frowning. I looked up at her, I couldn't speak. I lost all of my senses. People stared at me. Chloe and Monty stood in front of me, but I could feel Dean, Abby, Beth and Zoe's eyes on me. All smirking, enjoying the show.
Truthfully, the mean girls didn't know what happened between Dean and I. The real reason. He told them I turned him on, lead him on, then cried rape.
"Baby, breath" Monty whispered. But I couldn't. I couldn't breath this air. I quickly left the classroom.
"Miss Cabello!" Miss Turner shouted out to me. But I ignored her, I just kept running, before I burst through the doors, feeling the air hit me. But nothing was working. Looking around, I spotted a large tree and a bench beside it. Walking over to it, I leaned over onto the bench, my hands, arms and head on the bench table, my legs standing on the ground.
"B-breath" I told myself, slowly gaining my breath, in and out. Just like the therapist told me. Slow breathes, in through the nose, out through the mouth. I heard the doors burst open, and feet running towards me. A hand touched my shoulder, and I quickly flinched up, seeing Monty, Bryce, Justin, Jessica and Chloe, standing there. Seeing them standing there, just broke me. I suddenly broke. I let out a scream, just wanting to let it all out.
"AHH!" I managed to gain a big amount of air allowing me to breath, before he tears flowing down my face, my mascara smudging. Monty placed his hands on my shoulder, but I fought against his chest, but he wasn't letting go.
"Baby! It's me, it's okay, I'm here, we are all here, let it out!" he said managing to keep me in his hold, before I felt myself collapse to the floor, Monty followed by body language, gently dragging me towards the tree, sitting with me, holding me in his arms. "Ssh, just let it all out" he whispered.
The therapist had always said to me, let it all out. Scream out, cry out, get it out of your system. But I never did. Until now. Dean was back. And now I had to deal with that. I had my breakdown, which was sometimes good, because I've let it all out. I felt a little better now I had released my emotions, but still knowing Dean was somewhat back in my life, it made me nervous. I wasn't going to let him ruin my last year of school!
"We are here baby, all of us" Monty whispered, as I closed my eyes trying to calm down the horrible crying I was doing.
"Jesus, Lexi you know how to make someone else cry" Chloe spoke, as I opened my eyes, seeing both Jessica and Chloe wiping their eyes. And that couldn't stop me from laughing a little.