VITANI
We had finally returned home. And the first thing I see is my son acting a fool on the platform. He was bouncing around looking like a fool, a damn adorable one that that. But what was he doing, and who was he talking to? When Roho had noticed the hunting party, he turned his attention our way and started racing towards us.
"Hey you're back, finally I'm starving!" he hushed forward and nuzzled me. "What we eating!"
"Ha, hold on you'll see. What are you doing out here little one?"
"Getting on my nerves." I looked up to see my sister, Shia coming. For some reason at that very moment, she reminded me a lot of younger me. Again I haven't been seeing her much and to say I sometimes forgets shes here is...a lot. I know that sounds terrible. Shia is good at playing invisible. She greeted me with a smile on her face, and that made me want to get to know her more."No, I'm just kidding, I was babysitting my little nephew, My queen." she bowed, I tell everyone they don't have to do that. Now I think she does it to make me mad.
"Shia thank you, you didn't have to."
"No problem, just doing whats ask of me as an Auntie. Besides he wasn't too terrible."
"Well thank you again, I hope he acted right..." should it be this awkward exchanging words with someone's who suppose to be family? I heard paws walking up from behind me, I turned to see my mother coming... this has to be an ambush coming. " I better go Shia thanks again-"
"Wait Vitani, if you don't mind I can watch him more for you if you need me. it's just as nice as it is here, there's not much to do for me."
"Why that sounds like a wonderful idea Shia, don't you think Vitani? It can be good for both of them, and I'd love to see my girls together again." again here she goes with this build back our family rhetoric, when there wasn't a family, to begin with.
"We've had this discussion this morning already Zira."
"Haha, calling mom by her first name, bold one sis..." as much as I would like to share a laugh with her, whenever I see my mother I'm not in the mood. " I can sense when I'm not wanted, I'll go. See you around Come on Roho you can come with me."
"yea-"
"Wait, Roho, where's your dad?"
"Oh he went for a walk, he said he'd be back."
"Oh, when was that-" by the time I got around the asking that question he was already done. " nevermind." Shanti could be seen coming forwards.
"Is everything good my queen, everyone's waiting." that's right, everyone is waiting for us...why does everything feel so weird right now? "Is the king ready?"
"he's not here right now, he went for a walk. I'm sure he'll be back soon, but everyone can go and eat. I'll wait for him."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes." right, that problem handled. however, I still had another one that was still staring right at me. "...ugh really you're still here? I thought if I blinked three times you'd go away. ha you know, like a bad dream."
"Vitani I'm serious, why don't you believe me. why don't you think I want things to change for the better...for us."
"Because I'm just as serious as you are...and what are you going to do now? Follow me around like some sad cub that lost its mom?"
"Well if begging you is going to change your mind then yes. Vitani I don't know what I have to do, but I promise you I'll do it. I'm tired of things being the way they are." this lioness is really going to follow me everywhere, even into my own den. What is she insane? What the hell did I do to deserve this torture? " and did you ever think to ask why I was the way I was with you two?"
"Evil is as evil does..." I went to go sit down, trying to sleep off this headache might be good for me. By then my mate should have returned and we can finally talk. " Dammit, what do you want, seriously you're starting to piss me off."
"and what are you going to do, hit your own mother?"
"Please...do not tempt me."
"I never thought a daughter could hat her mother so much."
"Please for me to actually have hate for you, would require me to actually love you!" it took me a moment to actually register what I had just said, shit. I'm not hateful I just...
"Well...if that's how you really feel then fine. I won't ask you ever again. I knew I wasn't the best mother...but I at least thought I had the right intentions. But foolish of me right, a lioness who's never known love could never get it right." I watched her turn to leave, and even I'm not that heartless to not know the sound of hurt in someone else voices. Look I'm not evil I know my mother can feel pain just as anyone else. I've just been telling myself she isn't capable of that. because I do want to hate her.
"Mom wait...look...i...im sorry I was wrong for what I said."
"You only said what you felt...hell, you might have been feeling that way about me for a long time right?" there was an awkward pause between us. Dammit, don't tell me my mother and I are finally going to have that mother-daughter coming together moment, Like Nala and her mother. kings... this was truly the last thing I thought would happen to me.
" You were a terrible mother towards me, and Nuka. You and dad pend us against each other! You both brainwashed us...tried turning us into monster...kings look at Nuka!"
"I know-"
"No! no, you don't know, you don't know what it was liking growing up like that, being bullied by your own parents. but you do everything she tells you because all you want is nothing more but your mother's love!... b-but she was too busy giving that away to everyone else. Did you know I use to think something was wrong with me, because I knew you didn't love me as much as Nuka. I thought I did something wrong! I thought I wasn't supposed to be here! It took me forever to love myself! to be loved! Why did you do that to me...why didn't you love me?"
"I...I did love you, I loved in the only way I knew how to Vitani. I-I made you strong...and independent-"
"No, you made me jealous, and insecure!" damn the last thing I need is for this is be a screaming battle, but I feel that's what it's going to turn into. " and newsflash mother, you and dad prepared me for absolutely nothing!"
"Vitani you don't need help from anyone. You weren't like me, having to depend on everyone just to survive. Using others just so you can get a paw up in the world. I didn't want you to be anything like me... please you think I wanted to stay with someone like your father? No! but he was the only chance I had to leave my pride, my mother, and start fresh. trust me, before your father became obsessed with taking the throne, he was actually a nice lion to be around. He promised me everything I couldn't haven and said he would even give that to our family. That was all I ever wanted too!"
"...I'm sure." dammit, I could feel the water pressure building behind my eyes.
"I'm sorry if I'm upsetting you, please don't cry."
"Trust me, I'm not crying because I'm upset...I'm pissed off. there's a difference."
"I use to think that too, now I know all tears are just the same." she sat next to me, and I didn't fight her. I just needed to tell her all the hurt she made me feel, I could care less what she does with that information now. "you're already a far better mother than I was."
"Well, I tried to be everything you weren't for me...I'm sorry if that sounds hurtful."
" No, it actually makes me feel good. At least you learned to be different... I didn't. I just turned out to be the lioness I hated the most too. my mother."
"Mom?" I looked up to see Roho coming into the den. I quickly wiped the tears from my eyes. "Mommy, why are you crying?"
"I'm not baby. I just have something in my eye."
"oh yeah, then why did I hear you shouting?" I can't get anything passed him, can I?
"Is everything okay?" I looked to see Nala and almost the rest of the pride in the entrance of the den. They all had a concerned look on their faces, especially Nala. I got up, I had to straighten things out.
"I'm sorry, everything fine, please go back to what you were doing."
"Are you sure my queen?"
"Yes, I'm sure, I'll be down with you all soon." I could see the suspicion ion some of the lioness's faces, my lionesses for that matter. I assured them everything would be okay, so they followed my words and left. sometimes it's crazy to be of how much power my words do have on others. it's scary to think about sometimes...what if I abuse that power, their trust?
"Mom are you going to sit next to me?!"
" Of course baby."
"and Babu Zira too?"...grandma. can I really keep that cloud over her head? over my own head? I might be doing more harm than good on both ends of this relationship. she might has been a terrible mother to me, but a great grandmother to my son. She made me the mother I am. I have to credit her for that.
"...yes Roho, she'll be right there too. Nala, could you take Roho for me?"
"Of course, c'mon little lion."
"Little? one day I'm going to be huge, I'll be bigger than you Auntie Nala!"
"I know, but you have a while before that happens..." my mother and I still stood behind for a while.
"...Vitani, you don't have to do what you just did for me."
"I'm not going it for you, I'm doing it for my son. He, unfortunately, has a big loving heart... and it scares the hell out of me that one-day someone is going to break it."
"Your only job is to be there for him for when it does."
"... I know. But I warning you, you try funny business, anything that could hurt my family or my baby. I'll handle you personally, myself. and that's a promise. You see him on my terms, and when I'm around understood?"
"Completely. Thank you"
" Don't thank me just yet."
Okay, so what do you think, Vitani's going to risk it and let her mother back into her life, her son's life. Do you think she'll come to regret it?
KawaiiCutie12, don't worry, you aren't the only one lol.
RyanSquad, lol isn't he a real pain in the ass.
Shiranai Atsune, yes, and here's another one hope you enjoy!