SIMBA

Ugh, how did I get myself into this? The last thing I want to do is talk to Kenya about me. That last I need is for her to know the truth and change the way she looks at me. I can already barely look at my reflection in the river.

"Hey, Babe, you all good?" I looked up to see Kenya walking into our den. she and her sisters had just returned from hunting. I wasn't in much of a mood to eat.

"Me? yup, fine." Ignoring the nervousness tension in my stomach is fine. Fuck, why is this such a big deal to me? it's nothing. Kenya loves me for me, and that's not going to change due to something I say.

"You seemed a little picky at dinner today," she noted laying down next to me.

"Not too hungry right now, I guess."

"Alright."

"Did I miss a good meal?"

"No, I saved you some of course, but now everyone thinks you're sick or something because you didn't show up."

"That sounds like your father right there."

"hah, yea it was. I told him everything was fine." must have been sweating like a waterfall because Kenya was eyeing me like something was wrong. "babe, im not going to ask if you're okay...I'll ask if you want to talk about it?"

"Truthfully no, but I think I need to. You seem convinced of that."

"I feel that way because talking to others help, Also this will be good for us Simba." she again had to reassure me that everything would be fine. and yet I still feel like this situation is out of my paws. Because once I tell her she'll have the power to make her own decision about me. and I can't control that.

"What makes you think that? what if this changes everything" I asked. and as selfish as this may sound, I need to protect myself too. I know what it was like being in that dark place for some time. I'll be damned if I have to go there again... and alone. Not if I have anything to do about it.

We have the power to forget things for a reason.

"Really, how? are you some rouge male on the run for murdering a king?" damn near if you think about it. Knowing that would make any lioness turn away.

"...No."

"Then I don't think you have to worry about anything thing."

"It's just... I love you so much I don't want to mess up anything we have or have you leave me."

"Simba, you know I'd never do that to you, right?" sure, id love to tell myself that. " But what is with you? why don't you fell you can tell me. it makes me feel a sort of way like you can't trust me or something ."

"I can trust you- I do trust you. Talking about my pasts... I don't like it."

"If it's bothering you we don't have to talk about it, honestly." Dammit, no- don't change my mind and make me feel like shit about it.

"No-no, we will, we are. So what do you want to know." lion up Simba, damn, its not that much of a big deal. This will help our relationship, after all, don't you want to keep that?

"Um, what do you want to tell me?"

" If you don't ask I can't say I'll be specific."

"Fine, tell me about your dad. How he died, were you two close?"

"He died when I was young," I told her, I watched the expression on her face change. she probably thought he passed, when I was older and we had time together to form a relationship.

"Oh, do you remember much about him?" she asked.

"Honestly no, not too much. The few things I remember I don't know if they are true."

"What do you mean?"

"Nothing, just family small talk."

"It must have been hard for you and our mother." mom. why did I have a mixture of sadness and bitterness in my thoughts when she came to mind. I still to this day can not understand why she and the other lionesses foolishly threw themselves into harm's way. why...risk that. yes, life was hard, but shit it still could have been worse. she didn't have to stoop to the levels she did for change. but I guess it's not for me to understand. As Nala said, I don't belong there.

So I'm not going to waste my time anymore trying to understand the lions that did have to stay there. Just the thought pissing me off anyway, and to think my mother and Uncle?!

Dammit...why did I want to do this...

"Yea, it was. but I didn't stay with her much either." my voice felt dry.

"No, why?"

" My uncle raised me mostly. It was a lot- it was too much for my mother to handle so I stayed with him and my cousins. It was better that way. my mother changed a lot after my dad's death. ha, the last memory I have of my mom wasn't a good one, shes betrayed my dad, me, it wasn't good..."

"I'm sorry."

"No don't be, I was closer to him than I was my father anyway. Although my uncle, he had his problems...it's whatever"

"No, you can tell me."

" you know what, I'd rather not Kenya. It's no point and will solve nothing. I'm wasting my time just talking about this now. I mean the lions not going to come back from the dead, and changed what has already happened."

"Simba..." I could tell she was a little taken aback by " that's a little... I don't know, rude."

"What, I'm only saying what's true." let me clam myself, I don't need to get all worked up over nothing. I need to start working on some emotional control."I left my pride because I was no longer welcomed there, I was personally told that by my mother and so-called best friend. and that the end of that. there's nothing special to me or about me."

"...okay. i'm sorry, I made you bring it all up. remind me not to do it again. i just thought us talking would help you-"

"Look, im not mad at you, or anything. Im fine, I feel better, great even. I needed to get that off my chest. I have no good memories of my pride so that why I don't talk about them. and yes, I occasionally have a nightmare about them, because the Great kings of the pasts like to think my life is a damn, joke."

" The who of the what?" right she has no idea what the hell I'm talking about.

"It something we use to say back at my pride. it's stupid really." no I do feel better now, I got to get some things off my chest and Kenya got her answers. Whether she liked the way the conversation went down I don't know. it comes with the territory. " you said you saved dinner for me? I worked up an appetite."

* I mean Simba did tell Kenya something right...

KawaiiCutie12, lol, im glad I can keep the story entertaining for you! Trust me, Vitani won't be the only one finding out about Zira's death either.

RyanSquad, same here!

Guest, you're right on that point. I can promise no one will die, feelings will die and be tested, but no one else is dying...for now. I can promise that. Also, our beloved characters will heal, in their way and time. That's all I can say for now. but they will have closure.