NALA

Kings, what the fuck have I done? Cause a big mess, as usual. I feel terrible, I don't even know how to face Simba and apologize right now. Just thinking about how we spoke to each other makes me sick to my stomach. I was way out of line. so was he... I just came about it all wrong. I let my hurt feelings get in the way of everything, and now I might have possibly ruined everything!

I went back to sit by the river to be alone. I was hoping maybe hearing the running water would help clear my head. Looking at my reflection I could barely recognize myself. I looked terrible, tired, and stressed. The hallows in my cheekbones has gotten bigger. I don't feel comfortable being here anymore. I haven't done out to eat in two days- not that I'd be welcomed anyway.

looking at the pool of water below it, I wondered how deep it was. I wondered what would happen if I just jumped in... the water looked deep enough, no one would even know if I took a little dip. Fuck my life sucks...

My ears were filled with the roaring of my empty stomach. I ignored it as I did any other times. Even when I think about food, at the end of the day I let can't get myself to eat. My stomach won't hold it, I know it's because of the stress im putting myself under to get better faster and to leave.

"I swear if it's not one thing it's another..." A chill ran down my spine, the same one I use to get whenever Nuka touched me. I thought I only felt that way with him touching me, but I guess not. Simba's not as near as malicious as Nuka... and he still terrified me. Hmm, maybe if he scares me I'm wrong about him, as far as im concerned he could be just like Nuka. I don't know him anymore. The yelling and the way he looked at me...he has to hate me.

This feeling... this guilt I have, surpasses all the nights I had with Nuka. Kings, is this what feeling like dirt is like? I had already become accustomed to feeling weak and useless, now I have to add hated to the lists. See Simba just filled me with so much hope, and then he just crushed it... I don't think I can take much more of this. Not to mention my. mind being caught going on a tangent of worrying about my family and Vitani. Once my mind had landed on that there was no going back. My mentally stated overthinking and fried.

How in the world am I going to go back and help Vitani? I wonder is she okay? is my mother okay?..are they even still alive? maybe I should have stayed in the territory with Roho instead of wandering in the middle of nowhere? How can I help her when I can't even help myself? When will one of those damn hyenas come and find us? What is Nuka planning, what is he doing right now-

"Nala? Nala?" body seized up at the calling of my name. What could he want? I thought he was done with me. I could get myself to move, as I heard his steps getting closer and closed. Each thud on the ground sent a tremor through my heart. "Hey Nala were are you, we need to talk!" dammit, something told me I should have picked a different place a sit and sulk in my sorrows. Simba finally stopped calling my name when he saw me sitting there, like a sitting duck. "Hey, we need to go."

"Go? go where?" he got right to the point, his bluntness was expected but still harsh. It made me uncomfortable. So I made it an effort to not look him in the eyes. I quickly remembered how looking at the ground had become my best friend. The ground didn't curse at me, the ground didn't hurt me, the ground didn't make me feel scared.

"Go and find Kenya and explain to her everything, so I can get out of the damn doghouse you put me in."

"...i...I told her it was a misunderstanding standing-"

"Clearly you didn't do it good enough. Look she's the one good thing in my life right now since leaving pride rock. I'm not going to let you or anyone ruin this for me."

"... I'm sorry-"

"Whatever, she'll be back any minute now, we need to get going." I heard him say go, I saw him turn around to leave, but I could get myself to move. My tail and legs felt stuck to the ground beneath me las if I had stepped in a pile of Africanized bee honey. I wasn't moving. shit, I knew this would be a problem and the last thing I wanted as an altercation, but my body wasn't listening to me! shit whenever I get scared i...fuck!

I saw Simba turn and look over his shoulder, annoyance with me all over his face. Great...he turned back around and started walking towards me again. "...Don't." I warned

"Then come on!" fuck him! Nala, you just need to clam down. You'd think I'd be getting better at this by now, but NO everything traumatic always sets me 10 steps back! if just control my breathing-which I could feel starting to pitch higher in my throat- just get my breathing my check and everything else will follow- "I don't have time to be playing your stupid game Nala."

"I'm not playing..."

"Then come on-"

"Will you stop yelling at me Simba!"

"I would if you started MOVING!" kings how quickly did I forget how much of an asshole he can be.

"I AM!" even if I yelled that to the mountain top, it still didn't change anything. I had no strength in my body to move myself from point A to point B. Anything I did have I had to use as will power to relax my breathing. it was becoming harder and harder to do with each passing second. "i... I just..."

"Kings, you unbeliever, you're making this more than what it has to be!" Simba's voice began to sound like he was in a tunnel. "Hello, Nala are you even listening to me?!" He was standing right there, yet his words felt muffled once they reached my ears. As if he were standing 10 feet away from me. I could feel that same sickening feeling from before. "Kings you make me sick!" when I had to watch Sarabi be torn limb from limb. Making my head and body sway back and forth... The dizziness in my head started to feel airy. Numbness ticked at my paws. "Fine! I'm going without Nala...Nala?" my hyperventilating stopped as I felt my head swing back. The sound of splashing water filled my ears and a cold sensation ran over my body...

*WE HIT 100 CHAPTERS, THAT'S CRAZY. I wanted to be done by 100 chapters and we can see that won't be happening... my next fanfic will seem so short compared to this lol. Also blasting, He Lives in You in my ear at 2 in the morning. And these damn sticky keypads makes typing almost impossible taking it in to get fixed Wednesday so there might not be a chapter post.

+KawaiiCutie12 , I would have a agree with you on that, but let's see how smooth this relationship goes.

+ExGeneration35, you wouldn't be wrong, I've comments a few comments agreeing with you.