NUKA

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" Well? Did she become deaf within the last few seconds? I waited patiently for her to answer. I mean she has to have a good explanation for her attitude towards me. I would love to know why she just ruined my good day. "Hello? Nala I'm talking to you?"

" I know..." she knows...she knows...great, we're going to have that kind of day today. Yet she wonders why I lose my shit on her so much when it's her that is causing it!

"You know, you really make my blood pressure boil..." she still wasn't looking at me. What does she think she'll be able to win this battle if she doesn't look me in the eye. "look at me Nala." she hesitated. Playing with her paws, looking at them- or anywhere else instead of me. That's fine. I seized her jaw and made her look at me.

"Ow!" don't ow me, you had every chance to avoid this. Nala placed her paw over mine, to try to ease the pressure off her cheekbone. why do that? I love the way it feels when is being smushed under my paws.

"Dammit, why do you have to ruin everything Nala. That shit you tried to pull in front of whoever that lioness was. was uncalled for."

"I...i didn't do anything... I was just helping."

"Bullshit."

"Let me go- you're hurting me..." ugh! I jerked her face away from mine. I turned from her, I just needed some air, some time to clear my mad thoughts. I promise you I try to always do that right thing, by me... goddammit! why can't everyone just act the way I want them too. Everyone's life would be better off. from the corner of my eye i watched her correct the alignment of her jaw.

"I...i didn't mean to do that. You know how I get."

"I know..."

"I was telling you the truth when I said I had good news to tell you." I tried to rectify the situation. I don't want to lose her, Nala knows she means the world to me. I need her.

"What good news?" her voice was dry, and when she did look at me, her expression was just as tried. She looked tired. The only news that I know of today is that someone just died. the king just died."

"Yea, that was my good news." I didn't want to be obvious, but that's the only obvious answer... what other good news could come around this place?

"So the death of a beloved king turns you on? If we're being blunt that's why are you really here- ARGH!" BAM. I tried my best dammit, I really did, and I hope you all know that. So no one should feel sorry when my paw connected with the side of her face. Sending her stumbling to the ground. Trickles of blood droplets collected slowly behind the area of her face.

"Actually yes, the news of that old fart dying was the brightest part of my day- since we've been here. But that feeling of joy, won't be as half as pleasurable then me being able to hear the sounds I'm about to have you make. That my love, that will be music to my ears." She spit the blood from, the corner of her mouth. " You know I love you right. I truly do. I want you to love me the freaking way I love you. I mean, we were each other's first Nala. That's something special. something we will always share."

"Share?... Nuka you raped me." There was venom in her voice. A destain almost, as I looked into her eyes as they narrowed on me." there was nothing beautiful about our union. You have to be sick in the head to think what we have is love-" BAM. the cracking sound of bone hitting bone echoed into the air.

"Shut up! damn, there you go again, I know it's because of this newfound freedom that you have. See I thought giving you some space would be good for us, but clearly I was wrong." I bet this whole shift with her is because of her mother. That bitch likely planted little seeds in her head to turn her against me." You like being like this don't you, you must. Because you do things that cause me to act the way I am." I circled around Nala, as she covered the side of her face that was stuck by my paw again. " You know...i get it, you know you have power over me. You know you can make me act out of character." I continued to circle her. "Say something!"

"i... I have nothing to say."

"please, sure you do. It wouldn't be you if you weren't trying to find a way to freaking screw me the hell over!"

"... I just want to check on Limpo."

"Fuck her! so what she's crying she'll get over it. She probably didn't even know the lion. kings, get a brain Nala." she stumbled to her feet.

"Get back down I'm not done talking to you!" I stepped towards her, shoving her back towards the ground. I love her, I do! I love her. She gives me this feeling that's indescribable when I'm around her. I could tell she was trying to play the tough card. She hasn't played that in a long time actually. not really since our first fright. I missed that. I seized the back of her neck, her fur her scent...it flooded into my nasal cavity. Arousing me. I'm frustrated there was no doubt about it.

I have to deal with a lot on my plate. the stress of it, it overbearing. Having this dream, this plan that no one believes in. I know with talking to my other, she won't be on board for long. It just a matter of time before she gets in the way. and I'll have no choice but to deal with her. still...I need someone on my side, even if I have to force it. The top is a lonely place for any ruler.

I dragged her around the corner. As she resisted, I knew she didn't love me. She gave up resisting months ago, but there it is again hearing it's ugly head at me. She doesn't want me. I'm not dumb, I know this. But would it hurt anyone-even me, to want that? Nala would never look my way when we're younger. I had to make her notice me. I know I'm a monster and I have crossed lines I can never repair.

Knowing that I continued to walk down that path. As I drove myself into her, I found myself driving more into desperation. This feeling, I know I will never get rid of. this desperation, what really is it? I can only mask it. Life is easier with a mask on. I can lose, hurt, curse and kill anyone with this mask on, and not feel a damn thing. This is an unknown superpower.

I'm a superhero in my own story. Against the odds of having no love, no hope, no meaning in life-but what others told me. I still got everything I wanted. My release gave me clarity. Euphoria an enlightenment came to me all at once. This foolish desperation that I feel- I felt, is weakness. I fed into insecurities. releasing the power and control I have onto others was a reminder for me.

I strayed a little from my path...actually considering what my mother had said to me. Fuck everyone. No one is here for me, but me. I dismounted myself, I heard Nala collapse to the ground. Walking away from her, my dream I envision started to form as clear as day in my head. It was beautiful. It was perfect. and this lion standing strong over the whole of Africa, on this throne was me. Fuck everyone else.

KawaiiCutie12- yea he is, actually I would want Nuka to have his own movie. I think he's really interesting. But yea, where's the back up when you need it.